Sirius POV

I stood there watching Samantha leave. I knew I had made a mistake as soon as I'd kissed her but I had such a bad day. It was so easy to hookup with people and forget all your problems.

Earlier today my mom had sent me a letter stating that I had been removed from the family will. That was the final 'screw you' from my family. After I had run away, I got letters from my parents that said I was making them look bad. But part of me hoped that they missed me, just a little. But the fact that they had removed me from their will meant that they were done with me. Completely. I was their son and I hated how they cut me out of the family like that. I knew that I shouldn't have expected anything different but I did. No matter how screwed up they are, they're family.

So tonight, I was just looking for a fun night with Sam. I felt more comfortable around her because she had a screwed up family too. She made me feel less damaged.

But then I just saw her standing there. She was so close to the broom cupboard. I just wanted to kiss her and forget my problems. But I didn't realize she actually wanted to date me and I didn't mean to toy with her feelings. I liked her as a friend but I did not want to date her. She was definitely not my type.

She was sweet but way to guarded. I liked open and wild girls.

I started to walk up to the castle. I used the Marauders Map to safely get back to the common room without being seen. It was something James, Remus, and I had developed back in our fourth year. It identified secret passages and showed where teachers and students were. It was one of the most useful things we had, besides James' invisibility cloak.

When I reached the common room, I quickly went up to my dormitory and flopped onto my bed. This had been a long day.

As I drifted off to sleep, I knew that tomorrow would probably be even worse.

I woke up and got dressed quickly. I used my wand to fix my hair a little and waited for my friends. When they were ready, we headed down to breakfast. As I was heading down the staircase, I saw a girl with dirty blond hair and a thin frame. Sam. She was sitting on a chair by the fireplace reading a book.

Of course she was reading.

This day was already off to a bad start. I did not want to have to deal with her today, I knew she'd be pissed at me. And I couldn't blame her for being pissed at me. Although I don't think I did something that bad. Most girls were happy to be with me and didn't care if it was a one time thing. It's not my fault she wanted more.

But I knew that Sam was different than other girls. She was my friend. You can't use a friend. Well you shouldn't use anybody really, but that's not the point.

"So Sirius where were you last night?" James exclaimed loudly halfway down the staircase. Crap.

Samantha turned around and looked at me. When our eyes met I saw an emotion I'd never seen on her face before. Disgust. She quickly looked away and continued to read the book she'd been reading.

Ouch.

"Nowhere important." I responded to James and I quickly walked out of the common room.

When we got to the Great Hall I crowded my plate with food and began to stuff my face. James had sat with Lilly today so it was just Remus, Peter, and me.

I looked down the table to see Samantha sitting down quickly next to Lilly and her other friends. Lilly was laughing at something James said.

"So?" Remus asked.

"So what?" I said shortly. I had no idea what Remus wanted and I didn't care. I had more important things to deal with, like getting Sam to not hate me.

"Why was Sam looking at you the way she did in the common room?" Remus asked, intrigued. "AND why were you looking at her guiltily a few seconds ago? Don't try and deny it either," Remus added.

Of course Remus noticed.

I looked up at Remus, debating whether or not to tell him. I knew he had a crush on her not long ago and I didn't want him to be angry with me.

"I kissed her," I said blatantly. I might as well tell him the truth now. If I didn't, he'd probably find out from someone else.

"And why is that bad?" Remus asked. He didn't seem upset, just curious and a little concerned.

"Well, I didn't want to date her. It was just a hookup."

"Really Sirius? She's your friend." Remus stated, annoyed. "Why would you use Sam like that? She's my friend too you know."

We all know Remus would like to be more than friends with Sam.

"First of all, me and Sam are friends and you know I wouldn't purposely hurt her. Secondly, I didn't know she thought it was more than a hookup. If I had actually wanted to date her, I would of asked her out." I said heatedly. "And she seemed to be enjoying it," I added, seeing Remus' face darken at my words. Good.

"Well when most people kiss, a relationship is implied. And obviously she enjoyed it, she had a crush on you."

"Whatever, I can't help if a girl has a pathetic crush on me. Can you honestly say Sam is my type?"

"Sam isn't your type but vapid sluts are?"

What does vapid even mean?

"Sam isn't girlfriend material."

"Why?"

"She's too secretive and reserved."

"If you got to know her, you'd see how untrue that is. And how lucky you are, that she likes you."

He sounded jealous.

"Why am I lucky?"

"Sam is smart, funny, and nice," Remus said. "And hot."

Remus' face heated up a little and he looked away from me.

Well he wasn't completely wrong. Sam was definitely pretty and her slim figure was actually pretty attractive. But I didn't like her like that.

"I don't care," I said hotly. I was tired of Remus arguing with me.

"Whatever." Remus said and he got up quickly and walked down the table. He looked at me pointedly before sitting right next to Sam. Wow.

Sam turned to look where Remus was looking and our eyes locked. Her face hardened and she looked away.

I was pissed at everyone, including Sam. They were making a big deal over nothing. I looked at Remus and Lilly, who were glaring at me. I also looked over at James who was pointedly avoiding my gaze.

Wow, I thought angrily. Even James wouldn't stand up for his best mate.

I couldn't take their glares so I got up and strode out of the Great Hall calmly with my head held high. I even winked at a cute girl walking by and she blushed. I decided that I would apologize to Sam later today because I did feel bad. I shouldn't have done that to my friend.

I walked to my first class that day, Transfiguration, and sat down. I had a long day ahead of me and I was not looking forward to it.