Into The Grey

by LunaSetsuna

5 years ago Allen was claimed dead after helping Alma and Kanda out of the order during a Noah attack. Yet when the reports of his death are proven to be false having lived 5 yrs of experimentation on both the Orders & The Earls behalf leaving the now 20yr old hurting inside & out after turned into a Sand Cat. Can Kanda save his Moyashi? Can together with their friends end the War?

7. Chapter 7

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"Oi moyashi." a voice called Allen turning to face the other exorcist.

"My names Allen bakanda did Koumi call you up here too? I wonder if its another mission..." Allen smiled at the older seeing Kanda give one of his typical 'che' sound turning his head away hair hiding his face at the speed.

The two entered blinking coughing hard before glaring at the older holding a spray bottle.

"WHAT THE FUCK !" Kanda hissed coughing trying to whip the substance off his face as Koumi cannon balled into hiding using the mass piles of paper work as a shield from the two naturally annoyed boys Allen still coffin hard almost choking on how the majority had been inhaled his face felt like it was burning Kanda turned to him the Japanese teens face flushed slightly the boy growling grabbing the younger boy's wrist tugging lightly pushing the younger into the Kanda's room, Allen blushed harder trying to get air.

"lllove potions again... why us..." Allen panted seconds before Kanda pined him to the wall kissing lightly giving Allen the chance to resist, the other melting into the warm touches relaxing.

"fuck if I know moyashi... I'm gonna kill that moron one day..." Kanda murmured grinning as Allen trembled pinned under him.

"mmmy names Allen... annd you wouldn't kill him he's Lenalee's to kill and you generally don't steal others peoples kills... aarre you?"

"no, I'm just trying to have it burn out of our blood stream further giving in to it a little and increasing our heart rates should help it pass quickly. What about you."

"me... what...?"

Kanda growled teeth lightly nibbling the shell of Allen's ear causing the boy to squeak adorable Kanda smirking at the effect repeating the action feeling the younger shiver against the wall tilting his head need to bit his lower lip to stop yet another sound echoing threw the small room.

"experience in this shit? Moron."

"aaa little... never wanted to know iii kind tried to avoid it rather then listen to general cross...and you?"

"same only with the fucking rabbit." Kanda growled hearing Allen give a small nervous laugh. "what?"

"we know more of what Not to do rather then things to do and will you stop biting id rather not look like a Dalmatian..." Allen squirmed the older using his tongue down his neck panting slightly the action tickling helping distract him from the heat coursing threw him.

"che." came the soft reply before their lips met Allen feeling like he'd melt closing his eyes opening and trying to fight the other off panting feeling the urge to cry as the memory faded away cursing how weak his mind had become and how easy it was to use him while his mind was relaxed in the dream like happiness years ago.

"looks like you woke up shouen weren't you enjoying our fun lets see what else these little babies do~" Tyki crooned lifting another needle the door opening showing a slightly wounded Noah one of the one that avoided Allen vigorously.

"Tyki stop messing around the bookman and his apprentice escaped and there are exorcists on our door step now put the cat back in its bag and move it before the earl kills both of us." the Noah snarled making a point not to look at the seventeen year old chained to the wall.

Tyki sighed slicing the chains away letting Allen fall to the floor shifting back into cat form now that the shrinking change wouldn't harm him Tyki lifting the sand cat walking out of the room caring threw the hallways till Allen saw a chance chomping down on the Noah's hand leaping out the window running as fast as he could, he couldn't fight much longer he was losing more of his sanity daily he could stop them he couldn't save anyone not even himself the small figure continuing desperately feeling Neah's agreement the Noah singing softly in the back of his mind only causing his nephew to cry harder.

I fear the life I know if they make me go back
I fear I couldn't stand any more of the stifling black
They want you to think it's possible to live a life without their chains
But if you, if you go too far, you'll find they're pulling on your reins

But if they catch me, I will fight, I will run
I will burrow underground
They won't catch me, I need hope, I need air
I won't, I won't make a sound

Allen whimpered following the songs path his innocence weakly throbbing sensing the akuma passing over him using an old rabbit tunnel listening hearing Lenalee's voice as she protected Lavi he could hear the red head wanting to fight despite being blind Allen's own heart singing out with the his uncles a term he was only just starting use slowly moving towards the familiar sounds stumbling in the narrow tunnel skidding downwards falling to his right away from the voices of those who once seemed to care.

