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"It was before I returned to the order I found Cross also hiding in there he was able to save Alma who wanted the three of us to return to the order, Cross said no. he speculated that you wouldn't be at the order much longer he knew about that thingy having moved to target the moyashi and also had talked to road about breaking you out and telling you to run for it. Alma decided then for us to spilt up cross went back to Anita she's alive, that's where he's running base I thought I could get there first arrived and was lied to about your death cross snorted at that."
"knew he wasn't dead, how's Alma doing?" Allen poke from the pocket.
"traumatized cross has him going any where he thought you'd go, he's spent the last few years following the trail of debts, going to the houses with lovers of cross that you liked, mothers place, mana's grave, any place around the world that has all you can eat for free. While I've been stuck at the order trying to sneak people out when ever I can I send them to Anita's and she smuggles them out book man's part of this he's trying to get he's supplying cross with information, Actually that's why the three of us are on this mission I got told by Koumi to sneak Lenalee out on this trip its high enough levelled that bastard wont notice if we lost a high powered exorcist or two. Revver's waiting in London for you Lena and Lavi if he cant act like you died on the mission."
"and if Allen was found then what Kanda, I swear I'm going to kill my brother!"
"Lena he's worried abut you, the orders not safe… it was something 'he' boasted about he wants to replicate what he did to Allen but to do that he needs to do the same to Hev first that failed." Link growled lightly laying a hand on the Chinese girls shoulder.
"of course it failed theirs no unbound innocence at the base any more Hev synced it all to me we put fake ones in the slots and she is no longer an accommodate but the changes that her body where to much for me to reverse I was to out of it and the only way to fix her form is for both of us to focus on what she looks like originally I was to find a photo of her and try to use the heart to coax her innocence to restore her but I cant find it when ever I ask where it was its voice gets drowned out by the other 77 innocence on me plus I've been collected another 13 daily since I checked last I thought if I waited till the heart was whole then id try again…" came the soft yet bitter reply.
"the hearts not whole?" Lavi spoke up blinking.
"the myth that if you destroy the heart all innocence breaks is jut that a Myth, the heart isn't the strongest innocence but one of the creators of innocence. It's the same method the earl uses to make akuma… you have a main crystal that the ancient civilisation chipped up and mined. Parasitic types are made like in the case of Krory the innocence was in a man-eating flower when it bite him it was passed on, its my fault that he's an exorcist the plant was one cross had... it used to bite me I was in charge of it its carer that's why it had innocence it was passed from me, ground zero. Most innocence relaxes once near a heart beat like humans, it needs heat innocence can be found in plant, in any place with the sun weapons because of how often they are touched and used. In my search I've only found innocence it things that are used and touched often or are linked to something warm." Allen admitted gently.
"that's so cool."
"not really most of the time it can be vain such as Miranda's clock, it loves here it used to be in a mansion but akuma destroyed the place and each person who dare wind it called it trash, saying things like work you useless piece of junk, Miranda's different she care for it to near obsession so it tried to help her but like all innocence it doesn't know how to help. It doesn't understand people which is why it trapped her in that nightmare of the same day. It's a lot like her the reason she cant fully use it is due to it panicking and getting flustered worried that it will make her panic, its one of the most talkative ones I've talked to. Krory's innocence is keeping it on track like Krory dose her thought you lot have met his innocence he's a case where in battle the innocence takes over control of its host which is why Krory has memory problems when the battles over but its relaxing to work with its accommodate."
"go on Allen this is really interesting I bet half the science departments would kill to hear this." Johnny smiled warmly.
"I know the pass out part due to that being something the clown crown does if I get knocked out in a fight that I care about."
"seen it." Kanda muttered cutting off Allen.
"Matle? Thought so it also admitted to fight elide Krory's ex, mana my adopted father and another one hundred odd mission the majority being ones during my child hood. The heart was suppressing itself trying to keep me out of danger but the clown crown did attack without activating the ones that came when I was little pre mana time that was due to mana knowing the ways around akuma, he was Neah's and the Earl's brother but his innocence was broken when they where kids."
