Going to be honest with you guys, I lost a lot of motivation for this fic after seeing The Last Jedi. When I started writing this fic, I was completely in love with The Force Awakens and it is probably my favourite Star Wars move (even with growing up with the others) There was a lot of things in it that made me unhappy and uninspired. So after many months of this fic being almost done, I have the new chapter for you.

Please note, that I did edit the previous chapters (mostly for the sake of grammar) but you do not need to go back and read it for any missing information.

Lirri laid beside Ben as he slept, he was having a fitful rest. She could not sleep, thinking about the Supreme Leader Snoke's invasive force. Even hours later, she was concerned. This darkness was the same one she sensed in Ben. She felt there was a glimmer of hope, but that was suffocated under the darkness.

Sighing, Lirri sat up as best she could and stared at Ben. He was moving slightly both ways, his hand twitching in occasion. Some noise slipped out on occasion. Everything in her life was a contradiction right now. It felt so right to be laying beside Ben again, as if she could blink and they'd be back at the training. Where maybe by now Ben would have been the teacher and Lirri happily beside him. It was also wrong being here, supposing to be a prisoner and yet here she laid with one of the most evil men in the galaxy.

Pausing, Lirri corrected her own thoughts. Not laid with, but slept. Only because he needed information from her and if the First Order wasn't trying to kill her, she would be working on escaping. With everything that happened in the last few years, Lirri was starting to doubt how either side of the force truly was. Even with all of this drama, the force was still quite balanced in most of the world, just an imbalance in those able to manipulate it.

Lirri was afraid to admit to herself the unresolved feelings in her heart. She had thought they were burnt out when Kylo's heart turned dark. That having that sort of heartbreak ruined the prospect of connecting with anyone else for her. She realized now that it was more she hid her feelings under the business of the Rebellion. These feelings urged her to stay. To convince Ben to come back with her.

Lirri's head started to hurt as she decided pacing would help her think and get her energy out.

However, it meant climbing over Ben who was quite the light sleeper. She was cautious as she did so. Lirri placed her hand on the opposite side of Ben's body first, leaning her weight on it as she raised a knee over his body as she held her breath.

She placed her knee down, before shifting her weight to be more on her right arm and knee. As she lifted her left hand, her eyes connected with the half lidded brown eyes of Ben as she gulped. "Hi?"

Ben stared at her as he raised his brow and grabbed onto her one upper arm, squeezing it cautiously."What are you doing?"

Lirri stayed in the awkward position, as her face showed the pure awkwardness she felt. She knew there was no point in lying to Ben, he would know. "I wanted to pace as I tried to clear up my thoughts." Lirri confessed.

"About?" Lirri's felt her chest tense up as she shook her head.

"I'd rather not say." Lirri reasoned as she kept her position.

"Tell me." Ben spoke as he sat up as much as he could with the current position. "What its about at the very least."

His face was dangerous close, as Lirri's face reddened at the closeness. "Just about everything I had to think about again, Ben." Lirri spoke as she finally got the will to move away from Ben.

She tried getting off the bed again but Ben' arm wrapped around her and pulled her flush against his chest.

"Ben-" Lirri started as she sighed before she muttered under her breath as her eyes avoided his. "I am here against my will thanks to not being as smart as I could. I let myself get unfocused. Yet, here I am, sleeping in your bed thinking about how I missed you. How I miss being able to share with you, and seeing you. You make me question everything I know."

Her voice came out as almost a whisper. "Why can't I let you go?"

"Maybe it's because I won't let you." Ben replied as Lirri paused and looked up to see his eyes as lips connected with her own. They were a bit dry from sleep, but she could feel that there was something behind the kiss. Lirri's hands clung onto the back of his neck as she kissed back.

This was easy all thoughts left her mind. Lirri tilted her head as she deepened the kiss. Her body ached for this contact, being touch starved for nearly ten years now. Ben groaned as he pulled away for a moment as he moved to pin Lirri down on the bed before his lips pressed against hers again hungrily.

Ben was going to keep things friendly between the two, but with each day it had been harder. He let his instincts guide him and ended up kissing her knowing it was then or never again potentially.