I refuse to stay...I betrayed myself when I let others have their way but I am holding on, my finger on the pulse, the sound of my heart pounding tells me there's still hope. But people don't like when you put up a fight and slowly, ever so slowly, I am loosing mine. I'll fight (fight), fight (fight), fight or be taken out alive, fight, nowhere to run, nowhere to hide. Standing on the edge, am I better off dead? How could I forget that I'm better than this, I've come too far to fade tonight. Fight, or be taken out alive. My thoughts are racing faster than my body can react the danger doesn't register, the fear feels like an act.

He had to get out he had to escape he need to run, he'd be lucky if he ever saw the light of day again his skin felt like it was choking him and the feeble walls that used to block the world at bay the walls that let him continue smiling where caving in as the memories of Kanda where perverted and twisted by Tyki's constant teasing over how easier he could make it if he gave in his way of life had only shown what a fool he was it served the purpose of confirming that he was condemned by the order to die at the earls hands. he was lingering Tyki was right he could stop the agony he could end everything and be free if he destroyed his own innocence he'd die with it but Neah could regrow a heart how ever it was messy and his uncle refused he didn't want to live like that, thus he couldn't let go of the memories of Kanda of Lenalee of Lavi of Jhonny, Rou-fa, Reever, Koumi, Miranda, Krory, Toma, he couldn't let go of the memories of those he desperately wished to be his saviour,he didn't want to die he didn't want to be a Noah another puppet of the earl he didn't want to every harm or have to fight those he loved, but he could even save his own...He Couldn't Let go He Didn't want to be this despite how both sides claimed that this was what he deserved guilty as charged. If only death was his then none of his friends would be in danger...

A foot stomped down on the tunnels edge causing the small nearly black with dust cat to burrow deeper trying to avoid the tall Portuguese knowing fully well the other was the one to have come the battle could still be heard in the distance and countless times had he heard the earl state firmly that he'd play a keep part in the end of the war for the Noah family once he started cooperating he could hear Mugen's 'shadow' near by as he screamed lashing out at random trying to free himself from the yokai's shield glaring defiantly no matter the pain he felt and knowing he was fighting a loosing battle the two others who shared his mind and soul trying to keep him yet again forcing the thousands of memories of Kanda's warm voice.

It was so close just like the hands grabbing yanking at him as he thrashed he had to escape he had to return to Kanda...

"MOYASHI! WAKE UP PLEASE Arren please wake up your safe in your darkest pain in your weakest hour you are lovely please Tenshi... come on koishiteru wake up!" Kanda half screamed shaking his lover awake Allen's eyes snapping open before filling with tears lunging into Kanda's chest sobbing mugen coming closer giving a gentle sound trying to worm herself into the sliveretts arms.

"shh its ok Arren I'm here shh I know cry all you need tenshi..." Kanda soothed running a lone hand in the long pearl shaded locks feeling Allen tremble and sob desperately shifting into human form crying harder the change instinctive and next to painless the practice finally starting to actually help but nothing was more helpful then Kanda's warm arms holding him letting him fall apart but not letting go so he'd be able to help pick up the pieces and make him whole once more.

Lyrics coming to mind instantly from how long he had been tied to Neah's powers, /I stand naked before you now. No walls to hide behind, so here am I, you see all of my scars. Still here you are, I bare my soul and I'm not afraid. Not afraid I am beautiful with you. Even in the darkest part of me I've been the strong one for so long but, I was wrong doesn't make you weak cause you needed someone, I'm not holding back and I know what I want. You are the only one. The only one that knows me and in the dark you show me. Yeah it's perfectly reckless, Damn you leave me defenceless. So break in And take everything I have. Until there is nothing left. Until it's just your voice in my head And when the lights come on You see me as I am You're still inside me./

"Kanda..." Allen murmured weakly trying to stop his tears felling his Yuu rubbing small circles on his back merely letting him vent warm lips pressing against his forehead.

