Lirri woke before Kylo from his nap as she examined him. While sleeping, this was the man she had known in that past life of theirs. Without either his literal or metaphorical masks that he hid behind. Deciding that she needed to stretch her legs, Lirri carefully crawled over Kylo as she headed to the washroom and shut the door behind her quietly. Having the private space was good for her mind.
She found his brush and tried taming the mess of bed hair that had not had a proper chance to be brushed after her shower and dunk tank incident as she referred to it. It was getting too long for her liking, but there was not much Lirri could do about that now, after all she was still technically a prisoner, even though her conditions had changed.
She was going to search his room for some sort of hair tie, or string so she could at least pull it away from her face. Lirri splashed her face with water, and drank a bit from it knowing it was safe since they wouldn't drug their entire water supply for just her sake. She stayed in the tiny washroom for a bit longer before deciding it was time to head out in case Kylo freak out thinking she was trying to drown herself, which of all the ways to die was not how she wanted to go out… even though it almost took her out twice now.
Glancing to the bed, Lirri noticed that Kylo had not made a single move. However, being close to him and the darkness made her stomach cringe. Walking to the other side of the room, she set herself on the floor with her legs crossed. While she was still free, it would be wise to meditate and recentre herself.
Lirri let out some deep breaths as she felt her muscles relax exactly how they were used to. Even though it had been ten years, she had still continued her meditation and learning about the Jedi. Luke was in hiding and Lirri knew that if needed, she would have to try to teach any new Jedis the basics until Luke was found. The idea of being a teacher scared her. She was just the lucky survivor of a massacre but now she was trapped like an endangered species.
The negative energy around was not helping as she shook her head and reset her mind. The meditation came harder this time with such a suffocating pressure nearby, but she continued. It was like reconnecting with a piece of herself when she reached the mindspot.
Lirri. A voice in her mind rang out as she followed it. It was feminine.
Missing apprentice of Luke. We can confirm that she did provide the drive to Lor San. However, she did not reach her latest check in and she's been known to always meet them. Lirri recognized the voice as General Organa as she continued listening.
We know that Kylo Ren and the First Order will be working on getting information out of her. We need to get the drive quickly, while also keeping suspicion low since I am sure that the First Order are retracing her steps.
Lirri thought about what she wanted to tell Leia as she meditated. She knew Leia had been Force Sensitive without any training but it was if Leia could know that this was Lirri truly.
"Leia," she thought before continuing. "I'm still alive. It's Lirri, I am on the First Order ship, they are still trying to get information from me." Her brows furrowed a bit as she pressed these thoughts further.
A sense of completion came through her before a wave of darkness swept over her. Flashes took over her mind as she saw Snoke towering over her, with an army behind her. There was a planet she could see but not place exploding when a ginger haired man pressed a button. Finally was the flash of a girl's face. She had dark brown eyes full of curiosity, and hair tied into three buns as she went through a flight simulator. The sounds of fight rang through her mind before Kylo's face screaming flashed in front of her.
Gasping Lirri fell on the ground with a crash as she immediately knew Kylo was up. One look from him and she could tell that he knew that Lirri had been trying to meditate.
"See something that shocked you?"
Lirri stood up as she dusted off her pants. "Not as much as the time I heard you killed all the Padawans." she retorted and walked towards his dresser, finding a scrap strip of fabric. She used it to tie her hair up from her head as Lirri sniffled a bit.
She avoided his eyes as she muttered. "Can't even get a good meditation with all the dark energy in this place."
Lirri stretched, still drowning in Kylo's clothing as he glanced at her. The shirt hung off of her shoulders, being more of a dress on her and the pants had to be rolled several times just for her feet to come out. The drawstrings on the sweats were pulled tightly, but he could see that it hung low on her hips. The front of the shirt had been tucked into the front of the pants.
"Perhaps you're just looking for the wrong things." he stood up to grab his helmet, lightsaber and cape before putting them on. "Come on."
Kylo did not say where they were going as he grabbed her by the arm and dragged her barefoot out of the room. They walked through the halls, and Lirri could see that the First Order recruits stayed far from Kylo, even back pedalling when needed to get in a room away from him.
He went from being the shy and brooding teen to a person who terrified all that crossed his path. She shook her head but followed. It was too risky to try and escape at the current moment. Not when she was without shoes or a weapon.
A large door opened as they walked into the room. The ginger haired man from her vision was there, standing in a pristine uniform and waiting for them. He seemed impatient.
"Ren about time." the man spoke as Lirri squinted at him. His hair was practically orange compared to her darker auburn hair. "And you brought her." the man was unimpressed.
"My name is Lirri." she immediately shot back as Kylo's hand squeezed on her arm as she glared over at him. "You could use it."
The general ignored her and looked over at Kylo Ren. "You don't even have her restrained."
"I can handle her." Ren stated as he moved his other hand to the back of her neck.
A pressure swallowed up the room as Lirri glanced over to the large throne in front of them. Slowly a figure appeared that took up the entire oversized throne and room. The man sitting in front of the trio was pale and his face was horribly scarred. His nose was not even, there seemed to be holes in his body, and that he had been through great trauma. Even though he was not physically there, Lirri could feel the pressure of his power. It was a familiar hum that she remembered recognizing.
It had been on the training island. The faintest feeling of this power had been encircling Ben, most powerfully when he had murdered Igni. She tried looking down but Kylo's hand kept her head facing up.
