"Finn.!" Clarke cried out suddenly.
Running into the kitchen, Finn was immediately at her side bombarding her with concern and questions.
"Are you okay? What happened? Oh God, i don't know what to do. What do you-Ow ow ow ow" he whimpered when Clarke squeezed his hand so hard he almost could feel it.
"Shut. Up. I-Ow ow-Car. Keys. Hospital" she said between breaths trying not to feel scared.
She didn't need to say anymore. Finn went to get his keys before guiding her out the building, heading straight to the hospital.
Everything after that happened in a flash with Clarke being in pain and Finn going into panic mode. Clarke was admitted and fell asleep from the medication before he got the chance to ask her if she wanted him to call anyone. Just from knowing her, he decided to call some support for her.
"Hello?" Octavia's voice questioned.
"Hey O, is Raven with you?"
"Yeah, we were about to head out to Clarke's" "Is that Finn? Tell him if he's with her to.." Raven's voice echoed in the background.
"Guys, can you come to the hospital? Clarke's been admitted. She was okay all morning, but then she just cried out in pain out of nowhere and it only got worse up until they got her some medications" he responded cutting them off. After a few seconds passed and noticing that they didn't respond he removed his phone from his ear to look at the screen and surely enough she hung up. Knowing that they'd be here pretty soon he just sat in the waiting room.
Clarke slowly opened up her eyelids, letting her eyes adjust to the light. The sun was bright and she was sitting in the sand, on the beach with a little girl by her side building a sand castle. Well attempting to make a sand castle. She had curly brown hair, a light shade of sapphire blue eyes and tan skin. Without even questioning it she knew.
Her daughter.
"Mommy?" She's even cuter when she speaks.
"Yes, my love"
"Why doesn't daddy know about me?"
Bellamy.
Before she could answer, her daughter continued to speak. "Do you want me to have a daddy? I want a daddy. He could help me build this castle and make me a princess! I wanna be a princess"
Ignoring her questions about her father, I told her "You are a princess. You're the most beautiful princess in all of the galaxy"
"What about daddy?" She's definitely my daughter. Nothing slips by her. I was about to answer until she cut me off. Again. "Its not right mommy. You have to tell him. I want to be a princess" Her voice was laced with sadness and it was starting to hurt my heart.
"Clarke? Hey, don't get up or anything. Just relax" I blinked my eyes open to find Octavia hovering over me.
"Octavia? What're you doing here?"
"Finn called me when Raven and I were about to go and see you. Do you remember what happened?"
"Yeah, I was in the kitchen when out of nowhere a sharp pain occurred on my side. You guys didn't have to come. I'm okay" I was about to sit up when I felt the pain in my side causing me to grimace. "Okay maybe not okay" I muttered more to myself than to Octavia.
"Ah Ms. Griffin, you're awake" Doctor Indra announced upon walking into the room.
"Clarke please. We're hardly strangers anymore Indra"
"I have good news and I have bad news. I'm sorry Octavia, but as a doctor, I'm afraid I'm going to have to ask you to step out while I discuss this with Clarke" she apologized sincerely.
Octavia hesitated, but nodded saying that she was going to tell Raven and Finn that she was up.
Turning back to me she continued on saying "The good news is that the pain you were feeling is caused by your body making it's expected adjustments for the baby to grow. Which by the way, congratulations. The bad news is that your baby isn't being supplied enough nutrients and vitamins. Meaning that you aren't eating what you are supposed to and because of that your baby might endure some health issues. You need to be more responsible and serious about this if you want your baby to be as healthy as possible" She gave me a stern look before telling me that she's going to write a prescription for the pain on my side before discharging me.
It had been almost 3 weeks since Jaspers. Clarke still hasn't told Bellamy. Nobody else has been told. Everything was still as normal as it could be in the situation. Finn has been helping Clarke with as much as she'd let him. Mostly emotional support, but he's also been a very good friend and that's all Clarke needed right now.
Whenever Finn wasn't around, she would lock herself in her studio painting and drawing for hours on end without realizing that she wasn't eating. He wasn't around often so she really wasn't eating at all. Realizing her mistake, she began to shake. She was hurting the baby before it was even born.
No money. No Bellamy. No knowledge of how to care for a baby.
She didn't need Bellamy though.
The baby does.
Ready to question where Indra was, Finn entered the room with both Raven and Octavia.
