Anna was completely mesmerized, looking out the car window. The amount of people going in with an invitation letter, dressed up with such beauty and sophistication… wasn't what she expected. Many were wearing gorgeous masks that only covered their eyes.
She could almost feel her heart leaping to her throat. Anna was slightly nervous, seeing that she hadn't been to any fancy parties before. Yes, there were parties she'd been to but... nothing like this. It was always frat parties that would leave her feeling disgusted the next morning.
"Miss?" Olaf handed Elsa the two masks. She took one, offering another to Anna with a raised eyebrow.
She gazed at her strangely. "Do I have to?"
Elsa's lips stretched into a small smile. "You'll look beautiful. Here." She tied the mask around Anna's head.
Perhaps, slightly nervous was an understatement. Gods, she was going to meet Elsa's parents right now - both, maybe, a copy of her girlfriend. "I-I thought it was just a regular party," Anna mumbled.
"Hm, I didn't tell you, did I? I'm sorry."
She shrugged. "I don't mind." Anna turned to see Elsa putting on a black mask. Olaf too. Oh, she's so beautiful.
"Well, are you nervous?"
"Nervous? Yeah!" She scoffed. "I mean… I am going to see y-your parents."
The woman held her hand. "You will be wearing this mask the whole time. They won't know what you look like. I… am hoping this will help you."
Ah. Help me. "I'm glad you're trying to help me but…" She bit her lips, only holding a smile when her fingers ran through Anna's hair.
"But?" Elsa tilted her head.
"N-Nothing. Do you have… you know, the invitations?"
"Right here, Anna." Olaf waved the golden letters to her, a big smile crossing her face. "Miss, shall we head out? Your father will be pleased."
"I didn't come here to just please him."
What? Anna eyed Elsa's lips in shock. Those words that came out of her… was nothing she'd ever heard. How could she even say that? Anna didn't know why she was all confused and frustrated about it-she never had a real father to feel such hatred. Elsa's relationship with her father was badly shattered… but she didn't expect this.
"Elsa…" Anna whispered.
The blonde took a deep breath, turning to her with a smile to replace her displeasure. "Come, let us go greet my parents. Olaf."
The young man immediately got out of the car and opened the door to Elsa's side. "Ma'am." He offered his hand, prompting her to take it and got out. She scooted over, eyeing the smile she had.
Elsa mimicked him. "Princess."
Anna rolled her eyes playfully. She's something special, alright. She took her lover's arm, huffing out a cold breath when she looked out to the building.
Must be a big party.
She shivered. "God, it's cold-" A jacket swung around her shoulders. Ah, Elsa...
"We shouldn't be standing here for long."
Anna turned to her. The realization of how much she knew what she had in her mind-not that this wasn't obvious already… but in a span of just a few months, Elsa knew more about her than Anna did herself. Anna wasn't sure if she was grateful for that or not. She had always depended on herself… and then, Elsa came along to the rescue. Oh, what could Anna do, really?
She leaned in to kiss Elsa's cheek, as Olaf went ahead to present their invitations. Mm, warm. "I'm glad you like the cold more than I do."
Grinning, Elsa let go of Anna's shoulders to hold her hand. The place was glowing with light and so was the carpet as they walked, red and bright with colors. Anna almost felt intimidated. And even more so when she noticed the people in front of them were announcing themselves to Elsa, bowing their head and all. She seemed to really be getting a lot of attention-receiving compliments and questions about the business. The woman only stayed silent, nodding in acknowledgment when she had to. Even Anna had received quite a few compliments.
"Sorry, sorry… Miss Arendelle is with me. Whoops, excuse me. Sorry... " Olaf grabbed Elsa's arm, his eyes glaring at her. "Girls, we should hurry in and greet your father," he whispered.
Elsa mirrored his expression, playfully. "I was quite enjoying that."
"You will enjoy more of that inside." Olaf gritted his teeth. Anna was surprised. So he could get frustrated sometimes. He turned to the redhead. "My apologies, Anna."
"N-No, Olaf's right, we should probably get inside."
She sighed in defeat. "Anything for you."
Walking up, the security in a blue suit bowed his head to Elsa. "Miss Arendelle! Glad you could make it to your father's birthday."
"When have I ever missed one, Daniel?" She looked around. "It is quite a big party this evening… despite my opposition to how he spends his money."
He chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck. "Well, everything that he does, he does for you, Miss. Don't you like parties too, ma'am?"
"He sees me as a child."
"He sees you as a wonderful daughter." He turned. "And you are…?"
Anna froze. Should I tell him my name? No, this would cause some complications. She wouldn't know if this Daniel guy had seen her in the club before, but she wasn't taking any chances. Even with a mask on. "U-Uh…"
Elsa squeezed her hand. "Don't worry about it. Right now, continue doing your job." The man immediately stood aside and welcomed us in with no more questions asked. Thank God. Elsa had quite a bit of power here. Like she doesn't anywhere else.
Anna waved goodbye to him as they passed.
Her heart stopped once they stepped in. There were chandeliers shining above them, round tables covered in beautiful white sheets and utensils all around the room. Decorations were everywhere, ranging from balloons to little ice statues. Down the long marble stairs, waiters and waitresses were walking around with trays of champagne and little appetizers to serve the guests.
Anna was completely stunned. And there was a little stage up front with musicians playing in the background of guests-all wonderfully dressed-talking and laughing. To the far sides, there were plates of appetizers and desserts, a large chocolate cake standing tall with multiple layers catching Anna's eyes.
Wow… I didn't think Elsa's family was…
"Anna."
