Enjoy, erm, M rated. 3 is not Hotchniss smut :), but soon.

After the shower, Gracie took a nap right after, that left Emily with time to go downstairs and make dinner for herself, while going downstairs she could smell food, she was alarmed right away.

''James what the fuck, I told you to leave!''She was angry now.

''I'm making your favorite. I won't leave, we can fix this...''He said trying to sound confident.

''We are not coming back together, you cheated!.''she just rolled her eyeballs

''I did not, it was just a kiss, I am stupid, take me back, I promise you I will make it up to you.''

''You know what, if you don't leave in the next 5 minutes, I will have you removed from this house.'' She decided this was getting out of hand, she was trying to climb up the stairs, when suddenly, James ran and took her against the wall.

''Get off me.'' She looked at him dead in the eyes, the hold he had on her wasn't tight, just enough to get her attention.

''Every relationship goes trough their hard times, we never had an argument like this before, just give me time to show you that I deserve you.'' He said trying to fight her death stare with one that was filled with desperation.

''This is not a relationship, and you put an end to it.''she was getting angrier by the second and James was holding tighter by every single second too.

''You remember how you would say, that I make all of your problems go away?.''As soon as he said that he tried to kiss her, but she was quick enough to turn her head, now the hold was too strong, painfully so, he took advantage in that moment to drop kisses on her neck.

''Get...''James took the opportunity to stop what she was going to say with a kiss closing her mouth, the kiss was nothing but harsh, and she was scared now, out of instinct she bit his tongue and he let go of his face but kept having a strong hold.

''Let me make love to you, I'll make everything go away.''

''No...''

''Damn it, what is it about you?, I can't leave you, I can see why that man wants you.'' She felt in danger know, she couldn't kick him, couldn't move.

''You are hurting me, Let go.''She kept her death stare if anything the fear she now had was not showing, she was tired of men getting their his way with her.

''If I let you go, you will never come back, I can't believe you want to break us up, it was that easy for you?''He said with tears on his eyes, he was now angry showing all of his emotions.

''You were the one who ruined us!''He release some of the pressure but it was still a strong hold, she took the advantagde now and kicked him rigth where it would hurt.

''Fucking hell!, why did you do that, you sure didn't fight when your ex convict lover attacked you!''That was enough, Emily punched him rigth on the face.

''Fuck you!''Get out!''When James recovered from the punch he looked like he was about to punch her back but stopped himself.

''I would never hurt you Emily, I'm so sorry, this is not me.'' Then the doorbell started ringing, there was hope that this never ending figth would have an end. James was already bleeding from his nose. Emily walked to the door, James took a seat on the stairs trying to access his wounds.

''Hotch?'' She looked through the peephole before opening the door. ''Is not the best moment, has there been any update?''James could see him from where he was sitting, Emily moved so Hotch could get in, but Hotch was a bit concerned, he took her elbow to turn her back to him.

''There is blood running down your mouth, what happened? are you okay?.'' Blood from when she bit his tongue. Suddenly James looked up, he wasn't hearing what they were saying clearly, but he saw Hotch reaching up to Emily's face before she could answer what he questioned.

''You let him touch you like that?!''Hotch was less confused now when he saw James touching his bloody nose, he pushed Emily gently aside.

''Talk to me!, that's why you want to leave me like I was nothing to you!, have you been fucking him!? you are the worst, you fucking bitch...''His hand was up, it was directed at her, but hotch stopped him with a punch to his stomach.

''This is between me and wife, get out of the fucking way man'' Hotch was all red with anger, his wife?!, they weren't even married, whatever happened it was bad.

''Whatever she is to you, you don't hit her!.''

''What the fuck did you say, you probably made her sleep with you because you are her boss, that's why she probably spends that much time working.''

''Fuck you James, leave me alone.'' Emily said, she was exhausted, she was glad Hotch was there at least, if he tried to hurt her, Hotch would stop him.

''I don't know what happened, but you need to leave, NOW'' Hotch glared at James.

''The only one who is leaving here is you man, don't ever touch her, only I am allowed to do so.'' Emily looked like she was going to throw up, she didn't see this coming from him.

''One of the guards will drive you back home if you don't want to come out in an ambulance, take your stuff and leave.''

''Okay sure, whatever you say...'' James ran towards Hotch with his fists up, Hotch was waiting for this reaction, he just wanted to punch this bastard, and that he did, James was on the floor not even after two punches.

