Hi yeah please don't mind the title I dunno what to call it.

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, just this fan fiction.

Warnings: I dunno you already reached this part what can I still warn you about?

Persist to exist

What I thought was just a jerking motion turned out to be Koizumi waking up from his coma. Instantly I reached for the button to call the nurse, but Koizumi has already woken up and just stared at me for a few seconds, before opening up his mouth to speak.

"Who are you?"

Taken aback by the question thrown at me, I immediately tried to shrug it off as a joke.

"Koizumi, what the hell. I know you hate me and such, but this is a cruel joke."

However, Koizumi did not falter. His expression did not change. It was as if he lost his memories of me.

Or did he really?

Before I was able to answer his question the nurse came in with the doctor and did a bit of a check-up on him. I was silent the whole time while the doctor asked him questions and the nurses fixed all the machines that were previously attached to him. Once they were finished the doctor turned to me and asked me some questions as well. I told him about Koizumi not remembering who I was.

The doctor said that he will conduct more check-ups to see just how much of Koizumi's memory was lost, and he advised me that he will need all our help with it. However, he told me to not aggravate Koizumi by trying to force into him in remembering.

However, when Haruhi, Mikuru-san and Nagato arrived, Koizumi recognized them right away. When they learned that I was the only person who Koizumi does not remember, Haruhi immediately went to his doctor, with me being dragged by her around as usual, to ask for more information.

"It must be selective amnesia partially affected by the medicines he had taken as well as his emotional stability at the time of his attempted suicide." He turned to me and said, "this must have something to do with a traumatic experience that resulted in this."

"Is there a way to make his memories go back?" Haruhi asked.

"I afraid there's only a slim chance that he can remember." The doctor said. "If the patient himself wishes for the memory to disappear that he completely forgets about a person's existence, I would suggest to just start anew with him. It might be the best option considering how he had acted rashly before." The doctor motioned on Koizumi's file, which contains his medical records and past attempts at suicide.

"Boy, if you are the reason why he has attempted suicide, I would really suggest to never let him remember anything about you." And before Haruhi or I could say something back, the doctor left.

Haruhu was rooted at the spot. I was worried that Haruhi would take this news badly as she had obviously been shaken up about it. But she just smiled at me when she noticed that I was just staring at her doing nothing, shrugging off the possibility that she is thinking of countless ways to make Koizumi remember who I was.

As soon as we get back Haruhi re-introduced me to Koizumi, all the while trying to pass me off as a transfer student and a new addition to the brigade. Nagato and Asahina-san both gave backstories about Haruhi's claims and made Koizumi comfortable with my presence.

The doctors check up on him everyday to see if there is anything else he forgot about, and fortunately enough, there was none. We were advised that Koizumi can be discharged in a few more days after they get the results of his examinations. I am still wondering why we don't get any news about anything we have to pay. With all of his tests and check-ups, not to mention his room is a private one, you would think that we would need to ask for donations just to get him out of the hospital, but no, there was no bill. Good thing.

Everything has been running along smoothly, until someone unexpected entered the scene.

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Kyon rang me on my phone on the 12th morning that Itsuki had been in a coma. Mikuru-chan, Yuki and I had been crashing at his apartment. Ever since the incident, Yuki had somehow persuaded the school to let the four of us be excused from school to take care of Itsuki as long as we passed our exams.

Itsuki-chan drops by at times to play with us, as well as to ask about his Prince onii-chan. We can't bear to tell the kid that his onii-chan hasn't woken up yet. We told him that he's still in the World of Dreams and has not come back. I don't know for how long we can keep this up without traumatizing him about the fact that there is only a slim chance that his onii-chan will ever wake up.

"This is strange," I muttered, as I was greeted in the wee hours of the morning by Kyon's phone call. Although knowing him, there is always a reason why he'd call at this time.

As I answered the call and listened to Kyon's news, I feel the whole world crumbling down.

Itsuki has lost his memories.

Nothing else registered in my mind. I know for a fact that I was the reason why he is like this now. I never wanted it to be like this. I didn't know my actions would bear such consequences.

"-Haruhi?" I snapped back from my thoughts, and realized that I was still on the phone with Kyon. "You guys are going here later right?"

"Ah, y-yeah! We'll just do our girly morning stuff and head there real quick!"

"Haruhi," Kyon suddenly interjected. "Are you alright?"

I only laughed and shrugged off his worries. After our call ended was when everything dawned on me once more.

I explained everything to Yuki, Mikuru-chan, and to the people at the complex. Mikuru-chan cried at the news, and the adults were all blaming themselves for not taking extra effort to check up on him when he said that he'll do no more stupid things. It's hard to blame Itsuki about this, although he could have thought about his actions more.

I felt a black hole welling up inside me. I know that there is a way to make him remember everything! Maybe, not everything. Just the good bits.

But still! I know I can do something! And I will do anything in my power to help him. Or this black hole will swallow me whole.

To be continued

A/N: Sorry! And, TADAH! I have updated the story. Thank you everyone for waiting.

I had some free time since I have four days off. So I am hoping to be able to upload the next chapter sooner. Sorry if this was a short one I'm typing using my phone.

This will end in two more chapters.

But for now, pece!