"you've got a light fever so I brought you here do you want to call in a group to continue or just make Lavi do it we'll all understand your lucky the head nurse hasn't coming down here yet, I'm here got it I'm not leaving moyashi." Kanda spoke mugen chirping scold him.

"baka scared master thrashing around like that!"

"sorry nightmare... I didn't hurt you oh god please tell me I didn't lash out at you."

"you didn't you just screamed and started trashing if mugen didn't have wings she'd might have landed hard on the floor, do you want to talk about it?"

Allen nodded relaxing in his boyfriends arms knowing he was safe trying to calm his heartbeat down as mugen finally got into Allen's arms using her beak to brush away tears.

"Jjjjust after my seventeenth they decided to try something new, drugs... not the kind that got you high or hooked hallucinogenics that worked on memory. They'd inject its so mentally i'd suffer or enjoy what ever memory the small change in the drug did while in the memory they'd re-enact it physically... my nightmare was of one of those the day Koumi sprayed us the drug wore off quicker as I was finally building a tolerance but I 'woke' from memories of you to find out it was Tyki instead that day was one of the last I tried to escape... Lavi and Bookman I had seen them yanking Lavi around injured and sightless on and off for weeks before they escaped and the order stormed the place."

"you where there?"

"I was already a sand cat... I bit Tyki and jumped out the window I was using an old rabbit tunnel hoping to get over to you I could hear Lena and Lavi and sense mugen I tripped and fell down a tunnel one that took me away from you the yokai and Tyki grabbed me after that they kept a closer eye on me insured I could move more the a few steps before collapsing form exhaustion and added to the schedule the had me on, I was just to weak I could do anything more but lay there and cry... I …." Allen broke Kanda hugging him tighter as the tears began anew the proud Japanese feeling mugen whip his own ones away so he could focus on the trembling man.

"I know. Hey come on Arren look at me ok, that's it I'm never going to let you go got it moyashi."

Allen nodded rubbing his tears away " I know bakanda damn I hate being so weak..."

"you don't have to be the strong one when i'm here baka, let me do that you need to get back to your training if you want to start?"

"yes actually I wanted to get down to hev, wait the meeting what happen..." Allen spoke moving to quickly panting slumping slightly.

"what part of you have a fever don't you get baka moyashi, the generals got what they needed the next group is just friends so everyone up to date then I'll take you down to hev but your staying here got it baka now stay put with mugen while I go bring those fools in I'll bring some food up and your going to eat all of it you got me moyashi." Kanda scolded gruffly mugen nodding the phoenix pushing him back into the bed chirping rapidly.

"ok ok laying down !" Allen spoke flopping to the pillow.

Kanda grinned open the door quickly trusting his innocence letting Allen get a little extra rest, grabbing the rabbit by the neck "Oi he's ready bring em up With food."

Allen tried to rest his senses where still trouble some at times and his hearing was making every little sound and amplifying it before his senses picked on something else's diving under the bed mugen following him seconds before a Tease fluttered hovering in the window Allen going limp under the bed the eye his curse was on stinging before the cat shrunk to the smaller size burrowing carefully into Lavi's piles on piles of gifts to the stubborn Kanda, mugen dulling her glow covering the small cat feeling Allen twitching I'm her arms the window opening for a second the black phoenix pushing the boy back hiding herself in the process trying to protect her masters lover as the room was flooded with a cloud of tease.

"Now really Allen coming here did you not think id come to bring you back, bad kitten always making me punish you. You know he doesn't love you he gave you up or where you lying all the times I've played with you? Of all the places to hide you chose the one place that wants you dead silly kitty its no use hiding once a Tease taste blood they can use it as a tracer how many times did you prove that~ honestly I thought you'd be smarter then this my little love~" Tyki's cooed softly sitting down on the bed calling to Allen the soft almost gentle tones easily translating into the small sand cat.

'how dare you leave you'll suffer for your disobedience now come out or you'll suffer longer and more then you ever dreamed possible.' was what Tyki's gentle tone meant Allen's entire form shivering tears starting to drift silently down his muzzle mugen curling protectively around trying to protect the trembling form in her wings.

