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"What are you doing out here?" A familiar voiced called out to the brunette, who was busy captivated by his own thoughts.

"No 'brat'?" Eren guffawed.

"How funny." The male spoke sarcastically as he stood next to the brunette heaving a heavy and rather disappointed sigh, before continuing, "Idiotic Brat."

Eren took a deep breath as he turned towards his formal captain, figuring a conversation was about to be started whether he wished to partake in it or not. It was clear as day he'd much preferably not want to. After all, there was a reason on why he had decided to head outside, to have a breather. Despite his wishes to stay with Mikasa, it was clear the two needed some alone time— or at least him.

"I should go, in case Mikasa is—"

"If you were so concerned about your precious Mikasa, you wouldn't have left her all by herself now, would you?" Levi scoffed, cutting off his words with his own that seemed to have stung the brunette a little. "You would've stayed by her side as long as she needs you to, so tell me brat, why are you here?" Levi questioned, as he sat himself down, staring out blankly at the nothingness that Eren had seemed to be captivated by earlier.

Though, Eren could not argue or retaliate with that, not because it was all that true, rather he didn't know how to without contradicting himself a little. Levi was partially right, if he had cared he should've stayed by her side instead of leaving her alone in the room, in the dark. Except, his own guilt got the best of him, and he couldn't stand it—stand being in the same room with Mikasa, for she was one of the reasons why his guilt would suffocate him, along with his untold truths. Yet, she wasn't one to blame, it was himself, he knew that. But, somewhere in Levi's cold-hard statement was he so wrong.

"I can't stay by her side as long as she wants, you know that fully well. I can't be there for her or with her forever. Hell, she deserves better, not me. Back then, I would've always pushed her away. She doesn't deserve a jerk like me" Eren sighed before continuing, "Although, you're right, I should be by her side now. As much as I can. Now would you excuse me—"

"You don't have to go so soon, I saw that coconut head rushing to her side on my way here. You should've seen his face, worried, anxious." Levi remarked, though it didn't surprise the brunette too much that Armin had rushed to her side, he already predicted he would, and already figured his reason as to why he wore such a 'worried, anxious' look that Levi had described.

"Of course… who wouldn't be worried and anxious about someone as fragile as her knowing the truth…?" Eren grumbled, his tone laced with some traces of hatred for the blonde who plan to unveil every lie.

"And you aren't going to stop him?" Levi scoffed.

"… I would love to, but… she has to know at some point, plus I'm sure you would've stopped me from running away anyway." Eren spoke as he rolled his eyes agitatedly. "I suppose she has to know, and when she does, I'll disappear away from her. It makes no difference, she can't see me anyway. She doesn't need me, and—"

"What kind of crap are you spitting out? I don't think I need to explain or elaborate how wrong you are. For fuck's sake Yeager, this wasn't all your fault, or Arlert's or anyone else's." Levi groaned, resisting the urge to kick him across the face for such a shitty answer, for Mikasa's sake neither did he wish to have another unnecessary fight with her which wouldn't end well even if she were blind. If it involved Eren, she would still have the strength of a hundred soldiers or more to fight.

"'Wasn't all my fault' huh…" Eren let out a sigh, as he looked down, recalling the events that had happened on that day, where almost everything was lost and where Mikasa lost something.

"Mikasa!" Armin screeched, "No! Sir, Captain… we have to go back... Mikasa's—"

"Arlert, she's gone… it's too late we have to focus on the main target. If not, her death was in vain." Levi instructed, and though his tone held the same sternness, there was definitely some sort of despondency that laced with his words, like with every death he had witnessed. Except, this was the most tragic one he had probably seen thus far in his team. Making a choice without regrets, that's what she had done, yet that choice left others with regrets… like the blonde he was carrying on now.

"Drop me on Eren." Armin demanded, his tone suddenly grew fierce. Which definitely caught Levi off guard.

"What?"

"Just do it, captain. If anything goes wrong, I'm sure you'd know what to do."

