Chapter 3: Cersei and Ned

Cercei and her father Tywin were on the road to Kings Landing much quicker than expected. The King needed her father for some important business that needed their attention right away. It takes five days to travel from Casterly Rock to Kings Landing. She was 3 weeks to soon that would give her time to say goodbye to Jamie properly and say goodbye to all that she knows. She would need to catch on of all of the court gossip.

"Come on child look at least a little bit happy about your situation." Her aunt Genna said disapproving look on her face.

"Should i be happy that i am to be sold like cattle and sent away t some frozen land with those barbaric men." Cercei said with crossed arms and a annoyed look on her face.

"Well what do you expect. That you will wear an armour and go to fight. You are a woman and the world belongs to men. That is the way the world work and it is up to us if we make the best of our situations or not. Now stop your moping you will be the Lady of the largest Kingdom in Westeros now that is something. You could have been married to Oberyn who likes to fuck bastards." Genna said and shook her head at her foolish niece who did not see the opportunity in her situation.

"At least i would have a great lover in my bed-chambers." Cercei muttered under her breath.

"Who said that the Northern men are not good lovers. By Gods you are a foolish girl. You will stop this moping around and read a book maybe you would learn something." Genna said and looked out of the window.

"Why are you so quick to defend the Northern men Aunt Genna you don't even know any." Cercei said and gave her Aunt a questioning look. Genna just shook her head and continued to stare at the road passing by for a long time before she spoke.

"i was in love with a Northern man. He was strong tall and very handsome. He was Lord Stark ward at the time no older than ten and eight and i was ten and seven. Lord Stark came to visit my father. They were drunk most of the time do Ivar and i spend most of the time we could together. We wanted to run away together and live somewhere far away from this around us. I was ready to give up my status and gold for that man. We were wed in secret. When my father said i was to marry i call my husband Ivar went to my father and asked him for me. My father killed Ivar and i watched him bleed. My first born is his. I never loved after that and i grew to like my husband even if i do not show it." Genna said and Cercei was shocked. Her Aunt never revealed anything about her past but it still did not change the fact that she loved Jamie an she wanted to sped her life with him. For that man she is ready to give up everything she knows so that they can be together and have a family. She will ask him if they can run away. She did not care that she will be shaming their father. She hated him and if that hurt him she will be glad.

Before long she was back in Kings Landing where she felt at home with all the Lady's gossiping around each other and all the scandal happening. That was were it was interesting and not in some back hand North were Gods know what they do as entertainments. It is all villages.

Cercei entered the Castle wall were Jamie greeted her. He was all sweaty and dirty and his golden hair dishevelled. To Cercei he never looked more handsome and desirable.

"Hello my dear Aunt and sister. How was the journey." Jamie asked with fake pleasantries.

"Do not patronise me boy, why are you greeting me in such manner." Genna said with fake disgust

"I was trying my dear Aunt and since this will be some of the last time i could do so i take every opportunity." Jamie said looking at Cercei with longing on his eyes

"By Gods save me from this two. All you think that marriage is bad yet you have not tried it." Genna said raising her arms up and sighing expressibly.

"Aunt Genna it does not seem that you are very happy of your marriage." Jamie said and Genna smacked him underside his face.

"How can you know about my marriage. You do not dare speak of it. My husband may not be a dream prince but it beats me growing old alone. He has his perks. Now both of you get out of my site. You given me a headache." Genna said and rushed away to her bedchamber. Cercei and Jamie looked at each other and left in opposite directions. It was not a time or the place for the sort of greeting that they have in mind. To many eyes were looking upon them.

Cercei entered her bedchamber and laid on the bed. This time when she will leave the Capitol it would be to the unknown. She thought about what have her Aunt said and realised that she should give it a try. It might not be what she wanted but father will never allow her to be with Jamie as husband and wife. He though it to be disgraceful. He would kill them both.