Anna blinked, turning to her lover. "W-What?"
"I know you are speechless." Are you kidding?
"I… I am! Wow… I don't even know… how I'm supposed to react."
The woman smirked and led them deeper into the party. Anna leaned in to whisper, her hand propped on Elsa's for attention. "But uh, thank you for not making me say my name. Even though, we are wearing masks."
"Well, I wouldn't want to hurt your reputation, would I? I had to be careful."
She grinned and kissed her cheek. "You're the best."
"Ma'am, will you be okay if I left you and Anna to your own accord?" Olaf spoke, eyes glancing to both of us, and in time of realization, he blushed. "Oh… you two were having a conversation. My apologies."
Elsa smiled. "Go on, Olaf. Have fun, we will be fine."
Olaf raised an eyebrow and turned to Anna. "Anna?"
"Y-Yeah, don't worry about us."
He bowed his head. "Well, call out if you need anything. I'll be grabbing some food. As always." Olaf smiled so widely in excitement as he picked his head up. Anna had never seen him so happy before. Was he usually like this? She glanced at Elsa in astonishment but did not say anything. "Anna."
"O-Oh. Yeah, have fun, Olaf. I'll probably be with you in a few." The escort chuckled nervously.
"And I will be waiting." He winked, and Anna watched him go through the crowd of people-greeting some even. So the man actually knew quite a few people here even if he was just someone Elsa was working with. Well, and were friends too.
"You seem comfortable with him." Elsa grabbed two flutes of champagne from a passing waiter and offered one to Anna.
The woman raised her eyebrows, taking the glass. "W-Who, me?"
Elsa hummed, taking a small drink of the alcohol. But even if she didn't say anything and gave Anna this blank expression… oh, Anna knew how she felt. It was cute-she just didn't know Elsa could get jealous so easily.
Anna giggled. "You're jealous."
The blonde nearly choked, blue eyes widening at her like Anna was crazy. "Jealous? No, I think you meant, cautious."
"Oh my god, Elsa. You're denying it." Anna cocked her eyebrows up. "It seems like it. Jealousy, I mean." Not that Anna minded. She had never seen Elsa jealous-threatening, she had seen-but at the way Elsa turned to the man picking out plates of food with a scoff… Gods, Anna wanted to see more of that side.
Elsa huffed. "When did you two get so close anyway?"
"Uh… when he brought me to your loft. Elsa, admit it."
She shook her head. "Why would I be jealous when I have everything in the world? When I know I have you."
Oh? Anna bit her lip and came closer to her lover, body pressed to her. Blue eyes fell up and down her body… the leg that was exposed from the slit of her dress. "Then tell me you were not," she pressed, her lips whispering against her cheek. Mm… seducing. Good plan. "Tell me…" Anna smiled, teasingly.
Her hand fell down to Anna's waist. "You… are quite feisty today." Oh, it was so hard to see what her expression was.
"Don't enjoy it too much."
"And yes…" She sighed, head tilted down in defeat. "I was… a bit." A bit, huh? A beat passed, and Anna continued to look into her dishonest eyes. Oh, she could just taste the jealousy at the tip of her tongue. "Though, who wouldn't be?"
Ah, how cute. Anna chuckled and pulled away. This was enough for this evening. "You are so cute sometimes."
Immediately, the woman came into her ear, her hand grasping hard on her arm to bring them together, their cheeks touching each other. "Say that I am cute one more time, and tonight, you will get a… handful." Chills were just running down her back, and Anna wasn't sure if it was because of her fingers touching her or because of her words. And the itching thought of wanting to feel what would happen tonight… Oh, she was quite enjoying this.
Anna gulped and watched Elsa pull away with a cocky smirk on her face. Gods, wasn't she glad this mask was covering her blush?
"Elsa?"
A man stood beside them in a white suit and a golden colored mask, a glass of champagne in his hand. His expression was stoic, but Anna could see a small smile slipping out. Anna almost felt her heart stop, when she noticed some familiar blue eyes. Who the hell… ?
Elsa's hand dropped from her waist. "Father."
Oh. Father?! Her heart almost halted. She quickly turned to see Elsa giving him the same exact expression. Ah, now she could see it. Her father was tall and fit, standing in front of them with such confidence and pride. Just like her.
"You came, Elsa."
She turned away. "When have I ever missed a single one of these pointless parties?"
What? Anna was completely shocked, and her mind continued to race. How Elsa could speak about her father like this. Anna hadn't thought much about it until now.
The man took a deep breath. "Please, play nice."
Elsa let out a low growl before retorting quietly. "Play nice, you say…"
"Don't do this now, Elsa." His voice boomed.
Elsa took in a deep breath, her glowing eyes matching her father. Anna didn't know what to do-she should've gone with Olaf when she had the chance. This was a little too awkward for her, and for an awkward person like her… she didn't know how to deal with this. Anna quickly grabbed hold of Elsa's arm, easing the tension. "Elsa, this is…"
He turned to her, eyes widening. "Oh, my apologies. I didn't know Elsa was bringing a guest. You are?"
"My name is…" Quick, think of a name. "Annie."
"Annie, ah." He smiled. "And who are you to Elsa?"
"I'm-"
"She's an intern," Elsa interrupted, turning to her. "She recently got hired to the company. I wanted to show her around."
"Oh, personally." He crossed his arms. "Well, I'll be… Lucky you, Elsa never greet interns so personally, what changed?"
"A lot has changed, father." Anna felt a hard squeeze on her waist. "Without you, that is."
