A/N: Ok so this took a turn. Was writing last night when I couldn't sleep and this is what came out. I'm not entirely mad at it though. Reviews are always welcome.

5 years ago…

Alex left Noonan's feeling better than she had in a long time. She wasn't sure what was happening with Diana but she had gotten her number and plans for dinner the following evening. But right now, she needed to talk to Kara. She didn't bother calling she just made her way over to her apartment. Just as she was about to rap her knuckles against the door Kara flung it open.

"I want all the details of this morning and whatever it was that happened this afternoon." Kara spoke rapidly while dragging Alex into her apartment.

Alex didn't know where to begin. Now that she wasn't in Diana's presence her head was spinning. She had a good time talking with her and in the 5 hours that they had sat at Noonan's Alex never found a moment that she wasn't completely comfortable, completely at ease with Diana. She did however find herself becoming less intoxicated with her beauty and more intoxicated with Diana as a whole.

"Did you find her as breathtakingly beautiful as I did when we collided this morning?"

"Probably. Don't get me wrong I love Lena and think she is beautiful but she is…wow!"

"Ok so I'm not losing my mind."

"You should have seen your face when she whispered in your ear. If I hadn't been so blindsided by her beauty I would have been blushing."

"I know I had to have been. I knew it was Diana approaching. I saw her when I walked in but I was completely taken by surprise when she whispered in my ear."

Alex was shivering again recalling Diana's whispered words in her ear. She would never admit to Kara what Diana's actions had done to her in that moment. It had almost unraveled her. Something many of the new DEO recruits would pay good money to be able to do. She had to admit being taken surprise by another woman felt good. She hadn't felt like this since Maggie walked into her life 2 years ago.

"She gave me her number and we're going to dinner tomorrow night."

Kara looked at her sister a bit skeptically, "Are you sure you're ready for this? I know it has been 6 months and, don't hate me, I know you still cry yourself to sleep most nights."

"Still flying by my apartment, are you?" Kara opened her mouth to protest but Alex stopped her. She really wasn't mad at Kara she knew she flew by not just her apartment but all the people Kara cared about would get regular nightly check ins.

"Honestly Kara, I will never really get over Maggie. She was the first person I could ever be myself around. Helped me understand a part of myself that I had kept buried for so long. I will spend the rest of my life wondering what my life would be like if Maggie hadn't died. I don't know what Diana's intentions are. She seems interested in me which I guess is a good thing. But this afternoon was just her buying me coffee because she felt bad about running into me this morning. We just happened to spend a few hours talking and had a few similar interests."

Kara knew how hard Maggie's death had hit Alex. A week before they were getting married Maggie got shot and it nearly broke Alex. It was a sight Kara hoped she would never have to witness again. She had to admit the look Alex had on her face when Diana whispered in her ear warmed her heart. Maybe this was exactly what Alex needed. Even if things didn't go any further than dinner it would get Alex back out there and maybe she could start dating again.

"J'onn did send you home because you couldn't focus and maybe because your thoughts were too much for him to handle?"

Alex couldn't deny her thoughts had drifted to Diana naked and some of the things she wouldn't mind doing to/with her. But her thoughts never stayed there for long because she felt like she was cheating on Maggie simply by thinking those things. Deep in the recesses of her mind she knew that wasn't true. Maggie was dead so she couldn't actually be cheating on her.

"Ok yes I was thinking things that I shouldn't have been thinking around J'onn. Maybe this is what I need to help me move on. Really move on from Maggie. I know I'll never have what I had with Maggie ever again, but what we had was something really beautiful Kara. If I can find something close to that and be that Alex Danvers again then I have to put myself out there. Dinner with Diana is a good start I think."

After that declaration Kara knew Alex was ready. It might be a bumpy road but Kara would always be there for her sister in any way she needed her. Secretly she was routing for Diana. If she had managed to keep Alex talking to her for a few hours then she had to be something special. Not to mention she was absolutely stunning. But that didn't really matter it was just an added bonus.

"Well just know I'm here for you 100 percent." Kara walked over to her sister and wrapped her in her arms.

Alex pulled away with eyes glistening from tears she refused to let fall, "That's good because I'm going to need your help picking out an outfit for tomorrow night."

Present Day

Alex awoke the following morning earlier than usual. Truth be told she hadn't slept much anyway. Her mind had been on several things. Themyscira and how exactly they were going to get there, Diana her amazing wife and Maggie. In 2 weeks, it would be Alex and Diana's 2-year wedding anniversary. But today was always going to be a hard day. Alex thought that after things progressed with her and Diana that the anniversary of Maggie's death wouldn't leave this crippling ache in her chest. That threatened to rip her in two. Alex turned toward her still sleeping wife and was just as stunned by her beauty as the day she met her five and a half years ago. After Maggie died Alex wasn't sure if she would ever find love again. The love she had for Diana was the same and yet also different from the love that she had for Maggie. Alex kissed Diana's forehead and made her way to the kitchen.

