Ch.5- Alec's Patrol Night

To think that I was stupid enough to let all of this happen. I should have made Alec go to the doctors or let me check his health in general, but no he had to be a pain in my butt like it was nothing.

"Magnus, it's nothing," he shouts at me once again.

I see Cass and Mel looking around the corner before they seem to sigh in their pain of watching this fight all over again.

"Magnus it would not matter if we talked about my deal."

I send my sister a dirty look that simply told her to shut up and Alec looked a bit confused, but he didn't push to ask any questions. It's quiet and there's no sound going from any of the rooms occupants until we hear the giggling and screeching of Alec and my 2 little boys coming back from their visit to the institute. Blue as always when he comes back from his visit at the Institute he's excited and has to tell all of us all about it. Alec sighs as he looks at his watch that I'd gotten for him and I know it's his patrol night again and I'll be cuddled up with the boys on the couch in the living room most of the night cause they want to make sure that their father is able to make it home safely.

I watch Alec kiss the boys goodbye and he hugs me tightly in his arms as if it'd be the last time before he gives me a quick but filled with emotion kiss that tells me everything that I'd ever need to know. As he leaves the apartment with Jace, Izzy sits down on the couch with us. Mel is sitting by her mother with her glamour that's needed down attached to her mother's side. She has the Cas' locket around her neck as she fiddles with it as she looks at Izzy with a slight distaste and not just cause the way she's dressed. Izzy seems confused since a lot of people like her, "What's with the look princess?"

I smile as I watch Mel look away and her fiddling seems to speed up a lil bit. Cas sighs as she looks at her daughter, "Mel, use your manners what would daddy say."

"Well he's dead," shocking everyone at her outburst she marched to the room the pair had been using the last week.

I wince as I move over to my sister wrapping my arms around her tightly kissing her forehead, "It's alright. It's something we warlocks get used to."

I watch little blue being led out of the room by his brother and I know they'll be having a little talk.

"I know that Magnus. I know more than you know. I don't know how many people I've let myself get attached to in this world only to lose. Yet I remember all their names. I remember them as if they're seared into my brain and I don't want that for my daughter. I didn't want that for you, but only warlocks and vampires are in a way immortal and it's not as cracked up as people think. I've lost her father more times than I can count, but I guess I did do that reincarnation spell to without thinking. I just don't want her to end up doing something that she'll regret. You can't bring back the dead and you can't stop death unless you want consequences."

"Well, why not have him become a vampire?" Izzy asks eve though I know she's a bit lost, "I'm guessing you 2 had adopted little Mel though she looks a lot like you, Cas."

I look at my sister's schooled blank expression as she stares at the bedroom door where we know her daughter is sitting right behind.

"No, she's my flesh and blood and I'd want it no other way. Mel… she's my daughter and she was his daughter. I'm thankful that he'll be reborn, but sometimes he doesn't remember certain lives so what if in cruelty he doesn't remember her."

Izzy is silent watching the woman that's across of her…. "I might not know what's best for the 2 of you without children of my own or even as long of a life as you've lived, but I don't think life would be that cruel to you. Cassandra, even if he forgets you and your daughter will make him remember. She might be young, but we all hold onto our most precious memories to our chests. If anything makes a little locket like your own for her."

Cas smiles as she opens her hand and a swirl of blue leaves it as a locket falls into her hand. She smiles as she stares at the simple but beautiful locket, "It was Arthur's locket. A present from his grandmother when she had fallen ill when he was a child. It was his most important item." with that Cas gets up and leaves the room for her bedroom slowly knocking on the door before she kneels before it and talking through it to her daughter hoping that'll she'll open up.

Izzy is watching along with me, but she cuts me from my trance of watching them by clearing her throat, "She's flesh and blood. Did she make a deal or something? I heard there are a few demons that'd create children only for them to be their own little weapons."

I shake my head, "it's nothing like that. She somehow became pregnant without the use of magic and thus her little girl was born. Aren't you supposed to be in your lab tonight?"

Looking at her watch she curses as she looks at me, "I won't tell a soul about Mel, but realize they will found out sooner or later. Sure, Alec has changed so much paving the way for downworlder rights doesn't mean that they've changed all that much at the institute as they try to make people think."

Sighing I lean back looking into my boys' room, "I know that Iz and that's why I hope that my boys will still pave their own path not caring what old stuck up shadowhunters think of them. I want them to always stick together no matter what. I want them to rely on each other even when one is gone."

