"Your parents don't know."

"No." He said. "The only ones that know are Taylor, Gail, Elena, the shrink I was seeing and now you."

"How did you find the girls?"

"Elena would find them and I interviewed them and we came to an agreement. Contracts were signed with limits they had. I looked at it like a business transaction. When I felt we were done I released them from the contract. They signed a non-disclosure agreement, meaning they cannot talk about what went on in this apartment or what we did together. They kept the clothes I bought them. I bought them a car and they kept it."

"You bought them clothes. You bought me clothes."

"It's nowhere near the same Ana. We never went outside this apartment together."

"She molested you. You know that right."

"At the time I didn't and nor while it was happening. I let her do those things so I didn't see it like that. It took me a long time to come to terms that is what she did. I was an emotional, horny teenager so none of that crossed my mind. When I started see DR. Flynn, he couldn't make me see that's what happened. I was in denial."

"Why have you never told your parents? They are friends with that woman."

"It would devastate them and I couldn't bear the thought of them looking differently at me."

"Of all the things that you could have told me, I didn't expect this."

"I know."

"Where did they stay when they were here?"

"In one of the guest bedrooms which has since been redecorated."

"Did you have one if those rooms too?"

"I did but I had it taken down and it was also redecorated but its empty." He said. "The guests room I had to furnish because sometimes my sister or brother would stay. That didn't start until recently. I liked my privacy for obvious reasons."

"This is so much to take in, I don't know what to think."

"There is one other thing I need to tell you."

"What?"

"All the women all had similar characteristics." He said. "They all were brunettes and sort of look like my mother, like you."

She gasped and slid of the bed. He stood also and walked toward her. "Ana."

"Don't." she whispered. "Please don't."

He watched as she went out of the room. He heard her footsteps on the stairs. He walked out slowly and saw her go towards the library. He sat on the stairs and waited. He sat on the stairs and watched the door. Ten minutes later, Taylor came out of the kitchen.

"You told her."

"Yes."

"She needed to know, especially after today."

"I know but I didn't want to hurt her but that is exactly what I did."

"She loves you and she will get past this. it might just take some time. Is she in the library?"

He nodded. "When I told her she basically resembled my mother like the rest, she ran."

"Let me go talk to her."

Taylor knocked on the door to the library and went in. He looked around and didn't see her. he closed the door behind him. He walked further into the room and saw her hunched in a corner, with her head on her knees. His heart broke for her. After what happened to her, he knew when she found out it would hurt her. He walked slowly toward her and sat down. She looked up at him with red eyes.

"Ana, Christian has always been a troubled soul. He had many demons and when that evil woman sunk her teeth into him she used him for her own benefit. She drilled into his head that he didn't deserved to be loved by anybody and that included his family. I have been with him for at least five years and believe me when I tell you that he was hard man. He showed no emotion to anyone. Those women didn't mean anything to him. Not in the sense you think. He was so closed off from his family and even though they grew to accept the way he was, they wanted more. He had changed from the man he was little by little. He has opened up more since he met you. you are good for him and you are exactly what he needs. You make him want to be a better man."

"I know he is a good man. I couldn't be with him if he wasn't. He is the first man that I can be around and not feel like I can't breathe."

"You both have similar backgrounds. Maybe you need each other."

"Where is he?"

"Sitting on the stairs."

"Can you tell him that I need a little more time?"

"I will. Do you need anything?"

"No."

Around midnight Ana walked out of the library. It was so quiet it was eerie. She expected to see Christian when she walked out but he wasn't there. She went to the kitchen and took out the ingredients to start baking. Doing the one think that gave her the peace she needed, she started mixing.

She was in the middle of if taking a pan out of the oven when she turned around almost dropped it on the floor. She put in on the top of the stove.

"You scared me."

"I'm sorry." He said. "How long have you been at this?"

"Maybe an hour."

"Does it help?"

"It does for me."

"Can we talk?"

"Let me turn the oven off and put this pan on the counter."

He asked if he could help her and she told what he could do. He watched how she cut the brownies. She left them to cool on the wire rack. She followed him to his office.

"Do you want something to drink?"

"No. I'm okay."

He sat behind his desk to keep some distance between them. All he wanted to do was pull her into his arms but he didn't know if she was ready for that. she wouldn't look at him but just kept staring at the floor.

"Ana, I'm sorry. I wish I had a different background. I wish I was different person."

Her snapped up and she went to him. Kneeling on the floor she stared at him. She could see the anguish in his eyes.