"do I really have to lower myself to searching for you?" Tyki scolded the door opening.

"Get out of my room Noah." Kanda snarled mugen activated and drawn Tyki smiling brightly at the feeble attempt.

"but of course the little whore runs back to its hussy." Tyki smirked Kanda carefully tilting his head eyes narrowed.

"I don't even want to know what your talking about get the fuck out of my room before I kill you." Kanda snarled eyes flashing the tease floating over towards the lotus while several others make their chance to leave out the window, the Suzuka remaining firmly out of sight under the bed not wanting to truly give Allen away.

"now now shouen I know your under the bed you have seconds to come out or my tease will get a chance at ever living creature in this place, its time to return now. One..." Tyki threatened darkly Allen shifting slightly eyes devoid of life only held back by the innocence mugen watching as the non physical innocence swarmed under the bed each helping hold Allen still while the exorcist's attacked Tyki shifting threw them rolling his eyes annoyed only for the crowd to part a small white sand cat trembling forward head bowed tears dripping onto the cold stone floor.

The Noah smirked lifting the small sand cat and leaving the Tease streaming out of the window the entire all order frozen until mugen pushed the real one out from under the bed Allen still mentally frozen and hollowed trembling in terror but mentally unaware of his surroundings kanda sighing lifting the small kitten into his arms stroking gently trying to reawaken his lovers mind.

"but what there was two and ..." a finder stuttered.

"when we came back from our last mission the Noah lulubell insisted on coming with us to protect Allen from the inspector all but the Noah Tyki Mikk and the earl have defective to the order due to their wish to protect the heart and Allen we need to evacuate before Lulubell's discuses is seen threw." Lavi ordered watching the others nod falling into teams and evacuating following the plans they had made after each attack.

Half an hour later everyone was spilt at least one exorcist three finders and two scientist in each small group the only ones that where different was Kanda and Allen's 'team' consisting of Koumi, Reever, Jhonny and Toma in the case of Kould and Noise, Miranda and Krory's and their children. It had been deicide to take them to distant family members and hide out until their children where older each with a finder and scientist just on the safe side while the rest got ready for the spilt the idea was to divide and conquered but as a unified force they where changing locations into four main and then into smaller flanks as back up once in position and ready then they could strike but unfortunately its a case of needing to help Allen past the majority of his instability the three scientist where there to help medically and also to help organise their plan, Toma was their manly to help with moral support and to watch over Allen.

"come on Arren snap out of it your safe know I'm really if tasting my blood will help do so come on Tenshi..." Kanda spoke softly.

Waiting until they where in their own respective train each train going to a different town that used to home an innocence this was due to how akuma NEVER went back to a place that previous location Noah did once or twice is it seemed like the order was sending out several dozen teams worth of finders thus they were aiming low key. Groups of five and seven at most the newest uniform was simpler and thus most wouldn't instantly pick them out until they were within point blank yes it still stood out but nor as damn as it used to be a the civilian fallout was both battle safe non revealing and looked like stuff normal people would wear more like a school uniform then what it had been.

Right down to gear Allen could wear in cat form it was one of the other reasons Jhonny was coming so he could make adjustments along with getting him clothing that changed with him.

"Kanda I think he's starting to snap out of." Jhonny smiled they where in the ark courtesy of Kanda and Neah the pair having spoken quickly before rushing their small group into the glowing sanctuary, moving the ark away from the order laying the small kitten sized exorist on the chair while Kanda remained standing Neah's carefully teaching the boyfriend of his nephew how to work his beloved Ark.

"Allen your in the ark Kanda's here your safe Everyone Is Safe." Neah spoke firmly floating over to his nephew side.

"hhe was... iii coouldnnt... ohh godd..." Allen nearly whimpered hyperventilating at the almost encounter.

"You Can Do this Allen, Never Stop walking remember... shh breath that's a good boy. Your safe your Beloveds Here he's in the process of moving the ark at the moment, tuck the pain inside its better just to wait and hide for the moment your just kids you should be listening to music not looking for excusse to live. The world can just to see what you have all done, you should be able to climb up on to the roof tops and shout the names of all your love ones to the beats of your hearts and not smashing out all the windows under the light of the moon."

