I do not own anything in regards to the Vampire Diaries

AN: Hey guys, I think I need to clear some things up before you read chapter 13, and maybe the story will flow better for you. First, thank you for the reviews, I like reading them good and bad, so keep them coming. At the beginning of chapter one when Damon hits Bonnie that is "present day" in their relationship and the rest of the story shows you everything that happens leading up to that moment. Bonnie is shocked when he hits her because he has never hit her before. If you have never been struck before, the first time it happens can be very jarring. And, the way he looks at her after he hits her is what makes Bonnie afraid of him because she is probably in fear for her life, but I won't go into that. It is when Damon kills Julie Carmichael that Bonnie starts to change because she now knows what Damon is capable of doing if she doesn't do what he says. Bonnie feels responsible for that girl's death, and Damon uses that to control Bonnie because she doesn't want anyone else to die because of her.

Now, as for Damon:

So, we know that Klaus' compulsion has set these events into motion. Now, with that being said, we all know that Damon has a dark, dangerous irrational side to his personality; so that coupled with the compulsion makes Damon lethal and capable of anything. Damon is very possessive of Bonnie; he feels like he owns her. So, when she takes a stand and tells him that she nolonger wants to sleep with him, he thinks that is Bonnie's way of trying to control him, and he is not having that. It infuriates him and pushes him over the edge, and he reacts in the most violent way possible. Remember that this is Damon; he reacts first and thinks last. This story is about Klaus's revenge on Bonnie, he doesn't want to kill Bonnie but break her down. One of the most horrific things that can break a woman down is to have the man she loves, brutally violate her in the worse way imaginable. What better way for Klaus to break down Bonnie, the most powerful Bennett witch, than to make her powerless? I hope this explanation makes the story easier to understand.

I do not own anything in regards to the Vampire Diaries

Chapter 13

Bonnie slowly came to, she opened her green eyes and saw that she was in Damon's room lying in his bed. She looked out the window and saw that it was dark outside. She sat up and grabbed the clock on the nightstand; it was a quarter to ten. She looked around the room, Damon wasn't there. Why was she in bed so early? She touched her head, rubbing her temples in confusion. Her mind was blank as she tried to figure out what was going on. She tried to concentrate on what she remembered doing that day. She remembered standing over the bed looking at Damon…she remembered driving his car…she remembered talking to Mason at the Grill…she remembered talking to Elena outside in the back of the boarding house…and then she remembered…no, no, no,… oh my god…she remembered Damon and what he did to her outside in the back of the boarding house. It all came rushing back, him pushing her against the house, ripping off her underwear, covering her mouth with his hand and then oh god, him forcing himself inside of her, raping her.

Bonnie pulled the covers off of her; she looked down and saw that she was wearing one of Damon's black t-shirts. She lifted the bottom of the shirt and saw that she was naked underneath. Bonnie looked at herself, Damon had cleaned her up, and her flesh was normal and healthy looking, it wasn't bruised or swollen. He had given her some of his blood to heal her body. The only reminder of what happened between them was the dull ache she felt between her legs. Tears slipped from her eyes.

She had to get out of here before he came back. Bonnie jumped out of the bed and frantically looked around for her clothes. They were nowhere in sight. Oh god, she didn't know what to do; she couldn't think. Elena! Elena kept clothes in Stefan's room. Bonnie walked to the door and listened, she didn't hear anything. She slowly tiptoed down the hall to Stefan's room. She put her ear to the door and opened it slowly when she didn't hear anything. She quickly went inside the room and saw a pair of Elena's jeans lying across a chair. Bonnie put them on as she spotted Elena's shoes by the dresser; she rushed across the room and hurriedly put them on her feet. Bonnie quickly walked out of the room, but slowed as she got to the stair case. She stopped and listened, there was no movement or voices down stairs. She slowly, quietly made her way down the stairs. When she reached the bottom, she peeked around the entryway, there was no one there. She walked to the door and opened it, when she heard his voice softly calling her name behind her. Bonnie didn't think, she ran.

Damon caught her in seconds, hugging her to his hard chest. Bonnie's entire body froze in his arms. He buried his face in the crook of her neck; Bonnie could feel his tears against her skin. "I'm sorry…Baby…I'm so sorry…I didn't mean to hurt." He said over and over again.

Bonnie's heart was beating so fast in her chest. Oh god, she had to get away from him, but she didn't want to set him off again. She didn't know what to do. Where were Stefan and Elena? Bonnie's mind raced as he held her tightly in his arms.

