"Veni, vidi, vici. (I came, I saw, I conquered.)" – Julius Caesar.
Hey everyone hoped you enjoyed the movie Twilight. I also just realized that I've been spelling Esme wrong this whole time… I've been spelling it Emse not Esme… I'm sorry… I try to edit these things… but I don't always do a good job. I'm going to keep switching viewpoints because I think it's easier that way… Please let me know if you like it or don't…
In this chapter I'll be switching viewpoints between the Cullens and Bella. I hope it isn't confusing.
Chapter Six
Edward –
"Edward, what are you going to do?" Emmett asked. Everyone had left to quickly take Jasper hunting. Jasper had become much better at controlling his thirst but with Bella sleeping on our couch it was harder.
"I don't know Emmett." I confessed. I wanted Bella to like me but since I couldn't read her mind I wasn't sure where she was at… I mean it seems like she might like me… but I can't tell.
"You like her right?" Emmett asked. I glanced at him.
"Yes." I muttered. He smiled.
"Well, I'm pretty sure she likes you… I mean you can hear her heart when you get close to her… you can see how easily she blushed… remember the swimsuit? She was crimson because… you were staring at her…" he said. I thought about it. I knew this all already.
"I know… but I just think… that maybe, she doesn't like me… just my looks or something stupid." I admitted.
"Hey man… you've just got to try… you might end up having the time of your life… and if not, she'll be leaving at the end of the summer anyways." He said. I glanced down at Bella she was laying across the couch. She was laying on a pillow and her head was in my lap and her feet just barely touched Emmett. She started shifting around. I glanced at Emmett.
"What time is it?" I asked. He glanced down at his watch.
"Um, it's almost… noon." Emmett smiled.
"Edward." Bella said. I was about to answer when she turned to face me and she was still asleep.
"She talks in her sleep…" Emmett cocked an eyebrow.
"Still think she doesn't like you?" He asked.
"Edward… wait!" Bella called. I watched her.
"I wonder what she was dreaming?" I asked.
"Something with you." Emmett laughed.
Soon enough they were back from their hunting trip.
"Bella still sleep?" Alice asked as she and Jasper sat on the floor. Rosalie sat next to Emmett. We all watched TV until Bella awoke. She slowly looked around.
"Good morning." I smiled at her. She sat up.
"How long was I asleep?" She asked still in a haze.
"Bella, it's past noon." Alice smiled.
"I'm late for work!" she said. She bolted up. I sighed. She didn't drive.
"Bella, you didn't drive here… let me take you home… Carlisle knows you're going to be late… I told him we'd send you as soon as you woke up." I explained to her. She turned red.
"Bye guys!" Bella said.
"Bella you should come over tomorrow…" Alice said as she hugged her.
"Um, I work tomorrow Alice." She said. Alice thought for a minute. "What about after work?" She asked. Bella was quiet for a minute.
"We can play more games!" Emmett boomed.
"Alright, if we're playing games." Bella mocked Emmett. She smiled. We headed out of the house.
"Thanks for having me over… it was fun." She said as we drove.
"No problem… um, Bella… did you know you talk in your sleep?" I asked her. I couldn't help but wonder what she was dreaming.
"What did I say?" She asked. I sighed, "You're mad aren't you?" I asked.
"It depends what did I say?" She asked.
"Well, at first you said my name and I wasn't sure you were sleeping because you said my name so clearly but then you said, 'Edward…wait…' and I was just wondering… what were you dreaming?" I asked.
"I don't think you want to know." She said softly.
"Please?" I asked. She looked me in the eyes.
"Okay." She whispered. "I was walking on the beach and I wandered into the forest. I saw you. You came up right next to me. You told me we couldn't be together anymore. You said you weren't good for me. I tried to explain that you were… but you didn't agree, you said you were dangerous and I should find a human to be with. I asked you if you loved me anymore and you said… no. you walked away. I ran after you but you were too quick. I couldn't keep up with you." She whispered.
