Harry Potter and Draco Malfoy don't realize that they actually have lots of things in common, like cutting, Harry doesn't know about Draco cutting and Draco doesn't know about Harry cutting. Harry has been cutting since he was 14, during the tri wizard tournament, where he felt most alone. He had no one and he felt like nothing, it's what he thought he was, nothing. He could've been killed in his tournament and he would've died alone. Cedric Diggory died, for what reason? He didn't do anything wrong, he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. Harry blamed himself for it, he still does.
He had Sirius, but he could rarely talk to him, he felt completely alone.
November 24th 1994
"I may die today. Honestly I'm hoping for it. At this point, what am I living for? I wish I had my parents, they would've been here with me and I would've not felt so alone, this is probably the last thing I ever write, I have no words for people who weren't there for me when I needed them most."
Harry figured if he was to die that day then so what if he hurt himself before he died. Harry took the blade from his razor and cut a deep line straight down his left arm, he wrapped his arm in a bandage and left to prepare for the first task. He really thought he was going to die that day; he's been cutting since. It's hard to tell how many scars he has, that's 2 years of scars; battle scars really.
1996
Draco recently started cutting. Ever since he became a death eater, he was scared. He had to do something that he would never want to do, murder. He had to murder someone who really did nothing wrong to him. He hated that mark, it was like he was branded, like he had no control of himself, he did have control of one thing. When he was in his 4th year he was casually walking through Hogsmeade by himself, he walked into a shop and noticed something, a silver dagger. Malfoys like anything and everything shiny, so he bought it. There was something curious about it, but why would a fourth year need a dagger. It wasn't until he was in his 6th year that he found a use for it. He had just received a letter from his mother, his mother sent letters every day when he started Hogwarts, recently she would rarely send letter and they were very short, she used to send a box full of sweets and a heartfelt letter, she only sends short messages so he knows that she's still alive, she has to be careful not to say too much.
Focus on what's most important
-Narcissa
He knew what she meant by that
He felt so empty, so broken, he suddenly remembered the silver dagger he bought 2 years ago. He first found out about cutting when he was in the library, again by himself, he heard Hermione Granger talking to Ron Weasley about it.
"Ron, I know lots of people who do it, it's quite sad, some of my closest muggle friends do it, I've seen some of them going to the hospital because of it."
"By why would anyone purposely cut themselves?"
Draco thought to himself; "What the hell are they talking about?"
"Depression, Ron. They're sad, they do it to feel something other than pain."
Draco swore he felt something when she described it
"But doesn't it hurt to cut yourself?"
"I guess some people like seeing their own blood, it's supposedly not painful, but honestly I think it's idiotic."
Harry was with them as they talked about it, they had no idea that they felt this; depression
"I'm tired; I'll see you two tomorrow."
"Good night Harry"
Harry got up and left running back to his dorm. Draco got up after a few seconds of thinking and quietly walked out of the library back to his dorm. He barely slept. He thought about what they were talking about. Is that really a thing? 'Cutting'. It's all he thought about. He made sure everyone was asleep and pulled out the dagger that he had under his bed. He walked to the bathroom and locked the door, and just in case it did hurt, he put a silencing charm on the bathroom. He closed his eyes and without looking where, he cut straight down his right arm. He felt so relieved, he felt like he had freedom. He cut again, and again, and again until his pale arm was dripping in blood. He looked at his mark, he hated it so much, he quickly slashed his left arm and smirked. He washed off the blood and wrapped his arms in towels. He walked out of the bathroom, with a smile on his face, this was something that no one could control, no one would have to know, no one would have to tell him to stop.
October 31 1996, Astronomy Tower
Harry and Draco have just ended their 5-year rivalry, they spent the whole night talking to each other about their problems, even confessing their darkest secrets
"Isn't that illegal?" Draco was curious about Harry's muggle family, Harry didn't mind
"It is. But no one knew, I had no way of telling anyone, I didn't have friends until I came here, but honestly I don't really consider them friends anymore."
"Why?" Draco asked
"If they really were my friends they would've been there for me during the tournament… and they would know everything about me. Can I ask you something?"
"Well Harry, we've been enemies for 5 years, we just ended that rivalry and made became friends hours ago, I've told you my secrets that not even my parents know about, so yeah I guess you can trust me, and you can tell me or ask me anything, I promise I will tell the truth. So what's your question?" Draco answered slightly sarcastic
"Why was your arm bleeding?" Harry whispered
Draco was silent, he's only been friends with Harry for about 2 hours, it's too personal
"I don't think you'll understand if I tell you."