Izzy moves over to sit by me as she wraps me in her arms, "I know it's more than the boys that you worried about, Magnus. Even in death, Alec would never leave your side and he'd never leave lil Blue's side either. He loves Max almost more than he loves you. Max is his lil angel no matter what age he'll be at."

I smile as Raph tells Max something and as I've seen he do a bit before Blue starts creating what looks like runes with his magic. Slowly the runes start turning into other shapes of animals and cartoon characters that the 2 of them love at the moment. I slowly get up and take a video on my phone while taking lil pictures as well of this moment like I had the last time. Izzy pats my shoulder as she makes her way out and I smile at her as she leaves. She blows me a kiss and points to the boys' room and I nod my head.

I go into our living room where I turn on the television until the boys decide that they want to curl up with me while we'd wait for Alec to get home. When they do finally come out of their room and curl up with me I change it to the most recent cartoon that had caught their eye and as it starts to play Mel comes out and curls up next to Raph. Cas sits on the other couch and simply watches her daughter's interaction with my sons.

"Do the boys do this everytime Alec is out?"

I nod my head as I move my hands to stroke both my sons' heads, "Yeah, it started the first time Alec had been hurt after we took the boys in they were so scared that they'd lose him that everytime he'd be out they couldn't sleep or they'd have nightmares so this routine started up. I know they need to grow out of it, but their father means so much to them."

"I can see that, but aren't you also their father, Magnus?"

"I am, but I hardly leave them more than a day and when I do I call every couple hours to check to see how everyone is doing. Alec picks on me that I have separation anxiety. Though I can't fight with that."

I feel Raph hit my arm, "Dad, be quiet they're having a boss battle."

I chuckle as I nod my head as I kiss the top of his head, "Alright, Auntie Cas and I will wait until your other dad gets home."

He nods his head as he snuggles closer to my side, but Blue is basically already sitting in my lap with his arms wrapped around my neck. I smile as I kiss Blue's forehead as well to watch a sweet lil smile appear on his happy lil face. I watch my sister in the corner of my eye as I know she's doing the same for me.

As the show ends Raph takes the other children's' hands and leads them to the side of the room to give the adults some form of privacy.

"They're smart children even though they want another episode," I tell my sister and just ask her right out, "Cas, something is bothering you what is it?"

"Mel… she hates me for letting her father die. Even though he made me promise never to use my magic on him…. He even told me not to let our daughter be part of this world, but what choice does she have when she has a great talent for magic at her age. I wanted her to be human so she wouldn't have to deal with the prejudice against downworlders."

"Cas, she'd find that anywhere in the world. No matter what she'd turn out to be if she'd be different in some way there would be some asshole telling her whatever comes to their mind."

With a sigh my sister looks at me, "I know Magnus… it's just I don't want that for her. I don't want that for anyone, but it's in our nature, isn't it. No matter where she goes or what she does she'll have to deal with that. Your boys will have to deal with that."

I simply lean back and nod my head, "That's true, but there is good in the world. I was so used to being used for my magic that when I met Alec I was shocked that all he really wanted was me. Sure, it was useful, but he didn't truly care for that. He once told me that all he needed was me and since then he's been spending his time proving just that. Though with the boys it changed our lil dramatic a lil bit."

"He sounds lovely just like Arthur has always been. Though I'd really like to know what made ti so dark hair and blue eyes become a thing for you."

I look at her and huff, "It was a young man I had met shortly after you. I think I was 16 or so. He didn't care what I looked like he said he wanted just me, but sadly that love didn't last very long for he was killed for loving a monster like me."

Cas gasps as she slowly shakes her head, "That's horrible. Though that young man sounds lovely and a lot like your special lil Alec."

We spend time trading stories than simply telling stories to the children of the adventures that we've enjoyed in our long life. We hear the stairs leading the apartment creek under feet and watch as Alec enters the apartment finally sighing when he sees we're all awake, but I can tell it's just a show. He's happy to see that we have kept to our routine and that we're the first faces he sees after his time out on patrol. As he makes his way over Alec gasps in pain placing his hand over his chest as he slowly makes his way to the ground, but then he makes an ungraceful plop to the ground where he doesn't move.

I race over trying to use magic to heal him as Cas helps. I know I'm freaking out so maybe my magic isn't working right, but Alec I need him and no matter what it'll always be like that.