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CHAPTER 9: love is difficult but is it real?
Oh crap crap crap please tell me it was just a wonderful dream I opened my eyes OH NO it wasn't! I could sense that he was awake as well and that he also knew I was awake because he started making circles on my back with his hand, I took a deep breath and opened my eyes to see him gazing down at me with happy eyes "crap" I said "what is it love" he asked "well I kinda came over here with a plan but that kinda threw it off…" I got out of the bed to put my p.j's back on and sat back down he scooted into a sitting position and faced him, "Edward you know how I was pregnant 9 years ago?" he just nodded "well I had twins a little boy and a little girl" "yes" he agreed "and you thought they were Jacobs…" "Yes" he said again "their yours…" I whispered he looked confused "when you left I found out I was two months pregnant and of course you're the only person I had had sex with so I knew they were yours" his smile and confusion vanished "really?" he asked I nodded dumbly "you never told me…. Bella I think you need to leave" I just stood up and ran out to my car and drove home.
When I got home Jacob was out the front of my house waiting for me, mine and Jacob's relationship had only been physical over the years so we weren't really a couple even though the kids loved him "morning sunshine" he called out "oh great the good time just keep coming don't they" I grumbled to myself when I walked over to him he grabbed my face and kissed me… I knew what this meant I knew what he wanted. So for some strange reason I kissed him back and Jacob and I started off where Edward and I left off.
God I pretty much hated myself right now my kids deserved better than this a better mum not one who goes whoring off with two men gosh might as well get them to pay me to seal the deal! I turned to Jacob while unfolded my self from the bed cover and told him the truth "I went to Edward house last night Jacob to tell him about Alhi and Tohmaz but we kinda… you know…" he gave me a disgusted look and I put my hands on my head he said "Bella I don't want to be with someone who only wants me for cheer up sex in fact I don't want to be near you right now… Billy and I are moving to Seattle I'll come down for visits but please stay away from me we need a lot of time apart" he got out of the bed and put his clothes back on and strode out of the room. I would deserve it if I lost both of them, suddenly there was a knock at the door and a voice yelling "Bella I know your in there so let me in you need to explain!" oh great Alice and the kids. I let her in and took her upstairs to my room locking the door on my way in, "Bella you better have a good excuse why your hair is messed up and you're just wearing a dressing gown AND why at 10:00 last night you called me up wanting directions to your ex's house without explanation!" wow she actually went red after saying that whole sentence I said "I went to Edwards to tell him about the kids but we got distracted.." "by what" she interrupted I sighed " okay, okay we had… sex and then I told him about Alhi and Tohmaz so he kicked me out and when I got home Jacob was waiting for me and you know how it is and all…." Her eyes widened "I know I'm a horrible person and now I've lost them both".
Edward's P.O.V
Their yours their yours their yours Bella's voice kept ringing in my head even after she left I'm a dad? An actual honest to god dad not a step dad a biological father, and all this time I thought they were Jacobs all the time I lost looking after someone else's kids and I have not one but two of my own. Ring ring ring I sighed when I looked at the caller I.D "what is it Alice?" "You just kicked her out did you? What'd she do wrong? She didn't correct your suspicions that they were Jacobs SO WHAT! You're the one who left her pregnant and she would have been alone if she didn't have me!" her voice leaking with acid "why'd you call Alice?" "Because I just spent the last hour eating a tub of rainbow ice-cream with Bella while she cried over you Once again!! Do you know how hard it's been for her juggling a job, two kids and a life!? All without you their dad who's suppose to be there for them all through thick and freaking thin, every time I even said one word out of line about you she would say what should she expect and cry harder and I finally just got her to sleep!" I just pressed the end button for the guilt already seeped through my veins like ice I jumped up and ran down to my car to go over to Bella's to fix this.
