Mr. and

Chapter 1 It's Time I Told You The Truth

Kelly POV

Seeing her lying in that hospital bed with a crisp white bandage smeared red from the large gash in her head, made me regret everything. I'm not just talking about the pills and the lying to her, or the fact that I bit her head off for caring. It was so much more than that I regretted all the thing that I had never said. Like how every time that she smiled it was like the world and stop just to see it. Or when she laughed it sounded like the angels were singing just for her. I regret never telling her how much I was madly in love with her and I know that nothing I could say would ever change the way that she felt about me but if I didn't say it now that I never would. "Hey, you" I looked to see that Shay was staring intently at me her deep blue gazes drawing out all my inward thoughts making them rise out of my chest and up my throat. But I couldn't say a thing not with Dawson here to scrutinize every word that comes out of my mouth. She wouldn't make this easy or even possible. "Hey Shay" I smiled weakly at her and turning to look at Dawson her chocolate brown hair and deep brown eyes staring daggers at me like this was somehow my fault I didn't ask for this to happen and I'm not the schmuck that hit her with a bus so why did she have to look at me like this was all my fault. "Would you mind if I talked to her myself."

Dawson leered at me and you could tell that she was unsure,because she was shifting from the right to the left foot before finally walking out of the door and at that moment it was like my feet had a mind of their own as I drifted towards Shays bed it was like I was floating on air. I sat down on the bed gentle not to hurt her for a while I just sat there content with looking at her but I had to get this off of my chest. Before my nerve failed and I ran out of the room like a idiot. "You know that this does not change anything I am still staying with Dawson." She said it before I even got a chance to open my mouth is that what she thought that this was about me wanting her to move back in. "You got it all wrong." I gently placed my hand on her cheek even now her skin was smoother than a thing that I had ever felt before. She was perfect everything that I looked for in a girl but I knew that there was a good chance that this would never work out but I had to try.I gazed deep into her eyes,they looked like shining ocean water on a summer's day. "Shay I need to get this off of my chest and I have been wanting to tell you this for a while but there was no way of saying it without it coming out weird so here goes. I am madly in love with you, everything about you is way that you knock back liquor like one of the guys, or how you know more about me than anyone else in my life. I have never trusted anyone like the way that I have trusted you, you the only one that knows my biggest fear and what I love most in the world. But I lied to you the thing that I love most in the world is you, when you say that you love me, I can't help but have a huge stupid grin on my face for the rest of the day. I know that for you isn't the same thing but you're my world. I love you more than life I would kill for you hell I would live and die for you. You are like gods gift to humanity and without you I would be lost. Your my anchor is a sea of madness and uncertainty. Your the roadmap to my mess of a I know that your gay and there is no chance of that changing but I just had to say it. You almost dying finally made my man up and tell you that you are the greatest thing to ever walk into my life and I never want to see you walk out." I looked at her not once letting my gaze drop from her eyes.

There were these tears pooled in them as she looked at me, I rubbed one of them away as she grabbed the nape of my neck. It was gentle but firm there was something about the way that she was looking at me that I have never seen before. She had this doe-eyed look in her face and her entire body language changed. But she didn't say a thing and that was what was freaking me out the most. "You idiot" She pulled me into a kiss so deep that I couldn't help but feel a smile start to form on my face. I think that this was the best way to test the boundaries. I licked my tongue over her lips and she moaned parting her lips letting me gain entrance to her mouth. When she pulled away she was glaring at me the doe-eyed look in her eyes was gone and was replaced with a cocky but annoyed look in her eyes. She let her gaze drop to my lap and I looked down to noticed my stiff dick ripping at the confines of my pants begging to be let out. 'Your really know how to sweep a girl off her feet with those sweet lines. Was that original material?" I laughed at her as I felt my heart flutter as she started to smile. "For a women as smart,gorgeous, sexy, and kind as you, you deserve nothing less than the best. I would give you nothing but the best original material I got. I told you I love you." She grabbed my collar tightly and pulled me into another kiss as she slid her hand into my lap and jerk me a little bit through my pants. I felt a moan forming in my throat. "Oh my god I'm so sorry." I turned back to see that Dawson was standing there looking at me. Great the rest of the house is going to know. "Sorry its just that we have a call can you give me a ride back." I grumbled under my breath and as Shay laughed at her. "Kells give her a ride, I'm not going anywhere we will take this one step at a time." I smiled wide at her "You got it Shay." I kissed her temple and waited for Dawson to walk out of the room before turning to Shay. "Babe whats the hell am I supposed to do about this."