Damon pulled back, tears ran down his face as he held Bonnie's face in his hands. Bonnie had never seen him cry before, she didn't even think he was capable of shedding tears. He looked at her pleadingly asking for her forgiveness. Bonnie closed her eyes.

"Baby…look at me…I know I fucked up…I didn't mean to hurt you…I just lost it…I didn't realize what I had done until…" Damon got lost in his thoughts thinking about what he did to her.

Damon was filled with rage as he stood there looking at Bonnie. Who the fuck did she think she was, telling him that she was nolonger going to sleep with him, like she even had a say in the matter. He controlled her. He was sick of her trying to assert her will; she needed to understand that she nolonger had a will of her own. He owned her completely… mind, body, and soul. He would show her once and for all…

Bonnie blacked out in his arms; he rushed her at vampire speed through the kitchen up the back stairs into his bedroom, closing the door. He laid her on his bed, looking down at her small, still body. Oh god, what had he done? He looked down at her torn, bloody flesh and looked away. He didn't know that he had hurt her so badly. He sped into the bathroom and came back with a warm wet cloth and cleaned her body. Bonnie still didn't move or wake up. He took off the rest of her clothes and went to his closet pulling out a clean black shirt. He gently place the shirt on her small body. Eventhough her heartbeat was steady, he started to panic because she wasn't waking up. Damon bite into his wrist and placed it into her mouth. He massaged her neck helping the blood go down her throat until he was satisfied that she'd had enough. He held her in his arms and waited for her to wake up. "I'm so sorry Baby." He whispered softly to an unconscious Bonnie.

He heard Elena coming up the stairs. A moment later she was knocking on his bedroom door. "Hey Bonnie, are you in here?" Elena asked, wondering where Bonnie and Damon where since they weren't outside in the back.

Damon cleared his throat and tried to sound like his normal snarky self. "Beat it Elena, we're busy…go stalk someone else."

Elena rolled her eyes, she should have known that Damon and Bonnie would be hold up in his bedroom having sex; that seemed like the only thing they did lately. "Stefan and I are going to a movie; you guys can join us when you're finished." She waited for a response, when she didn't get one she smacked her lips and walked away from the door.

Damon pulled himself from his thoughts. "…I saw how badly I had hurt you…I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that…Baby, talk to me." He put his forehead against hers, breathing in her sweet breath.

Bonnie turned her head away from him, pushing at his chest for him to release her. "Damon…let me go…I'm going to be sick." He released her just in time before Bonnie threw up on ground. She fell to her knees, clutching her stomach has she heaved. When Damon tried to touch her, she lifted her hand, stopping him. "Don't touch me."

Elena and Stefan pulled up into the driveway. They hurriedly jumped out of the car when the head lights shined on Bonnie's kneeing figure on the ground.

"Oh my god, Bonnie, what's wrong?" Elena asked, running to Bonnie's kneeling form and awkwardly holding Bonnie in her arms.

Bonnie didn't even look Damon's way. "I don't feel well, Elena…I need for you to take me to my Grams house."

Elena was confused. She didn't understand why Bonnie wanted to go there since the house had not been used or lived in since Grams died.

"Bonnie why do you want to go there…is your magic making you sick?" Stefan asked concerned.

"No…I just need to go there, okay." Bonnie couldn't go to her house because Damon had been invited in. When Grams died, she left her house to Bonnie and thankfully Damon had never been invited into her home.

"Okay, come on sweetie." Elena said, as Stefan helped Bonnie to her feet.

Damon stepped in front of them. His eyes were on Bonnie's turned down face because she didn't want to look at him. "Bonnie, you can't leave like this…we have to talk." He said desperately.

Elena and Stefan both looked at Damon, noticing him for the first time. Their eyes widen because Damon was crying; his eyes pleading with Bonnie has he looked at her.

Stefan walked to his brother, putting his hand on Damon's shoulder. "Damon what happened here?" he asked. When Damon didn't even acknowledge him, Stefan grabbed his head forcing Damon to look at him. "Brother, what happened?" Damon couldn't speak.

Bonnie couldn't take it; she had to get out of here, away from him. "Elena…please…we have to go now."

Elena nodded her head, helping Bonnie into the car. Elena hopped into the driver's seat and they drove off, leaving Stefan and Damon standing in the driveway.

