CHAPTER 9

Hey babes.

Hotch's POV

''Hotch, wake up'' I could feel Emily stroking my hair with such tenderness, I was thrown back to the moment we were wrapped into each other, it felt so good back then, I didn't want to let go, if she would always try to wake me up like this every morning, I'd make sure to pretend I'm sleeping just to get more of her gentleness and her sweet voice, which sounds very different in comparison with the one she uses with UNSUBS in cases. I could feel her leaving kisses on my forehead and near my mouth. But I knew as soon as I felt her move me around again, that it was just a dream and that we were in the hospital still.

''Hotch, Wake. Up.'' I sat up immediately, her tone of voice was calm but there could have be something wrong. She was sitting on the floor, kneeling, looking apologetic, after she noticed her hand was on my knee, she let it drop, parts of my body felt uncomfortable from waking up from that very pleasant dream.

''Are you okay, what happened?!, why are you on the floor?''I got to stand up, with the intention of helping her but she stopped me. She also had a phone on her other hand.

''No!, I'm very comfortable actually, umm, your phone was ringing, is Jack, he is having nightmares.'' She hand me the phone. After telling Jack that I was finally awake and mission was accomplished.

''Hi little jackster.'' I could hear giggles.

''Dad!, I thought you'd never woke up!.'' Jack said with a very happy tone of voice, he didn't even seem scared.

''Emily told me you had a nightmare, are you okay buddy?, can you tell me about it?''

''I'm okay Dad, Emily told me that I had jurisdic… juress.. jurisd…''

''Jurisdiction buddy?''I had to look back at Prentiss, and I could see her shrug her shoulder in surrender.

''Yes!, I have the Jurisdiction to put in Jail all of the bad people and monster in my dream, and I just have to create the most secure Jail in the world in my mind, and that way every time I have a nightmare, I can start a case like you and Emily and Derek do, and I can be like you, I'm not afraid anymore, I want to dream with big Monsters now.'' Oh, what a weird way to tell a toddler how to stop nightmares.

''Yes, I'm glad agent Prentiss has revealed all secrets to you, you must keep it a secret, agent Hotchner.'' I had given Jack a phone for his 9th birthday, just for emergencies and when he was feeling lonely, so far he understood about working hours and when to call, the nightmare was probably very bad for him to call me.

''Yes! Emily told me that if I think about her in my dream, she'll come help me, you can also come dad if you'd like, that way we can be together and you can scare the monster with your snoring.''I looked at a smiling Emily and asked her if I was really snoring and she nodded her head, she was still sitting on the floor, head resting on the side of the couch listing to the call, after a few minutes I had ended the call with Jack and he wished us a good night sleep.

''You better turn up the volume of that ringtone, because you are one heavy sleeper and I don't know how to deal with kids, I thought I was going to make him cry harder, thankfully he believed me.''

''I don't know how you did it, but thank you very much, you heard Jack, now he is excited about having nightmares, you're going to be a great mother, you already are.'' I said looking at her baby bump.

''Thank you I guess, I don't know how you do it.'' Said Em with a small sigh.

''I really don't feel good with you sitting on the floor, let me help you up.''

''but it feels so good, it's hard to go down, but once I'm on the ground, is the most comfortable position I've ever been in.'' She showed me a big put, and it was the most beautiful sight, I just wish the baby was mine, not some sick pervert's.

''Okay, okay…help me up.'' I walked her to her room to make sure it was all accommodated, and I could see the flowers in a vase not James, and the food I had not given her, since the James had taken all over, I knew then that I had to back up, give her space, she wasn't ready for a relationship but she was letting James in, a complete stranger, not that I hate him, I hate myself for not realizing first about what I had in front of me, if I had been with her when she came back If I hadn't been a coward, than this wouldn't have happened.

''What?'' Her question startled me.

''Nothing, good night,''

''Thank you for the flowers, they're my favorite.'' She made an attempt, I knew I was being pathetic.

''I know…'' I gave her a last smile and then went back to the waiting room, hopefully tomorrow I wouldn't have to take much of Emily's new love interest actions towards her.

Emily's POV

Waking up to another thinking that I could clear my mind and think about what to do, baby's father no longer in my mind, I couldn't stop thinking about Hotch. I could see him through the crystal that was supposed to give him privacy in the waiting room, peacefully sleeping, it took me back to that time that we never mentioned, there were deeper feeling than we let out on the surface, I couldn't get through my anger with his current behavior, why didn't he demonstrate his feelings earlier, I thought that us sleeping together wouldn't matter to him and that he would feel as lonely as I was. It was just convenient I guess. But back then I wasn't in clearest state of mind, often depressed and no longer myself, I let myself go into the only one I could trust.

''Emily!, good morning, I brought breakfast, couldn't get enough'' James said from the door, trying to get my attention.

''James, what are you doing her so early, are you stalking me now?'' I said smiling at him with my arms crossed.

''Yes, I'm just crazy about you, I need you to feel my intensity as much as possible, because I know I won't be seeing you enough, between cases and work, even though we just started this dating thing, I feel like we have been together in a past life, I will start sticking pictures on my wall of you so I don't have to miss you, maybe make an altar with your hair and blood, oh and I have this nonstop meetings every day, we're trying to implement new techniques in patients and they're changing policies and we may be getting a new coffee maker machine.'' I just stared at this wonderful funny man in front of me, he had everything I didn't know I wanted, he made me laugh with his dark humor, he understand the world is a dark place, and still makes light out of it.

