Epilogue- Hello… Again

I never thought life would give everything it has. To have had a loving husband who cared about me as much as he had. To of had such loving children that would run around yelling about how proud they are to be our children. Yet as life started to come to a close I realized just how alone I really was. I started to notice how my children got older and moved on with their lives with families they had started. The worst part would be how the love of my life never seemed to age and how he had to watch me grow old and leave him. That was never my plan. I knew he had talked about becoming mortal, but I felt like it was too big of a risk for him. What if somehow it killed him or there's was too big of a price that had to be made? Our life together had just started at that time, but he had already meant so much, we were together for so long. I never thought that our time together was going to stop. Yet I grew older as time passed as anyone would…. Anyone but an immortal. My husband that great Magnus Bane, High Warlock of Brooklyn, didn't age and we were soon left in the dust. I started to get slower and soon we'd stop being intimate cause my body just couldn't take it anymore. So when the time came and I had died I was so relieved I never thought much of it. Though when my dear sister-in-law had decided to come talk to me one night shortly after I met her she had given me a sour look.

"You heard me give Magnus the choices didn't you?"

I simply nodded my head and smiled sadly at her, "He does not wish for us to be. He still hasn't told me and I'm sure he never will. I bet he's scared of what will happen if he died one day and I'd still be reborn."

She shakes her head as she looks at me, "It doesn't work that way. The spell ties the 2 of you together and as long as he's alive than your rebirth will happen. Though when he dies the rebirth will stop and you'd never know truly."

"I've spent all this time and I think I'd like to try the rebirth. Is there anything that truly changes?"

"Umm… Let's see your birth date is usually a bit after you die. Always on your last date of death. There will be a mark that will always show… like a birthmark or scar. Alec where did that tattoo come from it's not a rune I know?"

I look at where's she's pointing at the Celtic love knot that Magnus and I had gotten tattoos of one drunken night on our honeymoon at that, "It's a Celtic love night. It represents eternal love… Magnus and I had gotten matching tattoos on our honeymoon while we were very drunk."

She had chuckled as she looked at it and point to it, "That will stay but will look more like a birthmark or scar than a tattoo."

I nod my head and then I look at her, "Will it hurt?"

"I'm not gonna lie to you, Alec, It hurts like no other. It hurts like it does cause I reach in and touch the very fabric that makes you, you. Though with Magnus out right now I can tie you 2 together and he won't even know the pain. Would you really like to do this behind his back?"

I look at Magnus passed out next to my hospital bed, "Yes, I know he'll never allow me to do this. He wants me to live a rather normal boring life as a shadowhunter, but I can't think that I'd leave him alone for eternity until one day he simply dies somehow. I can't let that happen even though I know Max will be with him no matter what. Yet, I know he'll lock himself away until he can't. I told Cat that no matter what he's too try to live a life without me, but I know he won't. He'll let himself become alone with no care in the world. I can't let him do that, Cas. I love him too much. I can't let him be alone. To let him be filled with the memories of what was and spend the rest of his life thinking of me and everything he could have done to prolong our time together."

I watched one of the oldest warlocks I've had ever meet smile gently as she whispers, "I'm sorry."

Before I can ask why she shoved her hand into my chest and I can feel her hand wrap around my heart. I watch her remove her hand with what looks like a clear looking heart. Then she stands over Magnus and does the same it's almost like she's switching them. I can hear her words float around us but none of it sticks to me. Especially when she shoved her hand back into my chest. I don't remember blacking out, but I had I woke up in the morning like nothing else mattered.

I sigh as I run a hand over my clothing once again. I look myself in the mirror and take in the differences between me now and Alec Lightwood. Now I'm a boring mundane by the name of Alexander Tennant. I'm originally from London, but when I was 16 my parents had moved to New York to have a fresh start. I still have that lovely accent, which I hope Magnus will like. I take in my still dark hair and bright blue eyes. Though this face definitely doesn't belong to the old me… it's too… I'm not sure, but the difference is uncanny, like from a Matthew Daddario to a Bradley James.

I hear a knock on my apartment door and as I open it I'm faced with both Cas who still looks to be a 21years old and her daughter Mel who looks to be the exact same age. I stare at them shocked and at the same time rather excited to see them, but they are not my husband and sons… Well, the Lightwood version of my family.

"My dear Alec, how have you been?"

I give her a look you mean after I died and after I was reborn into this body? How do I have my memories?"

