Two weeks later, Clarke was meeting up with Octavia and Raven for lunch at Jaha's diner. She had been keeping her texts short with Bellamy and they haven't hung out without the whole group being there. She hated it, but she needed to distance herself so she can think. Hearing the two girls enter the diner, she waved them over.
"Guys I need a big favor" she deadpanned. "I want you guys to be there at my appointment"
"Appointment for what?" Raven asked lost.
"I'm pregnant Ray and I wanna find out how far along I am" clearing it up.
"You're pregnant.?! Why didn't you tell me? How long have you knowing..." going on with several more questions.
"Cheese and Rice Raven chill out. It's not like she's known for a long time" Octavia pointed out.
"You know she was?" Raven questions the girl. Nodding she replied "I found out that night at Drop Ship. We tried to find you, but we didn't see you or Wick"
"I'm sorry Clarke. Ugh, I feel like a horny bitch not being there for my friends because I wanted to relieve my horniness" she said causing my to laugh hysterically. Of course Raven would say something like that.
"That was too much information, even for you" I said still laughing.
"How come Bellamy isn't going to be there?" Raven asked making Clarke's laugh stop. "What you thought I wouldn't know it was his? I assumed you guys were just boning, but come to find out you're pregnant only concludes it. You haven't been with anyone and you two have been very close. Like very close lately"
"Ew, that's my brother you're talking about. I do not want to think about him and Clarke having sex" Octavia plugged her ears.
"ANYWAYS, would you two like to come with me tomorrow? I don't want to go alone and Peanut and I would really love some company being his godmothers and all" I said nonchalantly.
"Peanut?" Raven asked the same time Octavia said "Godmothers?"
Squeezing in delight, they both agreed and started talking about throwing a baby shower, leaving Clarke out of it completely.
Baby shower? Wait no.
"Guys. There's not going to be a baby shower" I stopped hem. The two girls in front of her began to protest. "There's not going to be a baby shower because I still haven't told Bellamy and I don't think that's necessary"
"That little peanut inside you shares my DNA Clarke. I don't care if Bellamy knows or not. That baby is going to be celebrated with this baby shower and..."
"And you deserve this Clarke. Name one person in the group that won't be happy about this. Not including Bellamy" Raven finished
"Ugh you guys are right. Thank you so much. For supporting me and embracing Peanut" she started tearing up because her hormones were probably starting to get the best of her.
"I think Bellamy should go won't you" Octavia stated. Raven agreed.
"I know I just. I don't want to find out how he'll react"
"My brothers an idiot, but he still deserves to know"
"Know what?" We turned our heads in the direction of the voice. Really? He had to be here now I looked at the girls to see what we should say, but honestly we were too shocked to see him that I just sighed and gestured him to come sit next to me.
"So can i know what my sister is calling me an idiot for?" He asked.
"O and I have a lot of planning to do" Raven have me a pointed look. "We'll catch you guys later tonight" she finished before heading off with Octavia. Leaving Bellamy and I alone.
Great. "I have something to tell you"
"Me too, but you go first"
Curious, Clarke replied "No you go first. My news can wait"
"I met someone" he smiled.
What???????? Not knowing if I heard him right "You m-met somebody?" I stuttered
"Yeah, I've only taken her out on two dates, but we've been talking a lot. Her name's Gina and I invited her over to come along with me tonight at Jasper's"
"That's great Bell. I'm happy for you" I forced a smile on my face.
I honestly didn't know what to say. He wasn't seeing anyone in any way when we were sleeping together. Didn't that mean something? Now that we weren't, he jumped at the opportunity to.
"So what was your news?" He asked knocking me out of my thoughts.
Um, I'm sorry I forgot" I lied smoothly. "As soon as I remember, I'll tell you though" convincing him more.
"Alright, well I gotta go, I just came to order some food for Gina and I before we head on over. I'll see you over here" he have a smile and left.
Clarke couldn't help, but to just sit there. She wasn't expecting that news. Then again, she wasn't surprised. Bellamy was Bellamy and she should be happy he wasn't sleeping around again. How was I supposed to tell him now?
She was so deep in her thoughts that she didn't here her phone ringing. When she finally noticed, she saw that it was Finn.
"Hey Finn"
Hey, are you okay?
Yeah, just sitting at Jaha's. What up?"
Well look to your left, out the window.