Oh dear Lord. Anna hated confrontations like this. How could Elsa be so stubborn? For fuck's sake, it was her father's birthday! She could almost feel her insides boiling in anger-and even then, she didn't know why.
Before her father could open his mouth, Anna interrupted. "By the way, happy birthday, Mr. Arendelle. I didn't bring a gift but… I can only give you my best wishes."
The man smiled. How handsome. "Well, thank you. No need to bring anything. In fact, just enjoy yourself. Elsa, your intern is lovely. Please don't lose her."
She looked away. "I won't. Where is Mother?"
"She's still doing her makeup-do you want to…"
"No, that's alright."
This wasn't good enough. Oh, if only Elsa could see how badly Anna's expression was. How… frustrated she was. But even Anna knew, this wasn't her problem to solve. She could only be there to guide Elsa and… that is it.
"Well then." He cleared his throat, dipping his head to a bow. "Annie, it was a pleasure meeting you. Please look after my daughter for me."
She smiled. "I will."
"And if I may say… I would love to dance with you later on tonight."
"That would be great." No. No, why did I say that?!
He turned to Elsa, his blue eyes glowing just like Elsa's. And they stared at each other like they were going to hunt each other down. He straightened himself up. "Elsa."
"Father."
Both of them watched him leave to greet other guests in silence. Anna didn't know what to say and when the man turned out of their sight, she immediately got in front of her lover, eyebrows furrowed tightly together. Elsa couldn't see the fury in her eyes but… no, but whatever. It didn't matter what Elsa thought about her now.
She gritted her teeth, her hand grasping on Elsa's arm towards her. "What the hell was that?!" she whispered angrily.
The woman looked away coldly. "This is none of your business."
Anna almost backed away. None of her business? Are you kidding me? She squinted her eyes. "No. No, you do not get to back out on me-you do not get to shut me out when you've been so open to me all this time. You do not bring me to a party and not have an explanation for that!" Anna stomped her foot as she came closer to her. "This is your father's birthday!"
"Regardless, you wouldn't understand."
She grasped her arm. "Then, God, please help me understand."
Elsa let out a breath. "Please… we shouldn't do this."
What shouldn't they do, was shut each other out, and Elsa knew it. They gazed at each other, almost wanting to get something out of this. Elsa almost looked like she was in tears. And Anna knew, no matter how many times Elsa had been strong-had been there for her, she had her own weakness too. Oh, how could I not notice that?
Anna finally let her go, huffing a soft breath out. Behind that mask… Elsa really looked in pain. Oh, but she just needed a little push. "I'm sorry… we don't have to talk about it. I shouldn't be pushing you."
Elsa let out a small grin and mouthed a thank you.
Anna was left unsatisfied, but that was alright for now if she could just keep Elsa happy. Eventually, she would tell her more about her father. Right?
She blinked when Elsa took her drink and placed it on the tray from a wandering waiter, a hand grasping her fingers. "Let's not let this ruin our night," Elsa prompted, leaning down to kiss her knuckles.
Anna's cheeks felt flushed, and she was just so… conscious of her surroundings. She looked around for Elsa's father… good, he's out of our sight. But the way Elsa was looking at her… the sense of want through her eyes, how could Anna resist her touch? There was so much more that would go on… so much more that Anna had yet to learn.
She grasped onto Elsa's fingers, her thumb rubbing the back of her hand. "What are you doing?"
"Making up to you." Elsa turned to the dance floor. "Would you like to accompany me to this dance?"
Oh, this was delightful. She looked quite excited, her blue eyes brightening the whole place. Anna couldn't deny her this dance. "Of course."
And for a bit, they led themselves to the small group of people, arm over hers, and letting themselves sway to the sound of the instruments.
It was beautiful-she was beautiful, and Anna continued to gaze at her lovingly, her hand placed on Elsa's shoulder, another laid lazily on top of her hand. She could just feel the wandering cold hand on her waist… but she didn't mind. She would never mind having to feel her.
Elsa cocked her head at her small laughter. "Is something funny?"
She shook her head. "It's just… for someone like you who is so… intimidating when I first met you, you can be quite romantic."
"Romantic…" Elsa slowly twirled Anna around, prompting her to squeal and giggle. Anna came back again to her with a tug. "I want to make you happy."
Oh, she was just so hopeless. Anna pressed her body to her, her chin propped on her shoulder. "Worry about your own happiness. I am happy with you."
"And I, you."
She pursed her lips in silence. In wonder. She gives me too much of everything and anything. "You know… sometimes, it really makes me wonder whether all of this is a dream."
"A dream..."
"Yeah… that me meeting someone who will love me unconditionally is a dream… that you're just an image I created to deny the reality that I'm living in..." Anna took a deep breath of her scent, eyes closed… and they continued to sway lazily. Comfortably. Anna felt safe in her arms, head laid on her shoulder. "This almost feels like a dream."
"I am real, Anna."
"I know," she breathed. "I'm happy." Anna was reminded of the relationship they used to have. Honestly… Anna could admit, this was quite cute, no matter how irritating they used to be. "You did know I despised you when we first met right? That first night we met… you and that girl… wow, you had me boiling up inside."
Elsa laughed. "Well, I had to tease you for some time before I got you as an escort."
An escort… She pulled away, eyeing her lips. "Are you… happy with me as your escort? Just an escort?"
"I…"
"Ah hmph. Elsa, would you mind if I cut in?" They turned to see Elsa's father standing before them, a smile crossing his face. He looked so hopeful and happy… how could Anna refuse? Biting her lip, Anna turned to her lover. She knew how much Elsa would love to deny him. Anna wasn't going to let her be that immature right now.