"Dont Let Go moyashi." kanda added.

'How did I get myself into all of this mess, how did it come to this where ever song I sing is nothing but a list of pain and suffering? We never will forget and no we will not forgive, We've fought hard not to die yet we don't know how to Live. How do we change our world to what we want it to be, How do we move beyond all of this Misery? One foot in front of the other foot, I've been in chains since I was nothing but a kid We don't Know freedom and I'm not quiet sure that I ever did, Now that we have how will we make use of it? Here We are all the same we've lost so much so many of those we love are Dead. How Do I Get These Memories OUT OF MY FUCKING HEAD. One Foot In Front Of the Other Foot How do we bend this burden it far too much to carry how do we change our prison into our sanctuary we've been kept from the light no one ever gave a damn. We've waged a war with hell And look we have survived but just because we lived doesn't mean that we are alive. We will win the final round, but we've been broken down and I don't know what could been... Heaven help Us were do we Begin... One FOOT in front of the other foot.' Allen trembled mentally battling with himself his innocence as a whole chipping into the conversation both of them trying to work away for free them selves while relaxing the other.

Neah backed allowing Allen to meditate watching the boy with a smile, this was one of the things that was a true merging of his nephew the boy adapting the training mana had taught him with the breathing techniques of his beloved using the intense meditation to calm his mind and also letting him control the massed sync rate calming down the collective of innocence's in order to actually communicate on a level very few exorcist where able to archive, Kanda being one of the very few. It was slightly odd for the older Noah watching the skill his baby brother had perfected being adapted and mixed with skill of someone else, mana had taught Allen to control the boy temper. As a child Allen was raise to lash out wildly like a mere animal never knowing how to react without resorting to violence the mediation and mass assortment of training mixed as games where there to help bring the small child out of the hard shell he had built around him.

Mana had been the level headed one in the family and their 'step' father pride and joy if mana hadn't died the tall man was in line to take over the bookman clan heck that's why mana joined the circus in the first place to study why akuma's where drawn to large groups of humans its why he had taken in Allen and 'trained' him so hard not to be the next 14th Noah but to be Mana's apprentice bookman, mana had finished all of his training and had been the one to first suggest that their step father adopt a child in case anything happened so that if worst came to call and Cross for some reason couldn't care for the small Allen then bookman had his choice between two children both wise beyond their years from two different forms of hell that their innocence blocked from their minds.

Allen was a very talented child bright and eager to learn and he only had to be told something twice never again where Lavi had natural photographic memory, where Lavi was suited more between book smarts and using a silver tongue to talk people out of their deepest secret Allen was more street smart and natural brightness that drew people to him wanting to tell the boy in the hopes of the smaller boy sharing his pain in return nigher were truly suited as bookmen but they excelled at being exorcist's, Mana would be proud of his son just like Neah was of both boys. Allen had a habit of blaming himself for every tiny thing it was why Kanda was best suited as one of the few that knew to snap the boy out of those silly notions just like Lenalee balanced out Lavi as the voice of sanity and logic knowing when to intervene before her idiot went to far.

It made him miss his brother and the long time ago before the worse of this war began, hell it made him miss the hours of scolding his step father grilled him for due to Neah wish to ignore the dark matter coursing threw him Ignore the ark despite how it he had been the first to crack the code Ignore his best friend Cross even thought he had built the goloms to watch over and protect his family and friends, Neah only wanted to enjoy his music to play the piano to one day fall in love and he did that yet as he did the dream snapped and his family shatter fleeing from each other both in fear and hatred of each other and of the destiny they had fallen into, the only hope coming when Lavi and Allen where adopted the joy and pride hidden in his step fathers coded message, the fear in Mana's the worry that he wouldn't be a good father to the needy child who had no knowledge of kindness.

Both had grown into such wonderful boys that if was almost a shock when Allen snapped him out of the trip down memory lane the small neko mimi winding himself around his legs trying to get his attention. Blinking glad for once in his time as a mere specter that he was unable to blush.

"ah sorry you where all saying?" Neah spoke quickly Kanda giving a small che sound while Allen's curious and worried gaze bored up at his own letting the final member of there small group repeat himself.

