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Chap 5 – Explanation

EPOV

I twisted my body so that I landed on my feet.

I looked up at the window that was now shattered, pieces littering the ground around my feet, and saw her.

She was standing at the window her hand against the window sill staring down at me, her eyes still a deep gray color; an angry haze in their depths.

All at once she disappeared, practically evaporated from view.

I wanted so badly to go back into the house and tell her I was sorry, that I now saw what I had done to her.

Still I knew I had pushed her way to far already and making her angrier was not really going to help either of us. I turned and took off towards the house, towards my family, but away from the one thing I wanted most.

None of this was right. None of this was supposed to happen. It was all wrong. She was supposed to be happy, she was supposed to forget, and she was supposed to lead a normal life. Fall in love again, get married, have a family.

That's why I left, so she could have those things. The things that being with me she would never have gotten.

Apparently she didn't get any of it anyway. It was all my fault. I did what I though was best, not even considering what it would do to her; thoughts of this happening never came close to my mind.

As I entered the house all was quiet even my family's thoughts. It wasn't normal, especially with Emmett in the house.

I walked into the living room to see my family gathered on all the couches, each staring off into space.

After a minute it was Esme that broke out of her trance like state to look up at me.

She gasped, "Edward what happened?"

By now the whole family was 'awake'.

Emmett stood up, "I knew those dogs would turn on us."

I was confused for a moment but then looked over at myself in the mirror.

Now I could see what they were thinking happened.

My white button down shirt and blue jeans was ripped in various places from the glass.

I looked back to my family then down to the ground.

Their minds were reeling with questions and 'what if's'.

"It was my fault, and no it wasn't the dogs." I said still looking at the ground.

"Edward what else could make you look like someone rubbed catnip all over you and then stuck you in a room full of cats?" Emmett said trying not to laugh.

Pictures of me covered in catnip and hundreds of cats stacking me came into his mind. At that he laughed. Everyone just looked at him.

He stopped when he noticed that we were all staring at him.

"What?" he said looking at us. "What are all of you staring at? Geez and you say I act like a child." He pouted.

"Emmett, honey." Rose said smiling, her hand on his arm.

"Yes, Rosie."

"Shut up."

"Okay." He sighed.

"So anyway what happened to you? If it wasn't the dogs then who was it?"

I paused for a moment then answered, "It was…"

The door flew open and in the door way was Jacob. My family and I were shocked at the sudden intrusion.

"You were supposed to come and calm her down not aggravate her." He growled, shaking with ferocity.

"What are you talking about?" Jasper growled back.

"You were just there. Your sent is everywhere, along with the glass from the mirror and her window." His eyes were locked with mine, pure fury in their depths. "You did something didn't you? You did something to irritate her and she retaliated didn't she?"

My family just looked at me; waiting for an answer, their shock and confusion evident in their thoughts. Carlisle was the first to speak. "Edward, what is he talking about?"

I stayed silent, my head down.

It was true. Even without meaning it I had upset her. I had done the opposite of what I was brought here to do. It seems like nothing I do can keep her safe.

"Edward, sweetie what happened?" Esme said her hand slid under my chin and raised it so I was now looking into her concerned and confused eyes.

I looked around to the rest of my family and then back to Jacob.

"I went over to Bella's house, and tried getting back up the stairs."

I heard everyone gasp and I looked back to the floor before I continued. "I didn't understand why I couldn't get up them, I hated knowing that she was upset and in pain and I could do nothing to help. I just wanted to get up the stairs. I had no idea how upset she was with me, I didn't even think about what it would do to her if I left, I had no clue it would cause this much damage, I didn't think…"

"Edward! Slow down, relax." I heard Esme's voice break my rambling words.

I took a deep, unneeded, breath before beginning again. "I was able to get to the seventh step, like before. I didn't want to chance not being able to get the whole way up so I jumped the rest of the way. I was on the second level of the house finally, but not for long. I felt like I was hit by Emmett. I actually lost by balance and fell down the stairs. I landed on my feet at the bottom but I managed to hit 4 steps before I caught myself."

Emmett was laughing. 'Ha ha. Poor Eddie hell down the steps. Mr. Graceful finally falls. I'm going to hold this over his head forever now.'

Growled at his thoughts but he just kept laughing. Finally after a few minutes he stopped and I continued explaining.

"I should have stopped after I was almost stabbed.."

"You were almost what?" Jasper gasped.

"I saw the Effexor and Oxycontin she committed suicide with sitting on the table in the kitchen. I was going to grab them when the lights went out. When I turned the light back on the pills were spilt all over the table and it got cooler in the room. I put all the pills back into the containers and went to throw them away, but before I could the silverware drawer fell onto the floor and 2 knives flew out and landed at my feet." I heard laughing and stopped.

It was Jacob.

"So she tried the knife thing with you to huh?"

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"She's done that before with people who wouldn't take the hint. I'm guessing that when you got upstairs the bathroom mirror and window broke huh?"

"No." I said. "I got up the stairs and heard the mirror break. I went in and tried fixing it. I was almost done when the room suddenly got colder. I looked back into the mirror and.." Jacob cut me off.

"She was standing right behind you wasn't she? She let you see her. You know, that's usually were most people would have gotten hurt. I'm guessing she pushed you into the mirror?"

"Yeah. She was there. I had no idea that things were that bad. She looked dead but the worst part of it was that her eyes were a deep gray and cloudy as if there was nothing there. I had never seen such hate and sadness in a person's eyes before. I said her name and the mirror shattered, sending shards everywhere. The radio in her room went off and her lullaby was playing. I walked towards her door and opened it. She was sitting on her bed staring at the window, like she was expecting something. She looked so breakable, so fragile. I walked towards her to try to comfort her like I had done before. That when she grabbed my throat and pushed me through the window."

"She pushed you through the window? I've never heard of a ghost doing that." Carlisle said watching Jacob.

Jacob on the other hand was almost in tears trying to hid his laugh. He finally spoke. "And what did she say to you?"

"She said 'you did this. It's all your fault. You broke your promise, you left, I quit trying to stay here and I died. You did that to me, you're the reason I'm stuck here. It's all your fault.' I remember the pain and anger in her voice. After she said that she pushed me out of the window." I felt so horrible that I had caused this. I looked around at my families shocked faces. By their thoughts I could tell they were in a state of shock and unbelieving.

"Do you see now what you've caused?" Jake said. "You saw what she looked like right? Well her appearance hasn't changed since she died. What you saw was her after you left. She just sat there looking out her window waiting for you." He stated grabbing the door handle of the door as if to leave. "Celeste said that what's keeping her here is her sadness and anger. At first we thought that she didn't want to leave, but the fact is she can't. She's stuck, until she can finally come to grips with everything. I thought bringing you back might help but I can see it was probably not the best idea."

He stepped out of the house beginning to close the door. "You and your family are free to leave now." And then he was gone.

I screwed up. Because of what I did she's stuck here. I tried protecting her and caused more damage than I could even conceive of.

I didn't know how, but I had to fix it. I had to let her know why I left.

My angel was stuck and I had to help her with her death, even if that meant it lead to mine.

Well that was chapter 5!! sorry again about the wait!!! It was 5 pages long!! Well PLEASE REVIEW!! i keep getting all these fav stories but not reviews. I NEED REVIEWS!!