Disclaimer: I Don't Own Naruto, nor the characters, cept my oc's.

Summary: 'Hear the words that i cannot say. See the pain that i can not show that i need your help, even if i don't say it.' Rated M for mature content, mentions of self harm, drug/alcohol usage rape and suicide. You have been warned. pairings, SasuKaka. Takes place before and after time skip, with flashbacks.

"sign language"

"normal"

'thoughts'

Chapter 4: Emotionless

Sasuke's Pov.

I yawned and stretched as I sat up in my bed. I turn to the window to see it's about midday the sun is up high. My eyebrows scrunch together as I get out of bed making my way downthe hall.

'it's too quiet in here..' I think peeking around the hallway. I nervously walk around the house my breathing picking up.

"mother? Itachi?" I call out, but to no avail. I walk till I stop infront of my fathers private study, a chill up my spine as a strange smell reaches my nose.

"Come in Sasu-chan ku ku ku" A raspy, voice calls out from behind the door, chuckles following afterwards.

'Father!' I think in my head, my anxiety growing. I warily push open the door, to see him sitting hunched forward his head in his hands, that strange smell is more prominent now that I've stepped inside the room. I look around to see bottles scattered around the room.

"h-hai f-f-father?" I ask avoiding eye contact.

"well…don't just stand there, come in, close the door behind you." His harsh voice says to me, loud and clear.

"f-father…where is mother and Itachi?" I ask in a small voice. At first it seems as if he doesn't hear me but then his head snaps up and his eyes narrow.

"there out…your-" He snarls before continuing. "-mother is away at the market, she had some last minute shopping to do, as well as a few other errands to attend to." He snorts and stands up going over to look outside the window.

"as for you dear older brother…He's on another mission." He tells me, looking at me from the corner of his eyes. He gestures for me to walk forward.

"h-how long will he be gone this time?" I ask almost regretting doing so as he clenches his fists.

"that is none of your concern!" he snaps at me, his words sounding slurred the more worked up he gets.

"gomenasai!" I say bowing low. He chuckles before turning to face me fully.

"yes…well now it's just you and me boy." He says smirking. I nod, swallowing the lump that's formed in my throat.

"I suppose so father.." I say, growing stiff as he grabs my chin forcing me to meet his eyes.

"you don't sound to happy about that little Sasu. You should be happy to spend time with your own father boy!" he yells, slapping me away from him. My eyes widen at the sudden actions and the lingering sting to my face.

"i-I am h-ha-happy father! I swear it!" I say bowing low once more. He sneers and and smacks me once more, this time sending me to the floor. I try to lift myself up on wobbly limbs, but then I feel a weight on my back keeping me down. I raise my head up to look at him.

"I'm sick and tired of your lies, I know you hate me don't think I don't hear you and your bitch of a mother talking behind my back. Hmm.." he pauses with a thoughtful look rubbing his chin. He turns his gaze back to me, and growls low in his throat.

"matter a fact, im sick of YOU. You and your damn DISABILITY!" He says lowly, I strain my ears to hear what he says. He finally lets up and backs away a few steps.

"get up…" he says in a commanding tone. I feel my anger overcome my fear and my face turns red in rage.

"No…" I say in a clear, defying tone. His eyes widen in a fit of rage and he reaches up to grab me by my collar.

"I said get up!" he growls into my ears. Fear runs up my spine, but I still feel defiant and I sneer back at him.

"no! I won't!" I yell at him, trying desperately to keep my voice from wavering.

"oh so you think you're a man huh boy?" he shoves me away from him and strengthens up his face going blank. "I think it's about time I show you just what a real man is." He says, not meeting my eyes. I scrunch my brows in confusion at the implications.

"strip down.." he says, finally meeting my eyes. I try to search his eyes for some kind of emotion but I don't see anything, just blank nothingness…emotionless.

R&R! This is the high point of the story leading into what's going to happen in the next chapter, I'm warning you now that if you can't handle the content of this story to not go on to the next chapter or skip ahead to the chapter after it.