Title: Dear Danno, Letter 1

Author notes: big thanks to my beta Jerseybelle.

Song by Rascal Flatts

"I can almost hear your voice in the morning

Softly, whispering my name

Oh, I'm getting so good at playing make believe..."

Danny was alone once more, sitting with a bottle in his hands. Chin and Kono had left. He knew Steve´s death had been blow that they wouldn´t get back. The cousins were full of rage and they wanted no one except Danny. Their Ohana had been broken and they closed ranks.

The Kalakaua's and the Kelly´s had tried to get to them, only to be shot down. They now knew what Chin felt when they banished him, and Kono, well she was, as usual, with her cuz.

They had stayed with Danny for a while and now they were gone needing to be alone with their own pain and sorrow. Danny knew that they were dying inside; they just weren´t as strong without Steven.

Rachel had called and told him that he was an awful father because he didn´t try to call Grace; that she had given him their numbers, and some other bull Danny never heard because he snapped.

"Listen Rachel, I don´t fucking care what you have to say. I just lost my husband, Steve was killed. I didn´t call because I´m really trying not to die here and I'm not succeeding or caring at the moment.

I can´t talk to Gracie because I´m falling to pieces, Rachel, I´m not sure I´m gonna make it. I just miss him so much, that I can´t breathe...you understand why I can't call."

"Yes, Danny, I understand, I´ll explain to Grace. I´m sorry, Danny, and if it is a consolation I could tell that he loved you very much. I´m so sorry you never had the time."

"Yeah, sorry seems to be a constant word now in my life. I've got to go, Rachel, I've got a bottle waiting for me..."

He ended the call before she could say something.

He was not getting better, his Ohana wasn´t getting better, so the Governor closed Five-0 for the time being. He should have cared but didn´t. Neither him nor the cousins cared, they were broken and didn´t wanted witnesses.

He was sitting on Steve´s lanai with a bottle, the glass long forgotten, with the first letter in his hand. He looked at the writing on the envelope, assuring himself that it was his goof's handwriting. Danny´s tears were falling because he wanted the real flesh and bones Steve telling these things, not some letter, but it was all that he had.

"Yes everything is like, just like it use to be

And I'm getting so good at playing make believe

That I can almost talk to your memory

Oh I know, I been clinging (I been clinging to) to some old memories

Yeah but I don't care (I don't care)

Because they bring, bring you back to me..."

Dear Danno,

Hi, Danno, it's me your crazy ass SEAL of a partner. I´m writting you because, well, I´m not so sure but I think it's because now I have your memory with me.

I though that I would feel good coming back to active duty again. But you won because is not the same. I don´t like having to leave you and our Ohana alone, I miss your rants, Danno, and I miss Gracie calling me to tell me about her day –(Give her a kiss for me would you)-yeah, yeah I know you don´t need anyone telling you that you need to kiss your daugther but tell her this one is from me, and don´t forget to salute her like I do, "Commander Gracie may I present you with a kiss and a hug from Commander Uncle Steve."

Tell Kono I miss her, and don´t be mad at her; I like her style, it fits her.

At this Danny had to laugh, "of course you like her style is yours, you crazy goof"-

I don´t know how long I´ll be out but, Danno, believe that you´re always with me and when I come back home we need to talk; I have something to say to you, Danny.

Well, they´re calling me so I have to go, Think of me, Danno.

Steve

"And I love my memories

I can almost pretend our love ever ended

And that someday you'll be coming back to me

And Oh I'm getting so good, oh baby, at playing make believe

That I can almost talk to your memory

Oh I'm getting oh so good at playing make believe

That I can almost talk to your memory

To your memory..."

"Think of you, Steven? You´re all that I have in my mind. Why didn´t you tell me Steven? Why didn´t I tell you? We lost so much time and now I've got nothing more than pain and death wish."

He went back to drinking his heart out and watching the waves wishing they could bring Steve back, and knowing that everything is changed-.

"Oh I'm getting oh so good at playing make believe

That I can almost talk to your memory

To your memory..."