Hi my name is Edward Anthony Masen. I am 18 years old and a father of two but the people in forks do not know that and I am a complete duschebag. I left the love of my life to raise our kids only. I was so scared it didn't know what to do . So when I ran away I went to live with my aunt Esme and uncle Carlisle they say that it was wrong to leave Bella and the kids but I was scared and afraid of everything that is going to happen next. So now I live with them and my cousins Emmett and Alice. They do not know the real reason that I am here hiding from my fears of being a father.

I go to forks high school but I really just want to go back to phoenix but Bella doesn't want to see me because I told her I cannot be a father right now so she hates me nut I know deep deep deep deep deep down inside she still loves me. She is the only one that I love. Every now and then I will send her money to help with the kids. I also got her the cars of her dream a hummer but she doesn't know it was form me.

I hate my life I made the biggest mistake ever and I cannot fix it.

All the girls at school try to go out with me but they will never get a shot at it because they are all fake and dress in slutly clothes and they throw themselves at me it so annoying I have eyes for only have eyes for Bella and my heart belongs to her and only her.

Every day I kick myself in the ass for leaving not being a true man but a totally complete wimp ever to face the earth.

Now I have to go to school tomorrow and face it all alone for except my cousins well I mean without a true friend.

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