''Emily, I swear to God, I'll be the only man you deserve, you will be sorry after.''Emily didn't even answer, the fire alarm was activated, she remembered James was cooking something when she had come down earlier, she went to the kitchen, and left James on the floor,

it was enough, she saw one of the guards held James up as he struggled and Hotch took his suitcase and threw it at him before slamming the door closed.

''Emily are you okay?''Hotch asked but there was no answer, the fire alarm wasn't making any noise now, the house was too quite and Emily wasn't in the kitchen heard soft whimpers after a few minutes and decided to go upstairs, he may be invading her privacy but he needed to make sure she was okay.

''shhh sweet pea, it was just the fire alarm, it's off now.''Gracie's soft whimpers had now vanished, she was still latching to her mother and clinging, Hotch just saw the scene from the door frame, Gracie waved her little hand and gave a shy smile to him, Hotch waved back.

''dadda...''Emily turned back to look at Hotch she was scared for a second that James was back, but remembered Gracie would call Hotch dadda too all the time.

''Hey, are you ok? what happened?'' Hotch asked concerned, his voice was low to help gracie go back to sleep.

''Yeah, I caught him cheating and for reason he though we could work it trough. I told him to leave since he was going to leave anyways to se his ex, but he then wanted to stay since he didn't actually cheat, they just kissed, well in my book that is cheating.'' She explained.

''What an asshole.''Emily glared at him

''Children!, she learns everything, shh.'' Hotch mouthed a sorry after adding what an asshole again.

''Did he hurt you?'' She shook her head.

''The blood...''She sighed, she didn't really wanted to talk about it, she would've never mentioned it, but Hotch saw pretty much everything.

''He tried to kiss me, and in return I bit him and broke his nose... Thank you... for being here I mean, it would had never ended if it wasn't for you showing up I guess.'' She kept her calm demeanor still.

''Anything...I'm sorry...did he ever?'' Hotch was clearly afraid to ask

''No, I never saw it coming, the other day I was grateful that we had never gotten into a fight, I didn't know it would end this bad. I don't know, I should've never brought a stranger into our life, it's all my fault, Gracie...'' She said placing her daughter down, she was peacefully sleeping again.

''Hey hey, it's not your fault, we never saw this coming, the girls were all rooting for this, I thought he was a nice guy too...'' He said and took her into his embrace she looked like she was about to cry.

''I'm sorry I'm breaking down, I just want to be free, there is so much going on, and bad things keep happening, Gracie is the only thing keeping me all together.''She said sobbing into Hotch's embrace, they were now in her room, she didn't want to disturb her daughter with her crying.

''It's not your fault that any of this is happening, and we are never leaving, you've been there for me, and I will be there for you, we will catch him and soon you can go back and enjoy what life is about, Gracie will go to school and then you'll have problems like her being a teenager.'' He tried to make her laugh, it was good she was opening up but

he didn't want her to suffer like this while doing it. But that for some reason made her cry harder.

''She is going to hate me, I was terrible as a teenager, and I'm not doing a great job being a mom.'' Hotch kept rubbing her back, she was really letting everything out.

''Hey! you are a great mom, I've seen you, you are better than I am! that's just a part of being a parent, you never know if you are good enough.''

''You are a great dad, I'm just a bad mom, Gracie is always in danger because of me''

''No, this is not your fault, and you more than anyone know that you had and will protect little Gracie with all of you.''

''And I'm not enough!''

''Are you kidding?!, you are more than enough, you are amazing, I just wish you could see that, you would never do anything to put her on danger.''

''I would give my life for her.''

''I know you would.''He was stroking her hair now, her sobs seemed to have lessened, she soon fell asleep, she cried herself to sleep, and Hotch didn't want her to wake up, so he lay down with her, it felt right having her in his arms again, it was sad that every time it happened, it had to be in a bad situation, Doyle back then and now this, he wanted to protect her and never let go, it's true, he decided to keep his distance once she started dating James, she seemed happy, a happy he though he could never give her because of how damage he is, but now James turned out to be a real asshole, and all he knew now it's that he couldn't bear the thought of someone else being here or hurting her, so even if she didn't want him, he would be there for her, be her support and that right now what he felt like doing, he soon fell asleep too.

''Hotch?''She whispered, she woke up without realizing he had slept right next to her, she then thought, oh gosh, poor Hotch, he had to hear me out, I was probably stressing him out, I know I've hurt him, but I couldn't think about the past now, he seemed to be happy for me when James and I were I thing, I regret now, not ever talking to him about our feelings, now without a doubt I knew that there was no way for me to trust any man ever again, not even Hotch who I have trusted all my life, as much as it hurt right now, I knew it would hurt more after, I didn't want to cause him or Jack any pain by being myself.