"Mana and the earl threw me are half brothers, our father had a wife a girlfriend and a mistress each of them had a child in the same hospital they met during a child birthing class wife and mistress died in child birth my mother the youngest raised us, she became a nun mana was a sickly child he was premature, he did get better but Adam was jealousy. I preferred being around Mana he taught me how to play the piano he was brilliant we often sung together Adam was more sporty I didn't mind much bit id get tired and scurry back so mana wasn't left out. My mother had an older sister that had kids and she adopted another when the three of us moved out, mana wanted to go into acting while I and cross were trying to decode some old runes to mixing it with modern tech's to make timcampy and Lero as xmas gifts. Adam saw some of the trail work and took it in his own direction."
"akuma." Lenalee spoke coldly not blaming the Noah.
"yep, he tried to bring back dad, in front of my mom killed her I the process Mana ended its existence and Adam took off after blaming mana like a child. On xmas he called me he wanted me to meet his family this was two years later I went. He had road and her pet kitten in a cage taken them both and injected them with his blood but it made him too weak to make Noah's and akuma. He was searching threw our dads history road was kidnapped as a baby, parents murdered she's our niece, our dad had a one night stand she kept the kid and her daughter married well and gave birth to road the Noah family is made up from that how closely related they are to our father… he chained me to a wall and so he didn't have to use his own blood to awaken the Noah genes within our family threw dad."
"he was a rapist?"
"yes again Lenalee, but never convicted he would wait a month of 'dating' before having sex that way it was considered consensual plus why would he leave his dear wife of three years who had a baby on the way? that was manas mother, adam began using my blood that way the family could be one when road turned four she was mentally a teenager she used copied the ark, my ark to get me to cross and mana but it was pretty much to late I bleed out in front of mana, I told the dog I gave him before my kidnap to make sure he always kept walking, sweet little thing English Foxhound not that big I had taught it to keep mana company."
"that dog its how I met mana, and why I was named. Mana was part of circus with his dog one of the other clowns a fire breather with a temper, cosimo he used to coax the others in the circus to use me for what whatever the wanted, punch bag sex toy being just two of the things he was the ringleaders son but mana was the one people cared for he was overly kind and his dog just added to it cosimo tried to make me feed him glass I refused after that damn thing wouldn't leave me alone one afternoon he didn't come over to me I went looking for him find cosimo finishing it off I got in the way so he took the rest of his tantrum on me when I woke I went to mana and helped him dig his grave."
"you mentioned he was why you where named yet you dodged its own name." link spoke instantly
"That's because Mana's dog was named Allen, I was named after the dog partially cause I wanted to recall how kind and stubborn it was and how it didn't give up on me. the other half cross thinks it was due to mana going nuts… laugh all you want I'm a cat named after a dog… I never mentioned it at the order due to mana being the reason I could read the writing in the ark mana taught it to me as a children's game…" Allen spoke head hung in defeat and sorrow.
"I had been linked to Allen long before they met and I decided to stay dormant mana didn't know I was there, I didn't want him to ignore a small child to focus on me mana never did he adored Allen without ever knowing I was watching from a very big very safe distance. I could have strangled cross if I didn't accidentally seal myself in too deep."
The room fell silent before Lenalee re rounded on Kanda. "what where you to do it we ever found Allen, Yuu Marise Kanda."
"Three options, tag along with the moyashi is number one, two is finding Alma, and the final drag him kicking and screaming to cross before I have to return to the order and continue sneaking people out."
"id rather continue on my way and go find Alma. Give me half an hour and I'll be able to find him and make him stay put." Allen spoke yes shimmering slightly.
"how ? come on moyashi chan don't leave me hanging."
"I need half an hour because I need to be human to do it, so I don't panic Alma, but I can show you in this form first." Came a devious smile traced Allen's lips as he gently leapt from Kanda's shirt pocket shutting his eyes for a second Lavi giving sharp yelp as his innocence erupted tying him to the chair and floor with silvery feather like ribbons his own flame dragon his favourite stamp curling at his feet growling unmoving despite Lavi's own struggling, as black Allen's laughter came threw.
"Allen let me go and tell me how no more demonstrations!"
"I asked the innocence, I would use this to flee but mugen's one that I know would say no if I tried… but then I wouldn't ask mugen something like that, besides that would be dangerous knowing mugen's true form."
"true form?"