"It's okay. May I? Dance with him, I mean?"
She noticed Elsa's eyes watching the two carefully. Like, this was just something she didn't want her father to have. Anna squeezed her hand. Elsa finally let her go. "Of course. Father." She leaned into Anna. "I'll be talking to the others."
Elsa didn't kiss her-but she knew, if it was anger or… to not show him their relationship, Anna didn't mind. "Y-Yeah, have fun!" She watched Elsa go to a group who called for her with a small smile.
"She is quite a charmer, isn't she?"
Anna quickly turned. Her face turned red to even hear those words, her eyes widening at him. "W-What?" She chuckled nervously, running a loose strand of hair behind her ear.
He offered his hand. "May I?"
She was hesitant at first before taking his hand, another reaching for his broad shoulder. Gods, he was tall, Anna just realized. That's where Elsa gets her height. "Y-Yeah… she really is a charmer."
Oddly, Anna felt quite comfortable dancing slowly with him, letting him lead them in circles at a pace that Anna could keep up with. She wondered if Elsa had ever taken dancing lessons from her father because of course… Elsa was great. Though, much bolder.
She bit her lip, eyes gazing at him. He must've been quite handsome behind that mask.
"May I ask, what kind of relationship do you have with Elsa? 'Just an intern' won't do."
Anna blinked. So sudden. She didn't quite expect it, but as a parent, who wouldn't ask? She felt the need to tell him the truth, but with that smile on his face, Anna realized her father knew… something. "Uh… we... um, we're just acquaintances. R-Really! I got the chance to ask if she could show me around so… here I am. And I really am… just an intern." She laughed, trying her best to hide her nervousness. She could just feel the sweat dripping down her neck.
The man hummed, nodding. "Well, it must be quite nice to have Elsa show you around, isn't it?"
She shrugged. Behind his shoulder, Anna could just see the woman talking cheerfully to other people. "Y-Yeah… you don't think so?"
He took a deep breath. "Well, she is my daughter, I'm proud of what she does."
"You two seem to have… a bit of a conflict. N-Not that it's my business to poke my nose into!" God, make it worse, will you? "And plus…" She sighed. "I never… really saw her so cold before. She's always helping me, and sometimes, when I look at her… I can never tell what she's thinking."
Though, he didn't seem angry. There was this solemn look in his smile. "Yes… a conflict that I hope will be resolved soon. It is my fault that I keep to myself a lot… and perhaps, I've influenced her."
Influenced her? Anna cocked an eyebrow up. "But… she's trying to open up more. I-I don't think it's your fault that makes her keep to herself-she just… she doesn't trust a lot of people, I guess."
He chuckled as they twirled around. "You know, as someone like you who only works for Elsa, you seem to know quite a bit about her. Intern, hm?"
Oh no. Anna flushed, unable to keep her eyes on him. "O-Oh, uh… that is… I-I mean I have been… bugging her at work… quite a bit, a-and she tends to say things that-"
"Oh, I'm just joking around with you." Thank god. The music slowly faded away in the background as they ended their dance. He finally let go of her with a bow, and Anna nodded her head. "But all jokes aside… whatever relationship you have with her, please… take good care of her. I may not be the best father, but I will always be the one to look after her one way or another. You seem good for her."
For some reason, Anna felt her heart getting tugged hard from his words. Because then… by then, she realized how wonderful it'd be to have a father… to see how true love would be like even if they were covered with hate. She wondered how great it'd be to just forgive and forget… "Yeah, I-I'll… I'll do my best to look after her."
"Good. Now, why don't you go have a seat and grab some food?"
"Of course…" She felt dazed, eyeing the man who was walking on the stage now. Oh… oh god, was she jealous? Was she jealous of Elsa for having a father who cared? A father who still loved her-who was grateful for everything even if she hated him?
"Mhm…" He coughed through the microphone. "I'd like to have everyone take a seat first before we all start dinner, so if everyone would be so kind-"
Anna suddenly felt a hand on her waist. "Come, baby, let's take our seat." She turned. Oh, it was Elsa.
Though, Anna couldn't mirror her expression. She let her lover lead them to their table, greeted with a few others around them, and Olaf was sitting right beside Elsa. At the moment, Anna turned to gaze at Elsa.
Her expression was completely stoic… and Anna wondered if Olaf had ever noticed this. Huffing a breath, she placed her hand above Elsa's on her lap.
The woman turned to her. "Yes?"
Ugh, does she not know what she looks like right now? Anna could barely keep her eyes from rolling. "Could you relax your face for a bit? It's scaring me."
For a bit, Elsa didn't say anything until she grasped Anna's hand and kissed her knuckles. "Anything for you." Even if she says that…
No, Anna didn't care. She was going to have a nice evening tonight. She turned to Elsa's father, standing tall and proud on stage.
He continued, "So, as all of you know, today is my 48th birthday. Yes, yes… getting older." He chuckled, prompting Anna to do the same. Elsa didn't. Her hand on Anna's tightened. "But for everyone who came, I hope you are having a wonderful time, drinking and eating." He sighed. "In all honesty, if I may, my wife and daughter are the only two people who made me who I am today. Idunn, my love… you have given me everything that I have missed when I thought I had it all-"
Anna looked around, before whispering to Elsa through the booming voice. "Hey… I never really got to see your mother."
She found Elsa gazing around as well before nodding to the front. "There."
Anna squinted. Brown hair, and a beautiful white dress, hands covering her lips. Yep, definitely her. "Oh. I should probably talk to her in a bit, shouldn't I?"