"So someone decided to tell the gang that you were in the hospital" Octavia said rolling her eyes toward Raven.
"You know, if anybody else ended up in the hospital and was as scared as we were, they'd tell everybody" Raven explained.
Sighing Clarke's replied "It's fine. My body's just making changes for the baby and that's why I was experiencing this sharp pain. I just don't know if I'm ready to tell everybody yet" She was just starting to show being almost 3 months pregnant. Nobody had said anything so she assumed nobody noticed. Which was good, she really wasn't ready to tell them, but she couldn't hide it either.
group chat*
Clarke-Guys, I'm fine. I'm about to leave so don't come barging into the hospital. Knowing all of you, I'm assuming you guys were planning to
Jasper-Octavia and Raven got to :(
Raven-Finn called us dumbass
Miller-What'd the doctor say?
Clarke-I'll tell you guys soon. So who's place are we meeting up at?
Monty-Weeeell Jasper and I sort of made a mess trying to make another new batch of moonshine.
Jasper-To be fair, we didn't mess up the kitchen this time.
Miller-You guys already know that my place isn't that big enough for all of us.
Octavia-I'd say mine and Lincoln's, but we haven't unpacked everything. Sorry :(
Jasper-What's wrong with yours?
Clarke-Considering I'm in the hospital, I'd rather be able to come home and go to sleep instead when I see my place again. So no.
Raven-How bout lover boy?
Octavia-Finn?
Looking up from my screen, she glared at the two girls noticing that Finn wasn't in the room anymore. They knew Finn and her weren't like that, but still loved to tease her about him to get Bellamy riled up.
Jasper-Moms cheating on Dad.?!
Monty-Finn's our stepdad.?!
Clarke-*Rolls eyes"
Octavia-Bellamy's in 15
*1 message from Bellamy*
Bellamy-Are you sure you're okay?
Clarke-I'm as okay as I'll ever be
Bellamy-Just making sure Princess. I'll see you soon.
The drive to Bellamy's was a little less than chaotic. Raven and Octavia were arguing whether or not I was going to tell them about the pregnancy. Octavia saying that Bellamy needed to be told first. Raven saying that they're all going to be told anyways.
"I'm just saying that you know Bellamy will be hurt that you didn't tell him first. When he finds out that Raven and I know, he's going to be even more hurt" Octavia explained.
"Well if your brother kept it in his pants, we wouldn't be here" Raven retorted.
"It takes two to tango, no offense Clarke, but we know that she's in love with him and that's why he got in her pants so easily"
"I love you guys, but will you two shut up. Let's just get this over"
Pulling up to Bellamy's, we were at his door in no time. Raven and Octavia were through the door with Clarke following the leader.
Taking in everybody, Jasper and Monty were on the game. Miller with a beer in his hand talking to Wick and Lincoln on the couch and Maya on the love seat with Jasper between her legs. Making his way into the living room he noticed the girls arriving and headed for them. Clarke not the other two.
"Hey princess" Bellamy said embracing Clarke in his arms
Relaxing into his arms Clarke gave a muffled "Hey" into his chest. Sighing, she told him that they needed to talk. Nodding in response, they went into the dining room that was on the other side of the condo away from the living room. Instead of taking a seat beside him, Clarke decided to sit across from him on the table. Much to Bellamy's dismay.
"How's Gina?"
"She's good. We were actually going to go out tonight, but we heard you were in the hospital and canceled" he shrugged.
Feeling guilty she was about to apologize when he cut her off "It's not your fault. She understands and was relieved to know that you were okay"
Jealousy was starting to rise through her throat, but she had to swallow it back down. Now was not the time.
What was I going to tell him? Oh yeah, okay breathe Clarke.
Taking another breath, Clarke looked at Bellamy. Their daughter in her dreams looked just like him. The nose, lips, the curls. The freckles. Well maybe not as many as him, but there were still some.
"The reason why I was in the hospital was because my body's making changes for um the baby and I haven't been eating as much as I should be. But it wasn't on purpose!" she added quickly. Not that that's even the point.
"You're pregnant?" He whispered.
"Erm yeah. I'm almost 3 months now"
He looked so conflicted. "3 months? So I'm the father?"
Clarke didn't know what else to say so she just nodded.
"Clarke. I-You know-We were" he stuttered.
Feeling her hormones, she couldn't help herself scoff. "Careful? Really Bellamy? Well not careful enough if we're now"
"I get that. You can drop the sarcasm. I'm just shocked. I mean we're not even together" he concluded.