"ok so lavis has a dragon made of fire sitting at his feet and nobody notices? That's the true form of his innocence. As I said innocence can be vain so they liken themselves to look like supernatural creatures, such as a dragon a wyvern in Lavi's case, others aren't to bad Lenalee's is a fairy I think it looks almost like she's wearing what could pass as a ninja outfit. Lena's isn't her at the moment though I think she's at the order, Lavi's was sleeping still so I woke him up and asked him to make sure you stayed still while being safe. I'm going to do the same for Alma so warning in advance if I start screaming in agony and passed out…" Allen spoked softly before calling off the innocence.
Eyes shutting arching in pain as his bones poled and twisted slowly the skin retreating into the milky skin claws returning to human fingers, only the ears and tail remaining with the screams as Allen slumped twitching to the ground Kanda picking him up darting into the bed room laying a clanked on the bed before looking threw his clothing Lavi and link ducking into their rooms to look for suitable clothing. As Lenalee and Johnny keeping a close look over Allen's vitals, Neah taken a seat on the end gently humming to his nephew.
"ok so between this we've got a shirt, pants, underwear and a hat for him to wear." Link spoke softly "Neah?"
"as Allen said he's only just started trying to change of his own will but then he's only been on his own two months the first was horrible he shut everything out like he did when mana died but it took road and wisely ranting and shaking him threw their combined dream and mental abilities to wake him, he's only started to try changing about five weeks ago the agony is unbearable he's doing rather well thought still needs more practice but this works well enough."
"nghhhhhmmmm…." Sliver eye's blinked open instantly going blank jerking back wards into the mattress in terror Neah and Kanda gentle coaxing him into full awareness as the others moved away content to let the other two insure Allen got dressed.
Quickly the boy worked mentally tuning in on Alma's innocence and asking it to keep Alma safe but within the small town glad that it was close with merely being a place that had a celebration time with free food to anyone who could eat every single meal in under ten minutes, making sure to in sure the innocence wouldn't pin the poor second exorcist some place dangerous or hard to explain. Example middle of a street , the innocence had given what felt like it rolled his eyes at his request but that was normal for older more sentient innocences like the heart was tired and lonely while the rest where like hyperactive children older innocence saw him like a babysitter who had been hog tied by their wards while the kids (younger innocence) helped themselves to sugar and explosives.
"Alma's half an hour away next town over, the lotus festival there a thing run by every single shop that if you can eat every single thing they can cook in under ten minutes its fee plus the pay you $100 for eating, during the night there's gambling. Many world champions of food eating contests come and will do gambling of who'll win the next day the several thousand losers then will hand over any and all alcoholic beverages to the winner, one of the shop owners is a bit like jerry."
"wait that's in XXXXXXXX right? Jerry has family there, a younger brother Terry."
((AN- im sorry I just had to go there, I know its cliché but it fits with the storyline I promise))
"oh dear god…." Allen muttered eyes widening at Lenalee's exclamation the others moving to leave the quicker they got to Alma the quicker they could work out what on earth they where going to do and knowing Allen get food and souvenirs for everyone they cared for.
"have you seen this boy." Kanda growled at the twenty first innkeeper.
"nono guests no paye for guests!"
"is. He. Here." Kanda glared harder.
The innkeeper babbled, Allen sighing pushing his way in front of Kanda.
"Dorian, its ok we'll paye extra for our stay."
"Ah Allen~! Long time no meet you know 'im?"
"aye were heading to the festia no renge, bossy isn't here just me and some of my friends, one came got on the wrong train and came a bit to early is he here?" Allen grinned calmly the innkeeper grinned and relaxing nodding.
"he is up in the loft was searching many are waiting to see you once more no thugies bad for business, see the sights this time."
"we will, thank you Dorian may we go up?" Allen smiled the man nodding handing them a handful of keys.
"free, free for you and companions owe you for keeping this town together."
The group blinked after each being hugged and shoved towards the stairs asides Allen you ducked under the man, going to Alma's picking the door worried where the innocence had tied the other teen up in, get ready to face anything as he entered not seeing Alma at first before noticing the door way to a bathroom partially open before groaning.
"Yami no Tora let him go now!" Allen half growled his cat ears picking up Alma's bathtub struggles.
A rush of air ripped threw the room cutting Allen's check.
"Real mature, you say I'm a brat yet you attack me when I stop you from harming the one 'stupid' human you care for now stop this temper tantrum, I don't like this any more then you do however that doesn't mean we cant find a common ground, and if you use another wind scythe on me I will not be able to keep kokoro calm I'm already suppressing her, so please listen to me …" Allen spoke calmly swaying slightly into Kanda's arms the attack halting as water splashed as Alma scrambled for a towel.