"Hm."
Hm? What kind of response is that? Anna glared at her only to see Elsa not paying attention, her eyes focusing on her lap. No, she couldn't be upset, could she? But even then… how could Anna blame her? She squeezed Elsa's hand. "Hey…"
"-Lastly, my daughter… my beautiful girl who has grown so much before my very eyes." Elsa looked up. "I know, we may have gone through some difficult times, but when the time comes, I hope you would understand, what I have done is only for your protection. I love you, no matter what."
Elsa didn't say anything, leaving Anna confused. Completely conflicted. Wasn't she happy to hear this? To hear that her father would love her no matter what she did? Because at some point… Elsa had to forgive him, right?
No… Elsa continued to leave a blank stare. Yes, she could be cold. She could be numb… not like this.
Anna sighed in disbelief, shaking her head as she got up to go somewhere else. She needed space. She needed to be alone.
Anna was almost glad Elsa wasn't paying much attention to know that she had left for the bathroom.
Her heels clicked loudly on the marble floor as she walked in, the door closing behind her. The soft piano was playing in the background and luckily, all the stalls were empty. This was the only place to really gather her emotions together.
She looked at her own reflection from the mirror, hands propped up to the sink. Anna couldn't see her expression like this… but perhaps, she didn't need to find out-the anger that was balled up inside her, the sadness of losing something… she didn't want to see the ugliness of herself.
Reluctantly, Anna took the mask off and turned on the faucet.
The dark circles were so prominent under that makeup, her face looking so pale as if her work had drained her of color… and perhaps, she had grown slimmer. Much slimmer.
She ran her fingers on her cheek. Though… she was supposed to be happy with Elsa, so why… why this depressive state? Anna had what she had always wanted, what else did she want? How selfish could she get?
"I knew you'd be here."
Anna blinked. Elsa was just behind her, arms crossed and leaning against the wall.
Taking a deep breath, Anna grabbed her mask. "I was just… trying to fix my makeup-"
"Why did you leave without telling me?"
Anna gazed at the running water. "You know where I'd be, anyway. I just… I needed some peace." She turned around to face her. Elsa still had this stern look on her. "I'm sorry… I've just been overthinking."
"Perhaps, it was something I said."
She shook her head. "No, I was just… being dramatic. It's fine."
Anna heard her sigh, watching Elsa reached behind her head to take off her mask. Ah, at least now, Anna could clearly see her eyes… what kind of game she was playing right here. But there was no time for games… and Elsa stayed quiet to let Anna bask into their presence-how comforting it used to be to just look at Elsa, to just be in her arms. Anna was hesitant.
"Was it my father?"
Anna twitched. "I… didn't think you'd hate him so much." She could just feel how much Elsa was holding in her anger for her comfort.
"I… what he has done, to keep me in the dark for so long… how could I ever forgive that?"
For a moment… Anna thought she was talking to her own reflection, her own thoughts. "He's trying." Say it. Say that to yourself now. "He's trying to protect you."
Elsa growled, "I am a 23-year-old woman, wealthy enough to buy myself tens of these venues-I do not need his protection. I am not his little girl. Not anymore."
She… really exploded. And this was the first time Anna had ever seen her this… angry and frustrated. She was almost surprised, knowing Elsa had always been so calm.
Anna didn't quite know what to say. What to think. They stayed like this, angry eyes gazing at each other in silence as if they both expected something. And Anna expected her to weep tears… to come to her for a much-needed hug. But she didn't.
Elsa was strong. Elsa was cold. Elsa... wasn't a child.
The blonde sighed, glancing away. "I… I'm sorry."
Anna immediately shook her head. "No… I-I want you to be raw to me. Open up to me… and if you just want to scream, I'm here for you to scream at."
Elsa chuckled to herself, eyes gazing down… and even, Anna knew behind that laugh, anger was hiding. She ran her fingers through her blonde hair, taking a deep breath. "I won't scream." Ah, such determination. But Anna didn't want that. She turned to the redhead. "Were you angry?"
Anna didn't understand. "M-Me?"
"You said you came here for peace."
"I guess…" Hm. This was a question she couldn't really… answer. "I guess I was just angry with myself. No… jealous of you."
Elsa nodded as if she understood. But she didn't. Anna barely told her anything about her father… and maybe they were wrong-they were professionals at hiding secrets.
Anna crossed her arms against her body as if it'd give her warmth. Right now… Anna didn't want to touch her. And neither was Elsa in the right mindset to think of anything else. They were just… one hurtful, broken couple trying to mend each other as much as possible. As fast as possible. Elsa continued to stare in silence with intent. Like she knew Anna needed to let this all out.
She did. "I was jealous of how… how much your father loves you no matter what you say to him. It's just something that I never had for the past 21 years of my life. I wanted that… unconditional love. Badly." She wanted to cry, but the tears that had come out had dried out now. Her heart was too broken to be feeling hurt, and all she could need to feel was numbness. To get away.
Anna chuckled bitterly. "That's just a dream now, isn't it?"
"Come."
"H-Huh?"
Elsa offered her hand. "Let's get out of here."
"Wait, what? To where?"
She smiled. "Take my hand. I had the vendor give me my father's key to his car-and we will go wherever you want tonight."
Is she trying to make me feel better? Anna knew they were trying hard in this relationship… and she gazed at her hand in silence. It was always tempting to take her hand. Anna took her hand in an instant, her fingers softly running up her palm before Elsa grasped them. Anna couldn't even retort or think about what Elsa was about to do.
