BPOV
I sighed as I hugged my brother tightly, running my hand up and down his back before kneeling back and sniffing as I wiped my eyes.
"I'll call you ok? Promise you won't get into any trouble but if you do, remember what I taught you about fighting." I said and Ricky nodded before hugging me one more time.
He boarded his plane with a stewardess and I stood up and watched until the plane had left before I turned and walked out of the airport.
I walked over to the car and climbed in beside Edward, sighing and looking out the window when he wouldn't even look at me.
"What's up?" Edward asked and I turned to see he was looking at me as he put his seatbelt on and started the car. I turned back to stare out the window and rolled my eyes.
"Doesn't matter. Let's just go back to the ranch." I sighed and put my seatbelt on, readying myself for the long drive back.
"Bella, tell me or I'm not driving out the airport." Edward threatened and I turned and glared at him.
"So I guess I'm hitchhiking?" I said and undid my seatbelt before going to open the door, finding he had locked it with the main controls.
"Bella, I'm not letting you out the car until you tell me what's wrong." Edward said and I sighed before putting my seatbelt back on and crossing my arms.
"Well either start driving or be prepared for a long wait because I am not telling you anything." I said and Edward growled before slamming his fist down onto the steering wheel, making me jump before he sighed and put the car in drive.
I flicked the radio on high and we spent the drive back listening to music before i got out the car and ran into the stables, sitting in Mystic's stall in the corner so that anyone who came looking wouldn't see me.
I pulled out my cellphone and dialled my home number, letting it sit in my phone for a bit before I pressed the call button.
Three rings went by before I heard my mother's voice as she answered the phone.
"Hello? This is Renee Swan." She said and I sniffed back tears that I didn't know had formed in my eyes.
"Mom? Hey, I just put Ricky on the plane, he'll be back soon." I whispered before sniffing again and wiping my eyes.
"Ok Bella. I'll let you go now." She said and I gasped. "Wait mom, please don't go. I want to talk to you." I whispered and I heard as she sharply breathed in.
"Ok, what do you want to talk about?" she asked and I wiped my eyes as I looked up at Mystic eating hay in front of me.
"I miss you mom. I really miss you and dad." I whispered and Mystic looked down at me and nodded his head before continuing to eat his hay.
"Oh Bella, we miss you too but you can't come home yet. We arranged for six months, Bella. Then you can come home after that." She sighed and I nodded to myself.
"I know. I really, really wish I hadn't put you and dad through hell. I miss you guys and wish I was back at home. I'm sorry and I promise that when I get back everything will be different." I cried and I brought my knees up to my chest and hugged them with one arm.
"Oh baby, this isn't like you. What's made you upset?" She asked and I looked up at the roof of the stables.
"I just miss you guys so much. I miss home and I miss playing my guitar to Ricky every night. I just wish I hadn't come. I've messed up everyone's life and I don't want to do that to the Cullen's when I leave." I said and Renee sighed.
"What have you done Bella? What could make them messed up when you leave?" Mom asked and I sniffed before wiping my eyes again.
"I've fallen for their son, Edward. He doesn't understand that I can't do that but everything is so messed up. First it was ok but then we kissed and he was so sweet to me and I really thought he was sweet but then he stopped talking to me and I don't know what to do." I cried and Mystic turned and nudged me lightly, eyeing me with his large eyes before turning back to his hay.
"Bella, Edward probably does understand, he's just worried. He knows what you were like at home and maybe that scares him slightly. Maybe he just isn't right for you, sweet heart." Mom whispered and I sniffed before wiping my face again.
"Mommy, I'm sorry. I miss you." I whispered as I watched Mystic munching on hay. "I miss you too baby." She said before I hung up and shoved my phone in my pocket.
Mystic looked at me before coming over and sitting down, putting his large head on my lap and letting me scratch his nose lightly as he watched me with his ears forward.
"What do I do Mystic? I'm going to mess everything up." I cried and wiped my eyes before Mystic lifted his head and his ears went back before he pushed himself up and he went to the door, snorted and whinnying before a hand pushed him back and Carlisle's head poked over the door.
"Hey Bella, we were wondering where you got to." Carlisle said and I sniffed before he opened the door and walked in, coming over and sitting beside me.
"What's up?" he asked and Mystic eyed him before turning and eating his hay so he could still watch us.
"I'm going to mess everything up, I just know it." I cried and Carlisle placed a hand on my knee and rubbed it lightly.
