I got on the train and sat down.
I was on my own now, without any of my good friends. They officially left Hogwarts.
I haven't heard from Draco all summer, and I couldn't risk sending him letters, if he would send me a letter I could know that it's OK to send him some.
Was he on the train? Is he coming to Hogwarts after what happened few months ago?
It feels like it's been years...
I couldn't stop thinking all summer about him. Was he all right?
I spend the ride reading one of my favorite books, hoping it will help me stop thinking about all the bad things that are happening around.
How Hogwarts will be without Dumbledore?
Everyone are saying that there is no safe place anymore.
We got to the great hall and There he was. Sitting there. I couldn't listen to anything that Proffesor McGonagall was saying.
Somewhere in my head, I believe that this was the way of trying to forget that Dumbledore was gone for good.
It's not that I liked him so much, I didn't know him very well of course, but he was good for Hogwarts.
as fast as the feast began it ended.
All the students got up from there tabled and the first years followed their prefects.
There weren't so much first years as always.
I walked fast out of the hall to reach to Draco as fast as I could.
"Draco" I called, Hoping that his friends won't come too.
He turned around.
"can we talk?" I asked.
"I think that we should get to the dormitories now." He said and left me there, confused.
Draco is listening to the Professors?
Next morning I woke up, got dressed and went to the great hall, waiting for Draco.
When he got there he hurried inside to eat breakfast.
"After breakfast" he said as he passed next to me quickly.
I was so confused. I sat down and ate breakfast all alone.
We got our sceduals.
Potions, Dark Arts, Herbology,-
Dark arts?
Dark arts. As is.
After breakfast I got up quickly and waited for Draco.
He noticed me and walked quickly with me away from the rest of the students.
"Draco, why are-" I started but he didn't let me finish.
"Just don't do silly things. Do whatever the professors say." He said.
"Why would I-?"
"Just don't!" He said, almost annoyed.
"Draco, what's going on?" I asked.
"Please listen to me. I know thing." He said, almost bagging.
"Is it about..." I asked and touched his left arm, but he took it away quickly.
"Just don't ask questions I can't answer."
He started walking away from me.
"Draco..."
"I'll come later" he said.
We had a lesson with the gryffindors.
I couldn't stop thinking about what Draco told me that I was wondering about it at class.
I wasn't concerned, but suddenly one of the gryffindor's said something that must upset Proffesor Carrow that she cursed him. I couldn't notice what the curse was, but I understood what Draco was saying.
I had some free time so went down to the lake.
Draco stood next to me.
"You should stop sneaking out like this..." I told him.
He didn't answer.
We stood there in silence for some time.
"So... how was your summer?" I asked.
He smirked "wonderful" he said sarcastically.
"Could you tell me more?" I asked.
He looked at me.
"I told you that you shouldn't ask questions I can't answer..."
"You can't answer to 'how was your summer'?"
"Mostly not."
"This is going to be a tough year if you are not going to tell me anything, Draco..." I said.
This school year became more terrible with every day that passed.
Draco went home few weeks before Easter.
I felt so lost. So lonely.
My sister was at Hogwarts already for few years but she was with her friends all the time, and she will never understand.
We went back home for Easter holidays, but this was enough for me.
I'm going to see Draco.
I've waited until we will be back to Hogwarts, but it hasn't changed. Draco didn't come back after the holidays and this was the sign.
I'm going to the Manor.
I stood there in this total darkness, the Malfoy manor in front of me, still not daring to enter.
I took a deep breath and stepped forward.
I prayed someone will come out, I couldn't just knock at midnight.
I stood there for a moment, in front of the gate. I pushed the gate and it was open.
I went to the huge wooden door, without thinking, ready to knock and suddenly the door opened.
A house - elf stood in front of me.
He opened his mouth to talk but I interrupted.
"I'm here for Draco" I whispered.
The house elf was about to talk again when a familiar voice interrupted again.
"You can go now" he ordered.
"Yes master" he said and disappeared.
Draco came into the small amount of light that was.
"What are you doing here?! Are you crazy?! You could be-" he said.
"You barely talked to me and you disappear for days! I just can't do it like this..."
"Do what?!"
I didn't answer.
"You can't be here!" He said.
"I needed to see you! Relationships don't work when there is only one person, Draco!"
Something in his face relaxed.
"You are risking yourself, you have no idea what is going on in here..."
"I guess I'll be OK when I'm around you" I smile and held his hand.
Gently he leaned forward to kiss me, and closed the door behind, quietly.