Authors Note: Thank you so much for all the reviews! Well, I'm not too sure that I like this one, it's in Edward's POV, but I felt like I should at least write some in his POV too. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: While my name may be Stephanie, it's not Stephenie Meyer, so therefore, all the characters are hers, I am simply just a fan letting my imagination run wild.

If there really was such a thing as hell, it's where I've lived for the past 26 years. That's how long I've been without my Bella. Yet everywhere I go, I still see her face, I still smell her scent, I still hear her laugh. I was the biggest idiot on earth for leaving her, and by the time I couldn't stand being away from her any longer, it'd been too late. The memory of the day I found out she was killed played in my head over and over again, repeating itself constantly, always reminding me of what I left behind, of what I could have saved.

I'd lost track of the days that I'd been laying here, on this dusty floor in this old abandoned house. My heart felt like it had cracked into a million pieces. I missed Bella. I missed her knowing eyes, her warm skin, her blush, her clumsiness..I missed everything. This past year has been pure torture. I wanted Bella to be human, I wanted her to live, but I couldn't bear being apart from her any longer. I needed her, I needed her bad. I need to go back. I don't care if I have to beg and plead down on my knees for days on end for her to take me back, I just needed to be near her, and hear her voice. I got up and started running, running as fast as I could, toward my family's house. I was going to tell them first, then go to Bella. The trip took one full day of running, but I never slowed, and I never stopped. I ran through the front door to see my family all sitting in the living room, looking up at me with grim looks on their faces, well, all of them besides Rosalie, she just looked happy. Then their thoughts rushed into my head all at once.

I can't believe she's gone..I can't believe that I never even got to say goodbye..she was my best friend..

Thank god, now we don't have to worry about that little human any longer.

Oh man..she was like a little sister to me. I'm really going to miss her.

I blocked all their thoughts from my head then. "No.." I said quietly. She couldn't be gone. She just couldn't. "Edward, I'm so sor-" Alice began. "NO!" I roared. "No. This is a really sick joke you know, really sick. I don't find it funny at all." I felt a wave of come rush over me. "Stop it Jasper" I snapped. "Edward," Carlisle began, "I'm sorry, but it's true. I'm so, so sorry." I stopped breathing then. I sunk down to my knees, and began sobbing. "How?" I asked. Then I started seeing it in my head.

Bella walking through the woods. Going into our meadow. Screaming "why" down on her knees. Victoria. Victoria killing Bella. Bella cold and lifeless, lying in a pool of blood on the ground.

I'd been an empty void after that, rarely hunting, never talking to anyone. I sat in my room, and stared at my walls. Functioning just wasn't something I even bothered to do anymore, it didn't matter anyways. It was just another day when Carlisle walked into my room to talk with me. "Edward," he said, "We're going to Italy in a few days to visit Aro, Marcus, and Caius. I haven't seen them in a long time, so I decided we should all take a family vacation there." I didn't see why he was doing this. I wasn't going. All I wanted to do was sit here and stare, not go on some family vacation to see the vampire "royalty". "I'm not going" I said. He sighed, a sad expression on his face. "It's been 25 years Edward. I know how much you still love her, I know how much you hurt, but she wouldn't want you to be like this, and you know it. Please, just do this one thing for me, for Esme, for this family, do it for Bella." I comptemplated his words. It never even struck me that my current state would hurt my family this much. I didn't want to go, but I didn't want to hurt them anymore either. "Fine." I said. "I'll go."

I'd do it for my family; I'd do it for my Bella.

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