A Fresh Start With KIDS? Chapter 11: Not Afraid, a twilight fanfic

A/N: Sorry for the long wait I have been really busy lately with school and other things. Okay at first I would like to thank all the reviewers. Thank you and enjoy your story. I hope you guys all had a wonderful Christmas and a happy new year. I know I had a crappy Christmas. We didn't even have a Christmas tree set up and also no presents because we got them early and it was only one thing a pair of sneakers and I have 70 dollars left and I know that my dad is not going to let me send. Well I hope you guys had a great Christmas and got what you wanted. So the song brought to you by me today is: Not Afraid by: Eminem

Emmett: I turn my head to east I don't see nobody by my side… take it away Jasper.

Jasper: Okay I turn my head to the west still nobody in sight… take it away Edward.

Edward: NOOO

Emmett: You know what this means Jasper?

Jasper: We get him till he says the line

Emmett: Yup

(Jasper and Emmet both chase after Edward)

Edward: (running away from them) NOOOO

Emmett: (having Edward in a head lock) say it

Edward: Find

Emmett: Yes

Edward: (mumbling) I turn my head to the north swallow that pill that they call pride… happy now

Emmett and Jasper: Yes we are little brother

Disclaimer: *sobs* I don't own Twilight and *sobs* all the characters, but I do own Yasmin and Tony *doing happy dance*

**Bella's POV**

"Mommy are you making us live with Nana?" I nodded my head and he started crying. "But I don't want to I want to stay with Daddy."

"I am sorry baby but you have to I made my decision."

"But I don't want to" he kept on whining to me.

"Look I am sorry but that is what is going to happen now go to bed." I said sternly.

Tony looked at me with his eyes full of tears and said three words that a mother will never want to hear "I HATE YOU" and he ran out of the room crying.

Wow. I thought to myself two people in my life that I loved just said words that broken my already broken heart even more. I am a bitch. I am ruining their happiness and everything I do someone hates me one way or another.

I went to bed with a lot on my mind.

All I want to do is make everyone happy and for them not to hate me but love me. Tony hates me and I know Yasmin doesn't really care if she lives with my mom. She really hasn't had a father figure in her life and she can care less if he came into her life now. I just want to make everyone happy and that is what I am going to do. That means I am going to have to make a lot of sacrifices to please everyone. Everyone will be happy except one person and that will be ME.

**Edward's POV**

Iwas truly and utterly pissed at Bella right now. How can she do this? She is just a selfish ungrateful bitch. She is trying to take them away from me and I will not allow it at all I have a say in this too. They are my kids to and I want to do what is best for them. What is best for them is not shipping them off to her mom. They need their father and mother to take care of them.

When I got home I saw Emmett on the couch watching TV.

"Why the long face cuz" He asked him so I decide to tell him.

"Well" I was cut off by him.

"I don't want to hear about I was joking like I really like to listen to people go on about their problems, well they are not the only ones who have a problem I have problems to." I was cut off what he said because I didn't want to hear it and stared off in space until he was done rambling about his problems.

When he was done I just sat on the couch to watch some TV. Then he finally spoke after his ramble.

"Okay since you listened to my problems I will ask what's got you down."

I said one word. "Bella"

"What about her?"

"She wants to send the kids to her mom and I will never get to see them ever again she just hates my guts for what I did."

"I would hate your guts if you ever did that to me if I was a girl and your girlfriend. If I was a girl my name will be Emmaline nice ring to it huh."

"Whatever Emmaline I am going to bed" I said as I got up from the couch.

"Well I am going to save my niece and nephew."

"They are not your niece and nephew they are not even related to you"

"Whatever night Edwardaline" I ignore his comment and went upstairs.

I went up to my room and just lay there. I am not going to let her do this to me and them. I am going to fight this. I went to bed with so many things on my mind. I really have to talk to Bella; maybe I can reason with her and tell her that the kids wouldn't like being away from their father and mother. Then her mom Renee is going to have to deal with their screaming and bad behavior only because they want to see their mother and father. I feel asleep like at two in the morning.

I woke up around ten o'clock and took a shower and got dressed and went out. I went to my meadow. One day I hope I can bring Bella and the kids here. It will be our special place. I took out my IPod and listened to my favorite song right now. Not Afraid.

(Hook)salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shit's his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universeexercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!

I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road

(Intro)

Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there

(Verse 1)

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit'n
Whether he's on

(Hook)

(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your fillings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground

Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follow's me around
But it's time to

(Hook)

(Bridge)

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

(Verse 3)

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and

(Hook)

I am doing this for them to live a better life. After I was at the meadow for a couple of hours, I called Bella to see if I can come over and we can talk, about things. She said yes because the kids are down for their nap.

**Bella's POV**

I woke up and went to take a shower and got dressed. I made breakfast and the kids came downstairs. Tony would still not talk to me. So I said to him. "Tony don't be mad at me okay, I am still debating on it I will probably change my mind. You got that."

"Yuppie" he said and went to the living room to watch some TV before breakfast was ready.

After breakfast we went to the park and played a little bit. I wanted them to get the sugar out of their systems so they wouldn't be so hyper. We got some ice cream and at some lunch. I am trying to make them sleepy to take a nap because I have some work to do. I dropped out of high school because I didn't want to deal with the drama and shit. I need to find an online school it will be so much better for me doing online school then going to real school. When the kids got in the car they were out cold. All that food they ate makes them really tired and I am going to get some work done.

When we got home I took them upstairs to bed and I went to my room to get some work done. Before I even started I got a call from Edward saying he wanted to come over and talk. I let him come because the kids were napping. I got some work done before the doorbell rang.

There standing at the door was the pizza man and the things I order. Yes! I went and got my purse and paid for the things. I took a plate from the kitchen and went upstairs to my room to eat. I was enjoying myself until the doorbell rang again and I knew it was Edward. I slowly made my way downstairs and got the door. He was leaning on the door frame as sexy as ever. He came into my house without saying hello rude much. He took my pizza who the hell does he think coming into my house and taking my food without permission. I am not afraid of him now I used but now I am not. I am not afraid of what is coming next like that song Not Afraid.

A/N: Okay so here was chapter eleven and don't forget to review... So once again review and tell me what you think about it.

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