"You said you would be honest…"
Draco sighed, nobody in the entire world knew about this, he was about to reveal his darkest secret, he rolled up his right sleeve and closed his eyes, he expected Harry to be disgusted and leave. He didn't hear Harry leave so he opened his eyes. Harry wasn't looking at his arm, he was looking at Draco, Harry immediately rolled up both of his sleeves
"I do understand." Harry said in a gentle voice
Draco felt a smile forming, someone finally understood his pain
"Why are you smiling?" Harry asked just ask he started to smile too
"No I don't mean it as a bad thing!" Draco exclaimed
Harry chuckled
"How long?" Draco asked
"Since fourth year, the day of the first task, I thought I was going to die and I thought why not? What about you?"
"Recently actually." Draco replied
"Tell me about it." Harry said
"There's so much that I'm going through right now…" Draco trailed off realizing that the sun was rising
"What time is it?!" He quickly asked
Harry gasped as he realized they had been talking the whole night
"It was nice talking to you for 9 hours but if don't get out of here we're going to be in detention for the rest of the month."
"Right. I'll see you later Harry."
"Wait!" Harry shouted
Draco turned to face his ex-enemy
"People don't know that we're friends, I don't believe people would react nicely if they knew that a Gryffindor and a Slytherin were friends. Let's not tell people yet." Harry reminded him
"Okay."
Draco playfully shoved Harry
"See you later… Potter"
Draco was the first to leave and quietly walked to his dorm careful not to be seen, but he was seen Pansy who was worried because she didn't see him in the common room
"Draco! Where have you been? You're lucky Filch didn't see you." Pansy said once she caught up to Draco
"Sorry Pansy, I was in the Astronomy Tower and I fell asleep, I just went to think." Draco told her
"I understand, but you should've told me and I wouldn't have been worried that you were hurt- " Pansy said before she was cut off by Draco
"I promise I'm fine. Now let's go eat."
Draco and Pansy walked to the Great Hall and went to go sit at the Slytherin table
Draco was eating a piece of toast when he looked up and saw Harry talking to Hermione and Ron, he imagines what it would be like to be in Gryffindor, to be friends with Harry and it would be okay, he imagines what it would be like to be with friends with Hermione and the Weasleys, he even imagines what it would be like to not be pure-blood, he really doesn't hate muggle-borns and muggles, he wishes that he could be friends with everyone, he would be killed for that though… by Voldemort. He stops thinking when he realizes that he was staring at Harry, well not intentionally, luckily no one saw except Harry.
Harry still writes in his journal, and he wrote down everything about the previous night;
"I feel like I have a real friend, not like Ron and Hermione, the only problem is that no one could know we're friends, he is the only person in the entire world who knows all of my problems, well, Tom does, but he's an arse and I would never consider him my friend, but he is a part of me…"
Harry puts his journal away where no one can find it and goes to sleep
December 31 1996, 11:50pm, Astronomy Tower
It's been 2 months since Draco and Harry ended their rivalry and became friends, they would go to the Astronomy Tower every Saturday to talk about everything that happened during the week, so much has happened in 2 months, Harry started dating Ginny Weasley, Draco started dating Astoria Greengrass, Draco now drinks and smokes, they both continue to cut, they even cut together
They're both sitting next to each other waiting for 12am
"I don't understand why people stay up for a countdown." Draco said slightly annoyed
"It's a muggle thing, but there's this saying that the person you're with at 12 is the person you'll spend the year with." Harry replied
Draco rolled his eyes; "Muggles and their inventions."
"10 seconds."
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There was a firework show at 12am, that was the idea of the muggle-born students
"What are those lights?" Draco asked curiously
"Fireworks. They're a muggle thing." Harry answered
"They're just lights; you can do that with magic." Draco rolled his eyes again
"Do you even know what 'muggle' means? No magic. They can't make lights appear." Harry reminded Draco
"Whatever. Happy New Year Harry."
"Happy New Year Draco."
Hello! My name is Kara, and isn't it a coincidence I have the names of two DC characters; Kara Danvers and Hartley Rathaway, lucky me because I have a crush on Andy Mientus bahaha
Okay enough of me; I will regularly update this story, not every day though, I'm working on the last chapter at the moment, there will be 10 chapters for year 6 and 10 for year 7, and a few others chapters, there will be at least 25 chapters, I'm sorry if that's too long, but each chapter will be about 1K words long, so the whole story is about 25K words long and this chapter is about 2K words long because I took too long to update, and this chapter took about a week to write
No disrespect to people who have problems with self-harm, because I have them too
Characters are property of JK Rowling
Until next time; - Kara