They give me a look, "We're not sure the only way I think that'd happen is if you already been reincarnated and tying you to someone makes it so you have your memories. Look it's been about 50 years since you died and well the first 20 were rather rough for all of us. Magnus the most. He spent a lot of his free time when he wasn't with the boys or working he spent at a statue monument that he had made for you. It's a pretty good likeness as well. I'm sure since it's the anniversary he's there with the boys and their families. Magnus has barely left Brooklyn and Max he's in the same boat. Rafe, on the other hand, had pushed through all of it with the help of Laurel, the beautiful woman he had married. He named his firstborn after you. When his son's eyes stayed blue he was so happy. Everyone loves all 3 of Rafe's children. I guess you can meet them though they are in their a bit older. I mean you are the age of his youngest child and his oldest grandchild."

"So you're telling me that my birthday is on the anniversary of my own death?"

"Yes, it is. It will always be like that mostly it's your first death. Alec, I'm here to bring you to your family. I know that they might not completely seem like that, but."

I give her a look cutting her off rather quickly, "no matter if I have my memories or not they will always be my family, Cas. They are the people that I love the most. They are my family. I've tried to fall in love with different people, but I haven't met someone who made my heart beat like Magnus did mine even when we first met."

"Though this life it seems you're living outside the closet though I wonder what the symbol became that Magnus will know that it's you."

I lift up my hand and show her, 'well besides the wedding tattoo still being on my ring finger like a birthmark."

She seems confused for a second before she shrugs it off smiling seeming to realize that she's been ignoring her daughter, "Mel, can you open a portal to Uncle Magnus and your cousins."

She nods her head, "of course, mom. They are in the same place as they always are. Raph is there this year with his kids and max is there with his most recent lover… Sandra, I think her name is."

I can't help but ask, "And Magnus what of him?"

"Alec, Magnus hasn't taken a lover since you died. I think cause he didn't know that you took one of the wishes in the first place so he blames himself for all of this. These last 46 years have been hell for him."

"I'm way too nervous about this. What if he doesn't recognize me? What if he gets mad at me?"

"Honey, calm down he might be mad, but you are the 1 thing that he'll always want and love. Remember that Alec. Though let's go see your husband and kids."

I walk through the portal with Cas and Mel surprised when I see the intricate statue of me… as an angel sitting down holding a bow and quiver to the leg as if ready to fight, but they rather not. I find a rather large group standing around. I see my beautiful boys all grown up. Though of course, they would be it's been a good 50 years. Though Max doesn't seem to be older than maybe his mid-20's. Raph is in his mid-50 now and he seems to be aging a lot better than most people or he's been dying his hair back its original color. I look at the woman who are at their sides and I can't help the small smile that graces my lips when I see that. Though my eyes still train on Magnus looking the same as ever. They don't seem to be looking our way just yet and I just see their backs. I back towards where the portal was, but Cas and Mel grab a hold of my arms pulling me away from it.

"Alec, this is your family even if it might not seem like it. I know you said that they will always be family. They will always love you."

"What if I'm too different than before?"

They give me a look and I sigh knowing that I'm defeated. I let them pull me up to the group and they hardly look back at us. They seem to just be standing there, but in seeing over their shoulders I see what seems to be letters placed on the foot of the statue along with the same bouquet of flowers that Magnus had given to me when I was in the hospital… dying.

Without looking back Magnus says over his shoulder, "Mel, Cas put your letter up for we can go to the dinner."

I can't help myself when I ask, "Is it that's almost exactly between the institute and your… old loft? What did we always call it….? Oh yeah, Gravity wasn't it cause we always found ourselves eating there."

I watch as Max, Raph, and Magnus looks back at me simultaneously look back at us more specifically me… and I'm pretty nervous about this cause I'm worried that once they see me they won't want me.

"Cas… Mel… Who did you bring with you?" Magnus asks us and his eyes are filled with curiosity.

"Well…. If I tell you…. Do you promise to only be mad at me?"

"Well I'm not sure what you're talking about, but yeah sure I'll only be mad at you for whatever reason you bring this… guy here for a family event."

"Well, you see that he is family. Umm… You know however long ago I gave you the choice of 3 wishes," I watch Magnus slowly nod his head, "Well," she takes my hand lifting it up, "Alec had picked one when he was in the hospital."

Magnus grabs my hand tightening his hold on his wrist as he stares at my ring finger before he looks back at me, "Alec… No, you can't be I let you die," Magnus gasps out as he holds my wrist and having almost a full blown panic attack.