His hands pushed the night shirt up as he licked her lips as he teased her lip as he caught it between his teeth and kissing down her jaw and neck. He nipped at her skin, remembering the spots that he used to leave love bites that made Lirri squirmed under his touch. Her small hands were under his shirt, one running up and down his stomach as the other dug into his lower back as if she was going to lose him if her fingers left him.

"Off." she muttered about the shirt as she tugged on the bottom before kissing him again. Ben grinned as he pulled away to comply with her wishes. Lirri followed suit with her own as Ben dove on the chance to explore her skin.

Although they both had matured physically in the last ten years that was sure, but even then both still remembered the things about their partners.

Kylo Ren woke up as he thought about the previous night. A wide grin was on his face as he recalled the events. He glanced down to Lirri who was laying on him. He could see the plethora of love bites and marks from the night before.

Knowing it was time to get out, he carefully slid out from under her as he headed to the washroom. He saw his own appearance in the mirror and was thankful for the covering outfit he wore. There was pink lines down his back and hickeys on his chest. Ren showered and changed, a grin still on his face.

Sure, it was great to be with Lirri again, but it also helped him further along his plans. People do stupid things for love, including change sides in war. He walked out, and saw that Lirri was sitting on the bed with her back towards him. Her hand was on her neck, and he could feel the force at work as the marks on her skin were dulling.

"Why are you healing the marks?" he question as Lirri turned her head to look at him. She stopped for a moment.

"I doubt it'd look good to have me covered in these. I'd be considered a distraction for you."

Kylo sat on the bed beside her as he watched her continue the healing. He had seen her do it a few times at the academy but she had still been learning it. She was always far better at healing others, but both Luke and Lirri would be choosy about who they healed because it was important to understand how your body reacted to pain and ailments. Yes, it would be easy to help those who were sick but then their immune system would not grow.

Or at least that was how Lirri had explained it before. "So, if you were able to heal why did you never heal the lightsaber injury from before?" Kylo asked, a question he had always wondered before.

"I sped the healing along, but I needed to be aware of the mistakes I made." Lirri began. "I should have stopped you when I noticed your mindset was not right, but I hesitated until I couldn't any more. The scar reminds me of the mistakes of my past."

"I think it should remind you that even if you don't believe in violence, that sometimes it is necessary. You gave us too much freedom and hesitated in what you wanted. In life you must take what you want."

He nodded as Lirri pulled the blanket up around her body as she glanced at him. "Are you heading to work?"

Kylo stood up as he sighed. "Yes, I must make my presence known or Hux will think he's in control." he rolled his eyes at this thought before heading to the door. "I won't be able to check on you today."

"That's fine, I'm not going anywhere. What with technically being a prisoner and knowing it's here or that chair again." Lirri spoke as Kylo headed out of the door with his cloak and helmet in hand to put on once he exited the door.

Lirri waited a few minutes as she headed into the washroom to shower. She literally was freaking out about everything and how does she solve this? Sleeping with Ben. She rested her head on the tile wall as the water warmed her skin.

Lirri closed her eyes as flashes of Ben came in. Opening them, she let out a groan. That was the thing she wanted to think the least about. It wasn't that it was bad, in fact it was great but it worried her. This made Lirri want to stay here, with the First Order so she could be with Ben. This wasn't right though. Lirri stayed under the hot water for awhile until she felt she had over thought enough.

Since Kylo still hadn't brought her clothes, so she went ahead and stole his once again and used the scrap to tie her hair up.

Lirri stretched as she walked around the room, her body feeling tense from the lack of activity. She pushed a few things further to the walls until she had enough space in the centre.

It was a very made up routine of push ups, sit ups and then she did a handstand to test how long she would be able to hold this. Lirri had gone at least five minutes as she took one hand off the ground. Her elbow immediately buckled as she stumbled to the ground.

She relaxed her breathing as something appeared in her mind. It was Snoke talking with Hux. "Grab her and continue to get information out. You will have only a limited time before Kylo returns. Play it right and you even could convince Ren she fled."

Lirri tensed as she heard Snoke continue. "I would hurry though, since you never know what she could be privy to and at the very least, you can get a few hours of potential information." He had a grin on his face as he looked straight at Lirri. She knew Hux could not see her, but Snoke could.