"I was asking where you where getting Kanda to send the ark Mr 14th..." Jhonny trailed off waiting wondering why it had taken three attempts to finally snap the Noah out of what every he had been focusing on.

"Neah, Neah will do just fine I have no wish to have Anything connect me to that monster and his make believe family that he has both tortured and or suckered into obedience. Where going to a place only three people in the world know of those being Myself, my late Brother Mana and little Allen."

"You mean Mana's Manor? Shishou said it was gone ..." Allen murmured out loud his eyes misting over in memory momentary distracted from the worry over his Late uncle.

"Yes I'm surprised you recall it Allen you where barely five and three months and you two didnt even stay all that long, It belonged to Mana's Birth mother and served as a study for us when we where young its where I created timcampy the blueprints are still their if you wish to look over them scientist, it also holds several dozen heirlooms and personal belonging that are of Private matters so if I say please stay out of a certain room please do so. Cross never once visited the place so how would he know if it was gone even more so the defence I laid its a strong hold of its own right." Neah grinned, watching Kanda roll his eyes with good reason the Japanese boyfriend Of his nephew was an adult and not one of his family he had no power over the boy. Not that he could be called a boy considering just how much old the young man was and yet like His nephew the man hadn't cracked or gone insane the hells of his younger days had only made him stronger and wiser like a katana the layers upon layers of metal beaten carefully together.

"Mana? your brother?" Jhonny spoke hiss voice echoing unasked questions.

"Yes and Allen's adopted Father and also Lavi's Adopted uncle My Mother remarried the Senior Bookman when I was but a child Mana was my half brother and he took both of us under his wing when I was in my twenties my brother and Bookman my step father both sent my sister and myself a messaged taling about an adoption that they both had picked up a small child, bookman was more exicted over having another child that he could teach when my little brother was terrified of failing or worse being like our father."

"Mana was worried about adopting me..." Allen's voice trembled, Neah kneeling down.

"He was worried about hurting you, Allen you where so young and had already seen a hell that many children would never have to see. He was so afraid of making your life even worse, Allen. He wanted to be the best father in the world despite knowing about the war he never wished to bring you into it until you where old enough to cope with the danger, he wanted you to grow up fearless and he did, he has raise you to be smart and strong while he being kind and caring. You've ended up growing into the wish he had for you, He loved you so much Never Forget that Allen. Never." Neah spoke firmly his mist like hands gently brushing threw the silken snowy fur the traces of impossible tears tracing down his face as warm real ones marked sliver lines down his nephew face.

The room feel silent letting the two Walkers cry Kanda finally feeling the arks stop moving before tugging Allen into his arms letting his beloved cry into his shoulder missing the father that he never let himself mourn. Both of the never had time to truly Mourn their one light in their dark childhoods their was too many things that they had to focus on in order to stay alive true they allocated time to hold pity parties in the memory of them but Never did they let it off their chest and it only made them feel worse how Lavi dragged them out during these pity parties to celebrate their giving birthdays.

Neah smiled one hand wiping away the faintest marks that matched tears on his ghost like form brushing them away focusing his gaze on how the two lovers curled into each other Allen's tears fading in his lovers presence calmly helping them focus the warmer memories smiling taking strength in the memories of the only person he could call father. It was nice to know that man put so much thought into him considering most of his life he had it beaten into him (literally) that he was worthless trash that would be put out of its misery, yet mana cared and did his best to support him the only person who saw threw him as a child just like Kanda saw threw him now. Gently focusing so a door would open staring at the small quiet manor the ivy climbing over the tall walls, Mana had only brought him here once for two months in order to help him heal mana not wanting to run around while his wounds where open and in pain, the injuries had shocked his new father that anyone could leave such deep long lasting scars that traces remained up till his tenth birthday when they where finally replaced by the marks from akuma bullets and broken bear bottles.

Allen smiled softly shifting Johnny quickly helping him dress before they step out, the lawn was over run ivy and roses mixing together along with the flower garden that cover the ground Allen mentally recalling each flower and their true meaning the language of flowers mana taught him while they were planting them along with the medical purposes of each one slowly wading threw them trying not to damage the carefully reaching the old rose wood door knocking before entering sneezing at the dust looking up at the art works his father and himself had made his childish scrawl of his name with the refined signature belonging to the man who raised him marking the bottom right corner of the paintings the statues the memories almost over whelmed him Neah placing a hand on his shoulder encouragingly giving a squeeze.

