Bella's POV

I knew letting Edward sleep in my bed was wrong. Hell, it even felt wrong. It's just been so long since I've felt him near me, and I just miss having my husband. He refused to tell me how many women he had been with… that really hurt me. I know it's been a lot, I can smell them on him when he comes home. He reeks of sex and cheap perfume. His collar is always covered in cheap bright red lipstick. It makes me sick to my stomach. I could never lay with another man, he has always been it for me. However, I knew I was no longer enough for him.

I awoke to Edward kissing my neck at 4:30 in the morning… I wasn't happy

"Edward… please stop."

He continued, I think he thought I was playing.

"EDWARD!"

"Yeah, scream my name baby!"

"Get off of me! I told you stop!" I was screaming at this point.

"I'm sorry; I thought you were playing Bella." He pulled away and I was finally calm by now.

"Edward, we need to talk. I said I would give you a chance to fix this. I didn't say I would jump right into bed with you and that we would be the same old Edward and Bella. It doesn't work that way Edward…"

"I know I've done a lot of bad things… Hell everyone knows. I am sorry that I hurt you Bella. You are my life and I just left you alone when you needed me. I want this to work baby I really do…"

"I really want to believe you Edward, I really do. I just need to know how many Edward…"

"How many what Bella?"

"How many girls… I'm not dumb Edward; I know you were fooling around with other women. Are any of them pregnant? How am I supposed to get past this?" I was trying to hold back the tears, but it became to much. My emotions were overwhelming…

"There were 12… On and off with all of them. I never had sex with them Bella, I swear on my mothers life I didn't. They pleasured me; I never once took it farther. No one is pregnant Isabella, I promise you."

"You're telling me 12 women gave you oral sex for nothing in return? What did you give them Edward?"

"I gave them gifts. You know the usual, flowers, candy, cheap jewelry, and all that stuff. I didn't even remember most of their names. They were just a fix for me. No one compares to you Isabella, and no one ever will. I could never love a woman as much as I love you, never."

"Edward, it makes me happy to know that you've never made love with another woman, but I'm still unhappy in a lot of other aspects." I was still unable to hold back my tears.

"Bella, sweetheart, please don't cry. I love you. I'm here for you from now on."

"Yeah from now on… Where were you when I was diagnosed with cancer Edward? Where were you when I was having surgery and they were taking out my uterus and ovaries? Where were you when I went through chemo just to make sure my cancer was clear? Where the FUCK were you?! It wasn't just you who lost hope for children. I wanted more than anything to have a child, your child. But God had different plans for me. Instead of you being here for me, you were letting other women give you oral sex. How did we get here Edward?"

And with that, I glanced at the clock realizing I had given him enough of my time, and decided to take a shower and get ready for work. He was stunned that I just left him to contemplate those questions.

I stepped into the shower, allowing the hot water to run down my body. I got out, fixed my hair, applied make up, and walked out of our empty room looking like a million bucks. I put on a tight grey pencil skirt with a white shirt and a black belt that accentuated my waist with a black pair of wedges. I walked into the kitchen and Edward's jaw dropped.

"Bella… you look gorgeous…"

"Thanks." Was really the only reply I owed him.

"Well Bella, have a good day at work. I need to get going. The hospital calls."

"As it always does Edward. I will be late tonight getting home."

"Oh what will be keeping you?"

"I'm going to the gym like I always do. You just never noticed…"

"No wonder your body looks so different… Not that it wasn't perfect before." He smiled at me and I couldn't help but be flattered. I mean Edward did resemble a Greek God, and he had the most amazing body. Anytime he told me I was beautiful I couldn't help but blush.

"Well thank you Edward, that's very sweet of you to say."

"Would you like me to accompany you to the gym Bella?"

"Oh, I Uhm... already have a gym buddy, so no need for you to leave work on account of me." I was praying he wouldn't ask who.

"Oh who is she?"

Damn it.

"Well it's a he. Jasper goes to the gym with me usually."

Edward was pissed. I didn't feel bad considering his confession this morning. I wasn't doing anything wrong, he was. No man ever touched me. Lots of women had their hands on my husband. I was going to stand my ground on this one.

"I don't like you spending time with him Bella."

"Well Edward, I don't like other women giving you oral sex and then you showering them with gifts."

He was stunned, and with that I left the house with the biggest smirk on my face. Score for Bella, again.

I showed up at work at my usual time, and of course Jasper was waiting with my coffee. Ah, he was a life saver!

"Hello Mrs. Cullen, you look very happy today!"

"Jasper, Edward and I talked. He finally told me the truth."

"Wow, so how many women? 5?"

"No, there were 12 fucking women! I'm going to make him regret this. I made his jaw drop this morning!"

"Well you do look lovely this morning. What's the occasion?"

"Well Jazz, I've decided that I am a beautiful young woman, and I am not going to let Edward's ignorance make me feel like anything less. He's trying to earn me back. He has a lot to do before he ever earns my trust again."

"Ah, I'm so happy for you Isabella. You deserve the best, but I'd better head to my class. I'll see you at the gym"

My day passed in a blur. Before I knew it I was at the gym running like always. I'd run 7 miles and threw in the towel. I said my good byes to Jasper and drove home. I was surprised to see that Edward wasn't home. It was 8 at night, where could he be?

I took my evening shower, and got into bed curling up to a good book. I was woken up at 11 by a stumbling Edward who reeked of whiskey. I assumed he had been with some woman. This should be an interesting evening.

A/N. I'll probably post two chapters today, this being one. Review and let me know what you think!