Cercei was lost in her though that she did not realise the time has passed and it was now the time for the feast. She was escorted to the dinning whole where she was greeted by the King and the Queen Regent. The Queen was a magnificent beauty that radiated now that her husband ha passed. She was glowing and her pregnancy was showing.

The King was something else all together. He was very handsome with kind eyes and a small smile. He could have been mine, Cercei thought. If she had went to the tourney what might her fate be. She could have been the Queen. Throughout the dinner Cercei looked at Jamie who was laughing and talking with his friends. He seemed so careless like the fact that he is to be wed in the near future did not matter. From time to time he would steal glances at Cercei with her own personal smile that made Cercei all warm inside.

Cercei had eaten her fill and she was escorted back to her rooms where she sent everybody away and waited for the castle to fall asleep. She could hear her door opening and smiled. She was standing by her window overlooking the city when she felt strong arms around her and a familiar smell entered her nostrils. Jamie buried his face in her hair sighed.

"You have been teasing me all night with those looks you have been giving me sister. I desire you more now than ever." He whispered to her. Cercei closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She loved that man beyond anything else and she will till the day that she dies yet they will be separated very soon. Cercei turned around in his arms and too his face in her. She stood on the tip toes and kissed his lips like a thirsty woman drinking a glass of water.

"Take me then my brother, make me yours. Feel me up with your seed. I need to feel you." Cercei said her lips still touching his. Jamie opened his eyes and they were clouded with desire. He did not have to be told twice. He carried her to the bed and for the rest of the night he was capturing her cries with his mouth.

For the three weeks they have spend every night together making love and saying goodbye. A week before her betrothed arrival her Aunt Genna took her to the room red with anger.

"You need to stop the thing you are doing with Jamie right now. Are you foolish. You husband will know that you are not a maiden. This has to end now. Understand?" Genna said and Cercei nodded. Her Aunt was right. Last night they had a night they will remember till the end of her life and she was thankful for that. Cercei was on the verge of crying and her Aunt embraced her just as she fell apart.

"Hush now child. I know that you love him. I know your pain my dear that is why i told you. You can never be with the one your heart want but you may still be very fond of your husband. Now look at me child. You are a lioness. You will be the Lady of Winterfell and you will have many beautiful children you will be proud of." Aunt Genna said with her face between her hands. Cercei nodded and wiped her tears away. She was a lioness. She will get through this.

That night she met Jamie in a dark hallway.

"I cannot see you again Jamie. Not like we have been. This is our goodbye." Cercei said sadly but she was not crying. She was done with this.

"I know sister. Remember i love you and i always will. Till my last breath." Jamie said taking her hand in his and squeezing it.

"I will always love you as well brother. Forever. Goodbye." She said and left him standing there. Although the tears were stinging her eyes she will not let them fall. She could not let go. She closed off the part of her that loved Jamie and she promised she will never open it again. She will be devoted to her husband and he husband alone.

The week had passed to soon to her liking, she was standing in the Godswood when her father came over to her with a man she had never seen before.

"Cercei i want you to meet you betrothed Eddard Stark." Tywin said Cercei looked at her husband to be and opened her eyes in shock. She though he would look like a wilding with bushy hair and beard and that he would be dirty but she was pleasantly surprised.

Eddard was tall taller than Jamie ans he was much more muscular. His skin was pale with was contracting well with his dark hair with was long enough that he could put them behind his ear. His beard was trimmed neatly. His eyes are what caught her attention. They were like liquid silver. They were absolutely beautiful and she gave out a gasp.

"Are you well My Lady." He said in a low and raspy voice that send shivers down her spine.

"Yes thank you My Lord." Cercei said

"You can call me Eddard, we will be wed soon." He said and gave her a ghost of a smile. She nodded. Something in her was awaken by that man. She willed those feeling away. She did not want to feel anything toward her husband and yet he was having an effect on her. She needed to be strong. Her father said that love was for the weak and loving Jamie made her weak. This man will not make her weak. Or will he.