She wakes up to the warmth of the sun upon her face. It's been nice out here. Two weeks at the cabin have done her good. She thought it would be hard at first since she had shared it with Peeta. That the memories would consume her and bring her down again. She has kept herself busy fixing up the cabin, fishing, gathering, and hunting. She cures the meet she doesn't eat. She doesn't want to go back home empty handed.
The nights have always been the hardest at home and now here too. Memories of them together play out in her head like one of those film reels they showed at school. Months ago she used to fight them. Trying to think of other things, it would never work and she'd only end up tossing and turnings all night. So she learned to let them play out until she falls asleep.
Lately her mind would take her back to the morning she left for the cabin. That last time she saw him, he had a pained look on his haggard face full of misery and sorrow. So much so, that her initial reaction was to go to him, take him in her arms and reassure him that everything would be ok.
She still misses him. His smiles that dimple one of his cheeks, his laugh that was so infectious she couldn't help but join when she tried to glare at him. His hands, when they would grab her and pull her flush against him. His lips that would trail kisses from her jaw down her neck, to her pulse point. Hmm, that always made her shiver.
Then there was last night's dream, which woke her up in the middle of the night panting, wet and throbbing at her core, leaving her sated but wishing it had been real. She's never had a dream like that before.
Sure she's fantasized plenty of times about making love to Peeta, they never went all the way but they did enough to fuel her imagination. He's brought her to completion with his hands and a couple of times with his mouth, she reciprocated of course, she was nothing if not fair. The sounds that he made and the look of love and desire on his face as she took him in her mouth would get her worked up all over again.
Is he happy? He didn't look it, that time she saw him. Does he think of her? and how happy they had been? They would have been married now, having breakfast in their home planning their day or maybe they'd even be here together.
In two weeks she'll be starting her job in the Justice Building working with Madge, so she won't be able to be out in the woods as often. That's another reason why she's out here enjoying her woods.
She grabs a bucket heads to the lake and fills it up with water so she can warm it up for a quick wash down. Usually she would jump in the lake with a bar of soap but it's too cold right now, even for her. As she goes about her morning chores she begins to sing, she has been doing that a lot since she arrived at the cabin, singing all the songs her dad taught her. She goes off to walk the snare lines that she set up near the cabin. She also gathers vegetation and medicinal herbs, that are pretty abundant in this area. By the afternoon she's back at the lake skinning and preparing her game. Singing as she works.
I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now, I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we; been through
I miss everything about you
Without you, oh
I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm not with me
She stops sing tilts her head to the left, she hears something. There it is again, it's heavy, loud and stomping toward the lake. No, it can't be, what is he doing here? How did he know she was out here? Shouldn't he be getting ready to welcome his baby. What should she do? She needs to run and hide, maybe climb a tree. Desperately she looks up to the trees seeing which she should use but no, he knows she's here he'll wait her out, he came for a reason.
She's feeling a little frantic, yet exited. Her hearts pounding in her chest, her body starts to tremble; this is what he does to her. Every time! How is it possible for someone to have such a hold on a person? For her to have this reaction to him, then all of a sudden he's there, right in front of her. Looking scared but in his eyes she sees love and hope.
God, how she's missed him.
