Chapter 17: In My Dreams
When I dream I see a lot of weird things. I see a gray abyss of nothing but screaming. I see flashing colors of blue, green, and red. I even see Monika sometimes but she just floats in a void silent. I want to say something but I can't almost as if I'm restricted to somehow. Everytime I have this dream I try everything but I can't get her to notice me. I have never talked to her about it though. There just dreams right. They aren't real right? What am I saying, I think this vacation making me go insane. But I bring this topic up because tonight I had a weird dream. Something about saying I need to go back to the literature club. I say Sayori hang herself. I saw Yuri stab herself and bleed black blood to death. I saw Natsuki's neck snap and her eyes bleed. And Monika. She was know where to be found in the dream. I don't know if this is a sign to go back to the literature club or if I'm just going crazy. I think I am cause everytime I think about the dream my head hurts and my thoughts get, clouded. I think its best for me not to tell Monika so she doesn't get worried. But I thinks its already a bit to late cause when I woke up I was holding on to Monika for dear life and she just looked at me.
"Good morning." I say trying to play it off.
"Good morning, Monika says, "Had a bad dream or something?"
"What! Me no." I say nervously.
"Come on," Monika says, "Theres no need to lie I won't tell anyone."
"Huh," I say, "Fine I'll tell you but be prepared."
"Okay it can't be that bad." Monika says.
I tell Monika what happened in my dream. Her eyes sorta look like they tear up and she seems to get a bit worried for some reason. I only tell her that dream I don't tell her anything else. But something to note when I said "get back to the literature club" it looked like she lost all color in her. She just sits on the bed with a blank stare. I don't really know what to do now so we just sit there for a bit till I decide to get up and make breakfast for us. When making breakfast I swear I heard Monika cry a bit. I knew I shouldn't of told her, what was I thinking. When I finish making breakfest I go into our room to get Monika. When I go in there she is curled up on the bed. I see a couple of tissues on the ground so that's not a good sign. I go up to Monika and lay down next to her. She then notices and turns towards me. She is still crying but I don't know why. Before anything can happen and I kiss her.
"It will be alright," I say, "nothing bad will happen to us or the girls."
"It's not that," Monika says, "Its only a matter of time before-"
Monika can't even finish her sentence. She hugs me as tight as she can like she'll never let go. I tell her I'm gonna text Sayori that we are gonna spend the day together just us. She nods her head. I start to get up then Monika grabs my hand.
"Please, just a bit longer." Monika says.
"Okay." I say.
I sit back down and we hug. Five minutes later we lay down with each other and she puts her head on my shoulder.
"I'm never gonna leave you unless you want me to," I say, "Just remember that."
"You promise?" Monika says.
"I swear on it." I say.
She smiles then falls asleep on my shoulder. Its gonna be a long day but I'm gonna do whatever Monika wants to do.
Chapter 18: Monika's Day
Rolls of my shoulder and goes onto a pillow. I tuck her in and I let her sleep. I text Sayori and she says its fine. I only tell her that we are gonna spend a day together and thats it. I put breakfast in the fridge for later and I go back to the bedroom. Monika is still sleeping so I quietly lay down next to her and lay there on silence. A couple minutes later Monika rolls her head back on my shoulder and I just carefully brush the hair out of her mouth and eyes. A hour or so later she wakes up. I don't ask her what she means when she said "Its only a matter of time". But I have feeling it has something to do for the reason she was crying. I put my arm around her and we just lay there for a bit.
"Hey are you okay?" I ask
"Yeah I'm fine." Monika says.
"I'm not gonna ask why you where crying if you want to tell that's on you okay," I say, "I'm not gonna force you to tell me whats wrong."
"Okay thank you," Monika says, "I will tell you but when I'm a bit more emotionally ready."
"Okay," I say, "And just remember I love you and I'll wait for you no matter what."
We get up from the bed and have breakfast.
"So for today I will do anything you want to do." I say.
"Really?" Monika says.
"Yep anything, even if we already done it." I say.
"Well in that case," Monika says, "Do you think we could go back to the boardwalk and just walk on it."
"No pier?" I say.
"Yep." Monika says.
"Of couse." I say.
By the time we finish breakfast its already around noon so we just go without eating lunch. We frive down to the boardwalk. On the way we passed Sayori, Natsuki, and Yuri. And Natsuki flipped us off. When we get there I already know where to park so we waste no time. We get out of the car and star walking along the boardwalk. Monika points out some of the side stores and we go for a bit of shopping. I didn't really mind that much though with Monika it was fun. Held hands and continued to walk.
"Hey lets do this." Monika says.
Monika points out the bikes that you can ride on the boardwalk.
"Sure." I say.
I pay for the both of us and we start to bike along the pier. From the looks of it Monika looked happy for the first time that day. I wish I knew how to put a smile like that on her face forever. We biked around for a half hour then we put the bikes back. We get lunch near the bike rental place and we continue walking. When we get to the end of the boardwalk there are stairs leading onto the beach and on the way back. I take Monika's hand and pull her towards the stairs. She follows and we start to run across the beach near the water.
"C'mon is that the fastest you can go. I thought you where in track?" I say.
"I was in track and I'm only going this fast so I don't leave you in the dust." Monika says.
"Don't you dear hold back on me." I say.
I take off at full speed. But Monika is right behind me and passes me.
"Fine then I won't." Monika says.
Then Monika takes off and leaves me in the dust. We do this for a bit till we both get tired and decide to walk back together. When we get back to the car we get in and drive away.
"Today couldn't have been more perfect," Monika says, "Thank you."
Monika kisses me on the cheek. Somehow after everything we've ever been through she still made me blush. Maybe thats why love her so much.