"Kylo bring her closer." Snoke declared as Kylo pushed Lirri forward as Snoke leaned down. He raised his brow as Lirri struggled in his grasp. He could feel her energy flaring up as Lirri pushed against Ren.
"Yes, she'll do." Snoke spoke as Lirri cried out in Ren's arms. Her eyes stared at Snoke as she resisted him. Snoke leaned further as Lirri fought harder against Supreme Leader Snoke's push into her mind. She was stiff against Kylo Ren's hands.
Snoke seemed to chuckle as he leaned further. Kylo remained still as this battle of the minds continued until Lirri finally stiffened in his eyes with only the whimpers coming out of her lips. Ren looked up at Snoke, although he did not know what Snoke was looking into in Lirri's mind, he knew that Snoke was interested.
After a few minutes he heard a groan from Lirri as she muttered about getting out. Kylo whispered in her ear. "It'll go quicker if you just let him." However, Lirri seemed to do quite the opposite as she started resisting.
"What an interesting family relationship."
"GET OUT." she shouted before collapsing to the ground on her knees and gasping for air. Kylo crouched down as he brought her up.
Snoke looked pleased in his throne as he leaned back. "Interesting." he spoke before looking at Ren and Hux. "She did not start truly resisting until I got to the memories you were involved in Ren." Snoke spoke. He waved his hand as he faded out. "We'll speak more of this later."
Kylo pulled Lirri up by her shoulders as he pulled her back to the room. He tried setting her on the bed but she stayed clinging to him. Lirri's breathing was still quite heavy and so Kylo decided to let her calm down before he would leave.
Her head rested on his shoulder as Kylo held her close. Lirri's breathing calmed down as she looked at him finally. "How can you work under him?"
Kylo paused as he looked to her. "He gave me the power I wanted. I'm no longer in my family's shadow. He was able to listen to the desires I've always seen in my mind."
Lirri raised a brow as she scoffed towards him. "Are you serious?" she asked while cupping his cheeks. "That man is using you. For all you know he was implanting ideas in your brain. In fact I could count on it." She pointed towards the door with one hand. "That is the same feeling of power and darkness I felt when you started having those nightmares."
"I'm going to be as powerful as my grandfather."
"Ben, I know your grandfather's story. He fell to the dark side so he could stay with and protect your grandmother!" Lirri exclaimed as she took her hand away. "But that is exactly what killed your grandmother. In fact, I think your grandfather's master murdered her while she was in childbirth. Also, your grandfather left the dark side before he died because of his children showing him the way. It's never too late."
She stood up and rubbed her palms against her eyes. He knew that it was her method to try and prevent tears. "You are chasing the main image of Darth Vader, and he's using you like a fucking puppet."
Ren stood up as he squinted. "Why does it matter to you? You can use your family history on me but you know I can't do that to you."
Lirri stiffened as she looked to him. "My family is not important to me."
"It seemed important enough to Snoke." he responded as Lirri sighed. "And important enough for you that you refused to share it with me before."
Lirri's arms wrapped around herself. "The jedis were my real family. Luke was the best parent figure I could ever ask for."
Ren looked at her as Lirri's reddish eyes stared at him. "My uncle and parents were far from good parent figures." He said coldly.
"Really?" Lirri spoke as she stood up to him. "I understand neither of your parents were not home but they tried." Lirri hands were clenched as she stood before him, having to look up to make eye contact with him. "You had a roof over your head, warm meals and they tried while making the world safer for you."
"My parents spent their days in a cantina, constantly moving between shelter and shelter to survive. They started selling me out for party tricks when they discovered I had the Force, beating me if I messed up. I had to do well so I was given food and a blanket. I ran away from home at the age of 8. Your uncle found me and brought me in when I was 10."
Ren paused as he looked at her. It seemed like something that made him feel even more connected to him. "I did not tell you because I was not looking for some terrible family competition and I thought we were going to be able to be our own family but then you left me..."
Lirri's chest was moving heavily up and down as she resisted crying. Ren's instincts kicked in as he pulled her into a tight hug. He could feel the tears being absorbed by his shirt. Ren clung to her as he rested his head onto Lirri's head.
He whispered against her head. "I never wanted to leave you, but i knew I was destined for things."
Her arms were tightly around him as she continued crying. He knew that it was years of built up emotions being let out. "Everyday I talk with grandfather about this conflicting feeling inside me of the light and the dark."
Lirri moved her head slightly, tilting it so that she could be heard. "Ben… you could be great just as yourself. You don't need to prove this to the galaxy, just to the ones you care about."
He sighed and held her close. "I'm conflicted." Lirri looked up towards him as she pressed her hand on his cheek. There was a small smile on her lips. "And confused."
Ren didn't know if it was him honestly asking or for the sake of Snoke's plans. "Why did you not let Snoke see the memories involving me."
Lirri glanced down before looking up. "They are our memories, I don't want him to have them to use against you or me."
Kylo muttered. "I think he took a certain impression when you fought back against him."
"Let him think what he wants." her eyes came to stare up at him. "I will keep those memories for all my days.
Ren nodded as he pushed some hair from her face. "Thank you." he pressed his forehead against hers as his eyes closed.
In the moment, Ren was not afraid of the feelings that were starting to bubble up inside of him. They felt warm and comfortable. It was definitely a feeling he had not had in quite a long time. Snoke wanted him to convert her, but he did not know he could. Kylo did not want her involved any of what was happening and knew now why she was loyal to a fault to Luke.