Chapter 11
We head home and I head immediately into the shower and sob. Hearing her say that he was cheating on me made me realize just how easy it would be for him to. After the water starts getting cold, I get out and dressed and get into bed with my back to Koz. He snuggles behind me and I let him. He starts kissing on my neck and shoulder and I start fighting the tears again. I pull away from him and sit up on the side of the bed, trying to calm myself down. Koz moves behind me and asks "Baby, what's wrong?" I just shake my head and stand up before he can grab for me. I head for the bedroom door and say "I just need a minute." I walk into the kitchen and stand facing the counter when Koz comes in and wraps his arms around me and I start to sob harder. He turns me around and pulls me close and just holds me. When I finally stop crying, I pull away from him and he says "Talk to me babe. What's going through your mind?" he asks. "Just in my own head. I'll be fine." I say. "What do you need?" he asks. "Just, Katie saying that you were cheating on me, reminded me that you have all these girls willing to do anything for you whether you're with me or not and how easy it would be for you to cheat on me. I know it's stupid and that you wouldn't but a part of me still worries." I say. He pulls me close again and says "I know baby and I will spend the rest of our lives showing you that I won't do that to you. I only want you baby. You're it for me. You're my wife. You're the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with. You're the one that's carrying my child. No one will ever compare to you." he says. I look into his eyes and kiss him softly. "Take me to bed Daddy." I say.
He picks me up and carries me to bed. Laying me down on the bed, he kisses me softly and starts kissing down my body. When he gets to my stomach, he kisses my stomach and looks up at me and smiles. Kissing farther down, he kisses the inside of both of my thighs before he starts attacking my core causing me to lose myself to him completely. Once I find my release, he moves up my body and enters me slowly. Making love to me nice and slow, causing me to find release after release before he finds his inside me. Pulling me into his side, he kisses me softly and says "I love you so fucking much baby." I respond "I love you too baby."
Waking up the next morning, I am snuggled into Koz's chest. I lay there awake just listening to his light snores when I feel him tighten his hold. He places a kiss to the top of my head and all of a sudden I pull away and run to the bathroom sick. When I come out of the bathroom, he's sitting up in bed and asks "You okay?" I nod my head yes and say "Just your kid reminding me that he hates me." I tell him, laughing a little. "Kid don't hate you." he says and I see he's not smiling. "I was kidding baby." He pats the bed next to him and says "Come here." I move to the bed and sit next to him. "Our kid is going to love you so much. You know how I know?" he asks and I shake my head no. "Because I do." he says. I look at him and say "I know baby." before I snuggle next to him. He puts his hand on my stomach and rubs little circles trying to help me settle my stomach. He moves down the bed and kisses my stomach and says "Kid, you gotta be good to your mommy. She's had a rough time so me and you gotta take it easy on her." he tells the baby.
A little later, we are sitting in the kitchen, eating breakfast and he says "I'm gonna call Gemma to take you shopping tomorrow to get the shit for the kid's room." he tells me. "Okay. I'll make a list here later of what I want to get." I tell him. "That's fine babe." he says. We finish breakfast and spend the rest of the day sitting on the couch with him rubbing my stomach.