Chapter 5 – The Beginning

Sam walked into the decorated choir room that was bursting at the walls with Christmas spirit. The glee club was boasting about the success of the Christmas special. However, Brittany and Santana were talking quietly. Blaine had told him of the troubles and everything Santana had to go through. He had told Sam after sectionals, where he sat him down and apologized for the comment he made. Sam understood and was just happy to be in New Directions again. Besides, Blaine was a good guy and Sam did like him.

It was then when Sam told the first person. Sam came out to Blaine. He decided that going back to McKinley was the time to appreciate the second chances, beginning with apologizing to Mercedes for leading her on. Sam knew he was gay after catching a glimpse of Puck in the shower in New York. After discovering those feelings, he realized that the reason things never worked out with Santana or Quinn or Mercedes was because he was never really attracted to girls. He also figured it was Coach Beiste's masculinity that 'cooled him down.'

Over the summer where he left town and found his new job, Sam wasn't ready to face his feelings and used his family troubles as a distraction. Now that he was back at McKinley, the feelings came to the surface because there were no longer any more distractions. He decided to tell Blaine and not Kurt because he knew Kurt would be upset because Kurt had liked him in the past, and Sam wasn't ready to deal with the feelings Kurt may have face to face. No matter how much Kurt loved Blaine, he may still be upset Sam never reciprocated those feelings to him when Sam was gay all along.

Blaine was understood completely and the advice he gave was the same that Sam had given to Quinn, "Hold on to Sixteen." Blaine also added that it is never too late for second chances, and to start his new life honest. Blaine suggested only coming out to the New Directions and to leave it at that, and if anybody asked him to just be honest. Sam was glad that Blaine was happy to start fresh with him.

So that's what Sam planned to do. Come out now and starting the new year fresh.

Sam walked across the room, planning to sit down without commenting on the special. He didn't really have anything to say about it in the first place. Well, he did but it's wasn't worth ruining the Christmas spirit. Before he was halfway across the room he saw Rachel catch his eye and stand up, removing herself from the conversation she had been having with Quinn and Puck, to walk toward him. She reached him and pulled him to the side with teary eyes. She started speaking.

"Sam. I'm so sorry," Rachel began crying, "I don't know if you know but a few weeks ago, Finn and I were," Rachel lowered her voice to a whisper, "intimate. And my dads read my phone last night and saw our conversation. Now they're saying that it's not appropriate for you to stay with me anymore. They said you can stay with us for as long as you need to until you can find another place to live, but you have to leave. I'm so sorry Sam!" Sam hugged Rachel. He didn't know what he was going to do, and he knew Finn's wasn't an option because there was no room in the house. He felt a hand on his shoulder and realized that the whole class was quiet. He could feel the glares of all the eyes on his back and turned around to see Mr. Shuester looking at him.

"Guys, is everything okay?" Mr. Shue asked quietly.

"Can I say a few words to the class?" Sam asked, pulling away from Rachel.

Mr. Shue nodded and gestured to the front of the class. Rachel took her seat, wiping her eyes with pocket tissues.

"Um, Rachel just told me that, uh," the words were hard to get out because he didn't want to think about the possibility of having to leave again. "That for reasons that most of you all know... I can't stay at Rachel's anymore, and if I don't find a place soon I'll be forced to move back out of the state," Brittany raised her hand.

"Uh, Brittany?"

"Does Rachel's house have a fungus infection too?" Brittany asked, and Rory's eyes widened with concerned as he looked at her.

"No Brittany. I..." he was cut off.

"Dude!" Puck interrupted him, "Come stay with me! I've got a spare room and it would be sick living together! My mom always said she wanted another son! I mean you're not a Jew, but it will have to do!"

"Puck, are you sure?" Puck nodded, "I can't even-" Sam faltered.

"Save it dude. I know," Puck smiled.

"But I don't know how you'll feel with next part of what I'm going to say," The whole room suddenly seemed a whole lot quieter, "Over the summer, I started to realize I felt differently about...my sexuality..." he paused, avoiding eye contact with the room. "I'm gay. And I wanted to use this second chance to start new." The room didn't give the reaction that he expected, save for Kurt who waved his hand in the air and said "I called it first!"

But the rest of the room was dismissive. Santana had her arms in the air claiming she knew it all along. Blaine was smiling. Mercedes was a little surprised, but the rest of the students were very nonchalant. "Dude, why would that change a thing? We've had three people change sexuality and with you it's like five now," Puck said. "It doesn't matter," he finished, garnering a chorus of agreement from the rest of the glee club members. "Yeah man, you should know that it doesn't matter," said Puck.

"Oh! I was just afraid that," Sam started.

"Come here!" Puck said, leaping out of his chair and hugging Sam. The rest of the glee club followed.