Opening a portal to the hospital much like last time I know probably isn't the safest thing to do, but all 4 of us wanting to go it's a must. We find our way to the nurses' desk on Alexander's floor and I can't help but feel myself stiffen as I hear a code blue is in effect in Alexander's room. I want to tell myself and the kids that it's whomever he's sharing a room with, but I paid for a private room. I hold the kids off and I watch as Cat comes our way.

"He's alright for now, but he's not of the woods. Magnus, we've done everything that we can and I even tried some magic last night and nothing it working. Right now I'd say pray and hope for the best."

I nod my head as I hold back the tears threatening to fall from my eyes. I look at the children and then Cat as I ask, "Can we go in to see him?"

Cat seems conflicted before she nods, "He's resting right now thankfully, but with the kind of pain he's in there's not much else we can do about this until we can find out what exactly happened. Anyways I'm sorry, but my shift is over and Madzie is waiting for me at home. I'll bring her by later. I'm sorry, Magnus, but you should steel yourself for losing him far earlier than you had planned."

I nod my head as I lead the kids into Alec's room. I watch as they find their ways onto the bed. They start acting like he's awake showing him the art they had done for him and how they wished for him to get better as soon as possible. I look around as I closed the door and the blinds waving my hand as a bouquet appears. It's made up of pink camellia (flame of my heart), pink carnations (I'll never forget you), red and white Chrysanthemum , and a mixture of roses all different colors and all thornless (love at first sight, perfect happiness, I'll always remember you, worthy of you, and love) for my love for him. Though I hated it so much when he told me I had a single stem of a moon orchi d the same flower I remember my mother loving so much and the single blossom that boy from long ago had placed in my hand when he had helped me. A flower that is a reminder of my past and what I want to stay buried there, but with Alexander nothing stays buried and he has never once thought of me as a monster or simply inhuman.

The boys and Mel are giving me a look, "Uncle Magnus, why are you crying? Isn't uncle Alec gonna get better? Mommy said that you 2 would never be separated."

I hold back my tears listening to the even slow beep of Alec's heart monitor, "I'm sure he'll get better, but I'm just very worried about him. You see I love him very much and he's my whole world."

Mel seems to get a thoughtful look on her face as she looks up at me, "You look at him like momma did with daddy. She loved him very much, but then he got sick and her magic couldn't make him better…. Now I don't have a daddy anymore. Mommy said I'd see him again, but he's still gone and I'm not sure when I'll see him again." Mel's face changes to something of determination, "I won't let anyone take Uncle Alec away from you. You deserve happiness and you will have it."

I bite my tongue for whatever word vomit that would come from my mouth as I take the chair next to the bed. I carefully reach over and take Alec's hand and realize just how cold it is along with how sickly pale he looks. I place his hand to my lips thinking and not sure what I can even say.

"Papa, what will we do if we lose daddy?" Max asks me and I look into the blue eyes of my son and I can't come up with anything that can make him feel better.

Raf saves me, "We'll live with him in our heart always and we'll be great just like he knows we will be."

I smile not able to hold my tears back anymore. I watch as Izzy walks into the room and how careful the boys are getting off the bed, but the speed they do it as well can't make me any prouder. Izzy looks at me and sighs, "Did you get any sleep last night?"

I shake my head, "I'm not sure. I think we had, but it's barely been a day and I feel like it's been an eternity. I want Alec to get better and I just keep being told that I need to be patient. I can't though. I can't be patient. I've lost too many people in my 800 years Isabelle and I don't want to lose anyone else."

Isabelle looks at the children before she pulls out some money, "How about you get some candy and check with Uncle Jace and Auntie Clary for a little bit. I'm gonna cheer up Mags okay."

Mel nods her head and all I can think of as a soldier that's taking orders. She grabs one of each of my boy's hands pulling them from the room. I watch them leave and I simply stare at them.

"Magnus, I need you to talk to me. I know there's more going on in that pretty little head," Isabelle just about pleads me something she probably has never truly done in her life with these true emotions.