Lirri broke eye contact as she scrambled to Kylo's desk she needed paper or something. She found a scrap of paper and a pen. Lirri wrote out her note quickly, tucking it under the bed sheets before she made the bed. It was somewhere that he would find it. She was not a fan of being a prisoner, but even less so in the previous conditions.

As she finished making the bed, Lirri heard someone opening the door. Taking a deep breath, she acted cool as the Stormtroopers came in with guns raised.

General Hux came in afterwards with his arms crossed behind his back. "I think it is safe to assume that you've recovered from your previous … incident."

Lirri shrugged as she crossed her arms over her chest. She remained silent as Hux continued. "I will give you an offer. You may stay in this room if you tell us all you know now and see Kylo again later or we can go back to previous methods and Kylo will not be able to assist you this time."

"All I know is that Snoke sent you purposely while Kylo Ren was gone for a reason. That's all I am willing to tell you." Lirri spoke as the Stormtroopers came up and grab her roughly by the arm.

"Wrong answer." Hux replied as they dragged her through the halls. It was halfway across the ship when they finally opened another door and strapped her into a chair.

Hux came up to her as he smiled at her. "Now Jedi, why don't you reveal to us where you left the drive?"

She shook her head as Hux turned to the StormTrooper that was pulling up a table. "Let's begin then."

-

Lirri couldn't tell if it was a few hours later or merely a few minutes. All she knew was that there was at least a few fingers broken on each hand with missing fingernails and her leg felt wrong. She had been beaten solidly and was afraid what they would do if she had started fixing herself up.

Hux had stepped out for a meeting and left her with the Stormtroopers. The two were talking between each other as Lirri thought about the words Kylo had left her with earlier.

Last time she had used it to sleep but this time was going to be used as a way to get free.

"You two." she called out, trying to keep her body calm as she concentrated on the energy around her flowing.

"You will listen to what I say."

"I will listen to what you say." The Stormtroopers repeated.

"You," She said to the one by the door. "You will be prepared to grab Hux when he enters this room and shove him in the closet." Turning to the other one, she spoke. "You will undo these locks."

They repeated back the order as Lirri waited. The moment the door shut behind Hux he was shoved into the closet, the Stormtrooper taking a metal rod from the weapons to barricade the door. Lirri jumped down from the chair as she went to the Stormtroopers. "Keep him in the closet."

She opened the door and looked in either direction. It was clear as she walked… well limped away, mentally coaxing that Lirri could not be seen. As she turned the corner, no one saw her. She kept focused though, knowing at any moment this could change.

Some people were talking about going on a supply run for more fruits as she followed behind them. Using the force like this was like using a muscle after a long time. It was a stretch feeling, but a good one.

Lirri saw the ship as she realized that it would be far too easy to track her if she left on that sole ship and would need to hide out until a group of ships left. It would be smarter to just stay and get a better opportunity later since if she left now, they would find her far too soon and she'd live in that chair from now on.

Plus, Lirri argued to herself, she can let the Resistance know of any leads if possible.

-

Kylo's room was empty when he came in. Empty of noise and energy. It angered him even more than Snoke's declaration. He had been called in to be told that she somehow had escaped.

"Lirri?" he called out, thinking she may be in the washroom or hiding her appearance. When she did not answer, Kylo went to the door and yanked it open. She wasn't there. Anger fueled through him as he started throwing things around his room before sitting on the bed. He knew that she did not know how to open the door since he prepared it that way.

The crinkle noise distracted him as he pulled up the sheets. A piece of paper was waiting for him.

Hux is on his way to interrogate me. Find him and I should be there, if not I must have gotten away from him.

He reread the note before Kylo stood up and marched towards the interrogation chambers. When close, he could sense General Hux. Opening the door, he saw two men guarding the closet door.

"What are you doing?" he asked.

"Keeping Hux in here." they responded automatically and Kylo knew that it was from the Force.

"Go clean that up." he barked instead as he pointed towards the chair that he could see speckles of blood and other things he'd rather not think of as he pried the metal bar from the door handles as he opened the door.

Hux was completely red in the face, almost more vibrant than his hair colour, as Kylo immediately used the force to throw him across the room. "Why did you take her?"

"I have no idea what you're talking about Ren." Hux barked as Kylo raised him in the air.