Doing exactly what he said, she saw him standing outside with his phone to his ear. She couldn't help, but smile. Only in movies did things like that happen. Holding up her finger saying that she'll be a minute, she hung up, payed the waiter, and went outside.
"You know we're friends right? You don't have to stalk me" Clarke teased.
"As much as I do enjoy stalking you. I was on my way to the complex when I saw one of your friends come out and I was hoping that you'd be right behind him. You weren't, but I took a peek inside and sure enough I saw you sitting. You didn't look to happy though" he explained.
"Yeah, it's just life isn't taking my side these days" I felt myself opening up to him.
"Wanna talk about it? We can go to the park or somewhere to sit and talk if you'd like" he suggested sincerely.
I shook my head. "No I was just going to go and change before heading to my friend's place for our weekly group night"
"Rain check than?" Finn asked.
"Actually, would you like to come with? I would love the company walking there. It's not far from the complex actually. You don't have to if you don't want to though. I know you've only met Octavia and Raven, but I don't want you to feel weird. Like I'm forcing my friends onto you. When-"
"Clarke calmed down" he chuckled. "Deja Vu. You're rambling again, but I'd love to. I gotta check a few things at the complex and should be done by the time you're done changing"
Embarrassed I began to apologize. "I'm sorry. I don't know why I do that, but it's great that you'll come"
They made their way to the apartments, laughing and talking without noticing that their hands were entwined. Afar though, watched a freckled brown eye person.
She was glowing. Clarke deserves that. Good for you Princess.
knocking at the door*
"Jasper, get the door! Someone's knocking" yelled Octavia.
"Monty, can you get the door for me!"
"Raven, can you get he door for Jasper!"
"Alright I'm getting the damn door" Raven rolled her eyes. There was no reason for anybody to be yelling. They were all in the living room except for Jasper, who was in the kitchen mixing up a new batch of moonshine.
"Jasper and Monty's house, Raven at your service. How can I help you?" She said opening up the door to see Finn and Clarke.
"Oh hey Griffin, didn't know you were bringing your boy toy to group night" she said smirking.
"Oh shut up Raven, you know we're just friends and as I recall, you're my toy to play with" Clarke playfully winked at her before entering the apartment. "So what're tonight'a plans? I see that Jasper is tampering with moonshine so it must involve the usual"
"Well I'll have you know that we are going to get drunk off our asses like USUAL and play the normal games tonight. You of course can't be drinking, you're the designated referee" Octavia stated. "Of course my brother needs to get here already so we can start.
knock at the door* "Just in time" she smiled.
Not wanting to see Bellamy and Gina, Clarke pulled Finn onto the couch that faced away from the door. Seeing everybody else, Clarke began to introduce Finn.
"Finn this is Miller, Monty, Lincoln, Maya, and then the one we saw in the kitchen is Jasper. You already know Wick, Raven, and Octavia of course"
"It's nice to meet you guys. Clarke's been keeping me in the closet for quite some time now" giving Clarke a playful glare.
"Not even!" She denied. "But you should've stayed in there longer" going along with the joke and making everyone laugh.
Octavia then joined us in the living room along with Bellamy and who I presumed to be Gina. Noticing me immediately, he locked eyes with me before looking over at Finn and quickly back at me. The way he was looking at me made it very clear that something was bothering him. I tried not to care, but I did. Yet I didn't do anything wrong. He didn't say anything to anybody of about the girl beside me so I spoke up.
"Lastly Finn, this is Bellamy and.."
"Gina?" Finn stated cutting Clarke off.
Confused as to how he knew who she was, Clarke turned to Finn for an answer. Hell the whole group was confused.
"How do you know Gina?" Bellamy finally asked.
"Finn! Oh my goodness. Hey" Gina recognized him. "I didn't realize it was you. Your hair got longer and you tanned a little more"
"Yeah, well look at you. You look great" he smiled back. "Um Gina and I were best friends since ever since before she moved away 5 years ago" Finn explained clearing up the confusion. "It's great seeing you Heda"
"Yeah, sane here Nightblood"
"Alright, as much as I love a great reunion, I am done with a new batch" Jasper announced entered the living room.
Finding a seat across from Finn and Clarke, Bellamy introduced Gina to everyone else. She was very welcoming and a sweetheart. That's probably what Clarke hated about her. She was beautiful inside and out and she had one thing she didn't.
Bellamy.