"I'm worried about Alec, Isabelle. I've taken many lovers over my lifetime and I've lost probably, even more, people, but your brother is different. He sees me as something almost heavenly as if I hung the moon, the sun, and all the stars in the sky just for him. The truth is if I could I would do such a thing for him a thousand times over. I know my sister gave me options but I don't want him to face a life of being reborn or immortality now and lose you and everyone else he has ever loved. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place waiting for one to move to set me free or finally end this suffering. I know what I got into when I started seeing him. I think my mourning period will be far worse than any lover that I've lost."

Izzy seems to be thinking over what she'll say as she makes her way to the other side of her brother, "I know all of this Mags. I know about your life. We've sat up late into the night and almost into the next morning. I can tell you that like you said to the boys Alec will always be with you no matter what. Whatever choice you'd pick he'd be happy to accept. Sure he'd miss us all, but since he's started seeing you he's wanted nothing, but your happiness and he's always thought he'd had to just give you the best years and then some that he could. When he thought you never wanted to see him again and even left that stupid little message… he has crushed Mags and in that time he understood why you tried to leave while you could, but you neither of you could leave the other alone. You 2 are meant to be. If only life was that kind."

I nod my head kissing Alec's hand again feeling him waking up already as he tries to squeeze my hand, "Whatever, you pick I will always love you," I hear him gasp out before the machines start blaring and his hand starts to slacken.

I shoot up over him shaking him screaming, "Don't you dare leave me, Alexander Gideon Lightwood. We still need to get married you hear me."

Nurses have to pry me from the room and I'm faced with my sister and her tearful eyes, "I can do a small spell right now to give you time to give each other your vows and exchange rings if you want. I even know a preacher that owes me one or you can choose 1 of the options I gave you."

I shake my head and my sister sighs as she waves her hand and the machines start to become regular and I can hear a faint gasp from Alec. I nod my head letting tears fall from my eyes, "Umm…. can we get married and I'll pick. I'll pick."

My sister nods her head as she pulls me into her arms, "Go inside and talk with him. I'm sure an early goodbye might be in order."

My sister knows me too well she knows that I won't pick any of her options cause I can't tie Alec to me any more than I have already. Thought I can't decide what's right and wrong. It's so hard to let go and listen to what my heart is telling me. Up till now, I've always ignored my heart and now I've realized that there's always been a piece of me missing that's perfectly shaped for Alec… If only life was kinder. Every word and every exchange I fall even deeper into this hole I dug myself way before I truly met, Alexander Gideon Lightwood.

I walk into the room to face a rather weak smile, but it's still probably one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. I sit done next to him taking his hand in my own.

"Magnus, I'm going to die aren't I," he more so states and I know from the look in his eyes he's already accepted it.

Still, I answer him, "Yes, the doctor's don't know why but your heart is shutting down and they can't get a transplant to you in time."

I watch a grimace of a smile grace his lips as he tries to sit up more making me shoot to his side. When I do this his eyes soften even though there's a strong hint of sadness.

"Magnus, when I leave I want you to go to my desk and there'll be a letter written for you. I change and add to it every year there's 1 for you, Blue, Raf, and Cat. I gave my siblings there's about a year ago cause there are nothing insides there's that they don't already know, but I need you all to read your letters and know that I love you."

I try to keep my tears at bay as I nod my head, "Of course. Cas right now is getting a preacher for we can get married and she even helped me with another surprise that I've been working on with our marriage."

I watch a small weak smile grace his lips, "I'm supposed to be wearing a hospital gown for my wedding. I chuckle as I call everyone inside his room.

Cas wraps me in her arms stroking my hair, "You're not alone anymore, little brother." She lets me go as she looks at Alec with a beautiful secret smile graced her lips, "Well Preacher Wilson is on his way along with someone else. Now, what will we do about clothing."

