Chapter 4 Why Are They Staring

Shay POV

I felt his eyes on me as I walked out of the car they seem so red hot that I knew that he was pouring every last bit of his emotions into that one glare.I smiled, I still could not believe that this was real. I had always know that I am gay yet here I am having feeling for a man that i consider to be my best friend. "Hey Shay" I snapped my head up to see that Herman was looking at me his bright blue eyes full of concern "Hey Herman how you been?" He laughed a little uneasily at me and then at the approaching figure coming towards us. I saw him staring so I pulled my gaze in the direction of the figure, but it was just Kelly. "Hey Hermann are you okay." I looked at him as he slowly turn his head to look at me this mixture of concern and confusion in his eyes. "I should be asking you that. Are you sure that you should be getting back to work so early?" I felt my face break out into a huge grin as I laughed at him and gently placed a hand on his shoulder "Of course Herman I am fine just worry about the job today don't worry." He nodded his head hurriedly and ran away just as Kelly pulled up behind me. "What was that about? He was glaring daggers at me from a mile away."

I could feel Kelly's warmth from my back this loving aura rolling off of him, which was mixed with what I could only assume to be worry. "I don't know but it was really strange maybe he is just stressed out about the kids or something. But it is whatever we should really go get changed." I look at Kelly and smiled wide before running off to the locker room leaving him to run to catch up with the time that I had made it ot the locker room door Kelly was at the end of the hallway. I just grinned as I opened the door and that grin slowly fell from my face as I was hit with the smell of strong collagen and discordant diora tn. To make things even more strong then they already were today I hear whispers bouncing off the walls. "You sure you saw that?" Was that Otsis or maybe Pete? I could hear more whispers but these were lower and more careful in case they thought that someone was hearing them. I rounded the coercer to see that it was Otis, Cruz, and Herman. The three of them hunched over like a couple of housewives when they noticed me they all stood up adaptly. They were hiding something that they didn't want me to know about. When I looked around Kelly was coming through the doors and the guy averted not only my gazes but Kelly's as well. They whispered to each other before running out of the locker room. Wow, they really didn't want us to know but that only made me want to know more. "What was that all about?" I turned to look at Kelly his six pack in full view as he took off his shirt and the wind hit me causing a shiver to go up my spine. That, of course, made Kelly laugh, I guess that he thought that it was because of him and I would be lying if I said that I didn't like what I saw.

I shook my head slowly I needed to focus on the task at hand figuring out what the hell was going on around here. "I don't know the stoppe talking the moment that they saw me walk into the room and when you walked in they just ran out they didn't say a word to me. But they were hunched over like a couple of school girls or old ladies. I think that there is something going on and they dont want me to know. Can you see if you can find out." I turn to look at Kelly as I pulled my pants on but he was too busy staring at my legs. I snapped my fingers at him but that wasn't doing much. He seems transifex he was probably thinking about the other night. "Kelly were you even listening to me or staring at my legs." He smiled wide he gently pushes me up against the locker his hot breath smelled like coffee and morning air. It was one of the best combination I had smelled but not better than the stink of his sweat mixed with the ash from a fire. He had looked into my eyes like he was trying to show me his soul and I was getting a pretty good view. That was till he lips hover inches over my neck. "Well seeing as how you gave me a hickey this morning maybe they were talking about that and didn't want you to tell me. After all, Herman was looking at me intensely this morning like he was trying to figure something out right?" He had a point but I don't think that was it. At the moment the only thing I could focus on is making sure that no man left my lips as his breath tickled and made my skin warm as he slowly pulled away. "I don't think that I can wait till for shift." He chuckled under his breath right after he saw this stupid look on my face.

"I always said you are a horn dog and now I have proof" I laughed as I pulled my pants up as I pulled my shirt over my head and pawed at the soft gray fabric. "Would you just please ask them for me Kelly pleaser" I look at him, letting my eyes linger on his abs before meeting his blue gaze. He didn't seem worried about the whole thing in fact he made it seem like he didn't even care. "If it means that much to you then I will ask them alright Shay." I nodded my head as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and walked out of the locker room and into the hallway. I rested my head on his arm just taking in the scent of his after shave as we made it to the common room. They were all looking at us there gazes were curious as is they looked away for even a moment then they would miss something. "Do you know what this is about?" I turned to look at Kelly twisting my neck so that i could get a good look of his face." He sighed as shook his head no "I got to head to the squad table I will see what the hell this is all about. Okay?" I looked at him worriedly for a moment boerne nodding my head while rushing over to Dawson. She was looking at her bowl of cereal reading the news paper but I could tell that she was trying to keep herself busy so that I wouldn't walk over to her.

You could see it in the way that she say like she was trying to take up so much space as possible so that I wouldn't even bother to sit down. I slammed my hands on the table both my palms hitting the cold metal and I had to resited a shudder so it wouldn't look like I was crumpling under my arrigesve stance. But she didn't even seem phased she simply look up calmly and glare at me. "Is there a reason that you are interrupting my snack and reading." I snarled at her she had to say something. She promised not to say a thing not a word to anyone till we had it figure out. "Can I talk to you outside." She sighed heavily like I was some pest bugging her, buzzing in her ear just to get attention. "Fine but let's make this quick alright." I walk out of the building through the back kitchen entrance and sneered as she walked out the building .I waited for the filimar sound of the back door slamming shut before turning to look at her. Anger warming up my inch of my body. "I asked you, no i begged you not to say a thing and yet the entire firehouse is looking at me and Kelly like they know. What do you tell them? Wait let me guess you couldn't resist telling Matt and because now the whole firehouse knows.I didn't even know what to call our relationship and now we won't even get a chance to figure it out before the questions are being thrown at us."

Dawson leered at me as I yelled out an onslaught of insults and angry remarks, but she simply stood there. By the time that I was done yelling at her my head started to buzz I think that I am light headed from all that yelling. "I didn't tell anyone anything, it seems like Herman was the one that found out I just pretended to be surprised so that they wouldn't jump on me for information, but if you like, I could head back and tell them everything that I saw and heard. Since I am such a bad freind." I looked at her voice sounding hurt and upset at my accusations. Her deep brown eyes filled with emotion just waiting to spell out. "I'm so sorry about that Gabby I just assume that you were the one that told them and I lost it I'm so sorry." I looked at her giving her my best apologetic look and she sighed heavily. "Alright, I will let it go for this one time only. So tell me how was your first dose of hetero sex." I laugh at her and grinned madly. "I don't know what it was like for other women but damn that boy got some skills let me tell you." She laughs at my outrageous tone and grinn as we slowly walked into the kitchen and sat down watching tv as Kelly walked in and grabbed a bottle of water before walking back out of the squad table.