I locked eyes with the road.
"Bella, I am no good for you…" I whispered.
"Edward… please don't… I just got you…" She whispered her voice was shaking. We got to her house and I walked her up to the porch. We sat down.
"Bella listen too me, I've been doing some thinking… and we're going to be going off to school and… I think maybe it'll be easier to… not be friends… because you want to travel… and I want to go to school… we just couldn't be together." I said softly.
"So you don't want me any more? All that stuff you told me last night was just nothing…? Empty words?" She asked her cynical voice and hardness were back.
"No… I just only thought of how you'd be for me and not yourself…. You don't need me… and I don't want to stop your dreams. It was careless of me to even think of it. You deserve a how and healthy life… and I can't give that to you." I said. I was choking back a sob. She was crying.
"Edward, nothing about my life is healthy… I'm not healthy! I've got no family… my mother has disappeared… Charlie's in jail… and I'm dying!" she shouted. I froze.
"No… you aren't… you can't be dying." I whispered.
"No, I am. I'm dying every second… I won't live much longer… Edward, I'm sick. I want to travel and see the world… because I won't get a chance to do it otherwise… I'm not going to school because I want to live my life because soon it'll be over… how did you expect me to feel when you tell me you can't love me or like me… because it won't be good for me…" She shouted.
"I don't want to die… I want to live forever… I don't want to be in pain… but I am. I…" She started to cry. "I'm already dead… I'm an empty shell of a person." She cried into her hands.
"Bella… I just don't want you to… I want you to have everything I didn't get to have…" I told her.
"You're still young Edward… you can have it." She said.
"No… no, I really can't." I sighed.
"Then leave." She said coldly.
"What?" I asked her.
"I said, leave. If you don't want me… then leave…I don't want you around me if you don't want me around. I'll travel and I'll have the life I've always wanted but knew I wouldn't get it. While you stay here and never truly live." She said darkly.
"Bella, I've seen more than you'll ever know." I said harshly.
"We'll see about that." She said darkly. She walked inside. I sat there. I finally got up and drove off. Bella kicked me out of her life. I sighed. It hurt but I couldn't have her hung up on me. She needed to live.
Bella –
I couldn't believe he just let me go that easily. I hurried and dressed for work. I raced out of the house and to the hospital. I got there and Doctor Cullen was standing at the nurse's station.
"Carlisle…" I called when I got closer.
"Bella, is everything all right?" He asked. I sighed.
"I'm going to be leaving next Thursday for my traveling… I've got some sudden motivation to leave. So, I'm sorry I couldn't have stayed longer or at least long enough to have you find a replacement." I said. I looked at his feet.
"Bella why are you leaving so suddenly?" He asked. He pulled me off away from everyone.
"Carlisle, I'm sick. And I don't have any reason to stay here… no family… no friends… and I want to live my life before I die." I told him as the tears leaked from my eyes.
"Bella you're talking like… like you have cancer." He whispered. He looked pained.
"I do… and I don't respond to treatment so I've decided to live my life normally. There is no other option." I said. He looked like he was thinking.
"Bella… there has to be something we can do…" He said. I shook my head, "Carlisle… it's done. I can't … I'm dying… I know it… and I know that I can't wait around for it to happen." I whispered.
"At least let me check you out…" He whispered.
"Then don't tell Edward anything… He knows I'm sick but doesn't care." I said coldly. "I won't." He whispered as he pulled me in for a hug. Carlisle examined me. I was laying on a table and he was looking at x-rays. He was shaking his head.
"Bella this isn't good… let me try some treatment… you can be fixed. You've just to try…" He said.
"No… I don't want it. I… I can't die with tubes up my nose… I want to be free… I've known for a long time that this day would come… it's today and I'm not stopping it." I whispered.
"You are brave." He whispered.
"When will you leave?" He asked. I sat up.
"Next Thursday." I smiled.