Bella's P.O.V
I heard a car roll up as I lay in bed awake oh what now I thought to myself what else bad is going to happen to me today how about a tornado kills my whole family leaving me or a social worker takes my babe's away from me! There wasn't even a knock they just opened the door and walked in this made me confused only I did that and my kids went off to sally's (our next door neighbors daughter) house "Bella? Bella where are you" I chocked up what is he doing here? Probably coming to take a swing at me then I stopped how could I think such a thing I was turning evil... no even worse I was turning into Tanya this thought hit home as I scurried down the stairs probably in the wrong clothes… (I was just wearing my black lace underwear and pink silk dressing gown) I walked up to Edward and demanded "What the? Edward what do you want?" throwing my arms in the air while accidently letting go of my robe which was the only thing covering up my underwear he hugged me pressing my body to his when he let go he said "Alice called me and I'm so sorry Bella I'm such a jerk" he got on his knees taking my hand while saying "please forgive me Bella I'll be yours forever if you just forgive me I don't deserve it but please find it in your dear sweet heart to forgive me" crap he makes me look like Hitler he kicked me out of his house and I had sex with another person straight afterwards and he's the one who's on the floor begging for forgiveness bah what's wrong with the world? Next thing you know the Easter bunny will hop in looking for eggs! I just said "what about Tanya?" "We'll find some way out of that together!". After me and Edward made up we got 'distracted' once again then I said he should get back home because Alhi and Tohmaz will be coming home wanting dinner in half an hour, I decided that next week they would meet him… I called Alice and invited her and Rosalie over to discuss it. I told them the whole story finishing with "what do you think?" Rosalie seemed to ponder but Alice got to the straight to the case "he's a bastard Bella you deserve better!" she growled "Bella do you love him?" asked Rosalie I thought about it "yes I think I actually do" I admitted once I had said that Alice softened up "well you should call him and me and Rosalie have plans to make" Alice said suspiciously. Once Edward came over I sat him down and we talked, we talked about what has happened so far up until this day and why we did certain things in our life, then Edward came and sat beside me leaning over to kiss me I leaned in fully until I was on his lap with my arms wrapped around his neck, I lifted him up from the couch and he grabbed my right thigh hoisting it up around his waist and doing the same with my other leg he walked and pressed me to the wall then carried me upstairs to the bed…
"I can't believe you lost all your baby weight so fast!" Edward exclaimed drawing patterns once again with his hand I just laughed because it tickled; I rolled over so I was lying on top of him and started kissing him he suddenly flipped me over so he could be on top when I heard a little voice "mama?" "Shoot" I yelled lifting the covers over us I looked up "yes Alhi sweetheart?" she stared at Edward "is that Jacob? Hi Jake" she squealed I looked over to see that he was partially covered and the pain in his eyes when she said that "no sweetie this is your father… Edward he popped in for a visit last night and he was so tired he fell asleep!" she stared bewildered then said "like Jacob always does? Any way you told me and Tohmaz that we didn't need a dad and he was no good leaver!" "Guess I deserve that" I heard Edward mutter Alhi shifted forward a little until she was at Edwards's side then she leant down and whispered in his ear "I'm glad you came back for us daddy mummy's smile is always upside down and I heard aunty Alice say that now you're back mummy is looking a whole lot better…" then she kissed him and ran off squealing to Tohmaz "daddy's here daddy's here".
Edward stayed for breakfast and a little while after, dutifully playing the play station with Tohmaz then he looked at his watch saying "I have to go Tanya gets back soon, can't have her waiting" he kissed me good-bye and telling the kids he's be back soon.
Two hours later
I don't know what Edward told Tanya but two hours after he left and I took the kids off to school someone knocked at my door loudly, I opened it a fraction to see Tanya standing there with a blank expression on her face "Bella can I come in?" she asked pushing past me "sure" I mumbled when I walked in after she turned around and snapped "so you've been spending time with my husband" I just nodded so she stepped forward and slapped me hard across the face I gasped and punched her in the mouth, she pounced on me pulling my hair and hitting me I punched her continually in the gut until she stopped so she pushed me as hard as she could (which was pretty hard) so I toppled over and fell onto my huge pure glass coffee table the last thing I felt was the soaring pain and hearing Alice 10 min later saying "OH MY GOD" but then the black took over and I went under…