"Oi I found moyashi! Need me to throw some clothes in I've got tag alongs and moyashi's well you'll see when you get out."
Alma was back into the main room within minutes a small smile on his face before it faded seeing Allen panting the others crowded around him doing there best to help ease what even pain he was going threw.
"Allen change back rest and hour then shift back to human we'll wake you for tea please you still cant handle this kind of strain and yelling and fighting with two high powered innocence was never going to end well. Allen focus your safe come on please not now not again…" Neah spoke watching his nephews eyes roll back as he reverted back into a sand cat.
"yuu- kun I believe you have some splannin' to do."
"we found him, both the earl and that fucking levier rang human experimentation and according to Allen he died in the earls care so the dumb twit tried to relive the Noah in Allen like this but the innocence went to and some how Allen ended up being revived as well." Kanda spoke bluntly trying to bring down the small felines temp.
"how long has he been running around and what's he been doing."
"my nephews been obeying his innocence seeking out bits to restore the true heart the base of the heart has always been in him, he's been out for two months a few trustworthy Noah broke him out under the earls nose. Allen spent the first month unresponsive merely acting on the cat senses and need for survival that was until road and wisely the Noah's of dreams and wisdom managed to coheres his mind back into the front, mentally he's not fully al there yet he's often suffers flash backs over minor things. He's still getting used to the new body and his powers each innocence that returns to the heart he as Allen put it acts as a mass accommodation, the switching of forms is something I've been coaxing him to try over the last few weeks he fears the order as much as he dose the Noah's now thus no force on earth will have him return there I've tried. But the heart kokoro chan refuses to let anyone wearing the uniform near him."
"one of the few times to be glad to have YOUR curse Alma." Kanda muttered fingering the unblemished skin that had been bitten by the small sleeping sand cat Alma nodding not even questioning the Noah merely taking it in stride while hugging each of the small group of Kanda's friends or at least the few Kanda trusted with him and Allen.
Alma nodded eyes flickering sadly before turning back to Allen gently petting the small cat a faint smile on his lips, as Johnny and link started to spilt the stuff over into the different rooms deciding to leave the three only Lavi grinning before pulling Lenalee into the town wanting to do some sight seeing before getting to work, taking the chance to have a date without anyone or anything their to watch them. It was one of the many things that had changed over the years not only where missions harder and no accommodates nor innocence had been found more people vanished presumed dead or really had died. Levier had taken over crows and goloms where set to stalk each exorcist to keep them focused on the war, it was killing moral and setting everyone's nerves on it had been bad to start with but now their was truly no hope ever since Kanda and Alma left and Allen vanished no one not even those whom had dared insult Allen could find anything worth fighting for.
Allen was the light of the order he gave them hope the fact that he was the heart just further proved it. They missed and need him so bad, yet at the moment Allen needed them more then the other way around the order held o much pain too many secrets for the small frail teen they had driven him away and sold him. thus they need to get him back get the fun loving smile back they had to help him in any way they could, which was one of the reason they where checking the town over very carefully so they could be certain Allen would be safe while they got some time to relax and reminisce. Lavi ginning pulling Lena a touch closer his girlfriend grinning leaning against him contently, the pair smiling before focusing making there own plans of action after all this was a war so they would focus on their real fight for freedom, family, friends and finally for peace.
"hey Allen…. Thank you for not telling him.." Alma smiled seeing the sliver eyes flicker open.
"it wasn't something I was meant to, that's why I sent him with you. he's yours."
"he's yours as well sweetie you know that, right?"
Allen flinched moving shakily to his feet stretching the cat instincts causing him to start washing his face, before leaping to the floor silently in order to shift weakly dressing with Alma's help. Before laying back down panting trying to focus.
"Allen I mean it."
"where is he at the moment?"
"finishing Lenalee's and Lavi's sweep of the city with link shadowing him Jhonny's put bet on both of us and Lenalee and Lavi have retired to their sound proof room. Come on tell me what's wrong and what your planning dearest."
"its nothing I'll survive. As for planning I intend to act as normal for this town there's an innocence I'll collect then ii intend to vanish Kanda's not the only one able to track me I don't wish to put this town in jeopardy due to the likes of me." came the soft bitter sound.