"Get some sleep Bella. Esme and Alice will want to drive… Emmett too. And Rose…. And most likely Jasper… We'll drive you…" He said.
"Thank you Carlisle." I whispered and gave him a hug.
"I love you Bella… as if you were my own kin." He whispered.
"Thanks Carlisle… I think of you as my father." I whispered. I hurried from the room and raced home. I got inside and packed. I packed just about everything I had. I played my records as I packed.
"O-o-h child…" I started singing along. I finished packing and fell asleep on the couch.
Carlisle –
My head was clouded the rest of the day at work. Bella only had a few weeks to live. I sighed. I wondered what happened between her and Edward. I went home early.
"Carlisle… Did you see Bella?" Alice asked. I sighed.
"Um… yes." It was late. It was almost nine.
"What are you talking about…?" She asked. Everyone was in the living room. Even Edward… I promised Bella but I decided this was one promised I'd have to break.
"Carlisle what are you talking about?" Edward asked. I took a deep breath.
"Everyone… we need to have a family meeting." I said. Everyone just stared. We went into the dining room.
"Alright… now. I don't know what you all know. But Bella has decided to leave early and start her traveling next Thursday. We started talking and I told her that everyone besides Edward would be there because… I'm guessing you got into a fight?" I asked looking at Edward.
"Yes." He muttered. I nodded.
"Well, Bella talked about being sick…" I locked eyes with Edward. He nodded.
"Well, I asked her to let me check it out. It's bad. She's got a serious cancer that's only going to allow her to live a few weeks with out treatment. She stopped treatment because she wasn't responding to it. But I think if we all talk to her maybe we can convince her to try treatment… otherwise…" I swallowed hard. "Otherwise, we can all say our goodbyes to her." I whispered. Everyone was just in shock. Esme broke the silence with a heart breaking sob.
"She's going to die?" She cried. I hugged her.
"Maybe not if she'll do the treatment… Edward…" I whispered. "What did you two fight about?" I asked.
"I told her… she should live her life because I was dangerous and she shouldn't have to settle." He whispered. I nodded. Esme's sobs filled the dining room.
"No…" Emmett said. "No… I won't let Bella die… She was like a little sister to us all. She can't die!" Emmett said. Rose grabbed his hand. I sighed. I hated seeing my family like this. Alice shook her head. She started to sob. Jasper held her.
"She'll be fine… but the odds aren't good. But this treatment would help. I'm sure of it." I whispered. Everyone was upset.
After days of everyone mourning. We finally got it together.
"Alright now Bella leave tomorrow… we still going to try and talk to her?" I asked everyone.
"Of course… she won't die and we won't let her…" Emmett said.
"Carlisle…" Alice started. "Couldn't you just change her into one of us…? That way she wouldn't die and we'd get to kept her." This had entered my mind.
"I don't know… it entered my mind but I don't want to cause any one pain like that." I said. Everyone complained.
"We'll tell her about it." I said. They all smiled. Everyone seemed to get excited that there is a bit of hope for Bella. I smiled.
"In the car…" I said. We all headed out to the car. We drove to Bella's house. We knocked on the door and walked in.
"Bella!" Alice said out.
Nothing.
"Bella!" Alice called again.
Nothing.
"Isabella!" Emmett boomed. We got into the living room and she was sleeping on the couch.
"She's sleeping…" Emmett sighed. I didn't hear her breathing. I ran over to her and checked her pulse. Alice ran to the phone and called 911.
"Carlisle?" Edward asked.
"She's not breathing!" I was panicking. Esme started to sob. Rosalie comforted her. I felt a wave of calm.
"Everyone just calm down!" Jasper shouted. "Bella will be fine. The ambulance is on their way. Carlisle you're a doctor, so you'll help to figure it out. I'll go tell Charlie about Bella being in the hospital. And then we'll be back up in the waiting room." He said. The ET's came into the house. I started shouting orders.