But she followed, her fingers holding onto Elsa's as they exited the bathroom. Whatever Elsa was doing, whatever she had in mind, Anna was curious. Besides… she loved to be led by her. She loved the surprises.
In the background as they neared the entrance, her father's voice was still booming as if he hadn't noticed they had left. Not that Anna really cared at all. Right now, she wanted to forget… She wanted to have a little fun with Elsa.
"H-Hey, Miss! T-That's your father's keys!"
The girls turned to Olaf with his mask off. He looked frantic, and Anna turned to see Elsa waving his keys to him. Wow. Look at that grin.
"Do you mind?" she asked, daringly.
Oh, we're playing like this? Anna… didn't dislike it. Actually, she quite enjoyed seeing Elsa's playfulness. That frown she had quickly became a smirk, and she squeezed Elsa's hand.
Ah, it felt good, seeing the pale, horrified expression Olaf had.
"M-Miss… if you take his car, what am I going to tell him?"
She tilted her head. "You have your ways. Why don't you take my parents home? Perhaps, Uber too."
"B-But-"
"Anna, come."
Anna was giggling like a little child when Elsa indicated that they run for the car before Olaf could catch up. And they ran in their heels to the streets, Anna's fingers grasping onto the hem of her dress.
"W-Wait, please! Don't take the car!"
A small beep from a Rolls Royce sounded before them, and before Olaf could even get near them, Anna was already in the car. She turned to see Elsa quickly getting in the driver's seat too, a quite a playful smile forming over her expression. "Are you having fun?" Elsa asked, her hands placed on the driving wheel.
Having fun? No, this was the most fun she'd had for a long time. It was odd… but at least, Anna could see a different side of Elsa. So this is the party monster.
She giggled, hearing a muffled voice and knocks on the window. "Anna! Anna, please… tell her not to take the car - I'll drive you both!"
Elsa rolled down Anna's side of the window, her eyebrows raised. "Did I hear that correctly? Begging?" She raised her eyebrows.
Olaf huffed a breath, crossing his arms. "S-Seriously, if people knew about your true nature and how immature you can get, you wouldn't even be here!" Oh, he exploded.
Elsa laughed, shaking her head. "Oh, so you call having a little fun, 'immature', I see. I don't quite understand that time when I had to suffer in the car with this cheap cologne doused in the air. I'm sure that wasn't at all immature to your boss." Anna had to cover her mouth from laughing so hysterically.
"Well, you-" He pouted, mumbling, his cheeks almost on fire. "You took my car that time too…"
"What was that?"
He rolled his eyes. "Forget it, I'll do something about your father. Please, don't wreck his car."
"Are you doubting me?"
"The last time-"
"There was no last time."
Oh, Anna never knew she could laugh this much this whole week. Elsa had down quite good for her. Just listening to Olaf grumble… she almost felt quite bad for him, but he had to know this was just all for fun and games.
"You're lucky I'm your friend before your assistant or else I would've told your father right away."
"Oh, I know you won't." Elsa smirked. "Lighten up, Olaf."
He pouted. "If we were in college still, I would've told you to shut up, but I cannot, so I will remain professional."
"And you will continue to remain professional. As I said, lighten up."
Before anyone else could even say anything, the car sped off. Olaf was still screaming whatever cusses there were in English.
Oh, Anna couldn't help it-the wild side of her was showing, and she carefully moved through the window and raised both of her middle fingers up to him.
"Thanks, Olaf!" she screamed, laughing in complete oblivion. Ah, it was so refreshing to get back to acting like a normal college student. To feel the wind brush against her cheeks… to feel her lover grasping her to hold her still.
Before she knew it, the venue had become a small dot, and Olaf's screaming had turned into silence. Elsa continued to drive them through the town, enlightened with plenty of entertainment and complete festivity through the clear cold night.
She finally calmed down through the richness of the town, grinning like an idiot with Elsa as they drove through every street and every light. This was complete heaven.
Anna leaned her head against the window, eyes looking out front. "That was fun."
"You were quite aggressive back there, Anna."
"And you weren't?" The redhead perked an eyebrow up. "You don't like it?"
"Oh, I do." She smirked, amusingly. "Though, it was quite surprising to see you make those gestures."
Anna laughed. "As much as you think about how… 'responsible' I am, I can have a little fun sometimes, and just as much as you do."
"I can tell."
For a while, Anna felt safe and comfortable that Elsa hadn't pried anything from her. Had always tried to make sure that Anna was in safe hands. The two became quiet as they passed through the night in the streets. Before Anna knew it, Elsa had driven them to the outskirts of the town, and nothing but dirt, rocks, and the night sky were in front of them. Behind them, was the city glimmering with light. It was peaceful out here, though.
"We're… out here?" Anna turned back to see buildings getting smaller.
The woman smiled gently and placed a hand on her lap. "Through hard times, I like to drive out here for a breeze. It is cold but I thought we could use it."
Anna didn't know what to say, seeing how Elsa was being thoughtful of her. Of them. She giggled and leaned towards Elsa to kiss her cheek. "Thank you," she whispered, her palm caressing her soft skin. "For trying to make me feel better, I mean."
Elsa tapped her finger on the steering wheel. "Though, I wonder… that wasn't the only reason you were angry, was it?"
What? Were there any reasons? Anna wasn't aware. She gazed at Elsa, dazed.
Even Elsa seemed unfazed, watching the road-and perhaps, avoiding Anna's possible retort.
Anna gulped. "You… you think I have other reasons to be angry?"
