Disclaimers:I do not own TMoSH; Tanigawa-sensei does. I've said this a lot earlier, haven't I?

Warnings:BL, profanities, cursing, etc.

Okay, this is actually the evolution of my short fiction "Prayer" into a multi-chapter! Yey! I don't know what got into me, but I really wanted to do this. I've also posted another TMoSH story for all of you guys. Anyway, it's "The Insanity of Suzumiya Haruhi." About this story, it's about Suzumiya Haruhi being eaten by her own power, and unconsciously she prompted the end of the world. Please check that out too!

These shaking hands…

Silently I wounded my arms around his slightly trembling shoulders. He in response trembled a bit, which caught me in a surprise.

He was sleeping, beside me and there was no one else at the train at that time. The world is ours. There was no Closed Spaces, or any supernatural thing that have occurred the whole day. So this time Kyon decided that we go on an overnight trip to some place where I could possibly relax. As if I can relax with my tasks just running behind me, slowly catching up.

I love Kyon; so holding him like this shouldn't be awkward. Yet why do I feel nauseated at the fact that it was only the two of us? It has been weeks since we started going out. Yes, we do go out now, on dates. He had introduced me to his family even. And that's a given; I never thought Kyon would ever fall in love with me, who was first and foremost also a man. But then, who was I to judge? I was the first one to fall in love with him; he was only the one who proposed to me first. Suzumiya-san already knew; and she's not taking it lightly. I was even stripped of the title as a Deputy Brigade Chief; not that I care so much about the title. And up to now she still doesn't know that it was because of her that Kyon had to become clingy to me much more than before, much to her own chagrin.

I was not so sure of future right now. Asahina-san might know a bit about the future, but I perfectly know that she won't ever say anything to me regarding the future of me and Kyon. Who was she to do that anyway?

Kyon felt soft against my own cloth-covered skin. It was summer, and summer uniforms are too thin to actually pass as a uniform. In the end it will only make you want to tear the uniform off the person actually wearing it. That's what usually happens whenever the heat would get to your head. Or when you would only be aroused by the person you personally love. Anyway, Kyon is mine, so I have every right to claim him whenever I want to. The same applies to him, which he abuses too often.

By the time the sky appeared starless I had to shake Kyon to wake him up. Kyon is not a light sleeper; it really takes time and effort to wake him up. But when he does wake up, I'm sure he will give me that genuine smile of his, and everything that took me to wake him up will just go away unnoticed.

I took my hand away from his shoulders and let it float above his shoulders instead as I started waking him up with my other hand.

"Kyon, wake up."

Kyon only grumbled a bit before pulling me closer to him, his head still perfectly resting on my shoulder. My once floating hand in the air above his shoulder now lay resting on his arm, hugging him close. The train is slowing to a stop, and Kyon is slowly stirring up. Carefully I straightened him to an upright sitting position, while his eyes slowly fluttered open.

"Ah, Koizumi, are we here already?"

Rubbing his eyes like how a child does, he spoke with a voice still thick with sleep. I, on the other hand stood up to take the luggage from the train compartment. We had only been in the train for five hours, and it is not a sleeper train.

"Kyon, wake up now okay? We still need to reach the inn before you go dozing to sleep once again."

With those words, Kyon only looked up at me and smiled.

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He always does everything for me. This is why I am not sure anymore if I really love him or, was it just a spur of the moment? Maybe I was just swept away by his breathtaking aura at that day that I proposed to him without thinking. But I was not even sure that he would say yes…

But wasn't this wrong? And what was I thinking? I introduced him to mom, dad, and my little sister. Don't get me wrong, he was the very first "partner" I ever had. Mom nearly took it as a joke, while dad threatened to throw me out of the house if he learned that I was saying the truth. Dad obviously won't understand that I fell in love with the same sex—he asks me what he has done wrong with the way he disciplined me. Was it because I lack a father most of the time at the house? Mom was always there with me. Dad was always busy working. Too bad, I think I'm not the son they wanted to have.

But today, with Itsuki, I will get answers on my true self.

Itsuki had woken me up the time we had reached our destination, which was to a nearby place where there are great hot spring inns. Not that I mind the price or the money that we will be spending; I had saved up quite a lot for all of those lunches that I had to treat SOS Brigade to. I had no obligation as such for the SOS Brigade, it's just that I was too damned to be always the one who has to spend on things like lunches and snacks as punishment for always the last one to arrive in brigade meetings. Why do they even have to arrive early anyway?

