Grabbing the tray of fortune cookies, I moved swiftly towards the dining hall.
With this, my plan should be made easier. It should make it easy enough to complete my task and revert Lloyd back to what he once was.
But... did I really want to do this? The girl from earlier, Anya, tried keeping up a conversation about the song and my brother. I kept my face buried in a book, keeping myself from being discovered and making it obvious that I was ignoring her. But she kept on talking.
"Every so often, Lloyd would hum or sing that song," she had said, "and when I asked him about it, he told me about his sister. He said he really missed her. That she never deserved what she got."
That had piqued my interest, but I didn't show it.
So, what did I want to do, really?
I can't help but pause as I near the door, but am pushed forward into the room.
Chen stops me, picking up a fortune cookie, examining it closely before Clouse scolds him for doing so.
And then I am forced move forward.
I don't know who got the fortune cookie, in all honesty, or what their reaction to it was. All I know is that somebody got it and I was feeling pretty guilty.
We can't all be
What we want to see...
That's when I realize that I hadn't made that song up for Lloyd.
He was perfectly fine at fitting in, he knew where he belonged. Well, back then he thought it was Darkley's, but he still knew something.
The song, the lyrics... I had made them for me.
With this realization, I am suddenly more confused.
What am I doing here? Why am I doing this? Where do I belong?
The last one, though holding no significance to the Tournament itself, proved that I was just about as lost and clueless as I was earlier, when my sole job was comforting my little brother.
How I miss those days...
When Lloyd relied on me and only on me, before Dad became full-force evil and Mom put Lloyd in Darkley's and ran off, leaving me to fend for myself. When I wasn't in this mess in the first place.
Oh, gosh.
I'm in the middle of a mess that I myself had created in attempts to get back at my brother. He'd done nothing to me in the first place. And I had promised Chen that if he helped me, I would help him...
What am I supposed to say to him?
I can't just tell him or else he'd hurt me or worse, but I can't just pretend that I'm still working for a cause that I don't believe in anymore...
What an adventure this is going to be.