Chapter 12

Hello, I'm back.

You're back, Hi.

The baby.

Thank you.

''A few more days?...please?'' I said with pleading eyes.

''... Didn't you say you were ready to have the baby at anytime?, we were all afraid leaving you

alone the whole week while we were away on the case.'' JJ said trying to convince to go to the hospital to induce

labor.

''Oh, how did it go...the case?'' It was a small gathering we had at Rossi's, last few months everything had been held at Rossi's, the reason

being me and them being scared of putting too much stress on one of our outtings.

''Oh, Do not change the subject. You're not ready, are you?''

''I'm not ready, I'm afraid, I don't want to, let her come out whenever she wants. it's not doing any damage

to me or her, at all.'' Tried to reason with JJ.

''Well let them check up on you...please?''now it was her saying it with pleading eyes.

''It's not necessary, James took me to the hospital yesterday and everything is okay, they advised me to come back

if there was any pain or if I was actually going on labor.''

''And aren't you tired?''

''Never been better, except when she kicks.''

''Okay, what about you text me or yell if anything happens?''

''That's what I had planned on doing since the beginning.''

''Is there a name yet?'' She asked giving up on the subject.

''No... I'll think about it when she is born, I don't know how to do this...I'm pretty sure I will call her baby until she turns 80.''

''Hope you are alive by then.'' She snorted.

''I would have given you my most powerful glare but rigth now my eyes are focusing on this movie in front.''

''Henry and Jack areatching it. You are looking at James picking up ... you pervert!''

''I didn't say which movie I was watching. stop looking at my man's ass.'' I whispered as I covered her eyes with my hands. and then JJ

took them away to sneak peek

''James! you threw popcorn under the table too.'' I said loud enough from the kitchen for him to hear it in the living room.''

''Thank you my love.''He leaned into the table.

''Nice.'' JJ said and I covered her eyes once more.

''Hey...what are you looking at...''Garcia said as she entered the kitchen and turned to the other side.''What a nice view you have here, he must live at the gym,

I will take this seat rigth in front with you.

''And he is mine.''I now had to cover both of their eyes but that technique failed and my hands slipped down to the countertop.

''If I was you I would have this baby rigth now, so I could you know, I guess you're not doing it with him.'' Garcia whispered

''What? oh, everything is just about finding comfortable positions, going slow and being quiet because you know...

my place is not done yet and going to his is not an option anymore too many stairs and I can't move.''

''You naughty girl!, you never tell us details.''

''And it will remain like that Garcia.''

''you are no fun.'' JJ said with a pout

''I have to pee.'' I blurted out

''Thank you for letting us now, that another thing you can feel better about if you have this baby, no bladder issues.''Garcia started rambling

''you probably pee like the niagara falls every day.''

''No, I don't. I pee like a normal pregnant woman.''

''No, you don't. I didn't pee that much when I was pregnant'' JJ stated

''every pregnancy is different JJ, mine has been pretty weird.''

''That's a fact''

Evening was approaching and everyone had left early, that left Rossi and I eating dinner like the so many times we have had in the past few months. I was going to miss

him so much once I moved to my new home, it would be lonely, of course I have James now, but our relationship had just started and so far it was working, he was caring

and accepting, he understood what had happened and that created a new found intimacy between each other, it was comforting.

''I'm going to miss you so much old man.''

''You don't have to, stay here...I know you must go on with your life, I'm a lonely italian man, the company is more welcomed than you think, pretty soon,

I won't have anyone to show off my cooking.''

''Oh of that you be sure that you will, I still need practice, and I will always be hungry.''

''Then you will make me a very happy old man.''He showed me his beautiful smile.

''You know what else will make you happy?''

''We have a due date?'' I couldn't even be surprised that he guessed already.

''Yes..Tomorrow.. September 4th, I have already text the doctor that I'll admit myself in the afternoon, I don't know how much it will take, I just know that tomorrow seems

to be day that I want to bring her.''

''That makes me very happy''He went to hug me, clearly excited.

''It's the best timing, you just came back from a case, so it will take a few days or an emergency for you guys to go out.''

''Perfect, I was afraid I was somehow going to miss this.''

''and for that reason, you'll be the hand that I will be holding on when I give birth?''

''There you go making me more happy, too bad it's too late to adopt you.''

''Oh dang, I missed the oppurtunity of having a rich father.''

''Your parents are still rich, just in case you don't remenber''

''I mean a cool rich father.''he kissed the top of my head like a father would.

