I'M SOOOOO SORRY!! I know it's been a while! A long while! And I'm sorry! But, here, is what I hope will be a long chapter.
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!!
Edward POV:
Bella fell asleep in my arms. I stayed with her all night; when she woke up I would pretend I had fallen asleep, too. She seemed so peaceful in her sleep. She was so beautiful. It amazed me that she loved me, too. First of all, it was crazy anyone would fall in love with someone in one day. Second, it was crazy that her sub-conscious mind didn't pick up on the fact I was dangerous, or didn't care. Third, she was an angel; I was a demon. None of it made sense! But I was glad for it, it didn't have to make sense, I was just happy that I had her. I'd never been happier in my life. In two days she'd made me the happiest man on the planet. I was so lucky. I didn't deserve her.
"Edward." Bella mumbled. That's odd, I hadn't heard her heart speed up, to tell me she was awake. "I love you." She mumbled again and then shifted slightly in my arms. Then I realized she was sleep talking. She talked in her sleep! How adorable is that! I kissed the top of her head, she smelled liked strawberry shampoo, and of course, her blood was irresistible, but I didn't have the urge to suck her dry. Because, if I did, I would lose her, and that would be unbearable. " I love you, too."
I held her until she woke up. This time I heard her heart quicken. " Good morning." She looked up at me groggily, "Edward? What are you still doing here?"
"I fell asleep last night."
"When did you wake up?"
"About five minutes ago."
"Oh, okay." She sat up, and then she tried to stand up, but she tripped over a box of markers and nearly fell flat on her face. I caught her. "You okay?" I asked her worriedly. "Fine, thank you." I pulled her into a standing position. "Let's try that again, shall we. Good morning," I took her face in my hands and pressed my lips to hers. She took her hands from my chest and put them around my neck, as she continued to move her lips with mine. When she finally pulled away to breath she rested her head on my chest, I held it there with one hand and kept the other on her lower back. She wrapped her arms around my waist. We stayed like that for a few minutes, until she heard Rora coming down the stairs. I had heard earlier, but I didn't want to let her go.
When Rora finally made it down the stairs we were both in shock, she looked even more exhausted than yesterday. I saw Bella's eyes widen in worry, I'm sure mine did, too. But, Bella quickly covered her fear before Rora could notice. I followed suite. "Mommy? Edward?"
"Yes, sweetheart?" my Bella said as she walked over to her baby girl and pulled her into her arms. Rora rested her head on her mother's shoulder. She didn't say anything else; she just lay there in Bella's arms. She walked over to the couch and laid Rora against her chest and covered her with a blanket. I walked over and pulled the both of them into my arms, I wasn't sure how Rora would react to this, but she didn't do anything, she just lay there. She fell asleep again and when she did Bella went to go put her back upstairs in bed.
She came back downstairs with tears pooling in her eyes. I walked over and took her in my arms, she started sobbing. "Shhh, Bella. Shhh. She's going to be OK. Shhh," I whispered in her ear over and over. She calmed down after a few minutes. " E-dw-ard, I ca-n't lo-s-e he-r." she stuttered into my chest. "You're not going to, love. We're not going to lose her. She's staying right here," I knew she desperately wanted to believe me; she nodded into my chest. I pulled her face up to look at me and kissed the remaining tears away.
We laid back down on the couch, until Antoinette woke up crying. Bella went upstairs to get her. We were under the same status as we were last night, strawberry baby foodless. All we had was yams. It was no prettier than yesterday. When all of us were cleaned up again we went back into the living room. "Antoinette, come to mommy," we were trying to get her to walk. She stood up, made it two steps and fell again. She looked at her mother, and then back at me, then stood up and tried again. This time she got three steps. We did this for about an hour. We decided she had improved immensely. Bella tried to get her to talk, too, she had some distorted version of the word mommy in her vocabulary and it was the most adorable thing someone could ask for. We tried to get her to say Edward, we failed.
Around 1:00 pm Bella called Aurora's doctor about the test results on the new treatment. "What do you mean they're not ready?"
"We have to retest Aurora."
"Why?!"
"Because we want to make sure the first weren't correct," There was something about the way that sentence was worded that I didn't like.
"What do you mean, you want to make sure the first ones weren't correct? What were the results?!"