Alice –
"Jazz… I want to come with you." I whispered. He smiled. He quietly left the house and ran. We ran to the jail. We got into a giant room and saw Charlie. He looked scared.
"Is everything alright? Is Bella okay?" He asked before we sat down. I felt Jasper calming the room.
"Charlie… Bella was pasted out when we went to get her this morning. She was going to start her traveling sooner… because she didn't want to wait and we were going to drive her. Carlisle is getting her the best care possible. And I assure you she will be just fine." I whispered. He eyes filled up with tears.
"I always knew this day would come… I just at least hoped I could see it." He whispered.
"Wait here." I said. Jasper and I walked over to one of the guards.
"Jasper, can you make him do what we ask?" I asked.
"Maybe." He said. I nodded.
"Excuse me sir…" I started. "Who is in charge here?" I asked. He looked down at me.
"I am." He said nicely. I nodded.
"Well, you know Charlie Swan…?" I asked.
"Yes…" He said sadly. He knew that Charlie didn't do the crime he was put in jail for.
"You know his daughter is very ill?" I asked. I didn't give him time to answer. "Well, she's been put into the hospital and I was wondering if you'd let Charlie out to see his daughter because this could very well be the last time…and you know as well I as do that Charlie couldn't hurt a fly and is in here because the real guy framed him…" I said softly.
"Yes… I'll allow him to leave. But he's to stay at the hospital and that's it." He said.
"Thank you sir." He walked back with us.
"Charlie let's go see Bella." I smiled. We didn't bring a car. As I checked him out and he got dressed Jasper ran home and sped back with a car. We got in and raced to the hospital.
"Thank you Alice." He whispered. We got to the waiting room and Emmett and Rosalie were sitting there and Esme was pacing around. We got Charlie in there and there was a policeman waiting for him.
"Charlie I'm sorry about your daughter… but you can't leave…" He said. I stared at him.
"We got permission." I said. He shook his head.
"IT's alright, I'll see her again." Charlie said. And they took him back out. I cried into Jasper's shoulder.
"She's got to be alright."I whispered. "Charlie needs her to be alright… he won't make it if she doesn't." I cried. We walked into the waiting room and sat down next to Em and Rose. We just sat there. Edward came in.
"I just got word from Carlisle. They're in surgery." He hugged Esme.
"She'll be alright." He whispered. Esme just cried. We all sat there waiting. I don't know how long it was. We just sat there. I glanced up and someone had closed the door and locked it.
"Who locked us in?" I asked. I glanced around and saw that the sun was out. Edward was sparkling.
"Oh…" I whispered. Carlisle came in.
"How is she?" Emmett asked.
"She's okay right now… but she's in critical condition." He said gravely. "She's awake right now… I think we should get our goodbyes in." He said as a tear escaped his eyes. Esme ran over to him and cried.
"We've got to be strong. Bella doesn't look right… she's pale and has tubes and wires everywhere…" He said. We all started walking with him towards her room. Carlisle stopped us outside her door.
"Who first?" asked. I glanced at Jasper.
"We'll go." I whispered. He nodded. We headed in there.
"Hey Alice!" Bella said barely above a whisper. She started coughing.
"Hi… Bella." I said. I couldn't believe it… Our Bella… our healthy Bella… dying right here. "How are you doing?" I asked. Jasper and I sat down next to her.
"I'm still dancing." She said and smiled. Tears started to leak out of my eyes.
"Alice, I'm going to be fine." She said in a raspy voice.
"I know you are." My voice cracking.
"Bella…" Jasper said trying to keep himself together.
"You've done wonders for this family… and I can't wait to see you healthy again." He smiled. She grabbed his hand and he started to lose his self-control and started crying.
"Bella, you've got to get better." He whispered. I hugged her. We left the room.
"Oh no!" Esme said once we closed the door. Emmett and Rose headed in there.