Levi was a little hesitant as to do as told, but the fury and rage that showed in the blonde's eyes said otherwise. They weren't ones that were blinded by that seething anger, he saw some logic in them At least he hoped there was.

"Alright." Levi agreed, before he swung up to the raging titan as he dropped Armin onto his nape before he left, hidden once again, preparing for the worse to come.

"Eren!" Armin screamed, and with clenched fist he striked them at his nape.

"Can't you see what you've done?! You've… killed so many..."

Despite his words, Eren was still acting with violence, recklessness.

"You've…"

He tore a tree from the ground, his arm heading back as he prepared to throw it aimlessly—yet it seemed to be aiming at the supposedly dead raven unintentionally.

"You've KILLED Mikasa! You damn fool!" Armin screeched as tears escaped his ocean orbs, as his fist continued pounding onto his nape.

Hesitance. Eren wasn't moving, he stood rooted to the ground. And just as his head was about to tilt towards the blonde, Levi came in, slicing his nape while he was distracted.

Armin was thankful he did, he didn't wish to see or know what face he was making. Whether it be one of remorse, guilt or a look of someone who lost everything that kept them sane.

"And then?" Mikasa asked softly, her tone was fragile.

"And then…after Levi sliced his nape, we got him out. The war continued, Levi went back to fight while I stayed with Eren… Long story short, after Eren had just gain back conscious, we explained everything, leaving out the fact he… 'Killed' you, but once we won, he noticed you were missing. He started asking, no one responded, only until when he ran off, he saw you lying there, looking so lifeless. That's when it seemed he gotten back some flashbacks of what had happened. Before we could have dragged him away, he refused to believe you were gone. When he went a little closer, he noticed you were breathing slightly—but weakly. And of course, we brought you back to get proper medical attention. Thankfully, you woke up but…"

"I lost my sight." Mikasa finished his sentence.

Mikasa let out a heavy sigh. It wasn't too much to take in, she figured out for the most part. But there was definitely something about that story that both oddly lifted up something off her shoulders yet it sent chills to her stomach. "Thank you for telling me… does Eren know that you're—"

"No… but I'm sure he'll know. Hey… Mikasa—"

"Armin you don't have to apologise, its fine… this is what I get for being selfish, wanting to save you two. And I do not regret it. I do not regret saving you two one way or another." Mikasa muttered softly, and even without having to see, she could tell the blonde was trembling. Searching for his hand, she gripped it tightly once found. "I feel better now that you've stopped hiding, I feel… so much better. But…"

"But…?"

"But Eren… he's still hiding, and I can't find him."

"What do you mean by that…?" Armin questioned softly.

"… I feel like he's just hiding something else… and it's burdening him, I know it. I can feel it. And I can't seem to find out why, I can't find the thing hiding..." Mikasa spoke, trying her best to explain what she meant, though it didn't come out as elaborate as she hoped it would be. But it was enough for the blonde to understand— and figure out.

"I know what you mean… and your answer… but that's something you should hear from Eren." Armin sighed as Mikasa nodded in agreement. "I know, it just hurts."

"The fact that Eren's not being honest with you…?" Armin queried.

"That and…"

"And…?"

As Mikasa exhaled out another heavy sigh, her grip tightened on the blonde's hand by a little. Her eyes closed slowly, and it seemed she had a reason why she did, she didn't want him to stare into her empty orbs once she revealed what she had planned to say, after all she figured it'd only make things worse if she found Armin drowning himself in despair after a glance at her orbs. "You know, being blind… you know what the worst thing about it is?"

"…What…?" Armin prompted, although he didn't wish to know the answer—he was frightened of it.

"It's that…"

"Even if it wasn't all my fault, a part of it still is." Eren sighed.