Bellamy was supposed to be hers. They were supposed to have a house with a white picket fence. A little puppy roaming and kids running around while they sat back together watching white smiles on their faces. Instead, they were far apart and she was having his baby without him knowing.
Not realizing that she was in her thoughts again, Finn asked if she was alright. Nodding her head she watched her friends begin to play Never Have I Ever. At least they'd be able to let loose with the alcohol in their system. Clarke had to deal with her feelings and stick with water. Somewhere in between, Finn ended up sitting with Gina where Bellamy used to be and now Bellamy was beside her. He didn't acknowledge her until she looked at him.
"I'm happy for you Princess. You deserve that."
"Deserve what?" She asked. Genuinely confused.
"To be with someone that cares for you like that"
Figuring out that he thought she was with Finn she began to clear that up.
"I'm not with him Bellamy. If anything he's like family. I care for him some way, but not that way"
Hearing Bellamy say that he was happy that she was with Finn didn't make her feel pleased. Only then did she realize that she really didn't see Finn that way. Yeah, she maybe wanted to give it a try after their first run in, but she didn't feel that way not too long after. Instead of replying, she left Bellamy hanging and excused herself to go to the kitchen.
She met Octavia and Bellamy when she was 14. She was new in
She was studying at their house when they had their first encounter. Octavia told her to make herself at home and if she wanted anything to eat to just make it before telling her that she was going to pick up Raven. She was studying at their house when they had their first encounter. Octavia told her to make herself at home and if she wanted anything to eat to just make it before telling her that she was going to pick up Raven.
She decided she was going to make cookies not knowing what else to make. She got the bowl, eggs, and the peanut better when Bellamy walked into the kitchen.
Clarke suddenly felt like she was invading their house since O wasn't around. She hadn't met Bellamy yet.
"Who are you? And where's my sister?" He said not hiding the displeasure in his voice.
"Clarke. I'm one of Octavia's friends. She went to go pick up Raven" she said suddenly annoyed at his presence. "I'm making peanut butter cookies right now. Can you get the sugar? It's too high up for me"
"As long as I get a few of those cookies, it's not a problem Princess" he said putting the emphasis on the pet name and putting the sugar on the counter. "I'm going to go shower. I trust that you won't burn down the house. Some of us can't afford that around here like you can"
Triggered by what he said, she snapped "What the fuck is your problem? Judging me by my parents status right? Just because I was born into that family doesn't make me like any of those snobs. I don't look down or put anyone down. Money is not thrown at my feet when I ask for it. I don't even ask for money. I like to work and earn my money. I am not a spoiled rich kid. My parents are the ones who are rich. Not me. They are the ones with the money. Not me. People at school may be able to take your snide comments, but I won't. You don't even fucking know me and you're so quick to judge. Go do both of us a favor and go shower and never talk to me again" she finished not realizing that Octavia and Raven were standing behind her and heard every word. She was going to turn and apologize to Octavia when she spoke up furiously.
"Why can't you just be nice for once.?! Clarke's a good fucking person. She has been nothing, but nice to me Bellamy. She cares and acts like a big sister to me. She's never mistreated me and she makes sure I'm okay all the time. Clarke could be so angry at the world for having parents who treat her as if she's not there even when they were the ones who brought her into this world. She could be mad for having nobody there when she needs somebody there. She's been alone her entire life and here you are judging her about something that has nothing to do with her" she paused.
Bellamy didn't know what to say. It was evident that he knew he was wrong and there was no taking it back.
"We've had each other our entire lives Bell. Even if sometimes things were rough financially, we had mom and dad. Always. I can't even imagine what it's like to be alone like Clarke was. Can you?" She finished.
She turned to Clarke, mumbled an apology for her brother, and embraced her into a hug that Raven ended up joining.
The whole thing made Clarke feel emotional and overwhelmed. This was the first time that someone made it clear they care for her. She began to cry a little. Of course it caused the other girls to shed a few tears. Both Raven and Octavia told her that they'd always be there for her no matter what and she appreciated that most.
With his little sisters words playing over and over again in his head, he felt so guilty. He really doesn't know what it's like to be alone. He didn't even know what it was like to have parents that didn't care. Not knowing how else to apologize, he went over to the girl's hug fest and put his arms around them.
"I'm sorry Clarke for what I said. I can't judge you based on your parents and it was wrong that I did. I know it doesn't make up for anything, but really any friend of Octavia's is a friend of mine" he said pulling away.