"Lirri wrote a letter about you taking her." Kylo stated as he added. "You're also a terrible liar." he added before probing into Hux's mind. It was far too easy as the flashes of Lirri in the chair came to mind.

He dropped Hux as he barked. "Lock the ship down. Find her." He stormed out as he tried sensing for any sign of Lirri on ship. He couldn't sense her anywhere as he prodded further and stormed through the entirety of the ship.

Kylo strung out curses as he threw different things as he screamed at Phasma to find her and to demand the ship out for a supply run to return immediately.

She just told him that day she wasn't planning on leaving but now she was gone. When he got to Phasma, the ships on supply runs had already been gone and done multiple pick ups.

He was furious as he barked out for them to find her. Kylo had already destroyed half of the furniture on their ship. Stormtroopers were sent to the planet to find Lirri but were unable to come up with any possible leads.

Kylo was storming around the room as he stopped when he walked by a janitorial closet. Instead of the normal lull, it felt slightly wrong. Deciding to check it out, Kylo opened the door. Behind the boxes of supplies and mop bucket was Lirri. She was beaten and he could see her hands were in terrible shape as she looked up with fearful green eyes.

He looked at her, expressionless through the mask as she let out a sigh. "I… I panicked." Lirri spoke as Ren nodded before turning to a Stormtrooper.

"Call off the lockdown. I have found the escapee." He spoke to them as the sounds of running followed.

Without being able to see his face worried Lirri as she wondered if this whole time she had made a mistake and should have fled. When Ren offered her his hand, she took it and followed him obediently as he helped alleviate the weight on her one leg. As they walked by the hangar, she noticed the ship that she had been planning on stowing away on.

Ren walked her to a medical room as she was surrounded by robots immediately as she was rushed to sit down. The robots wasted no time removing her shirt as her eyes widened. Ren stood near the door, as if ready to smite anyone who came in. From the reflective surfaces, Lirri could see the multiple bruises on her ribs and that the shot on her shoulder was still inflamed. The robots began spraying her as she felt the bruises start stinging less. A different robot tended to her cuts, patching them back up. For her hands, each of the broken fingers were set and wrapped as Lirri rolled her eyes before examining the room around her. It was strange to see the cupboards so well labelled of ingredients for medicine on the one section when a robot was responsible.

Soon the robot moved to her ankle, which was completely inflamed and painful as Lirri bit back a gasp as they wrapped it in a bandage before setting ice on it. The robot turned to Kylo on the other side.

"Anything else, Master Ren?" It questioned as he nodded. "Bring out clothes for her."

"Yes sir." The robot spoke as a pile of clothes were brought over. It was a few days worth as she changed into one pair. Grateful for undergarments and other clothing that fit her now. Out of the outfits, there were two pairs of black outfits and two pairs of white clothing. Lirri bunched them into her arms as she looked up at Kylo.

"What now?" Lirri questioned hesitantly.

"Back to my chambers. The Robots are currently fixing it to allow only myself to open the door." Kylo spoke as he walked to her as he glanced to her feet. "Can you walk?"

"Yes." Lirri spoke as she slipped on the black shoes they gave her. They were flats and thin but better than simply the bare floor. The walk back was silent as Lirri could see the flaming orange hair in the distance. Squinting, she knew that it was her chance as she was hidden behind Kylo's back.

She pushed the Force to lift Hux off of the ground with one foot before swinging him back and forth a few times before dropping him.

When Hux fell, he let out a loud oof before yelling out "KYLO!" Lirri kept her snickering to herself as the arrived at the room once more. When the door shut, Lirri was pushed with her back against the door.

"You think that was funny?"

"I think it was just a hint of revenge." Lirri answered as she heard the hissing of the mask as it was discarded to the side.

"Well, you are lucky that he hadn't realized it was you or else we'd have a repeat of today." Kylo spoke as he held her chin so she'd look at him. The smirk on his face gave his opinion away as Lirri let out a sigh.

"I don't feel lucky." Lirri answered, before lowering her voice. "If I hadn't seen a vision before he came, I don't know what would have happened…"

"The Force works in great ways to protect us when we need it." Ren spoke as he brushed hair out of her face. "We're connected by the Force, it told me when you were in grave danger when you almost drowned."

"Really?"

"Really."