"What do you mean, Bella?" Carlisle asked and I sniffed before crossing my legs and sitting up properly.
"When I was six, I saw my teacher raping my best friend and I told the principal who fired my teacher. My best friend found out I told and the next thing I knew she wasn't speaking to me, like she had wanted to be raped. When I was nine my cousin beat me, making sure the bruises were where people wouldn't see them and he told me it was my fault my uncle had died. He said if I hadn't have been born then my uncle wouldn't have been rushing to my birthday party and that I messed everything up. Two years later, I saw my mother in bed with another man and I told my mother and father I had seen mom with another man. I was shouted at and screamed at, told I was a liar and that if I told lies whatever had happened would be my fault. They told me I would mess everything up. It's happened all my life and I know that if I do anything, it will come crashing down and be my fault, I would have messed it up and I don't want to do that anymore." I whispered and Carlisle put an arm around my shoulders and rubbed my back.
"Bella, will you tell me about your childhood?" Carlisle asked and I looked up at him before nodding.
"When I was little my parents didn't pay attention with me. I caught them with older people and they always denied all knowledge. Charlie was always drunk and if I wanted to eat most of the time I had to cook it myself. I don't think they got the whole parenting thing. One day it all suddenly changed. Dad stopped drinking, mom attempted cooking. It was like they were trying to be better parents for me." I sighed and looked up at the roof.
"And then eight months latter Ricky was there. Dad was always tired and got back into drinking for a while, mom slept nonstop and so I gave up my life to look after Ricky. Four years ago I started dating a guy called Corbin and he was into Alcohol and drugs. He taught me everything I know about drugs and after a while that was all I knew. I ditched school and started hanging out with Corbin more and more until we went to his house and we didn't leave for the last two months of our relationship. That relationship lasted three months but then I found I loved the highs that life gave me.
"When I turned 15 I left home and didn't go back for six months. No one knew where I was, they thought I had been kidnapped and I was all over the news but I didn't care because I spend most of my time at my boyfriends house before Charlie found me and he dragged me home, kicking and screaming all the way. I guess I've always been that unplanned, unwanted pain in my parent's but and I don't want that anymore." I sniffed and Carlisle nodded.
"Bella, what do you think about Edward?" Carlisle asked and I looked at him before blushing and looking away.
"I may really like him but that is a lost cause. I can't talk to him or anything because I like him. I can't stand it and he's been ignoring me and it really makes me want to go find a druggy and start all over again. I've tried so hard this month to not let people see that I'm hurting. I'm recovering but it still hurts." I sighed and Carlisle nodded.
"Maybe being here is good for you, maybe it isn't, I don't know but the one thing I do know is that Edward likes you, he just doesn't know how to bond with you." Carlisle said and patted my knee before getting up and helping me up.
"Esme made pancakes for lunch, do you want some?" Carlisle asked and I shook my head as I followed him out of the Stall.
"I think I'll just stay round here for a bit." I said and Carlisle nodded as I sat on the stool outside the tack room.
EPOV
I sighed as I dried my hands after finishing cleaning the dishes from lunch before looking out the french doors at the stables.
"Dad, How was Bella when you went down there?" I asked Carlisle as I walked into the dining room where he was finishing his tea.
"She was upset and she talked to me. She told me quite a lot about her childhood and about her life and loves." Carlisle said and I nodded as I put my hands in my back pockets.
"Did she…did Bella say anything about me?" I asked with my eyebrows furrowed and Carlisle smiled before leaning back in his chair.
"She might have. Come on, let's get down there and train up Little Storm. It's a good thing we can ride him now because he's up for sale at the next auction." Carlisle said and I nodded before we walked down to the stables.
I walked to Mystic's stall and looked in, frowning when I saw neither Mystic nor Bella were in there.
I walked out the back of the Stables and smirked as I saw Bella riding Mystic round our make-shift cross-country track. It was all flat land and was about as large as four paddocks, looping back on itself to come to an end.
I watched as she raced to the end, Mystic going as fast as he could and Bella sitting up on him like all jockey's sat on their prized horses.
When Bella came to a stop and I walked over and smiled at her as I took Mystic's reins.
"Hey, are you training for the big races now? That was amazing." I said and Bella looked down at me before pulling Mystic's reins from my hands and turning him around.
"I want to race. I just decided it feels so good up here so I'm going to do a few more laps before I stop." Bella said and I moved in front of Mystic and grabbed the reins before smiling.
