It's night. i made the boys sleep in a different room to make Caleb and Jake calm down a bit about four. I woke up from a night mare so I head to the roof. It's starting to get a bit cold but I didn't care. The girls are sleeping in my room and

the boys are sleeping in the movie room. I like to over think everything. But this roof puts it all in perspective. I see the movie room window open and I already know who it is.

"Hey thought you would want a blanket." Four says.

"Why are you being so nice." I ask

"Bee I am Toby." He says

"You can't prove i-"

"You go to therapy on tuesday nights" that catches my attention. I look to him and we hold eye contact. He look away for a bit so there's a silence. My eyes start to get teary.

"If your lying four! I swear that's-" I'm cut off

"You go to therapy. Phical and mental." He says. He's right. He. Is. Right. I still can't believe it.

"Why!?" I ask almost angrily.

"You where shot in the arm in middle school but your drunk uncle." He turns around his eyes have some shimmer too.

"You take a half hour covering it up ever morning cause you just wanted to be treated normally. All of your family is over protective of you now and you where homeschooled till last year also when I got out of military school. Your brother hate
boys and you hide on the roof most mornings so your brothers can't find you. You love on the sun and you think squeals are exotic. You where scared to meet me." He sits next to me. My real name is Tobias Toby for short. And yours is Beatris. I'm in
love with bee and starting to fall in love with the real her as well and I will wait till you realize it's really me."

"Four-" I say with my hand on his face in full tears.

"Call me Toby it's nice to be called my name once in a while. " his lips touch mine as I slowly end up sitting on him never stoping not even for air. We don't stop cause we are to scared that it's all a dream nothing this good would ever happen to me.
Never. Eventually we gasp for air finally letting go but we are still touching together holding my hips foreheads push together.

" we should just be friends for now. My brother would kill you and I can't even imagine what Chris would do to you. She is so so protective of me, Uriah too but it is you I guess but I don't think that will make a difference. -"

"Ok then" he says a bit sad "one more kiss. " we touch again and volts. Of electricity pumps through my blood. My hands go to his hair and he brings me closer. I strattle him. This is the closest I've ever been to a boy before. Yet I'm not nervous. At
least not till I realize what's happening. I'm an adrenaline sucker. When I'm laying awake tonight I'm gonna realize what I did and slap myself in the face but it's to late not to regret. I lean even closer him almost laying down. As I'm over
him. His hands life from my hips to my to fat thighs. He hates them I just know. He pauses for a second

"Hate to ruin the moment. But i know your conciliatory about your thighs. There bueatiful."

He takesin another kiss. I get closer and he squizes my thighs. It feels so right. Yet like we're being to secret. Where not even dating. To take my shaking hands and control them a bit more I grab the top of his shirt. He pulls me closer and his
hand moves up to my but. By that time I'm about to explode.

"I can't." I say breaking off the kiss. "I was just mad that marline didn't tell us that she kissed Uriah. And here I am. Most people first kisses should be acward. Not that spark that I have with you. I'm a horrible freind." I lean back to find
four behind me.

" you are beautiful. That's all I can say inside and out." He smiles his knowing smile and I fall back onto the actual roof.

"I'm gonna sleep out here tonight so I can see the sun rise."

"Ok" he starts to get up.

"Stay." I know it's not a good idea but I just need to talk to him. It's not to sleep with him. I just want to talk. He walks back and we talk. Bout prom the missions trip for our youth group anything and everything. Eventually being me do course I fall
asleep sharing the same blanket as four. But I just don't think

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