"Honestly, Yeager, stop being all… a mess. You have so little time left and what you plan to do is have a pity party for yourself, Mikasa or whoever? So what if it is your fault? So what if it's hers or Arlert's fault? Are you going to keep running away? She can't even chase after you anymore, and yet you seem to be distancing yourself at the same time you seemed to be pulled back towards your dear Mikasa." Levi spoke as he took a glance to the brunette, and before he could speak a word, it was Eren's turn to cut him off.

"Why did you come out here, Levi?" Eren questioned as he turned towards him narrowing his eyes.

Levi sighed as he stood up slowly, "To tell you to get your shit together or you're really going to find yourself regretting a lot at your last breath." He spoke plainly as he started walking off.

"What should I do then? I don't know what to do..." Eren grumbled, sounding rather helpless at that, letting a little of his vulnerability slip through.

Levi paused in his steps after having noticed the vulnerability that he had unintentionally slipped through, but he didn't look back. "How much of an idiot can you be?" He spoke sounding a little irritated at the fact he hadn't gotten a hint on what to do. "You can start by being honest, just to let you know, from what I've seen, building up lies or placing things aside when you can handle now—people who do that… regret isn't the only thing they'll feel."

"What is the other then…?"

"… You'll find out if you keep living your life the way you are now. Though I suppose after this, you would hopefully change." Levi spoke before he continued walking off, "Don't be an imbecile, brat. Don't do things that'll you'll regret."

"… You don't have to tell me that." Eren mumbled as he continued staring off at the sky, the sun seemed to be slowly rising, its rays slowly erasing the darkness of the night. How easy it must be for the sun, it has nothing to hide, then there's the moon which described the brunette's situation. It was always hiding, in the dark... and only came out if it wanted to, metaphorically. "Ah... I hate everything." He groaned.

"…What…?" Armin prompted, although he didn't wish to know the answer—he was frightened of it.

"It's that…" Mikasa took a deep breath once more before she revealed the answer that the blonde wished he didn't have to hear, "I will not be able to see you two go, peacefully..."

"M-Mikasa… what do you—"

"You can't be that blunt… you know what I mean. How'd I know if you or Eren passed away peacefully? I can't see it with my own eyes. I can't trust anyone for that matter. What kind of face would you or Eren be making when you go? Sad? Happy? Regret? Will you be crying as you do? I don't want that… Just one last time, I want to see… I want to make sure you both pass away peacefully, if not I'd forever remain unrest..." Mikasa spoke, trying her best not to break.

"It's not important… Mikasa—"

"You don't understand!" Mikasa cut off his words, and though her eyes were still sealed shut, some tears manage to break its way through the walls she had built up. "I want to see… you both smile for the last time. It's hard to explain, the feeling you're having when someone you care about dearly disappears from you— and you can't even see that person in the first place anymore… the last time I saw you, you were being dragged off by Levi, you were crying… and Eren… I can't even remember, but it wasn't a smile that's for sure. I can't even see you two anymore… and all I selfishly want is to see you two one last time before you go... that's all I want but that can never happen..." Mikasa cried out, before her cries were muffled as the blonde pulled her closely into a warm embrace.

No words were exchanged, nor was there a need to.

A few moments, the door slowly creaked open. The blonde looked up, the raven turned.

They didn't needed sight to know who it was. The sudden increase tension of the atmosphere made it clear enough who was standing at the door.

"Eren…?" Mikasa called out his name, ever so gently, no rage nor hatred did she hold—despite knowing everything, her eyes slowly opening at the thought or rather hope to meet his ever-so beautiful emerald orbs.

Pitch black tore down the hope she barely even had in the first place, she should've known. She should've known to have never get her expectations up, for they always came crumbling down.

"Eren…" She squeaked out once more, hoping to hear at least a response to make up for the vision she lacked.

Author's note: I'm back, updates would still be a little irregular, hopefully I'll be able to update this once or twice every month. If i manage my time and find some muse,it'd once every week or 10 days! I hope this chapter seems better. I also changed/updated chapter 7 a little. Please leave a review, i would love to hear out your thoughts and Thank you!