"Christian I'm sorry that I reacted the way I did." She whispered. "You are wonderful person and no one is perfect. We all have flaws, some more than others. If I didn't think you were a good man, I don't think I could be with you. I know what you said but it's hard for me to understand that someone would be okay with that. I know there are people that do."

He pulled her up and onto his lap. "I was so worried you didn't want to be with me after you found out the truth. I know it brings back memories for you but I promise you baby, I don't need that in my life anymore. All I want and need is you."

"Is there a way for me to see that room?"

"I had everything removed and it's been painted white."

"Can I see it anyway?"

He opened the drawer and pulled out a set of keys. "I always had the door locked that's why I have a key."

He set her gently on the floor and took her hand, walked up the stairs to the door. he unlocks it and pushes the door open. She went past him and walked into the room. She closed her eyes and roamed the empty room. Her fingers grazed the walls. He watched her closely. She stopped in the middle of the room.

"I can picture you in here. Not what you did but just you."

"Don't do that. Don't picture me in here."

"This is a part if your past just like the file I showed on me. If I want to love you I have to accept all of you, everything in your past. The exact same way you are. My past isn't pretty. I have a mother who about to be paroled and wants to finish what she started all those years ago."

"That wasn't your fault baby."

"I know that. Just like what happened to you isn't yours. That woman took advantage of your vulnerable state. You were only a fifteen-year-old boy."

He went to her wrapping her in his arms. "We both have fucked up pasts."

"We do and we overcame them and we are better for it. That doesn't mean we don't have some hang up from that but together I think we can get past that. I love you Christian and all I want is to be with you."

"I love you too Ana." He said kissing her. "It's late so let's go to bed."

They went to their bedroom, got ready for bed and instantly fell asleep with their arms around each other.

"Ana, Ana wake up?"

"No."

"Ana come on we are going to be late."

"Late?" She opened her eyes to find Christian staring at her. She noticed he was already dressed. "Why are you dressed? Where are you going?"

"I have a surprise for you." he said. "I left clothes for you in the bathroom. You have ten minutes before we have to leave."

He pulled the covers off her. She moaned, trying to pull them back. He laughed and picked her up and set her down in the bathroom.

"Ten minutes."

She was mumbling as he closed the door. He grabbed the bags she didn't see and went down stairs. He watched several minutes later as she came down the stairs with a scowl on her face.

"Christian, it's my day off and I wanted to sleep late."

"I promise you can go back to sleep in a little bit."

She saw Luke and Jason standing off to the side. "Morning guys."

"Good morning Ana."

"I don't know if it's good but thank you."

Jason snickered and looked at Christian. He ushered into the elevator and the four of them went down to the garage and walked to the SUV. They left and while they drove Ana leaned her head against his shoulder. She didn't open them until he told her they were at their destination. She gasped when she saw the big plane they were headed towards.

"Oh wow." She whispered.

They stopped a bit away and Ana waited for Christian. He helped her out and pulled her toward the plane.

"Is this yours?"

"Yes."

"Are we going somewhere?"

"Let me show you plane."

They went up the steps and entered. She'd never been on a private plan before this one was beyond gorgeous. Dark leather seats, that looked so comfortable. Two different sections of seats. He showed her where the cockpit was. Where the stewardess station was and the kitchen. He took her past the seating area and stopped at a door.

"When I told you could go back to sleep I wasn't kidding."

He opened the door and motioned her in. There was a bed that took up almost the full room but left enough room to walk. There was a bathroom although small. She assumed it was their luggage sitting on a bench. The bed was decorated in dark blue.

"Wow I didn't know planes could have bedrooms."

"I had this personally designed for me." He said. "There is another bathroom everyone else uses."

"Where are we going?" she said. "I mean I guess we are going somewhere. There is luggage in here."

"I packed you a bag, the light grey and the darker one is mine." He said. "Yes. We are going somewhere. I thought we needed it after last night. So I thought a mini vacation would benefit us so I thought. Hawaii would be perfect."

"What? Hawaii." He nodded. "I've never been there but I told you I was content you just be at home with you."

"I know but I wanted to take you somewhere. So I thought Hawaii."

"Thank you." She said hugging him. "Always remember that you don't have to take me anywhere, buy me anything, all I want and need is you."

He slammed his mouth over hers and kissed her deeply. She moaned and sank against him. He broke the kiss, both breathing heavily.

"Sleep or breakfast."

"Sleep. It's still early."

"We can to that after we take off. By the way, we staying until Tuesday morning."

"What? I have to work."

"I talked to your boss and she was happy to let you have those days. She said you work too hard."