I look around to realize that we truly aren't dressed for any sort of wedding. Cas and I exchange looks and we find ourselves in wedding attire. Alec is wearing a regular tux with a white suit jacket and the boys match their father. I wave my hand and Blue's glamor is gone. Izzy is wearing a beautiful golden dress with her hair is stylish 1920's bombshell waves. Clary is in a simple dark royal blue satin dress alone with Jace's traditional suits. Simon is even here holding Izzy's arm wearing a full black suit and shirt. Cas has her glamor off and she's wearing a beautiful Greek inspired baby blue dress . While Mel has boat neck dress that reaches the floor and all over it looks like falling rose petals. I simply have a red velvet suit jacket to go with my assemble and only the arrow cuff that I hardly ever take off I forget it's there and a necklace that Alec had gotten for me while he was in uptown New York. It's a simple antique locket with a blue fire opal with intricate design s all around, inside is a picture we took shortly after Raf agreed to let us adopt him. As the preacher walks in all glamor is off even that which I have in my eyes. Alec seems to smile at this as he stares into my eyes the entire time I barely notice until I say I do and am told that I can kiss my husband and I happily do. A man walks into the room barely taking notice of the warlocks. He shuts the door and I see a man with black horns and fangs.

"So I can tattoo in the hospital?" He asks looking straight at my sister the vibes I'm getting from him I want to hit him.

Cas simply ignores them I guess as she nods her head, "I soundproofed the room for now and got permission to do so anyways. We'll be doing traditional shadowhunter bands."

I watch Alec put the hand with his wedding ring to my mouth and tears fall from his eyes and I feel the same. I wanted to do this for our wedding and even told Cas as such. She must have looked into it.

"Can you do it Sam?" Cas' voice almost sounds challenging.

"You know I can. This will be a piece of cake. I'll just need them to remove the rings and let me do my work. I'll work first with the 1 in the hospital bed."

I want to be pissy with this long haired dick, but he's right in a way. So I sit on Alec's free side ad watch as a beautiful white gold ring appears on his hand. I smile at Alec when I catch him staring and I see the glisten in his eyes that can only say pure happiness. When it's my turn I only have eyes on Alec barely registering anything else. When he's all done I slip my ring back on and grab the locket placing this memorising in it so I can watch it time and time again. Though I'm sure both Izzy, Cas, and Clary have it covered. I'm right and Cas looks at us, "Magnus, umm… I want to get a picture of the newly weds. Can I get it with the traditional rings on."

We nod our head slipping off the mundane rings that are still a beauty if I must say with how much time we spent on picking them. They are simple and spelled to stay brand new much like the locket I'm wearing. I hear a nurse and quickly everyone is back to the way they had come into this place. Izzy is leading Mel into a corner saying she's going to give her a beautiful fishtail braid better than I can.

As a nurse walks in she gives us all a dirty look, "Nurse Cat we need you in room 305."

Cat sighs as she nods but Alec and I get a hug before she leaves, "Congrats guys."

"Thanks," I tell her and I see Alec pointing at me while nodding as if to say 'what he said'.

I smile at him not wanting an of my fears to show on my face, but I know he can see it in my eyes. Alec has become a master at reading me he probably wouldn't even need to see my face. Still trying to be strong is a good front especially since we have our 7 and 9-year-old in the room. I need to be strong for them, but who would be strong for me. I'm pulled into a side hug as I sit on Alec's bed holding his hand. We sit there and slowly I find myself lying in the bed with him.

Everyone seems to disappear and I find that it's just Alec and me in the room.

"I'm sorry, Magnus," I try to say something and he covered my mouth gently with my hand and I know how much work he put into to do so, "Let me say this, please. I'm sorry, Magnus. That I screwed up. I should have told you about the warlock and that spell. I made a mistake, but we always seem to find our way back to each other. No matter what life throws at us and I think this is just another 1 of those. I know I'm not the only one that has spent so much of our time not feeling confident and scared, but when we get past all of that we were so much stronger together even when apart. I want you to think of that when I'm gone. I'll never be away from you not truly." Alec pulls out a different ring holding it out to me, "I know we had agreed on plain rings, but this one I had made just for you for after I'd be gone. I was going to put it in a lil box with your letter, but I had just picked it up right before I was taken here."

I nod my head as I take the ring. I look it over taking in how it has an arrow that wraps around the ring between the arrow tip and nock there are 3 stones 2 of which are sapphires that aren't even close to matching his eyes, but in the middle is a yellow diamond. I roll it around in my fingers to find the description to read, 'aku sayang kamu,' and next to it is a small celtic heart knot that stands for eternal love and a Chinese symbol that means that as well. I look up at Alexander to see his small smile.

