"Another drink, please." He called out to the bartender. Instead of being at home, spending Christmas with his friends and his mate, Roman was at a bar. Drinking his sorrows away.

The night was going great so far until some hours ago. Dean had a miscarriage, lost their pup. Then he found out that he couldn't get pregnant again, for it could result in his death. It was all too much.

When he was leaving the house, he could hear Dean crying out for him. He knew his mate needed him, so why did he leave?

'I try to give him the best in life. Care for him, cherish him, love him...But despite everything I do I keep on failing him...'

His thoughts were interrupted when he felt someone climbing into his lap. A young, blonde omega woman was sitting in his lap. She was peppering kisses on his jaw, going down to his neck.

"You look very lonely tonight..." She said, looking up at him. "Why don't you come home with me? I could be your Christmas present." She winked at him.

"I...I couldn't protect him."

"What?"

"I'm sorry, but I can't go with you. Could you please get off of me. I'm already mated."

"Fine. You won't get a piece of this then, jerk." She got off of him, walking away.

The bartender had now handed him his drink. Roman took a huge gulp from it.

"Hey, whoa there. Slow down. Take it easy."

"I'm a failure. I couldn't protect him all those years when he was taken away from me. And I couldn't protect him when he was hurt again."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm a terrible alpha. I can't do anything right for my mate."

The bartender sighed. "I'm guessing something happened between you two tonight?"

"We lost our pup, he can't get pregnant because it would be too risky. Its my fault that this happened...If I've just stayed with him none of this would have happened."

"Listen. I may not know what you two have been through, what it is that happened to your mate, but you can't blame yourself. We won't always be there to protect the ones we love. I have a mate, and I would never want anything to happen to her." The bartender finished what he was doing, then continued speaking. "You shouldn't be here. You should be home, with your mate. He's in a vulnerable state of mind, and needs you now. You must go to him now."

"You're right. I'm here punishing myself for what happened, and I left him alone." He stood up from his seat, paying the bartender. "Thanks for the advice. I appreciate it."

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Back at the house, Seth had just finished giving Dean a bath. The omega had a towel wrapped around him, and Seth was holding him, as he let him cry on his shoulder.

"H-he left...he just l-left me."

"Don't worry, Dean. I'm sure he'll be back. Just needs some time to himself."

Dean wiped away at his tears. "But why would he leave me when he knows that I needed him?"

"I...I don't know, Dean."

"Am I not good enough for him anymore?"

Seth didn't answer back. He had no idea why Roman would just leave like that. It was so unlike him to do something like this.

"Thats why, isn't it? He left me so he could go find someone else."

"What?! Dean, no! You know that's not true!"

"He doesn't want me anymore...I'm too damaged, too broken...He's had enough of me."

"Dean, you know Roman loves you! He doesn't want anyone else but you!"

Seth was trying to talk some sense into him. He didn't know what to do to make Dean see the truth. Outside, a car pulled up into the driveway. Seth looked out the window to see that it was Roman.

"Stay here. Don't anything stupid to yourself, okay?"

He soon left the room, leaving Dean by himself. The omega wasn't sure what to think anymore. Today was supposed to be a special day for the both of them. He thought that nothing would ever go wrong again in his life. But no matter how hard they tried to make it better, it just kept getting worse.

He couldn't take it anymore. Being here, feeling like a burden to everyone, especially to his mate.

"I know what I have to do..."

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"Hey, I'm back. I'm home." Roman called out to everyone. Seth came over to him, slapping him.

"You really fucked up this time."

"Seth, I just needed some time to think."

"Yeah, and while you were doing that, I was busy taking care of Dean when it should have been you."

"I'll go to him now. I'll apologize to him, let him know how I feel after what happened."

"You want to know he feels? He feels as though he's not good enough for you, that you don't want him anymore!"

"That's not true! He is my world, my soulmate! He'll always be enough for me!"

"Why don't you go tell that to him then? You really messed up this time, Roman. I hope you can fix it."

Hearing these words made Roman feel even more guilty. He didn't know that he had caused Dean so much pain by leaving him. He headed upstairs to their room, knowing that he had to make things right again.

He opened the door to their bedroom, seeing his mate standing over the bed. "Dean, its me...I'm here now."

Dean ignored him, going over to the dresser, and getting out some of his clothes. He threw them into a suitcase that was on the bed, which confused Roman.

"Dean...baby? Baby, what's going on? Talk to me."

"Roman, I'm not your baby anymore."