"I know Allen its ok, You know you two Are allowed in right?" Neah spoke turning to face the two members of there group waiting outside the door Kanda entering looking at the art works and smiling.

"Tiedol would approve, these are brilliant Arren." Kanda spoke kissing his beloved watching Allen half squirm at being watched before breaking the kiss blushing.

"Bakanda..." Allen hissed in embarrassment.

"Allen I had no idea you where such a great artist... these are all yours?" Jhonny spoke examining the multitude of art.

"Mana Taught me...these aren't that good I was what..."

"4 and two months old." Neah finished Allen's thought both Kanda and Jhonny turning their heads off the art and on to the smaller nekomimi.

"impossible..." Jhonny spoke softly.

"when Mana meet Allen mana deuced that Allen was nearly four years old they started counting from their that was 16 years ago almost 17 years ago in a few more months."

"your birthdays coming up?"

"My 'birthday' I tend to use to morn Mana, Jhonny he passed away on my sixth birthday two years after we met. So don't tell Lavi or anyone please besides why should I bring down one of the Orders most beloved holidays."

"Moyashi's birth date is the 25th of December." Kanda spoke one hand gripping Allen's gloved one reassuringly.

Jhonny nodded Neah quietly leading the way threw the large manor filled with warm memories the Noah smiling in places looking other some of the smaller items Allen pointing out things shyly while the other two taking the time Kanda's sharp mind linking each little art technique Tiedol had tried to teach him as a child knowing the man who attempted to call him son would have a field day at the amount of detail and brilliantly made pieces- marble, clay, wood statues, glass figurines. painting- water colour, acrylic, charcoal some made so that the paint was raised showing each little brush strokes worth of detail.

"how did you make all of this?" Jhonny gushed trying to get a better look at one of the glass figurine's.

"If my memory serves mana had seven different rooms allocated to cater all sorts of work, the gallery for painting, the sun room for the statutes minus the glass and crystal work that was made in the cabin, theirs a room that mana made blue prints to test on enhance small robots like the goloms, and one that he was using to fit innocences into objects there is should be at least twenty objects mainly in weapons and jewellery. There was also a room for all forms of music plus the kichens, and the obstical corses and training rooms." Neah smiled allen nodding at each place.

"training rooms and obstical courses?" kanda spoke camly raising an eye.

"yeah what I told you Shishou never actually trained trained me all he gave me 'was look an akuma try not to die' Mana taught me everything I only had two years with him but He made the most of it. I'll show you them in a minute Bakanda, Jhonny I think I should take us done to where he was working on what I now know to be innocence and also the blue room its where he was working on a form of shielding he said it was to protect those in times of war then he ruffled my hair and said I never need to worry about it that he was just being over protective." Allen smiled at the memory walking down the hallways towards the first pair of rooms.

"Your adopted dad made all of this!" Jhonny squeaked on entering the room Kanda calmly walking over to the wall covered in swords admiring a few of the katana's checking the weight and balance of each one.

"Yeah Hey careful with that Jhonny ! Kanda don't touch that one the innocence in that's kinda touchy!" Allen yelped warning quickly the sword Kanda had been about to lift bursting into flames the older yanking her hand back away from the said blade.

"geez... thanks for the warning moyashi, do you know how to use them?"

"mana tried to teach me how to Fence but at the time my innocence arm was paralysis sorry I never got the time to mention it with link half stalking me and I really didn't want to bring any mention to mana while at the order..."

"the whole 'me' and Allen dad being family wouldn't have blown over as well as it has but then currently I feel that the issue is merely being pushed aside due to more pressing events." Neah spoke Jhonny wincing before nodding.

"adopted dad..." Allen muttered looking at some of the paper work scattered on the floors almost surprised at the detailed test and study that his father was doing on innocence half wincing seeing his name come up on his father noticing how the innocence in the house reacted around him that that's why they left to travel not wanting the mass activation he caused to bring akuma.