''Finally I'm cool and hip.'' I had to laugh at that, I would miss him.

''Promise you'll go to work tomorrow, you can tell them tomorrow, I don't want anybody pushing me into going early, I'll pack up a few things tomorrow,

I will let James or you take me in the afternoon, depends on how I am feeling by then.''

''I will take the afternoon off, so I can take you, I'm way to excited.''

''Okay, so that's it, I will head to bed now, to save up energy.''

''Sweet dreams''

Woke up early to really start up my day, and to make sure Rossi would go to work, Had fruit to digest early, I had watch and learned way too much about pregnancy to know that

it wasn't good to be eating crap before having a baby, I thougth about having this baby in the most natural way, if it comes to C-section at some point I won't hesitate to go that way

either, the doctor had said it was okay for me to deliver the baby naturally, not even my injuries were impeding it from happening.

''Shit...that hurt..are you doing that baby?''A sudden back pain startled me while packing up and it felt like any other kick.

from that point I decided to relax a few hours, watched a movie and napped trough the movie, and continued to do double check everything, making sure the nursery was

clean enough, that it had all that was going to be neccesary, and repacked everything once more, making sure everything I need for the hospital was there. A couple of hours

after I thought it was a good idea to have a nice and warm bath to calm my nerves, I had read somewhere that was good with the backpain too, it was easy to get into the tub

that was pretty much a jacuzzi, it was a good idea so far, music in the background, all relaxed, I was planning of being there for a long time, at least sometime before Rossi came home

in an hour or two. the back pain had resurfaced again.

''Ouch, try to relax, I have place all of this roses and aromatic thingys in the water to relax, you have been giving me kicks all days and back pain all day...''sudden realization hit me as

another contraction broke my thougths, thid time so hard I had manage at least to grab the railing on one side of the big tub and started to push out of instint.

''Not rigth now, hold on...''I tried to reach out for my phone after calming down a little, this couldn't be happening, I could feel a large discharge coming out from down there and of

course the phone was sligtly out of reach, and the contraction had hit back again. This time around I had screamed as I held the railing, and started to push again almost involuntary.

''C'mon, this is not way I wanted you to come out, why do you have to disobey me like that baby...please...''I had started crying, helpless, no hand to hold onto, Tried to stand up once

to no avail, the pain wouldn't let me stand up to reach out for the phone. I had been then for almost half an hour trying to calm down and going trhough painful contractions

I just hadn't come to terms yet as to what was happening until my eyes reach down my legs, and I could see a really tiny head.

''Oh god!, calm down...You've watched a lot of videos of woman having their babies in bathtubs, and Reid has told you about it, you can do it.''This time I knew what was happening,

there was no turning back, I was going to have this baby rigth now, a newfound streng to go on grew in me as I held the railing and started to push between contractions. I had stopped

crying and focused on making sure the baby was coming out, 10 minutes it took for her to come out half of her body was out already, and helped her up by lifting her up with my hands

and to make her land on my chest, big breaths were coming in and out for a second, I started to palm on her tiny back so I could start making her cry to make sure she was okay, and

that she did, it was beautiful, it was me and her and the world, everything forgotten aside, I took a small razor blade that was in a corner to cut the umbulical cord, my baby

was healthy and I was pretty much okay, the water filled up in blood and what not didn't matter at all.

''Hey there...you're here outside..you are so beautifull, look at you hair, all of that hair, black hair like your mommy...'' I started sobbing, finally something really good and magical

I could say it had happened in my life.

''and those eyes, wow, you are all mine, beautiful...I love you more than anything...''She had blue eyes, that looked nothing like his father had, this eyes held hope.

''I'm sorry...I can't stop crying, I love you so much...''I felt like the luckiest girl in the world as she held one of my fingers in her tiny hand, a minute or two I had her latched on my breast.

''You are very hungry...I can't wait for you meet all of your aunties and uncles...They will be very happy to see you.''I was a completly new me, a mother. I stayed there never leaving her

eyes, after a few more minutes, I didn't feel any pain, and I couldn't believe myself, but I felt strong enough to get us both out of the bathtub.

''You know what, you and I we aren't that clean, let's take a shower together and then we can wait for someone to come home.''I didn't even feel the need to reach for my phone

anymore, I knew that we were in perfect health, and I didn't want to interrupt they way that this was going, it was still the most magical moment ever, I gently washed her under the

glente spread of the shower head and cleaning myself as well, after cleaning out, it had surprised me that I hadn't gotten any call or no one was home, I placed my baby on the middle

of the bed, being the first times in many months being apart from her, and it was like I needed her back touching my skin to feel she was there, suddenly I was missing her, but I couldn't

stay naked any longer, I just threw on a long comfortable dress, and layed on the bed with the baby wrapped on in a blanket, staring at her face and counting all of her fingers.