"But you are. You'll always be my baby."

"Just stop! Enough!" He yelled at him. "Move. I need to grab some more things."

"What's going on, Dean? Why are you packing your stuff up?"

"I can't stay here anymore." He said, putting some more stuff into the suitcase, then closing it. "I can't stay where I'm not wanted anymore."

"Baby, don't say that. You are wanted here. I need you to stay with me."

"And I needed you with me, but you left. I cried out for you to come back, but you didn't!"

"I needed to be alone."

Dean laughed bitterly. "Yeah, so you could go fuck another omega."

"You know that's not true." Roman said, while rubbing his back. "You're the only one who I want, the only one who I'll ever need. Dean, please. Just sit down, so I can explain."

"You said you were different..." He whispered.

"What was that? Speak up Dean, I can't hear you."

You said you were different. You told me that you were!" Dean spoke louder, finally facing him. "I believed you! I really thought you would be different, but you turned out to be just like everybody else!"

Roman grabbed ahold of both his wrists, pulling him close to his chest. "Dean, I'm so sorry..." He held onto him, just letting the other cry, letting it all out.

"I...I really thought you were different..."

"I am, Dean. Haven't I proven to you that I am?"

"You left me...just like everyone else does."

Roman lifted his face up. "And I am here now. I'm never going to leave your side ever again."

"I love you, I really do. But it can't keep going on like this. Roman...I must leave. You need to let me go."

"But why? Why are you leaving?"

"I...I don't know...I need to be on my own...for a while." More tears fell down his face. "I'm sorry, Roman, but this...its just getting worse...I can't do this anymore."

"So you're running away? You're going to leave, just like that?"

"Y-yes...I'm scared that if I stay, it'll only get worse between us. I'm no good for you anymore, Roman. I'm too much of a burden and you don't need that in your life."

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They both sat at the bus station, waiting for the next bus that Dean was getting on. Roman gave him everything he needed, except the things that reminded Dean of him. He was bringing the kitten with him though.

"I...I still don't understand why you're doing this...Why you think you're a burden to me when you know you're not." Roman said, his eyes red from crying so much. "I don't want to let you go."

"Its hurts me to leave you like this." Dean said, his eyes also red. "Please understand that I just need some time to myself for a while."

"W-will you come back?"

"I can't say for sure if I will or not." The bus pulled up near them. They had a few more minutes to say goodbye to each other. Roman cried, holding onto Dean even tighter.

"Please, Roman. Don't cry. Please."

"I won't ever see you again."

"Stop. Please. No more tears. You're making this more harder than what it already is." He turned to Roman, tangling his hands in his hair. "You'll always be with me, here in my heart."

"And you'll always be in mine." Roman whispered, while kissing him. "Please, just promise me, that you'll be safe."

"I will." Dean said, kissing him. "I gotta go. I love you. Please take care of yourself."

"I love you, too. My forever."

"My forever..." He whispered. "Goodbye, Roman." He turned to walk away, slightly holding onto Roman's hand. He let go when he was closer to the bus. He took one last look at him, knowing how much he was going to miss him.

Roman watched as he got on, going to his seat. Dean sat down, staring at him through the window. They were both trying very hard not to cry.

Soon the bus left. Roman kept staring at it, until it turned a corner. He was gone. Dean was now gone. It hurt so much. Hearing his heartbeat was the only comfort he had.

"Goodbye...My forever. Please be safe."

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Seth woke up, hearing the door open. He kissed his mate on the cheek, who stirred a little, but remained asleep. He got up, going downstairs to see who it was.

He saw Roman standing in the hallway, taking off his coat.

"Roman? Did you go somewhere?"

"Yeah."

"Did you and Dean work things out last night?"

"I let him go."

"Huh?"

"He needs to be on his own for a while. He was afraid that it would get worse between us, feels he is a burden. I took him to the bus station. I let him go, Seth."

"Okay, why would you do that!? We need to go after him!" Seth opened the door to go outside, but Roman stopped him.

"Seth, stop. Its too late."

"But why would you just let him leave?"

"Its for the best for now. I can't force him to stay if he doesn't want to. Maybe someday I'll see him again, he'll come back to me. I have to keep going on without him. Dean wouldn't want me to give up."

"I'm going to miss him so much. He was like a brother to me."

"I know. I am going to miss him, too."

"So, what are we going to do now?"

"I know there's one thing I am doing."

"What's that?"

"I'm moving."

"Why?"

"This place doesn't feel like home anymore."