"Well, don't you always?" Wow. Elsa's blue eyes glimmered when she turned. Her stoic expression was still intimidating to Anna.
She couldn't help but turn away, leaving herself on edge. "Maybe…" And it wasn't right to deny what she felt inside. Anna finally burst. "It's just… I get to work with you. I get to… spend my time with you. I just don't know if this… what we have is the right choice. At all." Because in her heart, she realized whatever they had… wasn't going to be enough. And it wasn't right. This love could hurt both of them if either of them made a mistake.
The warmth of Elsa's hand embraced Anna's. "Your anger for Hans…" Behind that raging fire, Elsa was calm. "I know you are trying to protect my reputation too, and your own. I am strong and I can own him if I ever wanted to. There's no reason to be angry with him."
"Angry…" Anna shook her head, entangling her fingers with Elsa's, and she squeezed tightly. "No, I guess… I'm just scared. I'm scared of losing you."
"You won't." Ah, such bold words.
"But what if?" She squinted. "One wrong step and-"
"One wrong step and we will work this out together. You are not alone."
Not alone… Anna felt her heart pound harder than ever because her words… were always comforting. She always felt that Elsa wasn't lying when she said she loved her. Oh, how could she ever doubt that? How could she ever begin to end that trust issue she had?
But Anna shouldn't be doubting herself-she knew what made her happy. Her face felt slightly flushed, at the thought of the love they had. Ah, perhaps, this was happiness. She hadn't realized it yet. She smiled. "Hey, this is a convertible right?"
Elsa gazed back and forth from her to the road. "Yes, why?"
"Open the roof for me."
She felt Elsa hesitate for a moment before complying. Anna immediately took off her heels and seatbelt. Elsa glared. Oh, it was nice to see her being such a worrywart. "Anna, what are you doing?"
She smirked and stood up immediately from her seat, her arms spread open, her hair flowing with the wind. And the wind, as they drove, was so gently and cold. Though, while it was cold… Anna didn't care.
"Anna, get down please." Oh, she sounded like a mother. Gazing down, she noticed the worried stare Elsa had. Gods, it was only the two of them in a car, having a nice drive-why worry at all?
But she knew how Elsa would get-how concerned she would be even if it was just the smallest thing. Because Anna knew, she had hidden a lot of things from Elsa and one thing that she could not hide was her emotions.
Anna pouted. "Fine, if you're so worried, just hold onto me." A pause. "After what you've just said… I realized I just need to let whatever I have in mind go." She held the hem of her dress close to her knees, her thigh exposed to the air. "May I?"
Elsa still seemed quite hesitant before sighing in defeat and in agreement. She slowly glided her fingers up Anna's leg and held onto her tightly. "Go ahead, I must admit… I do quite want to hear what you have to say."
"And I will scream."
She laughed. "By all means."
Anna smirked, and before Elsa could say anything else, she cupped her hands around her lips and faced the road. "First of all! FUCK YOU, HANS! FUCK YOU AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO!"
Oh, she could just see Elsa widening her eyes in amusement. Ah, there was that smile Anna was looking for. It must've felt good to hear those words… And to Anna, that felt as if a major burden had been lifted off her shoulders. Ah, Hans was quite a turmoil… and this was just absolutely relieving.
Anna took a deep breath of the cold and continued to scream out her mind. "I'm jealous! I envy those who don't have a single struggle in their lives!"
"Mom, you're an idiot! You do not get to treat me like I'm still a child!"
"Meg, you are a bitch! A huge fucking jerk and I will swear on my life to never have to deal with you again!"
She continued to scream a few more things until she ran out of breath. Her eyes were on Elsa, only to watch her laugh amusingly at the girl's screaming. Ah, it was quite refreshing too, to see them both get comfortable enough to speak the truth to each other.
Anna grinned at the sight and took a deep breath. "FUCK THIS WORLD!" One last scream. Anna looked down at her, grinning sweetly. Her cheeks were pink. All she could think about was in this cruel world, Elsa was also living in it with her. "And I love you, Elsa Arendelle."
Elsa didn't say anything. Not that Anna needed her to as she smiled at the woman lovingly, and Elsa still gazing at the empty road. Her expression was so soft and gentle. Anna could just see all of it-the love that she wanted so badly. The love Elsa had provided her.
Anna sighed as her head bumped against the window, the jacket that covered her slipping from her shoulders. Her little slumber was short-living.
Where…? She looked around. Oh, they were still out of town. The car had stopped. Out here there wasn't much to see, and only a little glimpse of light from the city was seen sparkling like a star.
At least it was quiet here. Anna gazed out to the front, watching as Elsa sat on top of the car-
Oh. The stars.
Anna was completely mesmerized, her eyes unable to move away from the millions of stars lighting up the dark sky, spreading infinite distances like a blanket. The woman that sat on the hood of the car… seemed peaceful. Perhaps, she was looking at them too.
Ah, it was no wonder Elsa wanted to bring them out here. It was only the two of them in the dry desert-all comfortable… and completely open to each other. I wish.
Anna shook her head. Yes, there were things she still hadn't told Elsa but… it's for the best.
Taking a deep breath, Anna got out of the car with Elsa's jacket around her shoulders.
"... I'm not the type to count on you… cuz stupid's next to I love you… so why can't you show me that my heart don't know already… we make our own sins..." Oh. Elsa was singing. She never heard Elsa sing before. Her voice was beautiful, soothing… gentle… like birds in the sky, and Anna wished she could just listen to her sing words into her ear all day and night. She sounded like an angel… but never had Anna thought she could make a song sound so sad. Never had Anna thought words that were so ugly and cold could also be spewed out of her lips.