Alex started a pot of coffee and fixed herself a dry double toasted sesame seed bagel and poured herself 2 fingers of a double barrel 12-year aged scotch. Maggie's preferred breakfast of choice and her favorite scotch. Alex made her way to the balcony and watched the city come to life. She finished off the bagel and sipped slowly at the amber liquid. A tear rolled down her cheek. This was Maggie's favorite time of day. Usually because Alex would just be getting back from her morning run or they would both be waking up and Alex would decide her run wasn't necessary and they would make breakfast with each other in the kitchen.

Diana woke to an empty bed. She smelled coffee so she knew Alex wasn't out running. She crawled out of bed, grabbed her robe and made her way to the kitchen. When she saw the bottle of scotch she remembered what day it was and her heart broke for her wife. She had learned early on in their relationship that on this day, she would always come second.

At first, she wasn't sure if she could handle that. But after talking to Kara, James, Winn, J'onn and even Eliza she herself wished that Alex Danvers was spending the rest of her life with Maggie. She knew Alex loved her, that was never an issue and once Diana got the superfam's side of the Alex and Maggie saga that was when she was truly able to love Alex and help her with the ever-present grief for Maggie. Alex had done the same for her and the love that she still carried for Steve. Granted she didn't get as much time with Steve as Alex had gotten with Maggie. In her heart, she knew that if given the chance she and Steve would have had the same type of love that Alex and Maggie had shared.

The coffee was done brewing so Diana poured herself a small cup and watched her wife on the balcony. Next thing she knew there was a knock at the door. She looked through the peep hole and smiled.

"Kara, I would say what a pleasant surprise but we both know why you're here."

Kara gave Diana a small smile, "How is she?"

"The same as she always is on this day. She's out on the balcony sipping Maggie's favorite scotch. Probably going over the details of that day, that moment in her head."

Kara knew exactly what was going through Alex's mind. She had been there to witness it all. She had hoped that after meeting Diana and falling in love again it would lessen the pain of that day but every year it hit her just as hard as the first.

"I just wanted to drop off her favorite doughnuts. I know it won't heal the gaping hole in her heart but it will help. As will you. I know this day has to be tough on you too. It can't be easy watching her grieve for Maggie."

"It was hard the first year. Only because Alex and I hadn't been together long and she had only talked about Maggie briefly because things were still too raw. Talking to you, your family and friends and getting your perspectives on their relationship helped."

Diana remembered the day Alex told her the whole story of how she met and fell in love with Maggie. "I don't know if she told you about the night she realized she loved me but that was the night she told me their love story. I think reliving all those details helped some."

Kara hadn't realized that had happened that night. But it makes sense Alex demeanor had changed and Kara had always figured it was because Alex had finally moved on or at least moved on as much as she could.

"No, she never went into detail about that night. I'm glad you two ran into each other that morning. I wasn't sure she would ever find love again. Give her a hug for me, will you?"

"I will. Oh, and tell Lena I might be close to closing a deal on that painting she has been after."

Kara turned back and gave Diana a smile before she walked out the door. Diana had finished her coffee and decided it was time to see how Alex was holding up. She poured herself a fresh cup as well as one for her wife and made her way out to the balcony. Alex had maybe one more swallow of the scotch before it was gone. She placed the coffee cup in front of Alex's face. Alex reached for it and gave Diana a small smile.

This was the first year that Alex had felt less like she was going to fall apart at any given moment. Yes, she still felt as if she was going to be ripped in two but somehow, she was holding herself together. This was the first year that she knew that she was going to be ok. That she was going to be able to make it through. Her thoughts not being able to stay far away from Diana, Themyscira and the other little tidbit of news she had to tell her. That she had meant to tell her last night but didn't because they had gotten lost in each other.

"Thank you. Not just for the coffee but for being so understanding. I don't know many women or men that would be able to handle this." Alex gestured her free hand over and around her body.

"I would have to be heartless to not understand. Maggie was special and you would be with her now if she hadn't died. I know you carry the grief with you every day and today is the day that it hits you the hardest. Your only like this once a year I would be a terrible wife if I didn't let you grieve for the life you lost."

"But this doesn't make you think that I love you less? That's something that I think about every year. Usually the day after but this morning my thoughts keep going from the good memories of Maggie, the day she died and you and how this has to make you feel."

Diana saw the look in Alex's eye's and it melted her heart. Alex's empathy was one of the first things Diana had fallen in love with. This was something they had never talked about. How Diana felt on this day.

"That first year I didn't know if I would be able to take it. If you would be capable of loving anyone else. Yes, sometimes your love for Maggie does make me feel like you love me less. But then I remember that not all loves are the same. That you love me differently than you love Maggie. Because that is what matters. At the end of the day you do love me and are committed to us and our future."

Alex didn't deserve Diana's love but was grateful she had it. Grateful that they had run into each other five and a half years ago. Grateful that a few months after meeting Diana was willing to give the still broken Alex Danvers a chance.

"Speaking of our future I had something else I wanted to tell you last night but you had other ideas." Alex said with a devilish grin.

Diana easily returned Alex's grin with one of her own. "How else was I supposed to thank you for possibly locating my home."

If they weren't careful they would have a repeat of last night and Alex would never get this out.

She decided that the best option she had would be to just say it. "I'm pregnant."

Diana wasn't sure she had heard Alex correctly. It took her a few seconds to recover from the shock. "Say that again."

"I'm pregnant."