"Allen come on you can tell me please tell me…"
"What are you two chitchatting about!" a slight stern voice echoed from the door as Kanda entered shrugging of his thick jacket and shoes before placing mugen near the bed.
" ' Nothing. ' "
Came the unison blended reply causing Kanda to fold his arms and raise an eyebrow frowning ever so slightly, yeah like he was going to believe that, one of them would crack sooner or later he'd find out so it was normally better for them to spill it now that way there was less of a chance of him over acting and hurting them by mistake. Allen managed to hold out without a single sign of giving up any time soon causing the Japanese by to smirk inwardly yes that was his Allen the one that wouldn't back down and could stand against him without fear of defeat or pain, Alma on the other hand was already slightly nervous the slightly dark boy have never being able to lie to him directly never had the by succeeded Allen on the other hand probably could get away with lying to him every so often but in a scenario where both would not only be worried about hiding what ever it was from him but also be worrying if the other would break.
"It's-about-your-past." Alma spoke too fast.
Allen merely sighed bowing his head deciding that it was Alma's story to tell in the first place.
"Kanda I'm not the exact person your looking for, yes you looked for me but I was never the final destination." Alma started softly moving to sit on the window still.
"and you moyashi."
"I see akuma souls despite only being part akuma there's enough akuma blood in Alma's system during that fight for me to see the soul of the woman in the dress you've been looking for."
"you have spent all this time looking for your lover but somewhere along the way you got confused and believed it was me, yes you wanted to find me I knew where your lover was hiding out. My brother was trying to protect you, from the order and everything else at the time there was just so much happening at the time. Much like now."
"spill now."
"your gay always have been just like Mugen's always been with you and I've always loved you like a brother, Arron he always stood out being albino in the motherland. Arron Hikari Kokoro Karama Arron was a nickname and insult as everyone always believed my twin was a Gaijin. There was a Noah man in the town similar bone structure but he wasn't kin. Ka-sama did her best to protect us, she explained that are father died fighting the Noah a monster named Adam, Oto-sama was a friend to your family our mothers being the only widows with children kept us together as kids running a herbal store using crushed flowers, using the lotus as a base our fathers knew each of us where accommodate two paras and a equip. I had a talent of changing lives with flowers not that I knew that. When we where teens you admitted to loving Hikari and he accepted until he found out something that spooked him so he fled and hid hoping they wouldn't trace us in the process." Alma spoked calmly looking at the moon as Allen remained head bowed as Kanda's eyes narrowed further.
"let me guess that bullshit you where sprouting to each other was over the moyashi being the reincarnation, clone, robot, golom, innocence time line altered version of my true lover who has always being my dopey martyr moyashi." Kanda finally spoke arms still folded firmly against his chest. "And that the moyashi for some reasons planning the same bullshit of running or has Some how put the idea of me not like him in his head added to the whole 'he thinks he loves you he was looking for you you cant have him its better this way' Crap."
Both boys winced giving the tiniest of nods, heads bowed until Kanda sighed pulling both boys close hugging them gently rolling his eyes.
"you to numb skulls… I don't give a shit about that crap just that you two are safe."
Allen gave a soft empty laugh pulling away from Kanda taking Alma's earlier position at the window still letting the chilling bitter laughter fill th room softly yet still seeping with danger refusing to let the others near enough to heart his pain masking it with bitterness. Both boys trying to move closer only to have the molten sliver glare turned on them mixed with Allen's slight smirk, the chuckles leaving him dangerously worse then the rage of black Allen after Lavi dared tried to get out of paying after a loss he had been found handing naked by his hair from highest point in the order in the middle of winter the everything but the eye patch had been sold with book man's fully agreement Lenalee only saving few things she deemed necessary the rest had been auctioned to the highest bidders under strict order to never return anything they bought to Lavi after the 2 dozen finders and head nurse got him down and treated the several dozen bruises inside and out Allen had left on the apprentices book man.
"Allen?" "Moyashi?"
"safe? How utterly hilarious since when has safety been any goal or objective, I've never been safe. What part of me ever made you think I need to be kept Safe? Don't patronise me there is nothing that can protect me nor would I want it."
"Arren… that's not-" Kanda started.