''I'm sorry.''She whispered before distancing herself a bit more and went back to sleep.

A few hours later and the crying woke her up, Hotch wasn't next to her anymore, he had probably left, she waited two minutes before getting up, and when the crying stopped she jumped right off the bed, she would cry nonstop until she saw Emily in the middle of the night, Gracie is a morning person, but whenever she has nightmares or is hungry at night she could be unstoppable.

So she took her gun, and went to Gracie's room to find an empty room, her heart began racing and she made her way downstairs in silence, she let a big breath go as she heard Hotch and Gracie laughing downstairs.

''I know I'm not pretty as your mom, but I can make you laugh, see.''He said making funny faces, Gracie was just giggling.

''Good girl, now what do you say we watch a movie and we let your mommy sleep?, she is having a hard time, and she thinks she is not doing enough, can you believe that?! That's crazy, and that's because she is the greatest mom alive, don't you think? say yes!''

''Yehh dadda, mama kiss good, she pretty''Gracie said sucking her thumb, she didn't understand what Hotch was saying just that he was talking about her mother, meanwhile Emily let her tears fall down, she was too hard on herself, Gracie was okay, they would be okay. She went upstairs again and put the gun away, Hotch had it all covered.

''Hey''

''Good morning, I'm sorry about yesterday...I was..''

''There is no need to be sorry, I made coffee, I hope you don't mind, I brought Gracie downstairs she for some reason wanted to color.''

''Oh yeah, She likes to color, she pretty much has color all of her coloring books, there are not enough of them.''

''That explains why she is so possessive of them, she wouldn't let me color the dog's house.''

''She doesn't let me either, she just like me to hand her the crayons.''She said smiling, proud of her daughter. she went to take her cup of coffee and that's when Hotch noticed the bruised on her wrists. James. There was silence after she noticed what he was looking at.

''Why is it that you wanted to tell me yesterday?''She tried to stop the silence

''... We found his hiding spot, money, evidence...''

''That's good news isn't it? He has nothing left then, he doesn't have anywhere to go now.''

'' Yes, we will catch him eventually.'' Hotch had this face still, he wasn't telling everything.

''What?...''

''The evidence found, he had killed women before...''It was hard to digest, he was a serial killer working for the FBI.

''How many? what the hell?'' A sad look on her face.

''At least 12, different types, they are trying to identify them... the oldest seems to be from almost two years ago'' Sudden realization hit

''That means you actually found their bodies there in his hiding spot?''

''Yes.''

''Where?''

''Burried.''

''That's awful, how did this happen?''

''It's horrible, this should have never even happened.'' His face...

''Wait, there is more you're not telling...''

''We are not running the investigation anymore, we are just on the side, we can still have all the information found, for profiling, A different division has all of this evidence, some of them are tapes Emily.'' He was afraid of her reaction, she once said she would kill herself if anyone saw, she herself got rid of that tape Richard had sent her. For a few seconds she stood still.

''Oh...I...why did they pull all of you out to a side?''I took a sit, I had to make sure I was breathing ok.

''The property...is Morgan's.''

''What!?''

''He is being questioned rigth now, they are reviewing all of the evidence, Derek has had this property for years, never got to do any work on it because the area is almost a ghost town.''

''Derek...how is he...''She wasn't even going to stop the crying this time.''They are not blaming him for...''

''Everything will be ok, they are reviewing the evidence, is jut I wanted to let you know, this means that when we find him there will be another sentence, there will be more charging not only speaking for him escaping prison. This evidence, we don't have it Emily.

I am so sorry... I won't, I have to be clear with this, I can't...''She continued to cry, this time when Hotch tried to reach her she refused, she flinched, she had pure fear on her eyes now.

''Emily...''She was sobbing harder, Gracie was now looking at her mother she was confused, Emily looked at her and cried even harder, Gracie's eyes started to water.

''I...''She continued to sob.

''I never remembered what happened, to have someone see it, I don't even know what happened, now it will be there forever. I know I said I would kill myself, but I can't, I really wan to.. you know..''

''Emily...''

''They would take her away, I would never see her again, she would go to heaven and I to hell...that's why I haven't you know, fuck all of this, all this times I was faking it, being ok...''

''You never talked about it...''