Pulling away too, Octavia looked up at her brother smiling. She loved this side of her brother. Only those who were close to them really got to see him that way.
Listening to him apologize, Clarke knew she forgave him. She was a sucker for second chances and for happy endings. She wiped her tears away, walked up to Bellamy and hugged him.
"I know this is weird, hugging you after you insulted me, me blowing up on you, and your sister blowing up on you, but I'll forgive you as soon as you get the other bag of sugar" she looked up smiling at him. Her smile almost went away when he replaced his smile with a smirk. "I knew you'd fall for me sooner or later"
From there Bellamy actually became her guy best friend even with the consistent arguing. Now, she didn't know what he was to her. She's had feelings for him ever since that day. Even if she didn't want to admit that then. She knew that now.
Propping herself up to sit in the counter she leaned her head on the wall.
"You know you keep drifting off from your friends" Finn said startling her. "Penny for your thoughts?"
Who am I kidding? I need to talk to somebody.
"Finn, I like you, but you know I don't like you that way right?"
"Of course, I always felt like you didn't see me that way after our run in at the pool. Why do you bring it up?"
"Bellamy thinks we're together" Nodding in understanding, he replied "That's not what bothering you though. Would it have anything to do with the little bump that you have?"
Appalled at what he said, Clarke became nervous and started stuttering "W-what h-how'd you know? Oh my gosh, do you you think Bellamy can see the bump!"
"Bellamy?" Realization dawned on Finn. "It's Bellamy's baby?" She could only nod in response.
"Does he know?" She shook her head.
"When are you going to tell him?" Clarke just shrugged. "I don't know. Wouldn't it be bad to tell him now that he's seeing somebody? I don't want to ruin that"
"You wouldn't ruin anything. This happened before they started going out and I'm sure Gina would understand. She's not a very hostile person and she'd still make it work"
"Yeah I know" Clarke growled.
Seeing that she was jealous of Gina made him realize that she must've harbored feelings for Bellamy. That's good because Gina suspects that he harbored the same for her.
"Come on Clarke. We can say you're not feeling well and we'll go get some take out to cheer you up"
Jumping off the counter, her lips turned upwards. "You had me at take out, but you're paying"
Making their way to the living room, everyone was sitting around the table playing still. Glancing up at the two, Octavia and Raven stood up and checked to see if she was okay. Explaining to them that she wasn't feeling so well, she assured them that it was nothing to worry about. She told them that she'd text them or call them if anything and that Finn was going to walk her home.
Making her away around the circle hugging everyone goodbye, she stopped at Gina awkwardly. She didn't know if she should hug her or not, but she knew she wasn't that kind of person. Clarke surprised herself when she engolfed the girl in a hug and told her that she should go on a girls day out with Ray and O. Gina agreed excitedly and hugged her back. She gave Bellamy a quick hug without making it obvious before grabbing Finn's hand and yelling a goodbye and closing the door behind them.
(Back to when Finn was talking to Gina)
"When did you come back in town" Finn asked.
"Around two weeks ago actually. I'm staying at the Chula Villas apartments. Not too far from here actually"
"Chula Villas? I own the complex. I could've gave you a discount off your rent if I had known you'd be here" he offered.
"So what, the offers not on the table anymore?" Gina laughed. "Yeah, I think Clarke lives in the same building. I've seen her around a few times whenever I'm on my way out"
"Yeah she lives there too...So you and Bellamy?" He changed the topic.
"Well sort of, I means he's great honestly. I love talking to him and I like him, but he keeps mentioning Clarke and I don't think he notices. When a guy constantly mentions a girl that much, you already know there's something there. You know me, I don't want to interfere with Fate and I'm all about that sappy stuff"
Gina honestly likes Bellamy, but she couldn't see a future with him. She knew what it was like to like somebody and not realize it. She was the same way with Finn. She realized it 5 years ago. Not that she was going to tell him now that she still had feelings for him stIll.
"Things always work out for the best G. We'll just have to see what goes on" he gave her hand aight squeeze and saw Clarke head into the kitchen. "I'm going to go check on her"
Watching him get up and go after Clarke was heartbreaking. Gina wished he had done that the day she was leaving. She didn't know he was still here in Arkadia and didn't expect to see him here under these circumstances. 5 years later had passed between them and she still hoped for something with him.
She just didn't know how to say that to either men. Bellamy or Finn.