"Yuu meant? I know Bakanda, I know exactly what you meant. Do you really think me that naive that I'd blush if someone mentioned sex that if you asked to kiss me or merely did id whimper and turn away since when did you think so low of me? I don't want nor need you pathetic attempt at pity you lousy fucker, as I said YOU'RE THE one who said no strings, I never wanted strings nor will I ever need something as weak as Love. This is a war, focus on it take your attention off the likes of me and get back to your real job."
Kanda's jaw slackened in horror listening to the soft poison like words Allen was half purring his tail whipping like a metronome diamond shaped pupils mere thin lines of hatred and self-loathing. Alma's wasn't fairing much better this was Allen walker the kid who tilted his head adorable and had to ask Lenalee (puppy eyed her to death) to learn what seme, uke, sm, and a blowjob meant, yet here the teen was vulgar and cruel spitting words in a way that just didn't suit him.
"Arren…" Kanda tried again again cut off.
"I'm not done yet, I'm not something worth protecting, I'm nothing. I've Always been nothing the sooner you realise you have nothing to gain from being in my presence the better off you are. I'm not precious, I'm hideous, I'm a freak, there's no Desire to be free or safe or cared for I've never need it in the past so you and the rest can shove the crap your weakly attempting to feed me up your arse. I'm not pure or innocent I've never been. Now besides what on earth makes you believe that some form of us remaining as fuck buddies would work. What part of I'm dead and tormenting this poor powerless animal don't you get, I'm Dead this isn't my body, my soul was forced into without my will I feel like a fucking akuma in this state. I Am Dead I've seen my corpse Kanda Yuu, what do I have to do to get that threw your thick empty head!" Allen seethed.
"Arren."
"Do you want to hear how I died would that help you~ will that prove that I'm tainting to tainted for even the likes of you to degrade yourself by even looking in my direction. I said I died earlier in the earls care did I not, did you know the Noah rebelled that they tried to free me in the first week yet they had a traitor in their mist. Did you know that traitor I dint tell the earl but lied to protect the other Noah's? That they single handedly hurt each of them and pined it on me? I recall ever seconds worth of the agony. I recall watching road be tied to an electric chair, I recall jasdevi being thrown into an iron maiden and how their screams blended to mask my own, I watched as wisely was tripped into a sealed air lock I watched as he healed over and over from oxygen deprivation, I cried out as Shirley begged his twin to stop while his flesh was seared off in a vat of molten metal, how the remaining Noah lied helplessly on the ground their spines turned to dusts as their guts spilled into the pool of blood."
"Arren!"
"I recall weakly fighting, I felt it as my skin was peeled off my innocence arm skinned like a rabbit, I lost my voice as my own skin was forced down my mouth after two years of being starved. I felt my heart speed up causing more blood to cascade to the floor, I didn't feel it when my pelvis shattered due to several vertebra being crushed to dusts due to Tyki's movements, I watched as my cursed eye was eaten by Tease over and over due to the damn thing trying to heal itself. Did you know the earl used to read my autopsy report out loud to me~ I died due to being raped, the bone fragments being pushed into my organs due to Tyki's unstopping forcefully thrusts the blood loss and my speeding heart beat allowing the toxic stomach acid to spread quickly into my blood stream as each thrust another vertebra was pulverised~ that it took fourteen hours before my mind spilled into the darkness. I enjoyed as it went numb the pain merely slipping away the tears exciting him to go faster and harder to the point he tore my left leg out of it socket and onto the floor to get in deeper as my body relaxed unable to fight or move as my mind screamed in terror as my heart and soul begged for something that god denied as he rightfully should. I didn't deserve even and ounce of what my feeble pain torn mind weakly called for."
"Allen!"
"it was so warm and pretty the way my blood stained the room, the fact that people got to watch as I smiled while I died while Tyki cradled me against him petting my hair soothingly as he hummed me to sleep promising that it was fine to rest now that I was finally free, I recall when I woke in the cat cage not minutes after lull bell apologised for failing before her Master called her, how Tyki came in and fed me apologising for making me cry, gently playing with my new sensitive ears I felt his huge warm hand run down my cheek before he opened me up once more as a sex toy it felt like he speared threw my tiny body I barely was big enough to sit in his hand let alone his big gross thing I recal the earl watching him climax into and inside of my fur how the cat in me instantly begin to lap it all up trying to clean my fur, the earl praised Tyki before running the first of countess 'test's tests that always ended and begun with Tyki Mikki. I recall begging something I once swore never to resort to I knew better then to ask for foolish things but I could stop speaking begging for it to end, for them to stop, being for more, agreeing to each filthy term they called me like one of he ten cent whores cross adores so much, yet I was a freebie for Tyki and the earl. I recall at one stage them preformed a threesome using me after they tried to cut me in half to see how far innocence would go to keep this body wanting oxygen." Allen continued a clown grin on his face as empty snow orbs watched only the moon still speaking in the same soft silken suffering.