She smiled widely at me as her eyes lowered to my crotch were a rod was sticking out of. This cocky and amused smile forming on her face as she gently laid back in the bed sinking deep into the pillow."That's your problem and I think that I can get use to this." She laughed madly as I walked out of the room while adjusting my hard dick. I sighed heavily as I tilted my head back but there was this feeling building in my chest like I was being watched. As I slowly moved my head back down to high level Dawson had this slicked smirk on her face as she leaned up against the thick white walls of the hospital hallway. "Shut up" I walked past her not saying a anything, only hearing the sounds of the hospital. Patients crying or screaming out in pain as people came in from car accidents or abusive homes or even fires. I wonder what the call was going to be for us or if Dawson just wanted to be nosey about the whole thing. If that's what she was after then she ruined my one moment that I would get with Shay till I was off shift and that isn't okay with fact it was pretty rude and nothing she could have just waited at the truck if she wanted a ride . But I was almost free just a few more feet and I would be out of the hospital halls and to my truck. Putting this whole embarrassing moment behind me and letting it die for the moment. "Severide so you turn a gay chicks straight huh the D really that good?" Well I guy could at least dream about it's right it's not like I am entitled to a break or anything. I spun on my heels I didn't need anyone on Squad hearing about it they would only rag on me and poke fun and I just wanted a few days of bliss a few days to make sure that this isn't one whole delusion that I cooked up. Dawson was glaring at me I could feel her gaze on me as I looked at the ground right in front of her feet. "Don't say a goddamn thing nothing is official and I don't need you or anyone else changing her mind I have been in love with Shay for a long time so please don't ruin this for me. Just give me a few days to work things out so that we can figure out our relationship please just give me that." I looked at Dawson there was this confused and skeptical look in her deep brown eyes as she searched for something in my face. "Your really mean to that don't you? It's not just something to check off your bucket list." I sneered at her what the hell was that supposed to mean. "I poured my feelings out to Shay and you had to interrupt. What kind of guy do you take me for I'm not going to mess with her feeling like that. I put my heart out there so try not to mess anything up for me. Now let's go."

I stormed off toward the truck trying to hide my pissed off expression with one of concern it wasn't a total lie, I am concerned for Shay but Dawson did put me in a bad mood for the rest of shift. Whenever someone asked a question I would just blow them off thinking about Shay was really the only thing that I do right soft her lips were when she kissed me. The way that she wrapped her hand around the back of my neck so that I couldn't escape her gaze. That one moment would live forever in my mind. "Severide?" I looked up to see that Casey was looking at me this cornered look in his eyes as he glanced at my disheveled appearance and confused expression. "Sorry did I interrupt something." I smile the best I could but my face was tight, I wasn't pisted at the guy anymore but still I didn't want to have to talk to him today of all days."Yeah just thinking about Shay what can a do for you." "Nothing it's just that the shift is over and I wanted to see if you wanted to get a beer or something." I shook my head and stood up stretching my back out before slamming my locker closed. Letting my finger curl around the cool metallic lock for a minute. I could tell that there were other people listening in on the conversation trying to make sure that I don't lose it with Shay in the hospital. "Nah man I am going to see Shay they are going to keep her for overnight observation and I just don't want her to be alone but thanks for the offer"

I ran out of the room before he could ask me anymore questions I think that it was about time that I saw my girl. I ignored the yells from my other coworkers a I ran and shoved passed them. I threw some half-assed apology over my shoulder on the way to my car. I didn't even stop to admire her beauty any other day I would but I had a pretty blond waiting on me. I jumped in the car rubbing my hand for the lather steering wheel trying to get the sweat off of my palms as I took in a deep here I come please don't let your mind changed in this short window of time.