Second chapter! To tell the truth, I have written the first, third, and fourth chapter ahead of this chapter. But I had stopped writing to do my contest pieces. I had posted some on my deviant art account (mostly the poems). And now I finished this chapter! So I posted the three chapters in just one day. I hope it makes everyone happy. Hiatus again? I think so. I'm getting no inspiration these past weeks. Block B! Damn, they sound like SMAP. The chorus only of their song "Tell Them". And it's really fast and nice to listen to.

Disclaimers:I do not own TMoSH or any of its characters. Tanigawa-sensei does.

Warnings:BL, profanities, cursing, etc.

Stop-gap

The Closed Spaces decreased dramatically. There are even no more Shinjin occurrences if ever there are Closed Spaces. And I don't know what was causing this.

Kyon and I ceased going to the brigade meetings. What was the point if Suzumiya-san is angry at the both of us? She does not even acknowledge my presence whenever I pass by her. Kyon told me Suzumiya-san does the same to him. But why do I feel that there is something wrong with Kyon's words?

I looked at Kyon to find the answers myself, yet his void look just makes me think twice.

So I did not peruse the subject anymore.

And then came our 11th anniversary (month). It was such a happy day for me as I knew that we had already come that far, despite the obstacles that hindered us up to this day. Kyon told me he was also happy for this month; just next month and we will be already a year. Ah, how time flies by so fast.

But oh, how time flies cruelly so fast. We did not even reach the 11th month. We broke up before that 11th month.

Before that day,

…I was walking home from the supermarket after buying some ingredients for the food I was to cook for myself and Kyon. Kyon was dropping by at that day, which he seldom does these days as he does not like my living in a small apartment. Since this is one of the rare times that I would ever drag Kyon inside my house, I practically grew happy when I knew that it was of his own free will to go to my house that day.

Well, it was because of the anniversary tomorrow.

I was carrying the shopping bags in front of me. The night sky had a lot of stars, and the moon looked beautiful that time. Enchanted by the beautiful night sky, I decided to stop by the bridge and just stare at the sky for about ten minutes as I was even too early for my schedule. Kyon was supposed to drop by at ten. It was just seven, so I had three hours of free time. Kyon always drops by late, so I assume that he will drop by late today too.

I was enjoying the tranquil sense under a blanket of stars for a while. I was lying on an obvious patch of grass. But some familiar voices caught my attention that I quickly ducked away from view. Looking at where the voices come from, I saw Suzumiya-san clinging to none other than Kyon.

The two were smiling, and they seem to be talking about something funny when suddenly Kyon bended to kiss Suzumiya-san full on the lips. It was not a simple kiss that I can ignore. Eventually I had to run back home just to calm myself from everything.

Kyon was visiting me that day.

Immediately I readied the ingredients and began to cook furiously, attempting to wipe the image from my mind. The water drops continuously on the chrysanthemum as I tear them for the hotpot.

Kyon texted me a while back.

I had prepared everything already; the hotpot, kotatsu, and even the niku jaga was on top of the table. But I wasn't by the table; I was hunched on the corner of the room, nursing a wound too deep for anyone to actually see physically.

Kyon told me he can't come.

Gripping the phone tightly in my hands, I tried all my best not to throw it by urge. But the anger took out the best in me; the phone hit the wall mercilessly and was cut into two before I could even try to save it by catching it. Now I had no other way to contact Kyon, except for his landline. And this is for the best; no communication will not destroy me. I just wanted to live normally, yet—

Kyon…

….

I left, just before the day breaks. I left everything I had except for the clothes I would need on the journey. It's just clothes; nothing else.

It was already afternoon when I reached—

The sleeper train made my back sore and my head really groggy. It was the first time that I got dizzy riding a train. It was not normal; I knew by then that something inside me already changed.

In just a day I managed to get a job at a café and an unit at a not-too-shabby an apartment which has reasonable prices.

The next day I was introduced to everyone in the apartment. Everyone welcomed me like family. I felt so happy. In work everyone also seemed to like me. The place started to feel good to me.

But it was not all good. Not everyone liked me. I know; one has hated me for as long as he can remember, and this hatred of this had ended up destroying.

It was me; I hate myself.

On my first night I cannot sleep at first. Kyon never knew that I had taken all of these cold medicines and sang myself to sleep. Kyon never knew that I cried myself to sleep that day, knowing that everything is already over. Kyon never knew that I will never come back to SOS Brigade the day after I saw him with Suzumiya-san. I know in that instant that everything's already over. I am not dumb to actually wait for nothing to come.

But only after a week I noticed that I had trouble sleeping, so I had to quit the Agency/Organization. Eventually my esper powers dulled. Suzumiya-san seems like she's happy. Kyon seems happy. I seem—

Sadly I don't know what Kyon's reaction was after I dropped out of North High. He stopped texting me. I stopped texting him. I stopped going to school.

I continued drinking the medicines. But no matter how many I drink, I still can't sleep. So I resort to hitting my head on the wall, until I felt dizzy and ready to sleep. I need to sleep.

As each day passes I grew irritable and easily tired. I get dizzy often too. But that was because of lack of sleep. No one knew better. So when sleep time comes I drank the medicines and then knock my head on the concrete wall…

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Koizumi was gone before I could even break up with him. I was not bothered; I had Haruhi already, and it was his own choice to break up with me. I will not be a sissy and chase after him to some place I don't know. No one really knows where he ended up.

Haruhi is worried, yet we could not contact him. Haruhi was the only one who tried vainly to search for Koizumi. But she didn't succeed; Koizumi really had hidden himself so well that even a powerful being like Haruhi couldn't locate him.

And there was no other way to contact him as he left all his things in his old apartment. Even his landlord had grown surprised by Koizumi's sudden leave without even telling him about it.

And do not even think of cellphone numbers. He changed numbers, as my call cannot come through his own. My number is still the same. And he also changed his residence, as I had said earlier, in just one night.

I don't know how fast things are going right now. Haruhi and I are in a relationship right now, even when I was still in a relationship with Koizumi. Anyway, Koizumi is past, Haruhi is then present.

Who cares about an uncaring bastard like him anyway?

TO BE CONTINUED…

Author'sNotes:I almost choked at tea. Damn. And I feel sick and I had a sore throat already for almost a week because of my stupid allergy to the smell of nicotine and those that smell as strong as it.

Back to the story: Please don't hate Kyon! He has his own reasons why he was being awful to Koizumi. But still, I hated the Kyon in this story. He seems like a bitch. Why did he go confess to Koizumi when he wasn't sure of his own feelings? And why doesn't he break it off with Koizumi before he goes and had a secret relationship with Haruhi?

…And I was the one who wrote this story. Hahaa~ dangerously bipolar.

What do you think? For the third and fourth chapter, I've added a new situation. I hope you all like it, as I really tried to do my best in those chapters. I'm doing a Christmas day story next chapter, although it was the exact opposite of the word 'Happy'. I hope you'd all like it just like my other ItsuKyon stories!

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