''I will definitely put a restrain order against you mister, but unfortunately you are a great cook so I have to stick with you.'' I kissed him as he approached, very gentle, passionate kiss.''

''I cannot not wait to show you my intensity in some other ways…''I couldn't help but blush.

''But, You're not supposed to be under any stress or strenuous activities at the moment. It will have to wait, I'm sorry, I know that's all you've been thinking about ever since you met me. Using me.'' He pretended to be offended. I move him forward so I could kiss him again. Eventually it turned out in a make out session.''

''You're awful.'' We continued to make out, everything forgotten, all problems aside, I could see past his eyes, how careful he actually was, we had this instant connection, I could say it was love at first sight, I didn't even think that could ever happen to me. It was a shame it was in such a difficult moment, but I couldn't push James away, I wanted him.

''Wow, I think I'll have you for breakfast instead''I said taking big breaths after the wonderful make out session we just had.

''I can say the same thing, how can you make your mouth taste like strawberry.''

''it's this thing called toothpaste…'' I said looking at him with a serious face.

''I need to try that then…okay let me kiss you one more time, and I'll be gone, You're making me late again..'' he left after five more minutes and left me with a lingering feeling of his lips in mine. This was awesome. I went to stand up and eat breakfast, blueberry pancakes, with a small rose and fruit punch juice. I ate this delicious yet thoughtful breakfast, it reminds of the day we first met, we talked about food, and I did tell him about my obsession with fruit punch juice beverages. After I while I noticed I was alone, Hotch was long gone, I didn't even noticed when he had left. Rossi did appear after almost an hour, said Hotch had call him to come and pick me up, because he had to take Jack to school. All of my thoughts this morning came back and I started to feel horrible for him, I felt like I was punishing him, but I'd rather stay with James that with Hotch and that was the decision I had made, Hotch would have to understand that, I would have to talk to him eventually about his sudden feelings.

''Hey'' I could hear Rossi trying to get my attention from where I was sitting at the table, we were having dinner, I was really tired, and I couldn't help thinking about everything.

''Sorry, I was thinking''

''Can I ask about what?''

''What am I going to tell her?''Rossi new now I was talking about the baby.

''About her dad?, there is still plenty of time to think about it gatina, talk to me about how you've been feeling, I know it's been hard, and I know you are doing your best to let us in, but there is still this side of you that says this things is not really you, is just a cover.''

''I've told you all you needed to know.''

''Yes you have, that was a long time ago, you barely talk about what happened, it's like you don't want to be aware of what's happening.'' And now dinner became into an interrogatory.

''ok then fucking tell me how I should fucking feel, because I'm very aware of what happened, I have a living proof growing inside me, every day. I don't need to voice it out…''I said looking at his face and regretting my words.''I'm sorry, I just..fuck all of this, I imprisoned in my own body, I want to forget this ever happened, I'm just very happy if you couldn't tell, that I didn't get to experience what happened, I feel fucking useless, a ragdoll, life has come back at me for all of my sins, and you know what, I deserve every bit of it…'' I stand up, dinner half eaten, I see Rossi standing up too, at this point, I know my words all are harsh and I'm being mean to myself full of anger.

''You don't. Nobody deserves that and you and I know that, sit down here, let's talk'' his face was enough to make me calm, hormones being responsible for the drastic change, I could see Rossi let the breath he was holding go out of his lungs.

''I've almost died a thousand times and neither heaven nor hell will take me, so they came to an agreement to let me here and suffer while they decide.''

''You've done more good than bad.'' I can only breathe through my frustration and let myself go in Rossi's embrace. I had a view to Rossi's patio, and the son of a bitch was there. Smoking a cigar, I started to tense, could feel his eyes on me, I immediately went for my gun and then I remembered it wasn't there.

''Rossi he is there.''That got Rossi on his feet, he did have his gun with him, and he looked into the direction I was looking at.

''He is too calm, it may be one of the patrol officers taking a smoke''

''No…''The man outside was standing still, still smoking, like waiting for Rossi to come out.

''Stay here…''

''Okay…I'm sorry…you're right.'' There was a knock on the door.

''That must be one of the guys, too early I must say, we were going to have a boy's night once you were asleep, is like 8, I told them to come at 10.''

''Okay…''I had a bad feeling about this, but Rossi was right the man outside wasn't making any movements as if he were in danger, not even the now visible gun on Rossi made the man outside flinch. I went to open the door as Rossi went into the patio. I could see one of the officer through the peephole, So I just opened the door.

''Hey, there is a man in the pa…''He grabbed my shoulder forcefully, at the same time as another officer popped out and pointed a gun at Rossi's head. The figure outside was now moving forward.

''Drop the gun agent, it's just a chat we're trying to have.''The man behind me said, pointing his gun to my head, Rossi dropped his gun, and now we were defenseless, the two man that were supposed to keep guard outside, were now threatening us with our lives. They sat us down opposite side from the living room, Rossi's was facing back to the patio.

The strange man outside finally made his appearance, and I knew this wasn't going to end very pretty.

''Hey my love, I've missed you…'' Richard the man that had put me through this hell said.

Yasss… next chapter will be coming up soon.