''I have to take you to the hospital okay?, so they can vaccinate you, but mommy will be there don't worry.''I kept rocking my baby while she made all kind of faces, like trying to

understand what I was saying to her.

''Emily, we're here, I brougth the girls with me because they were too excited, they guys are heading to the hospital later.'' that was Rossi yelling getting close to my room.

''Come up, I have a surprise.''

''You're not saying no again, rigth?''JJ yelled now, clearly approaching the room.

''I'm one hundred percent sure I can't go back.''

''Oh good because...''she became drop quiet when she opened the door.''What?..How...'' I smiled at her it was very rare to catch her speechless, this was way more fun.

''OH MY GOD...IS THAT!''Garcia's scream made the sleeping baby almost wake up and that made her groaned a little. They approached me and the baby, with tears now.

''OMG, OMG, she is so cute...how did this happen did you go to the...''

''It just happened.'' That moment the baby woke up, screaming, I started to rock her again, and that calmed her almost instantly.

''So adorable, she has so much hair, beautiful...''JJ said without stuttering with tear in her eyes.

''I swore I could hear a baby crying from downst...'' Rossi stood at the door speechless.''That's a baby.''

''Yes, it is, come I'll let you carry her first.''Rossi suddenly came back to reality and when to held her, to also make sure he wasn't making things in his mind.

''I'm jelaous.''Garcia said

''Oh you two have held babies before.''

''But not this one.''JJ said with a pout.

''Congratulations, she is so beautiful, but how...''Rossi was still clearly stunned.

''two hours ago, I decided to take a bath, contractions had started, it seemed like it was an eternety, but it actually went by really fast, by the way the bathtub is a mess, placent and all

yuck.''

''Our woman is a superwoman, I knew all along.''Garcia squealed.

More stunned reactions and faces as we got to the hospital as expected.

''Garcia told me everything, I can't believe this, you are made out of gold.''

''I wished, well...team meet little Gracie, Grace meet the team.''

''Adorable name'' Reid said uncharascterically.

''It's my.. It's my middle name.''

''I know, like you, little Gracie has brougth me unexpected Joy and you'll be her cool auntie.''

''I am already, I bought her like a zillion things, I forgot because this is too much, oh my God.''

''There is plenty of time don't worry.''

James showed up a few moments after working in the same hospital I was supposed to deliver the baby in, like expected, they checked us both, and gave little Gracie all

she needed to start her life with no complications, little after an hour we were free, and thankfully healthy enough to be back home and that we did, almost the whole team left

as to not overwhelm the baby, leaving with only the two girls, I was very much exhausted, adrenaline had rushed down, and I felt it was much needed to rest, I trusted the girls to

take care of our new girl wihch rigth now layed next to me on bed, they helped to clean and to keep an eye on us, the rest of day, I spent it being thankful, and making silly jokes

with JJ and Penelope, only once my mind drifted one to the horrible events that led to this moment. that, would haunt me forever, what really matter was the life I had created

and on how much my life would change hopefully for the better.

Did you like it? I took inspiration in Kourtney Kardashian's birth episode and youtube home delivery videos, even on of a woman standing up,

I thougth for all women if would be painful to have a baby even more so witouth the help of an epidural or intervention,

but I've learned that for some very lucky women it comes easy. I hope that becomes the case when I someday have children.

So...yeahh...this was the chapter..I'm trying to find a way to fit drama in the next chapters. It's not over yet. MWAHAHAHA

and BTW my health has gotten better (not really but a little) Results came back normal, but I still had high blood pressure, they have lowered it, and now

we're looking into more causes resulting in this BS, it may be my working hours, BS too, I take everything way too chill, I don't crack or stress under pressure

ever, so yeah..that's least I am on medical leave until next week. Nothing much to do home, Hurricane Maria is now above my island, thankfully is now a

category 3 tropical storm, so all good, there is no electricity thougth, it sucks, so I will be uploading this either when the internet is back up or from my broken phone.

lol, I should write another fanfic, called ''me writing about nonsense shit not even me cares about.'' it's fun. I also like reading author's inside of their lives on every chapter too.

There is no electricity, this is why I have blessed you with this litterally, personal diary . My laptop has now given up on me too, electricity sucks.