"She's so sweet."

"Let's take our seats and then we can come and lie down."

They returned to the sitting area when she saw Gail come in. "Gail. You are coming too."

"Sure am. Mr. Grey said we could all use a vacation. So here I am."

She hugged her and then hugged Christian. She sat where he told her to and he sat next to her. Gail sat with Jason and Sawyer. The stewardess approached them.

"Ana, this is Jenna, the stewardess."

"Miss Steel, Mr. Grey, would either of you like something to drink?"

"I'm fine thank you."

Christian also said no as well. Jenna inclined and gave a nod. She turned to leave but and turned back around.

"Miss Steel, I must say the brownies you made are heavenly. They are my weakness and I don't get to eat them too often."

"Thank you."

She waited for her leave before she looked at him. He shrugged. "You bakes so much I brought some with us and I left some with the guys watching the penthouse. She smiled at him and then jumped when she heard a voice. They were told to buckle up as they were ready for takeoff. Ana had never been on a plane before and gripped Christian's hand tight. In no time they were in the air and were told it was okay to move around. He took her hand and led her to the bedroom where she removed her shoes and laid down. He laid down with her in his arms.

Christian gently woke up Ana as their flight was almost over. She blinked sleepily at him. She smiled as she stretched.

"Hi." She whispered.

"HI."

"How long was I asleep?"

"The entire flight. I cane to wake you because we are about land."

"What? Why did you let me sleep long?"

"I thought you might need it and besides you looked so peaceful."

"Mmmm, do I have time to use the bathroom."

"Hurry."

She kissed him as she scooted off the bed.

Back in her seat, she looked out the window and saw the water that was blue and very pretty. She couldn't wait to see what the islands looked like. The plane landed and it was an hour before the left the plane for the cars waiting for them. Christian told her they were in Honolulu, on the way to their own private villa. Eyes wide with wonder, she watched the landscape go by. Christian told her they would come back but he wanted to the villa, have lunch and then do whatever she wanted.

He told her they would be staying at Diamond Head Villa, right on the beach. They pulled into the private drive and the villa was beautiful. She walked to the living area and went straight outside. She walked through the grass to the beach. The white sand, gorgeous water was so inviting, she wanted to run right in. Arms encircled her waist.

"Do you like it?""

It's beautiful here." She said. "Are we all staying here?"

"Not normally but I have to get used to them not being just employees. Jason and Gail are your family so I'll do what needs to be done. I won't deny you your family when you've gone so long without."

She turned in his arms. "I love you Christian."

"I love you too Ana. Let's have lunch and then we can do whatever you want."

The next four days passed in a blur for Ana. Wherever they went Gail, Jason and Sawyer went with them, for security and personal purposes. On the island of Aahu they visited Honolulu. They went scuba diving although Christian wasn't too thrilled with that but that is what she wanted to do. She wanted to see the dormant Diamond Head Volcano, spent the afternoon at Waikiki Beach. They also visited Pearl Harbor memorials and museums. He took her by helicopter to Maui, where he let her explore the island until she grew tired. At night they walked along the beach, hand in hand. That is what she loved the most, spending time with him alone. At nights they made out like horny teenagers but she wasn't ready to go any further. Their last night had a romantic dinner on the balcony of their room. The only thing that marred their getaway were the calls that Christian kept getting. He never answered them but was always tense when he saw who it was. They never talked about Friday night, nor did she want to.

They also did the touristy thing and bought souvenirs for everyone back home. Christian bought her a painting of the aerial view of the islands. She fell in love with it, so he bought it. Her most treasured gift was the big sea shell he bought for her. When you put it to your ear you could hear the ocean. He told her he bought it so she could always remember their first vacation together. Those words meant everything to her. Their flight was later in the morning the next day so they stayed up talking. He asked her where else did she want to go. She said she wasn't going to tell him. He told her he would find out one way or another.

They drove into the garage and everyone was tired. It was a fun filled trip but also an exhausting one. Jason parked the SUV and Sawyer parked two spaces over. He scanned the garage before he gave the signal for Sawyer to open the door. Christian stepped out first and then Ana. The group started walking towards the elevator when they heard the footsteps. Ana saw Jason turn around and stop.

"Go straight to the elevator Mr. Grey."

Christian turned around and saw why Jason said that. He took Ana by the elbow and walked hurriedly to the elevator. He wasn't one to avoid confrontation but he had Ana with him. With Gail leading the way and Sawyer behind them. They grew closer to the elevator; you could hear Jason arguing with the unwanted guest.

"Christian, I need to talk to you."