But what about this relationship? What do I expect from this? Should I expect to get something from this? Or was this just a means to pass my time?

Itsuki was, how can say it; first and foremost a friend, although I don't know how much I really regard him as such. But I can't say that I love him so much than a partner could become. I had not imagined myself really ending up with him. I might be at first, but now I wasn't that keen on keeping up with this relationship anymore.

I just wanted to break up with him right now.

But I know that once I do that, I'll seriously hurt him. Yes, I think he'll be deeply hurt. But if I don't end this now then I don't think Itsuki will still be able to climb back up the hole that he fell unto when he entered this relationship. And if this relationship ends smoothly, I think Haruhi would then cease her increasing tantrums.

So how could I end this thing that I had started myself? I'm too bad; I started this yet I'll be the one ending this. It was just like saying that I got tired of playing with a toy that was once my favorite. And it just happen that this certain toy is a guy named Koizumi Itsuki…

At last we arrived after about thirty minutes in a cab. We booked on a not-so commercialized inn wherein Itsuki knew who the owner was. Lucky for us, we might even get a discount!

Upon arriving at the room we immediately changed for the bath. Trying the hot springs was the very first thing one must do upon arriving at a hot spring resort. We have our very own outdoor hot spring wherein we first waded in.

One word for the hot spring: great.

"Itsuki, come 'ere." I called out on Itsuki, who was suddenly busy on the other side of the pool.

Itsuki complied eventually after a few more persuasions. This is Itsuki's real colors: he was childish in a sense that he would eventually be more prone to fits of jealousy than I do.

As soon as I had Itsuki in an arm's reach, I grabbed him and kissed him, our first kiss for the day. The both of us are not that virgin on these things anymore; most of which had been lost with both of us consciously wanting to lose it. Trailing my hand down Itsuki's trembling body, I found the hole that I was looking for.

Slowly pushing a finger inside the hole, it immediately twitched and grew tighter. Itsuki then pushed away from me and stood up, which caused my finger to forcefully get pulled away from the twitching hole. That earned Itsuki a slight pained look that I eventually stammered an apology for being too impatient.

"I don't want to do it here. If you wanted to do it, then we could just go inside and have sex…"

Hearing it from Itsuki's mouth I immediately got up from my position and literally dragged him off to the room, where you probably all know what happened.

The next day we had to go immediately back to our houses, as we have classes that day, which we eventually didn't attend.

Of course both of us didn't attend the SOS Brigade meeting that day either. But Haruhi continued mailing me about something. Well, something personal, I'd say.

Haruhi had been pestering me for a long time already to go out with her. Not that I mind; well, she was beautiful and smart, just a bit eccentric. But I am still on a relationship with Koizumi, so how can I squeeze Haruhi unto the picture?

What if I talk to Haruhi about this matter? I know she would agree on being my surreptitious lover while I'm with Koizumi. Who knows? Koizumi might grow tired of me. I'm sure that day would come. I wasn't serious in the first place! And I know Koizumi can feel that. So all I've got to do is create a bigger rift between us and viola! We will break up and I will end up with Haruhi.

Whatever! I'm talking to Haruhi tomorrow, period.

TO BE CONTINUED…

Author'sNotes:As you can all notice, this chapter has a copied beginning. Well, it really is like that. (I'm sorry!) The PoVs swing from Kyon to Koizumi in here just like what I have in my other ItsuKyon stories. Damn, my mom almost saw this fiction with all the gay stuff! Mom and Dad don't know; whatever…

I'll be deleting my one-shot "Prayer" story and replace it with this first chapter. I hope it didn't matter. Or should I just put this under another title?

Yawn~ I'm so sleepy! I've got no sleep; and today is my birhday! Bummer, I'm getting old again. My birthday wish? Lots of yaoi to come! I loooove yaoi.

Kyon here is a stupid fart. He's having Haruhi as his paramour while still in a relationship with Koizumi! God, I'm getting worked up on this. But I'm sleepy! I'm sorry it just ended in Kyon's decision to have Haruhi as a paramour. The next chapter would show more, so wait for it!

Read and review guys~! Thanks!