"How is she?" Esme asked. Jasper wiped away some tears off his face to answer because I couldn't.
"She isn't looking good." He whispered.
Emmett –
Rose and I walked into Bella's room and shut the door.
"Hey Em!" Bella whispered. She looked so tiny… she looked like she was dying right before our eyes. Rose started to cry.
"Rose… I'm gonna be fine…" Bella said and started coughing.
"I know… I know… you're tough… it's just hard to see you like this…" She whispered. We sat down.
"Bells… I'm so sorry… I shouldn't have made you go swimming and all that stuff… we should've just sat around and watched movies… you should have told me…" I whispered.
"Emmett this isn't your fault… you didn't make me sick. I was always sick. And one great night of hanging out with you guys won't change that…. You didn't do this to me…" She whispered. Rose squeezed my hand. I started to cry.
"Bella… you've got to pull through this… not just for us… but for everyone… We love you… I love you." I whispered. Bella looked sad.
"Stop it. I'm not dying." She whispered but her eyes got glassy. I stood and kissed her head.
"We'll go dancing when you get better." I smiled and we headed out.
"Love you big brother." She whispered as we headed towards the door. I cried harder. We closed the door.
"Esme… Carlisle… your turn." I whispered sadly and went to sit next to Jasper. He was also crying.
"I don't know if I can be strong for her." Emse cried.
"I know you can…" Carlisle said. "Bella needs her family… which is us. And families stick together no matter how tough or no matter how bad. She needs you Esme and she needs me and we'll go in together and we'll come out together." He said. She wiped her face.
"You jump I jump Jack." She smiled and they headed in.
Esme –
We walked in there and I ran to Bella.
"Oh Bella, how are you feeling?" I cried. She looked like she was in pain. Bella started crying.
"I'm fine Esme… I'm just a little tired." She whispered.
"Oh… we'll we're all going to be waiting for you and went you're better you'll move in with us…" I whispered.
"Esme… I can't think you enough…" Bella was choking on her words. I smiled.
"Bella… we love you very much and want you to be apart of our family." Carlisle whispered as he too cried.
"I'd love to Carlisle." She whispered. We kissed her and left the room. We closed the door.
"She's tough." I whispered.
"I can't go in there Esme…" Edward whispered. I looked at him.
"Edward, Bella's a part of this family now… and you will go in there and see her. Not only because you have too. But because she needs you. It has been hard for all of us… but imagine how hard this must be for her?" I said.
"Okay." He said. Edward walked in and closed the door.
Edward –
She looked so beautiful even though she had tubes and wires in her.
"Bella?" I gasped. She smiled. And started to cry. I raced over to her.
"Don't cry." I whispered. I sat on the edge of her bed. "You're going to be okay." I whispered. "You've got to be okay because your family is out there and we aren't leaving with out you because you're going to be better." I said.
"Edward… I'm sorry I yelled at you." She cried. I put my hand on her face and wiped away her tears.
"Bella, I love you." I said softly.
"I love you too." She cried. I hugged her. I pulled up and looked into her chocolate brown eyes. I leaned down and pressed lightly against her lips. I pulled away.
"I love you." I whispered again as she pressed her lips to mine. I finally had to pull away.
"We won't leave you." I promised. My family came in then and sat around and we all talked. Carlisle gave her some pain killers.
"Bella, you know we took out the cancer. We just have to do some radiation and you'll be okay." He smiled.
She smiled.
"Are you tired love?" I asked.
"A little. Do you smell that?" She whispered.
"Sleep we'll be there when you get up. What?" I asked.
"I believe I smell lemons…" She smiled. Carlisle looked serious.
"Bella... What do you mean?" He asked seriously.
"I finally get what Mr. Masen meant by what he said before I left his room." She said. She closed her eyes and fell asleep.
Hit or miss? Did you guys like the switching viewpoints? I really wanted you guys to get the feel of how everyone was feeling through out the story… let me know if it was too much.