Kanda stopped calling stopped trying to bring 'his' Allen back threw his voice the pain ran too deep for that one day it would work but not today nor any time soon the Japanese teen ending the tearing teens faked laughter the kind that sarcasm in its false purity begged to be noticed, as Alma sobbed trembling mentally feeling each disgusting detail Allen described as if it had been done to himself rather then the angel like boy bathed in the full moon the only light in amongst a storm no thunder no lighting just the large forbiddingly cold moon surrounded in the teary skies the first thunder clap coming from the small room as tanned calloused form years of hard training collided with allen's face pushing the boy into the window frame.
"ALLEN FUCKING MOYASHI WALKER LISTEN TO ME KAMI DAMNIT! Your Are Beautiful, Your heart your kindness how you stand up for what you believe in. The way you light up room without even trying, the way that even when you get knocked face first into the mud of defeat and anguish but you get up and fight on, You Are Worth Dying For the way you NEVER STOP WALKING. The way you continue you stupid promise like it was something the gods themselves proclaimed, the way you never break your promises! Now I know you lay in bed contemplating your own death well just look at what you've done And DON'T YOU DARE FORGET THE SUN LOVE! You're the reason Miranda and krory had their baby girl Allena Lotto-Alistar Why brother named his child Ellen. You're the reason the orders is clinging for survival to see you again to make up for failing to protect you dispite how you sought to protect and defend all of us!" Kanda yelled watching as tears fell from Allen's eyes holding his arms open not so Allen could chose to cling to him if he wanted to smiling when the boy latched himself to his shirt muffling his crying.
"you two rest I'll keep the others away in the morning." Alma spoke hugging the two before Kanda gently picked Allen up and curled up by his side in the small bed cradling Allen on his chest.
"In your deepest pain, in your weakest hour, in your darkest night you Are lovely my moyashi." Kanda murmured feeling Allen relax melting into his arms nodding meekly the tears still falling but sniffling as the started to draw back so Allen would still have tears left to shed but not any time soon if the Japanese teen had anything to say about it.
"hush and shoo down stairs, they need all the rest they can get…" Alma murmured opening the door before they could knock.
"what's wrong?" Lenalee murmured once they were far enough a way.
"Allen had a break down last night, during it he told us how he died in vivid detail… the Noah's rebelled asides Tyki. Tyki attacked and paralysed the other Noah before torturing him, apparently the earl used to read out the autopsy afterwards, Allen's official cause of death was due to bone fragments from a shattered pelvis being forced into his organs these fragment pierce his stomach leaking acids into his blood stream his fear and pain speeding his heart thus the poisons moved faster other damages where his arm being skinned eyes eaten by tease leg torn off and a good majority of vertebra being crushed into dust due to Tyki's ruthless attack." Alma stated trying to act cold.
Lavi and link being the first to realise the the most likely method for these wounds each getting equally pissed off, Lavi actually standing with a snarl.
"sit down it took Kanda actually talking to get Allen to snap out of his breakdown before I sent them to bed, they need rest."
"Lavi what's wrong tell me what happened."
"its my fault not lavi's… the actual cause of death is death by brutal rape, which means we cant let him anywhere near cross until he's truly back on his feet, no letting he see Noah's, true only Tyki and the earl harmed him willingly but I doubt the rest managed to avoid Allen completely while trying to hell him over the timespan 2.5 years. Lets focus today on letting Allen relax and a chance to do the same." Alma spoke sadly as the room feel into a minor silence before Lavi and Lenalee's eyes sparkled.
"then lets get started, there's five breakfasts bars open with the eat it all under ten and you pay for nothing, then we found yesterday a small ossen its authentic book man knows the family that owns it, theirs also a parade and then ten lunch deals then we can go shopping for supplies and clothing for Allen." Lavi grinned deciding to let Lenalee and Alma wake the dangerous duo.