Elena was full of questions as she drove Bonnie to Gram's house, but Bonnie didn't answer any of them. All she told Elena was that she had gotten sick as she was leaving the boarding house. And, when Elena asked her why Damon was crying, Bonnie swallowed hard and said she didn't know. Elena let it go because she could see that Bonnie was not ready to talk about whatever it was that happened. Elena didn't feel comfortable leaving Bonnie alone at Grams house, but Bonnie was able to convince her that she would be alright in the house alone. Elena reluctantly left Bonnie and went back to the boarding house, hoping to get more out of Damon.

Bonnie walked around the vacant house taking the sheets off the furniture, running her hands along every piece getting reacquainted with the objects and items that once were a part of her everyday life. She sat down on the sofa and breathed in the smell of the house, letting the memories of Gram flood her mind. She remembered being well loved and taken care of when Grams was here like nothing bad could ever touch her. If Grams was here, none of the things with Damon would have ever happened. Bonnie started to cry. Grams would have found a way to stop Damon in his tracks, and Julie Carmichael would still be alive, and Bonnie would be enjoying her life finally getting back to normal now that Klaus and Katherine had decided to leave Mystic Falls. Bonnie just couldn't understand why everything bad had to happen to her. She was a good person and tried to do the right thing, she didn't deserve this. Bonnie wiped her face thinking about everything that happened to her.

Bonnie jumped when her phone rang inside her purse because it sounded so loud in the quiet house. She had forgotten that she even had her purse on her. She lifted the strap off around her shoulder and opened it, taking her phone out. It was Damon. She turned the phone off placing it on the table.

She couldn't think about him right now. It hurt too much. She knew who and what Damon was, but never in a million years would she ever think he could hurt her like he did. Not after the time they had spent together…when he had been so gentle and loving towards her. Even during those times when he wasn't so gentle, he always took care of her and made sure she was okay. He enjoyed giving her pleasure and making her come. Damon would worship her body with his bringing her to the peaks of pleasure over and over again…and for him to then brutally hurt her like he did was soul shattering.

She wished that Grams was here because she needed someone to talk to. She couldn't talk to Elena or Caroline because they wouldn't understand. They would just tell her to leave Damon, dump him. But, it wasn't that simple because, during this whole entire sick journey, she had managed to fall in love with him. Damon had two sides to him. The side he mostly showed was his snarky callous dark "fuck with me and I'll rip out your heart" irrational side. This was the side she and everyone else was used to seeing. But, it wasn't until Bonnie really started spending actual time with him that she got to see that other side to him. He was smart, which came as a total shock to Bonnie because he had a lazy way about him that made people think he was a mindless idiot, but Damon had read so many books on so many subjects that he could be a Jeopardy champion. He'd traveled all over the world and spoke five different languages. She wondered if Elena knew that about him because she was quick to tell anyone who'd listened that Stefan spoke three languages. But, it wasn't until Stefan and Elena where away and Bonnie and Damon had the boarding house all to themselves for the entire weekend that Bonnie's heart had started to soften towards him. It was their first night alone together in the boarding house, and Bonnie was nervous because she had never been alone, alone with him. It had been surreal. Damon had cooked for her, and while they ate he told her about his life when he was human. He didn't talk about Katherine but about his mother, and him and Stefan growing up as little kids. Bonnie was mesmerized because she had never seen him be so open and approachable…so human.

After dinner, he had taught her how to play chess, and even let her win a game. Damon had excuse himself leaving her alone and some minutes later he came back and took her hand, walking her up the stairs. He led her into his bathroom and Bonnie's jaw dropped. Damon had prepared her a bubble bath with candles all around the bathroom and tub. He undressed her and placed her into the tub. She wondered how he knew that she loved taking hot bubble baths. But, it wasn't until Damon kneeled down by the tub and started to bathe her that he blew her young mind. It was the most sensual thing she had ever experienced. Bonnie couldn't describe it. It was almost like he was paying reverence or homage to her body. Afterwards, he had made love to her so slowly and gently like she was the most precious thing in his life. She didn't find out until days later when Stefan just so happened to casually mentioned that it had been Damon's birthday.

Bonnie sat on her Grams sofa, crying softly as she thought about that night. She would remember it for the rest of her life. That night Damon had treated her like he loved her. Then it hit her. Bonnie's green eyes widen in surprise because that was the night she had fallen in love with Damon Salvatore.