Small conflicts can cause the biggest memories….
Warning: This chapter is a little of… rated m cause why not? It's Christmas! Just a little promise!
It's nothing big really, or at least Shade thought it isn't.
Okay he admits it. He messed up, he totally did. Sleeping with other girls whilst having a girlfriend is a total disaster.
But tracing up to the events that led up to it, it's acceptable.
His band (boy band) had an excruciating long concert that had encores with at least 2 songs and after that is a battle against obsessive fans or fans that were not able to enter the concert hall waiting outside. It was chaos that night that's why having a little drink is something that cannot be helped and a woman coming up to him offering him foodis also cannot be helped right?
Or was it? Shade does not know, his memories are hazy but he remembers and his friends know that he tried to refuse a few times, but the woman was persistent.
Except that when Shade woke up and found his dire appalling situation he immediately tried to escape the hotel but the woman made a scene and spoke lies that made the headline news for him.
That was late November that night and now a month have passed after that incident. Also at least 3 weeks since the last time he talked to his partner, best friend, family and lover, Fine.
It was not hectic as he thought it would be, it was rather calm. She was just asking what was happening and what is the whole incident about, really that's all. At first Shade was comforted by her voice even miles apart but when she called for the third time that day and Shade was already frenzied by the happenings he did not meant it, probably at that time he did… but he surely regret it now.
"IF YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE ME WHAT IS THE WHOLE PURPOSE OF THIS RELATIONSHIP?"
"Shade, I-I'm sorry I believe I was just… troubled I-I love you, you know that i.. I just miss-"
"It's-"there was a sigh "It's confusing right now right? We… we probably need some time off…"
"Shade- oh god sorry please no...Please" the last word was a beg.
"I think we do…"
"Wait!-"
-call end-
He do not know how to face her, she's mad, of course she is! A strong girl like her being cut off like that!
But of course Shade does not have to call her. The hullaballoo about that incident has not really died down yet but he's sure it will be, the CCTV footages that proves his statements right will be revealed soon to the media but right now, he's just taking his Christmas break.
From time to time he would open the television and would see Fine. She is also in a girl group and extremely popular for her entertainment skills. It still baffles Shade how they actually got together, It was actual Fate playing their card right for the two to meet.
Shade tries to enjoy the peaceful ambiance as he always does: coffee and book or newspapers. He enjoys those times immensely. It's one of the few times he is away from the crazy and fun industry of the media.
But those were ruptured by Fine, while reading his book he would remember how he and Fine would just laze around in his condo unit in the couch hand laced together while the other holding each books they are reading in silence. He enjoys those moments far more greatly than other things.
He loves his fans, but this and that are different business saying that he would choose Fine over his fans is a slight lie because his life has been around his fans even before the two met.
But he is a man. A man in need of comfort and also weak alone.
Shade eyes widen as he noticed what he is doing, the fruit salad ingredients already spread out on his table and the stove sizzling at him telling that the pasta is cooked.
He slightly slapped himself, he told his friends he is simply sleeping over Christmas night, but what is he doing preparing foods and such?
He finished cooking, pasta, filet mignon, roasted chicken, ordered pizza, lasagna, ice cream cake and fruit salad. He looked hollowly at his almost lonely, if he does not appreciate peaceful, condominium.
He took out whisky from his refrigerator and a shot glass. He looked at his phone before settling in the carpet floor just before his couch. He took a shot from the whisky and drank it, looked at his phone again before sighing and opening the television. He always spent his Christmases with his mother and sister and relatives in his hometown but right now he is too tired emotionally and physically from the media.
11:22 Shade glared and restarted his phone blaming it why he hasn't have any messages yet except from his friends and fans yet?
11:30 The whisky was half empty and Shade's guilt almost streaming in his eyes.
11:32 *ring**ring* *ring*"ring*
There was a moment before the other line answered the phone.
"…hello"
Hearing her voice triggered a tear from his eyes.
"Hey," he answered voice husky from tears
"Hey, so… Merry Christmas…?"
Shade chuckled "Merry Christmas"
Silence
"Um…"
"Sorry… I did not meant what I said that day" Shade finally breathed and felt a huge pebble on his throat has gone away.
"I… I was just harried by the events and my impatience got over me but…. God I'm lonely, and I'm never lonely but I miss you so fucking much and I know I messed up that day." There was a pause "I just wanted to say sorry" he said sucking in a breath and sobbed a little and he knew how humiliating it is to cry but damn is he to mind that now.
There was silence on the other line.
Shade inhaled "I know crying is pathetic and I tucked myself in this lonesome situation but I feel helpless… I'm sorry, I'm so sorry please—"
"Hey…" Fine breathed a little huskily from the other side of the line. "When did you change your passcode?"
Shade's eyes widen hurriedly ran to the door and opened it.
And there she is, she stands there smiling like an angel he does not deserve. He has been a bastard for doing such a thing to her; she was always, always there for him. Seizing every chance to help and observing every opportunity to deepen their bond.
"Merry Christ-"
Shade grabbed her by the hand closed the door, pinned her to the door and kissed her. She immediately kissed back. Shade's hand wrapped around her waist pulling her even closer. Her hands snaking around his neck pulling him closer too.
Shade kissed her as if the night depended on it or there will be no tomorrow. His tongue asked for permission and Fine parted his lips in consent. Their tongue played with passion. Shade daydreamed of this on the three weeks they did not spoke to each other and heck he is putting those three weeks of guilt and regret in this kiss.
No one knows what happened but when Fine realized it she was pinned by Shade on his bed. Their lips still not parting. The Christmas is cold but beside each other it was warm, thought of the two.
AUTHOR'S NOTE
Okay I actually have gone ahead and did it. I AM SCARED I AM NOT PREPARED THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING THESE KIND OF THINGS AND I'M KIND OF HORRIFIED.
I-Is it….good? OMG I need someone to tell me if this fic is disappointing, I think it is but I kinda don't want to…ugh… read back and….. I AM DEAD
Happy new year everyone~~~ and here is a late Christmas special! The next chapter MIGHT be the prequel of how they got together AND PLEASE TELL ME DO I HAVE A FUTURE IN THIS KIND OF GENRE but it all depends on my mood and motivation on what to write.