"Wait for a few minutes. I'll suit up one of our good racers and come out, I'll race you." I said and Bella looked towards the Stables before sighing and nodding.
I turned and saw Carlisle had Misha, our best race horse who was getting sold soon. She was tacked and ready for Racing and I smiled at Carlisle before letting go of the reins and running over.
"Thanks Carlisle." I smiled before mounting Misha and trotting her over to Bella and Mystic.
"Three, five or nine laps?" I asked and Bella snorted before moving to where a start line was marked and grinning as Mystic tapped his hoof a few times.
"Nine." She said and I moved Misha to beside Mystic who snorted before Bella shouted 'go' and we shot form the starting point.
BPOV
I led all the way round the track and by the time we were ending out ninth lap, Mystic and I were about twenty metres ahead of Edward.
He really looked like he was pushing Misha to her limits and some and I grinned as Mystic snorted before pushing himself faster.
Halfway through our third lap, I had noticed that everyone had come out and they were watching us, Alice with a video camera in hand and cheering me on. Now as I crossed the Finish line everyone but Emmett cheered and I watched as Emmett pulled out his wallet and handed some money over to Jasper.
I rode over to where everyone was and I smirked before sitting back and patting Emmett's shoulder.
"Never bet against me, you will loose. Jasper, hand over my cut for winning." I said and Jasper laughed before passing $30 up to me before i pocketed it and turned around, giving Edward a little pout.
"Having fun, slow-poke?" I asked and Edward rode over and smirked at me before nudging me with his foot.
"Don't diss the teacher. I'm the reason you even know what a trot is, let alone know how to race." Edward said and I smiled before turning Mystic Back towards the track.
"I'm going to warm him down a bit." I said and loosened my stirrups before pushing Mystic into a fast trot and took him round towards the start of the track, riding along the outer fence.
"Bella, wait up." Edward called and I turned and looked at him before continuing as he caught up, slowing to a walk and staying a little ahead of him.
"You were brilliant out there, Bella." Edward said and I blushed before looking away as I felt a tear prick in my eye.
"Yea, I suppose so. I love it with the wind burning my face and Mystic moving beneath me. It was like I had been born to be here." I sighed before wiping my eyes and looking back at Edward.
"I agree, you were born to be here…with me." Edward said and I looked over at him as I pulled Mystic to a halt.
"What? You cocky bastard! You lead me on and make me believe that you like me, then you stop talking to me and behave like you don't even notice me and now you're insinuating that I belong with you? Just piss off Edward, you're too confusing, I'm going to become…I don't know! A nun!" I shouted before turning Mystic around and pushing him into a slow Gallop.
When I reached the stables Esme was feeding the horses instead of Carlisle and I walked over to her and hugged her.
"Why do men have to be so confusing!" I growled before turning and walking into Mystic's stall, taking off his gear and getting a grooming kit.
Once Mystic was groomed I turned him out into the paddock where he snorted before lying down on his side and soaking up the vitamin D like he was a human.
I mucked out Mystic's stall and lay down fresh hay before filling his Hay net again, even though I had done it this morning and there was still lots of hay left in it.
"Stop what you are doing and come with us." I heard a voice behind me and I turned around to see Jasper and Emmett standing at the door to Mystic's stall with their arms crossed.
"I have to finish my work." I said and continued to pack up the mucking out things, ready to take to the next stall.
I gasped and screamed as I was lifted up unexpectedly and Emmett threw me over his shoulder before starting to walk, walking to the hayloft ladder before climbing up.
"Put me down, Emmett!" I gasped as I closed my eyes and gripped onto him as tight as I could.
"He will soon." Jasper said as he came up behind Emmett and sighed and kept my eyes closed till my feet were touching the ground again.
Emmett made me turn around so I was facing the open window in the hay loft and I looked out there to see Edward standing alone on the race track. He kicked at the fence before running a hand through his hair and kicking a stone away.
"Bella, you did this to him. We aren't letting you down from here until you find a way to fix it." Emmett said and I turned and glared at him and Jasper before sitting on a bale of hay and watching Edward.
"I did nothing; it's his fault for being such a confusing boy! All you guys are confusing! No wonder women don't go into comas from dealing with men." I grumbled the last bit to myself and Emmett laughed before pushing me to one side of the Hay bale and sitting beside me.
