Chapter 6 What Now?

Shay POV

I walked out of the room to see that Gabby was sitting on her bunk as gray blanket pulled over her shoulder and she looks at me. "Damn girl, you are wild." She had this knowing smile on her face as she looked at me and then passed me to the closed blinds. I simply rolled my eyes at her and ran out of the building, jumping in the front seat of the rig. Sinking into the leather of the seat, while turning the heat own rubbing my hands together to get some warmth. I looked at the open parking lot floor when Gabby finally made it into the cab rubbing both her hands together before looking at me this wide smile on her face. I slammed my foot down on the pedal and growled: "What are you staring at me, like that for." I looked at her and sighed heavily as she grinned wide at me and I can't help but feel a small smile start to rise on my face. "You gargle? You probably should if you got that boy moaning so loud I don't that you didn't swallow. I could hear you guys." I felt this bright red flush start to form on my face. "You didn't tell anyone but Herman did. I was going to tell Kelly about Herman but then I kind of…. you know got.." I couldn't finish my sentence so I focused on the road as a horn start to go off behind us. "Oh trust me, girl, I wasn't the only one that heard it Chief Boden heard it. Hr went to go knock on Kelly's door but stopped when he heard him moaning and you're slurping girl." She started laughing loudly as we pulled up to the house. "Alright well, we will have to talk about this later."

By the time that I got back from the job I noticed that Kelly wasn't sitting at the squad table he couldn't still be sleeping could he. I slammed the white and gold door closed before starting to walk over to the guys. I was staring at Cap and then Tony both of them a little too worried to answer the question I gave them. "Where is Severide?" I look at them and glared at them what the hell was their problems. "Hello I didn't sturred, I know that he was having a problem with you guys so where is he." But none of them answered my question I was glared at them getting ready to tear them a new one when Boden walked out. He had these frown line in his deep skin tones that for the most part was were hard to see."Shay can I talk to you in my office." I looked at him but sighed heavily I know that this had to be Kelly was in his office. I simply nodded my head ignoring the cackling of Kellys stupid Squads buddies. They could have tried not to be assholes, I walked gently and listening to the sound of Bodens boots slapping against the floor as he rounded the corner of his office.I sighed heavily when I saw that Kelly was sitting there half awake. I had to laugh a little he looked dead on his feet, I can't believe that it was all because of me. When Boden opened the door he slowly made his way to the desk and looked at me as I stood behind Kelly. "Close the door." HIs voice was stern and cold and almost angry like it was our fault that we were attractive and in love with each other. But instead of yelling I closed the door and sat in the chair looking intently at my lap not. I didn't want to look him so I looked at my lap. "Alright so do either of you want to talk about what has been happening today. You're both got into screaming matches with at least one person each and then I hear strange things coming from your office Severide what is that about." He looks at me and then at Boden his lips were moving but he didn't say a thing.

"Oh, you know what, I'm all out of fucks to give chief, what I and Shay do is not any of your business as for the others, they've been whispering behind me back and talking about me behind my back. Then Casey comes saying that he didn't understand why I was so upset about it but in reality, he knew the whole thing before he picked that fight. So you will have to forgive me for being irritated." I looked at Kelly he was seeking and you could tell that he was pissted off. Boden seems to get irritated with each word that he spoke. "That doesn't excuse the fact that you were having sex in your office that is unbecoming and rude not to mention that it was incorporated. Now what's going on between the two of you, I have never said a thing about the two of you being so close considering that Shay is gay, but now that doesn't seem like the case." I look at him and growled, "You have no right to ask about my activities or my sex life now are we done here or do you want it to break a few more rules of conduct." I looked at Boden and he stared at me, shocked, I mean that his jaw was wide open as he looked at the two of us. "NO!!! What the hell is wrong with the two of you…" Before he could finish the sentence the alarms ran off. I look at Kelly as we both ran to get to the truck. By the time that I got into the rig, my heart was pounding in my chest as the adrenaline coursed through my veins. When I saw the raging flames as the building is on fire the gold and red flames shooting up into the air, the black smoke swirling around the building. As the smell of charred flesh entered my nose. The fire engulfed everything in sight. I just started, my eyes scanning widely looking for his jacket, I had to know that he was okay. Then I saw the turnout gear with the name Severide and I thought that would calm me down but as I watched him run into that burning energy my chest hammered loudly till it was the only thing that I heard. My own heartbeat was defined as I watched helpless god let him be okay that is all I want."Shay comes on." I looked at Gabby as she pulled a patient that had 3rd-degree burns all over her body. "You need to go get into the cab and drive. " I shook my head back quick before running to the cab and drive off. Could see the blaze behind me and my thought ran with Kelly."Please be okay."

.After about 20 minutes of nerve-racking anxiety I was finally back at the firehouse and looking towards the squad table but Kelly wasn't there. My heart instantly jumps into my throat and I felt panic creeping into my heart. I have never felt this before, now I know that somewhere along the line something truly did change between the two of us. I slowly took off my turn-out coat before walking in the closet. The door slammed behind me and then reopened as I turned around hoping to see Kelly all I got was Otis and Cruz were the ones that walked in.I looked at them both of their face filled with grief and sorrow was there something wrong. Did someone on truck gets hurt are was it Kelly. I felt my heart pounding hard and heavy. "We are so sorry we know how close the two of you are." I looked at Otis while he said it sympathy and pain dripping from his voice was Cruz started to chime in. "Yeah, we didn't even see the burst of flames until it was too late.A large fireball formed wide and hit him right in the face.Kelly Severide was as good as they come. We are sorry for your lost." Tears hit my face one right after another as I envisioned what might have happened.No this couldn't be happening not when we had finally worked this out. I pushed past them but I could have sworn that I heard the both of them chuckling. When I look at the disappointed looks on the squad members tables and I knew that they weren't lying I needed Dawson I couldn't deal with this. I ran into the common room. Tears streaming down my face and colors and face blurring out of my vision. I was so close to falling down when a set of strong hands caught me. I knew the scent it was Kelly's collagen he reeked of ash wood and smoke. When I looked up he had this worried look on his face. "Shay baby whats wrong?" He looks at me his voice low as I wrapped my arms around his neck, clingy tightly so that he couldn't go away and leaned on my tippy toes kissing his lips before hiding my face in his neck.

He looks at me I could feel his hot worried glare and the other around starting to stare, but he simply held me tightly and I pulled out of it. I looked him deep in his eyes checking him for markers before looking at his arms and giving him a pat down. My hands ranking against his abs as he looked at me. "Shay, what the hell is wrong with you? What are you doing?" The others were watching us, I could feel their hot gaze on us as we interacted. They were staring us down like hawks. "What are you looking for?Would you place calm down and explained?" I was huffing and puffing as my shoulders started to shake as rage-filled every inch of my being."Otis and Cruz, they told me that… they told me that" I started it out right cry and I couldn't breathe as he pulled me into a hug and held me brush his hand through my hair. 'Told you what babe, it's okay take your time." I whimper a little bit as I lift my head to rest it on his shower. "They told me that you have died in the fire. They made it seem so real, I didn't think that they would lie about something so horrible." I looked at others they were looking at their laps like they were interested in their lap. Kelly simple snarled "Wait here while I go postal on them okay?" I looked at him and nodded my head as he ran off. I placed a hand on my heart as Gabby ran over to me and held my hands as I heard Kelly start to yell.