But I wish we were she thought.
"Clarke. We can't" Realizing that she said it out loud she put up her guard out of embarrassment and got up to leave the room. She didn't get far before Bellamy's hand was around her wrist. When she didn't turn around, Bellamy wrapped his arms around her from behind. Clarke's wall was down again.
"I'm sorry. If you don't want to be a part of this, I understand. I just wanted to tell you before I told everybody else" She leaned into his arms suddenly feeling like it'd be the last time she'd ever get to.
"I'm not going anywhere. I'll be here every step of the way" He squeezed her to reassure her and kissed the top of her head.
Deciding not to move, they stood in comfortable silence before deciding to sit down, still in the same position they were in. Clarke in his lap and Bellamy's arms around her. Nothing was said. Nothing needed to be. Reality just needed time to sink in.
"Bellamy have you seen Clarke? I sort of lost her in the crowd trying to make our way to the drinks" Octavia and Clarke just arrived at their place with no room to squeeze through the many people filling it up.
Raven decided to throw a party after the 3 girls got through their first year of college. It had been one hell of a year. Octavia was always locked away in her room studying her ass off. Raven was barely making any time for anybody doing the same thing. They were celebrating it being over with and Clarke? After the first year studying premed, she realized that it wasn't what she wanted to do.
Leave it to Clarke to be the last one to realize that she was better off as an artist. She had sold a couple paintings and a few drawings that helped with rent and even some side bills due to the ridiculous amount people would pay for her art. She knew they were being more than generous, but if she had it her way, it would've all been given away. She didn't mind though. Raven and Octavia did most of the shopping and cooking so she wasn't complaining. Clarke wasn't like that.
If anything the two girls were hesitant of Clarke choosing to handle the rent all by herself. She was always taking care of them the most. Not that it mattered, but still.
"No, but I'll let you know if I see her" Bellamy yelled over the music making his way to the backyard.
It was Bellamy's last year. It'd taken him a year more to complete his degree in art history, but he still did it.
Making his way to the backyard, he saw a flash of blonde locks from the corner of his eye. Turning his head immediately, he saw Clarke heading up the stairs. His blood began boiling. She wasn't going up alone and she damn sure didn't look like she knew she was being followed.
After struggling to get to her through the crowd, he snatched the guy by this shirt behind her. "What the fuck do you think you're doing" he snarled at the man. He must've looked like he was going to kill him because the man's face paled immediately. "N-nothing man" his hands went up before he darted away from them.
"Bellamy?"
Catching his attention immediately. "Hey Princess, lets get you in bed yeah?" She was tired from what he can tell. Scooping her up in his arms, he took her to the bedroom. He had been over a good handful amount of times to know the layout and who's rooms were who's.
Settling her down on the bed, "Do you wanna change into something comfortable?" He asked. "Yes please" Clarke responded lifting her arms up indicating that her shirt was first.
Taking off her shirt, he threw it into her hamper in the corner. It wasn't the first time he'd change her. He respected her well enough to not let his eyes roam, only concentrating on the task to get her dressed. Going over to her drawing, he pulled out the first shirt that came into view which happened to be his. Helping her get into it, he went to get some wipes to wipe off her makeup.
She hated waking up with makeup still on her face just like she hated waking up with pants on when she likes sleeping in a t-shirt and her panties.
By the time Bellamy came back, Clarke was settled under her shirts with her pants on the floor. He sat on the edge of the bed and began to wipe away the products on her face. "Thanks Bell. Love you" she murmured.
"Love you too Princess. I'll see you tomorrow" he kissed her forehead and headed out the door.
Upon the door closing, Clarke immediately sat up. She hated being alone. She wished he stayed. Bellamy was always taking care of her. She loved that. She was falling for it. For him.
Making her way to the door, she opened it slightly and watched him start his way down stairs. He must've sensed someone watching his because he turned around to meet her eyes. Her breath caught in her throat surprised to have been caught. He gave her his famous smirk before winking at her and disappearing downstairs.
Still flushed, she closed the door and leaned against it. Ugh.
Bellamy soon left to go and make sure Jasper and Monty weren't experimenting in his kitchen. Though he didn't have to tell Clarke to know that he really was going to give Clarke some time to breathe.