"Bella, we aren't confusing. It's you females that are the confusing species. Edward made you think he liked you because he does like you and then you went and get angry at him so he thought you didn't like him back and now you yell at him and tell him it's his fault. Do you get our point or shall Jasper break it down?" Emmett said and I groaned before putting my face him my hands.
"Let me get this straight. It's my fault Edward's…angry? But it's his fault I'm angry." I said and Jasper moaned before pointing out the window.
"He is trying to get you to like him! You are trying to figure out if he likes you! You're getting pissed of at each other because of it and now you both are in bad moods! You two are five year olds, no, five year olds behave better, you're donkeys!" Jasper said and I pouted.
"I'm not apologizing if that is what you are telling me to do and for your information, I am not an arse." I said and Jasper turned away and looked out the window.
"Bella, I'm not asking that. All I'm asking is that you and Edward go have an adult conversation, infact, Emmett and I are making you have an adult conversation now." Jasper said and I followed him as he and Emmett walked over to the ladder down and Emmett climbed down it before moving the ladder to the other side of the stables.
"Bring that back! I can't get down!" I called and Jasper pulled me back from the edge of the loft and made me sit on the hay bale by the window.
When Emmett came back he dumped Edward on the floor before he and Jasper left, taking the ladder with them and leaving me and Edward up in the hay loft.
"When you two sort everything out, we will let you down. But until then you're stuck up there." Emmett called and I groaned before walking back to the hay bale and sitting on it, Edward sitting on the floor across from me.
"What is this all about?" Edward asked me and I glared at him before putting my head in my hands.
"Jasper and Emmett think you and I are worse than five year olds. We're Donkeys as Jasper put it." I groaned and Edward laughed as I glared at him.
"It is true, Bella. You and I are behaving like donkeys." Edward said and I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him.
"I am not an arse, nor do I behave like one. It's your fault we're in this mess anyway." I snapped and Edward shot me a foul glare.
"My fault? What did I do wrong?" Edward shouted and I stood up and looked out the window before turning back to him.
"You asked. That's all you had to do, Edward. You wouldn't stop asking me what was wrong. You know why that made me angry? Cause everything I do is wrong and I don't want to hurt you!" I cried and it took me a moment to realize I had tears streaming down my face.
"I could do one little thing and it would be wrong and hurt you. I don't want to hurt you, or your family. I've already screwed mine over; I don't want to break your family." I cried quietly and I sunk to the floor, leaning against the wall and covering my face with my hands.
"Bella, you won't screw us over or break us. You are here to learn and get better and the only way we can help you is for you to tell us." Edward said and I wiped my eyes and looked up to see he was looking down at me.
"I will, its who I am, Edward and I don't think I'm going to change any time s-" I felt Edward's lips pressing to mine and I sucked in a sharp breath as Edward's hand touched the back of my neck and he pulled me into his lap, holding me tightly.
"You are amazing Bella and there is no way you could do anything to alter my life in a bad way. Everything you do leaves me happy, Bella. I think I'm falling for you" Edward whispered as he pulled back only an inch and looked me in the eyes.
"Edward, I'm no good for you or your family." I whispered and Edward pushed his lips to mine again, harder this time before pulling back.
"I'll ruin everything." I muttered and Edward kissed me again before I melted into his embrace and put my arms up around his neck, letting him lie me down on the floor and kiss my neck before his lips moved back to mine.
We stayed on the floor, kissing and caressing each other till way past midnight when Emmett appeared between two bales of hay and made kissy noises at us.
"I guess we can let you down now." Emmett said and I get up and walked over to the Ladder, gasping as I looked at the height before backing away.
"Why did you have to bring us to the higher bit, Emmett? I can't go down there." I said and backed up till I was pressed against Edward's chest and he had an arm around me.
"What if I climb down slightly and you climb down right in front of me so my arms are around you?" Edward asked and I bit my lip before turning and burying my head in his chest.
"Will you promise not to let me fall?" I asked and Edward nodded before leading me over to the ladder and climbing down till he was about a metre from the top.
I turned around slowly and put my legs down before climbing down so Edward's face was at my lower back before we slowly moved down the ladder together, Edward always keeping a part of his body touching mine.
When we got to the bottom of the ladder Edward lifted me down the last few steps before taking my hand and pulling me back form the ladder as Emmett started coming down.
I yawned and leaned into Edward, closing my eyes slightly as Emmett moved the ladder before we walked into the house and I walked up to my bedroom.