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Chapter 4
Anastasia
I finally finished my therapy and can now walk without feeling weak and exhausted. I am enjoying a nice, relaxing walk every afternoon.
For the past two weeks I have been slowly adjusting to my life, although I wish that I could remember anything about our relationship and marriage. It's so sad to see Christian looking at me with longing in his eyes every time we are together.
I admit that my husband is sexy and gorgeous, but I just don't feel anything for him at all. Mike has my heart—he is all I think about, but then the guilt hits because I feel like I am cheating on Christian.
"Sawyer can you stop at the coffee shop please?" According to Luke Sawyer, he has been my CPO ever since Christin and I got married.
"Of course Mrs. Grey" he replies, nodding his head.
I was in line ordering my coffee when someone bumped into me. When I turned around I could not believe who was standing there.
No fucking way!
Mike Lewis is standing in front of me!
Oh my God, my heart starting racing immediately.
"Ana?" he asked, in disbelief.
"Mike!" I gasp.
"How are you?" he smiled that smile that used to make my knees weak.
"I- I'm good, how are you?" I asked, looking him up and down. Damn he looks good since the last time I saw him.
Don't get me wrong, he has always been a good looking guy, but now I see that he has really been working out a lot.
"Miss" the barista called to get my attention.
"Oh sorry… can I have a latte please" I whisper feeling my face turn red…
"If you're not busy would you like sit and catch up?" he smiled nervously, making me giggle like a teenager.
"I would love to" I shyly smile, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.
I feel like a teenager again, having my high school crush ask me out.
You are a married woman I scold myself.
We take our orders and took a sit at a corner table of the coffee shop, away from a prying eyes and ears
"So I heard that you are married now.
"Yeah" I sighed, looking down at my latte.
"Is everything ok Ana?" he always knew if something was bothering me.
"I was in a bad car accident 4 months ago and it left me with no memoires of my husband or our marriage. He is a total stranger to me…."
"I'm so sorry to hear that" he pats my hand.
I frown at the contact; there is no electricity from his touch… I don't feeling anything at all.
What the fuck is wrong with you?
I have to stop this now!
Trying to clear my head, I look up to him, seeing him smile sweetly at me.
"How about you?" I changed the subject.
"Well, my dream came true, you are now looking to the President/CEO of Lewis Design and Construction" he said proudly.
Mike always dreamed about going into business for himself, spreading his ideas about eco-friendly designed homes and buildings. He went to school to become an architect
"Oh my gosh that's amazing!" I squealed, feeling proud of his achievement.
We continued catching up, and before I knew it, it was dark outside. I didn't realize that we been talking for hours. I am sure I have several missed calls and texts from Christian and Kate.
Before we parted ways we exchanged phone numbers and promised to see each other again before he went back to New York.
On the way home I couldn't help but smile…
Christian
I don't know how long I been pacing, waiting to see Ana. I called Sawyer earlier and asked him where they were since Ana didn't answer any of my calls or texts. I grabbed my keys to drive myself where they were, but when Sawyer told me that my wife was having coffee with none other than Mike Lewis, I stopped myself.
You have no right to feel jealous Grey; after all you cheated on her
Mike Lewis has Ana's heart, not you. She doesn't remember you.
"Stop….Stop… Stop!" I screamed to myself, closing my eyes and clenching my fists...
I hear the ding of the elevator, but from where I was standing I know she can't see me. My heart shattered into pieces when I saw the smile on her beautiful face.
It was the same smile she used to give me when I said or did something for her- it was her happy, giddy smile. I know that smile is because of Mike, not me.
I stood there, looking at her as she was laughing and smiling at a text message on her phone...
Sawyer said that they exchanged numbers…I hope it was not him texting my wife.
I know Ana wouldn't betray me.
What makes you so sure, Grey? You betrayed her…
This fucking, nagging voice in in my head is driving me insane.
"Hi" I make myself known.
"Oh my" she jumped, startled at me.
"Hi" she placed her hand against her pounding chest, and my heart stopped when I saw her bare ring finger. She noticed the sad look on my face.
"I'm sorry, I forgot to put my ring back on when I took a shower earlier" she said apologetically.
"It's ok" I smiled, trying to hide the pain I'm feeling right now.
"How was your day?" she asked when I walk past her into the kitchen.
"I had to fly to Portland to close a deal, and just got back earlier this afternoon" I shrugged.
"How was your day?" I already knew the answer, but I wanted to see if she be honest with me.
"I saw Mike this afternoon at the coffee shop. We caught up on what's been going on in each other's lives." She gave me small smile.
We fell into an awkward silence. I hate feeling like this—as we aren't sure what to say to each other.
"I'm tired, so I'm going to bed now… goodnight." She gave me a small kiss on my cheek before she turned around and walked to her room, leaving me standing alone in the dark.
I feel this hot, burning anger inside of me. I want to grab her, kiss her, and make her remember what we used to have, but I know as long as I continue to lie to her, this will never happen.
Just like last night, I crept into her room and watched her sleep until my eyelids closed, welcoming the sweet, happy dreams that are filled with Ana and I, before I caused this disaster that is now my life.
Just as I drift off to sleep I hear those same 6 words that plague me every day…
I hope she was worth it…