She leaned against the car door and listened quietly. Like this… Anna wouldn't have to think about anything else. "Your voice is beautiful." She clapped her hands when quietness embraced them.
Elsa slowly turned, a grin forming. "You're awake."
"Did I sleep long?" She walked up to her slowly, taking her jacket and wrapping it even closer around her shoulders.
"No, but I didn't want to wake you up. I know you haven't gotten enough sleep lately. Come, sit with me."
Anna slowly climbed onto the car and sat next to Elsa, her head against the woman's shoulder. "You should sing to me more often," Anna breathed, grinning. "You know, it'll help me sleep too."
Elsa chuckled lowly. "Well, I don't think I'd be a very good singer."
Are you kidding? Anna almost laughed. "Now, you're being a bit too humble." She looked up into the sky, and the moon was fully in their sight, surrounded by nothing but stars. There weren't many clouds out here… and tonight, the cold wasn't that unbearable. Not with Elsa here, anyway.
They basked into this silence for a while, bringing themselves to relax on the vehicle. Oh, Anna could just fall right back to sleep on her chest again. Elsa's fingers ran circles on her skin.
"What time is it…?" Anna breathed, reaching her arm around Elsa's waist.
"Around midnight."
"Mm… it's beautiful here. So many stars and…" She pointed up to the sky. "Very big stars too."
Elsa chuckled, tilting down to kiss her forehead. "But no star is more beautiful than you."
What? She laughed loudly at her, pressing her face against Elsa's neck, "God, you're so cheesy sometimes. But I love it…"
They continued to gaze at the stars, some even shooting pass above them. But they didn't make any wishes. All Anna wanted-wished for, was right next to her.
Anna bit her lip in contemplation. All the secrets that were buried deep in her heart, she could say them right here, right now. It's so hard… and she didn't know what made it so hard.
That perhaps, Elsa would judge her? That Elsa… would criticize her? And perhaps, Anna was afraid that Elsa had nothing to say that would give her comfort.
Because next month… she was going to meet him. She was going to open up to the man who left her twenty-one years ago. The hatred for him… the anger… how was Anna ever going to forget that?
"Anna."
She blinked, turned to her lover. "Y-Yeah?"
"You're digging your nails into me."
Anna immediately pulled her hand from her waist, but it didn't seem like Elsa was in pain. "S-sorry, are you alright?"
Elsa tilted her head, raising an eyebrow up. "Are you?"
She didn't understand. Elsa had seen how she was-and right now, Anna was completely fine. There wasn't a thing that Anna could think of that made her feel like she wasn't.
She ran her fingers through her red hair. "I'm fine." Say it with more enthusiasm, Jesus Christ.
"You say that when you aren't." Oh, what could even get past Elsa anymore?
Anna pursed her lips together. "Yeah, I guess you're right." She turned to her side, gazing up at Elsa. "Remember… when I told you about my father?" She waited for Elsa to nod. "The thing is… I'll… I'll be meeting him soon. I don't know what kind of person he'll be, but… I only hope he'll be someone who I don't hate."
Perhaps, this was the wrong conversation that should be going on. She noticed Elsa quickly looking away. Of course, her relationship with her father wasn't the best, so it seemed fitting that Elsa didn't want to talk about this. Anna gazed down. "N-Nevermind, I don't think we should be-"
"It may be hypocritical, coming from me, but please… enjoy your time with your father."
"W-What?"
Elsa smiled, bringing Anna's hand up to kiss her knuckles. "I don't want you to have any more regret-I want you to be happy."
Anna almost thought she'd get mad but… no. Somehow, she was understanding. Somehow… Anna wanted to see her father even less. She'd said once, and she'd say it again: Elsa's love could replace all of this. Elsa was enough.
But even then, she wanted more. Was she greedy? No, she was just… needy, perhaps.
"I have you."
Elsa leaned into her hair, humming. "Yes, you do. But I am not enough, do you understand?"
Anna shrugged. "I don't know. Do you think I'll… learn to understand him?"
"You have been understanding of me, I don't doubt you will be the same to him, Anna." Ah, this was reassuring-confusing, but Elsa had blocked her from thoughts that Anna had buried in her heart.
Slowly, Anna nodded with a concerned frown on her face.
"Anna." She felt hands holding her cheeks, and Anna gazed at those caring eyes… loving the feeling of her fingers caressing her skin. Her heart was racing like never before… and though, Elsa was beautiful, she had seen nothing like this. Elsa was gentle with her… grinning like her… almost like-
She's Meg.
"Please, go see him," Elsa urged.
Her hand gently grasped the woman's wrist. "But I…"
"No." She raised her eyebrows, daringly. "If you want, I will come with you."
Oh. Anna quickly nodded. She was depending on Elsa a bit too much, but if she let it… then all was okay. "Will you really?"
"Yes."
"Jesus, you are just so…" What did I do to deserve her? Out of happiness and joy, Anna quickly leaned in, and let herself savor the moment of her lips pressed on Elsa's, her fingers burrowed into her fringes. She relaxed into the kiss, unable to really stop herself from smiling.
Elsa had her hands gripping gently on her wrists, her thumbs running soothingly on her skin. Oh, she was freezing, but Anna loved to feel that on her.
Anna didn't want to pull away-to leave her warm breath, her skin… her nose that was nuzzling into her… but Elsa did.
The blonde kissed her cheek, her hand reaching for the other. "You are wonderful." Kiss. "Do not be afraid." Kiss. "I am here. I love you."