He wasn't ready for this. For a baby. Shaking his head he rounded the corner to find Octavia and Raven heading his way. Nodding his head toward the dining room, he listened to their footsteps disappear on their way to comfort their friend.
Octavia and Raven found Clarke with her head faced down on her arms rested on the table. They went straight to put an arm each around her and lean their head on Clarke's shoulder.
Lifting her head up, she sniffled "I'm so stupid-I can't-I ugh.!" She sobbed quietly.
"You told him right hun?" Octavia said. Clarke nodded. "Does he want to be a part of this?" Clarke again nodded.
"I'm a little lost. Isn't that a good thing? Bellamy wanting to take responsibility?" Raven questioned.
Allowing herself to take a few deep breaths Clarke gathered herself together.
"Of course its a good thing. He's going to be a great father. I..He doesn't want to be with me though. He knows that I wish we could be something, but he told me that we can't."
Her lips were trembling and right now she was really trying not to break. She should've known this. It has always been a friends with benefits type of deal. She just thought that he had some sort of romantic feelings for her. I sure fucking thought, but I couldn't have been anymore wrong.
"My brother's an idiot. I'm sorry, but you'll have the best godmothers in the world here for all the support you need. You can even count on everyone else out there" Octavia encouraged.
"Not that it's the right time, but you already have the 'Aunt' card. I think that leaves me to be the godmother, right Clarke?" Raven looked over at her.
She couldn't help, but laugh. "You guys are completely on your own to sort this out" When her laughter died down, she pulled them both into a hug. "Thank you guys seriously. I don't know what I'd do without you"
In the living room, everyone else was beginning to wonder where the three girls were. Before anyone could voice out loud their questions, the three entered just in time. Octavia went to sit on Lincoln's lap. Raven went to sit in between Wick's legs on the floor and Clarke went to sit between Monty and Jasper seeing as they pulled her down with them.
"So is mom going to tell us what happened?" Monty asked.
Jasper wacked him in the head. "Dude, show some concern first. Mom are you alright.?" Monty retaliated wacking him back which turned into them wacking each other and didn't seem to care that Clarke was in the middle.
"Guys.! Calm down would you? Stress isn't good for the baby" she said sternly.
"See now look what you've done. You're stressing mom out and the.."
"BABY.!" Everyone shouted.
There was a mixture of responses.
"Holy fuck.! Moms having another baby"
"Congratulations Clarke.!"
"Oh my God.!"
"I call godfather"
"I call picking out the name"
"Thank you guys hehe for the warm responses and no ones picking out the name" She narrowed her eyes at Jasper knowing that he had said it.
"Yeah Jasper, Clarke and I are going to be the ones choosing that one bud" Bellamy chuckled without thinking. Fuck.
Clarke facepalmed. Great. Now they're really going to have a blast with this.
"Yes, Bellamy is the father of the baby, but it's just that. We're not dating or anything. We just happened to have sex and got pregnant so no bright ideas" she explained.
Yeah right she heard Wick mutter. His eyes widened slightly when he saw that she was looking at him now. Chuckling, he avoided eye contact with her.
"I really just want to kick his ass" Raven said and was followed by a nod from the rest of the girls.
Clarke couldn't help but be in awe of her friends. They were so protective of her, but then again all of them were protective of each other. Because it was Bellamy, the girls protectiveness just spiked.
"Anyways guys, that's the whole reason why I was in the hospital. My body's just reacting to the changes it's making."
"But not enough pain to send you to the hospital" Lincoln added.
"Maybe it slipped my mind to eat as much as I should be, but seriously I'm going to change that" she promised.
"Damn right you are" Bellamy glared clearly upset by it.
knock knock*
Bellamy yelled for them to come in and Finn entered the apartment. Clarke told him in the car that she was going to head to Bellamy's with the girls for a little while.
Nodding a greeting towards everyone, he turned to Clarke. "I'm headed to the complex and was wondering if you wanted a ride"
"That'd be great. It's been a long day" she gave him a small smile. As she was getting up she gave the two boys on her side a hug and went to hug everyone else. She contemplated hugging Bellamy, but in the end she knew she couldn't help it.
"I'll see you later Bell" she hugged him and gave him a quick peck on the cheek before accepting Finns hand, heading out the door.
"Are they dating?" Lincoln asked curiously. Bellamy was wondering the same thing. Clarke hadn't mentioned it. He didn't like the thought of it either. Especially since she was pregnant with his baby.