''And I'm not going to... because it never happened, I...he...I wasn't awake, I was not there, it was not me...it never happened..I am worthless, a piece of trash, I am only here to serve disgusting men, I should've kill myself a long time ago, Gracie will be fine without me,

I'm just being selfish, She doesn't need me...''

''Emily stop, I won't let you talk about yourself like that it's not true.'' Hotch was letting his tears fall now, Emily had stopped, she was looking at the wall.

''I wasn't there...James cheated because I couldn't spread my legs open after Richard attacked me, you all get so mad when I can't spread them open, you would like that.'' she said just above a whisper.

''What?''She wasn't making any sense now.

''Go away!, go away, I don't want to be here, I don't want you to be here.''She was back to the crying now, Gracie had stopped coloring ever since she saw he mother cry, now Gracie felt like crying. That took Emily back to her.

''I'm sorry, I am so sorry, I suck...''She said picking Grace up. They were both Crying now.

''I can't leave you, I won't ever leave you.''

''Emily why don't you lay down for a while. You leave Gracie here, she will be okay. You need to rest.''

''I'm not sleeping with you, I think you should leave.''

''Emily that is NOT what I am Implying and I won't leave with you being like this. I don't want you to hurt yourself,..''

''Whatever''That seemed to fall on deaf ears, she walked in her zombie state up to her room, that's it, she finally lost it. all of it she had all bottled up, he needed to call someone to help her, a few minutes with Emily gone and Hotch decided to dial someone.

''JJ?, it's me Hotch, I know that you are on your way, probably with Morgan, is Emily, I told her everything, she is not taking it well.'' And then there was a loud Gunshot and Gracie started crying again because of the loud noise.

''Hotch!'' JJ screamed from the other side of the conversation knowing the noise too well.

''Shit, Emily!'' He left the phone and went quickly upstairs, Gracie was left crying on the living room.

After the big breakdown she went trough, she was exhausted, she wasn't even screaming or fighting, she just felt like nothing mattered anymore, she was tired of fighting fate, it was best for her if she just shuts up and rests for a while, If it wasn't for Gracie, she would have lost herself, Everything she ever knew changed when she first came into her world. She didn't want Grace to suffer, hopefully she grows up being a lesbian, because men are the worst. Gracie she deserves better, she deserves to live, not to be hiding away for her safety, Laying down on her bed she played with her hair, she couldn't sleep just yet, She was tired but she had to process what had just happened in the past day and what just happened a few minutes ago, she was acting crazy, she wouldn't blame Hotch if he took Gracie away, she really said out loud she had suicidal thoughts, but she would never do such thing, it was just a fantasy, what would happen next?, would all of her problems go away, no, the living would have to deal with Richard, he is the one who should be dead and put away, she was going crazy, thinking about him, she suddenly felt the air go heavy in the room as if his presence was there. An it was all confirmed when she heard his voice.

''Long time no see, Emily.''Richard said, and Emily reaction was quick, she took the gun from the nightstand and shoot without even looking, because she knew he was there, but she missed, and Richard had taken control already he took the gun away, it took less than a minute and he was already on top, pointing the gun at the door. She heard Hotch calling her name out loud and running upstairs.

Hotch with no way to defend himself on his way up.

''No!, Hotch Run! It's...''He hit her with the gun to one side of her head to shut her up, but she would not if that meant saving Hotch, but it was too late, Hotch was there and Richard had the shot, so he took it and I saw how his body went down.

''No...No...''She broke down and sobbed, the weakness she felt longer gone, the pure hatred she had for Richard grew even bigger.

''He is still alive, and we want him dead, don't we?'' Richard said as Hotch started putting pressure on his shoulder with his hand. But when Richard wanted to shoot, the Gun got stuck.

''Lucky bastard, well it may be useful to have you alive after all, I can't say much about James, but remind me to thank him, he gave me your location before I killed him, so nice of him.'' He said caressing my face, I wasn't paying much attention, all of my attention was on Hotch, who was crawling to the wall.

''You don't want to talk about it? Huh!, don't worry we will have the rest of our lives to talk about it, right now I just want you, but we have to get rid of him first.'' He said laughing at the end. He took a spray bottle, and sprayed on my nose, he took handcuffs that were stored in his pockets and tied her to the bedpost. I soon felt drowsy and couldn't keep my eyes open for very long, Las thing I remember was another shot and then I was surrounded by darkness.

Will be posting soon. Love when there is a lot going on.