"why do you always say that? He raised you why do you only call him by name and feel the need to remind others that ? I mean I understand with Kanda heck I think the order would have a heart attack if kanda rang over to giving Tiedol a hug... but you seem to adore the one who raised you..." Jhonny asked.

"I don't know my mother, nor really my dad the only memory I could relate as a parent when I was really small was an explosion and a man dragging me threw the snow before handing me some matches lighting while I was holding the box I recall a man setting me on fire then kicking me hard across the ground I hit a tree and the snow fell on top of me my arm was the only remaining mark... when I was old enough to start asking the ring leader who took me in he said that it had to have been my father trying to get rid of a freak."

"ringleader?"

"moyashi was raised in a circus, those fuckers had him as an attraction in a fucking cage..." Kanda snarled the innocences in the room lighting up in rage.

Allen quickly turning to them mentally trying to soothe the mass the chocker around his neck stinging at the strain as his eyes burnt at the mass, there was too many things trying to take up his sight the innocence, the dark matter, the people... All three was too much the innocences was waking up, and his curse was already burning trying to keep an eye out for any akuma, while his uncle used nature to be visible to everyone using they way light bounces off our eyes in order to create an image to our minds in doing so the dark matter was causing the innocence in him to scream. The heart and clown crown being used to his uncle and the dark matter in his blood from his uncle, yet the rest didn't have that kind of tolerance it was why every time he tracked down an innocence and let it reconnect with the heart he generally spent time waiting for it to adapt on its own before seeking out the next piece that way it had time to force itself to lower its standards and to learn its limits in order not to harm him.

All that topped with trying to see what was in front of him and stay focused on the actually people talking was tricky.

'CALM THE FUCK DOWN OR I SHALL CARVE YOU ALL OPEN AND DIM YOUR CORE LIGHT!' Mugen snarled the mass chatter of pissed off and confused innocence all going silent Allen sending a mental thanks to the suzaku of his beloveds katana before apologising it the katana scared any of the younger innocence.

"Allen is something wrong?" Jhonny tried again wondering if it was a trend to need to ask any Walker something repetitively.

"sorry Jhonny, the innocence the older ones who understood got pissed while the younger ones started asking questions a mile a minute don't fret Bakanda Mugen's already told them off."

"what did it say to them exactly?" Neah asked eyeing the sword wilder carefully.

"She threatened to carve them open till they face the equivalent of them dying if they didn't calm down some are now whimpering... just give me a second..." Allen broke off rubbing his eyes neah noticing the signs.

"It may be best we leave this room for now his eyes could end up permanently damaged if he continues to see everything they way he is Kanda I trust you to insure he doesn't push himself I'm going to see if I can track everyone else down and inform them mirrors." Neah spoke quickly vanishing from their eyes.

(( Song used this chapter are – 'Fight or Flight By Abney Park', 'Fight By Icon For Hire', 'Off With Her Head By Icon For Hire', 'The Grey By Icon For Hire', 'Beautiful With You By Halestorm', 'Break In By Halestorm', 'Yellow Balloon By JJ Demon', 'One Foot In Front Of The Other Emille Autum'.

Ok now then lots happened in this chapter first off I wanted to bring in a a head cannon I made recently but you'll get more of that later the head cannon is on Allen's Mother so she'll get a role in a bit just a warning for later, I wanted to re-establish and let everyone get a brief recap as well as show a bit more of Neah's child hood and Mana. Which will also be recurring later on, Finally I wanted to show what I meant earlier about showing sections of the trauma that Allen has faced and just why I've gotten acting skittish and a bit more like Kanda then normal. Neko Allen Has Claws he's been made to use them and will use them however he will let Kanda fight in his place.

I hope everyone Liked Mugen showing off just how much like her owner she is like and I plan to show more on each of the mains innocence and their own character development. Sorry for any grammar issues as my computer Barely shows spelling errors Hope you all continue reading this and I'm always up for reviews and any tips hint and wishes that you guys want to see this is a work in progress and although I have a plot that I want to complete. I'm always open to slide in YOUR ideas example give me a shout for more Lemons scenes for Kanda and Allen.))