"I love it. Thank you, Alexander.," I give him a gentle kiss, "Aku sayang kamu. I'll love you forever."

Alec smiles at me I feel the tears fall down my cheeks. He starts wiping the tears away, "I'll love you, forever as well my love."

I chuckle thinking of how we spent a lot of time calling each other my love and my nephilim when we first started to see each other. He got mad when I called him my own personal angel.

"Magnus, get some sleep. We'll talk more in the morning," Alec whispers and I know it's more than just him whispering.

I curl up closer to him wrapping my arms tightly around him, "You can't leave me until you say goodbye remember that, my sweet sweet nephilim."

I hear him chuckle, "I know, now sleep, my love."

I hear machines blaring and someone is trying to pull me away from Alexander's side. I won't let go, but I snap my eyes open to see nurses and doctors running around the room. I look up to see Cat standing there. She manages to separate me from Alec.

I want to yell at her but instead, I start to scream at him, "You promised to say goodbye. You promised. You still need to talk to the boys. Please, I can't do this alone. I need you, Alexander."

The machines start beeping regularly for a little while and the doctor looks astonished. He looks over at us and then Alec before he shakes his head and motions for me to follow him out of the room.

"I'm sorry Mr. Bane-Lightwood, but I don't think your husband will make it past today. With each time he flatlines, it does more damage. I'd be ready to say your goodbyes and I'll leave you to it."

I crumple down and I feel Cat wrap her arms around me, "Magnus, you knew this would happen 1 day. Alec is a shadowhunter you are lucky you even have this."

I know she's right that even with there being peace between downworlders and shadowhunters there are still patrols by all races.

I sigh as I shake my head, "I never wanted to lose him though, Cat. I wanted to be with him forever… even if he's mortal. Look Cat I need to grab the boys and bring them in to see him 1 more time. We'll talk after that."

Cat sighs as she looks at me, "You mean if you don't run away. You're lucky that I like you even a little bit."

I chuckle as I look at her, but a big whoosh of air it's all gone when I'm faced with my boys wrapped around me like octopi. I lead them into Alec's room and we're faced to see him with an oxygen mask on and the weak beeping of the machine. The boys slowly make their way to Alec's bed before they climb up on it wrapping themselves around him.

He opens his eyes and gives them a weak smile and pulls the mask down, "Hey, there are my boys."

"Daddy, you'll be alright won't you," Max asks him.

Alec shakes his head, "I'm not sure, buddy, but know that I love you more than anything the both of you. We were so lucky to have both of you in our lives."

Max and Raf are crying and it' not pretty at all. I watch them as Alec shushes them and kisses their heads. We make eye contact, and he gives me a weak but sure smile.

I point to the door and before I exit I hear Alec say it, "Goodbye, Magnus, love you."

I freeze up as I look back at Alec, "Goodbye, Alec, I'll always love you."

I watch a small secret and sad smile grace his lips so I walk back and kiss him, probably for the last time. I walk out of the room to find Luke standing there with his arms crossed.

"I just heard plus you guys got married last night, I believe congrats are in order."

I nod my head as I look at him, "Yeah, I'd say there is if it wasn't for what's happening right now."

"The warlock that did that he was brought into the Clave earlier, but they want you to talk to him."

"Good," I look through the glass door to see Alec sitting there talking to the boys.

"There's nothing that Cat or you can do?" Luke asks and I shake my head dejected. Luke seems to catch what's going on, "I'm sorry."

I nod my head, "Yeah, me too."

The boys slowly leave the room as Cat and Cas push lead them out. I smile at Alec and he gives me the same small smile back right before his machine flatlines. It's a good few minutes before I hear time of death. I find my way to Alec's side as I take his hand in my own. I kiss it as I set it down and lean over to give his forehead a kiss. I know I'm cringing, but who wouldn't. Alec is gone and I don't know what I'm going to do with myself.

I bite my lip as I look at away and back, "I love you, forever and a day. I will Alec no matter how many centuries that will pass. "