"Miss Swan-"
"What were the damn test results, Dr. Solomon?!"
"Negative. According to the ones we have here she won't respond," both of us froze.
"And if the new ones are different?"
"Then we'll do a third test to see which one was correct."
"What if the second's the same as the first?"
"Then she won't respond to the treatment," Bella stood there in shock for a few minutes before she responded.
"When do you want to retest her?" she said blankly.
"Tomorrow, if that's not to much trouble."
"No, tomorrow's fine. Thank you," she hung up. She turned to face me with the most devastated look I've ever seen. I pulled her into my arms as she started to sob. Where's Jasper when you need him?!
I had to leave that night after dinner. I didn't want to, but I knew that I couldn't stay forever, not yet. When I got home the family was waiting to ambush me, of course. "EDWARD!" Alice squealed.
" What Alice?"
"TELL ME EVERYTHING!"
"It's none of your business. Besides, you're psychic, you should already know."
" Edward, you know I don't see everything! SPILL!"
"No," the way she looked at me had me absolutely terrified for my car and my music collection. "Edward. Tell. Me. What. Happened." she commanded.
"I'll tell you later. I want to get out of these yam covered clothes," with that I walked out of that room, and ran into mine.
Bella POV:
I was outraged. "What do you mean they're not ready?" how could they not be ready?! "We have to retest Aurora," Now I was panicked and outraged.
"Why?!" this guy was crazy if he thought he wasn't going to tell me why my baby girl had to be retested! "Because we want to make sure the first weren't correct," because we want to make sure the first weren't correct?
"What do you mean, you want to make sure the first weren't correct? What were the results?!"
"Miss Swan-"
"What were the damn test results, Dr. Solomon?!" this guy was starting to piss me off.
"Negative. According to the ones we have here she won't respond," I froze and my breath caught. She won't respond. NO! SHE HAD TO! "And if the new ones are different?" I had to know there was hope, any hope.
"Then we'll do a third test to see which one was correct," a third test?
"What if the second's the same as the first?" this was extremely confusing to me.
"Then she won't respond to the treatment," my hope was desperately losing to the despair that was starting to settle in. I'm not sure how long I stood there, it could have been seconds, or years. "When do you want to retest her?" my voice was strangely monotone.
"Tomorrow, if that's not to much trouble."
"No, tomorrow's fine. Thank you," I hung up. When I turned around Edward pulled me into his arms and I sobbed into his chest. He didn't say anything really, just the occasional shhh, love.
He just held me until I had to make dinner for Rora. I washed my face first so if she woke up she wouldn't notice I was crying. Edward helped me cook dinner. Normally I wouldn't allow this, but right now I needed the help. I knew he would have to leave tonight. I wasn't sure if I was going to make it without him, I knew my peaceful sleep last night had everything to do with his arms around me. I loved him so much already. It felt like I'd known him my whole life, even though I'd only known him for 2 days. I hadn't thought it was possible for someone to fall in love in such a short time, but how could I doubt it now. Now that I had him, I knew I'd never be able to survive without him again. I needed him. I'd never felt this way before about anyone, not even my late husband. And I couldn't help but think, so this is what real love feels like. It was amazing, he made me so happy in a time of such despair. Having him made this whole ordeal almost bearable.
Rora barely ate anything, again. She went right to bed after that. Edward and me finally agreed on the baby food thing, I went to the store while he stayed with the sleeping angels. We had the right flavor so Antoinette ate just fine.
After dinner he went home. I took a shower and went to bed. I'd never had more tormented dreams. I was in a cemetery, it was raining and there was thunder. I was looking for the girls; I couldn't find them. I stumbled across a funeral. The casket was rather small. It was being lowered into the grave. I stood behind an old headstone, watching. They put the headstone on after the hole was filled in. Everyone left, except one man holding a little girl with brown hair, about a year, maybe. He turned around, I saw it was Edward holding Antoinette. His eyes were red; he looked so forlorn. He reached his hand out to me and motioned for me to come over to him. I walked over and he took my hand, he turned around and led me toward the freshly filled in grave. When I walked up to it I saw the name on the headstone I screamed. It read,
Aurora Rose Swan
December 24, 2004- December 2, 2008
Beloved daughter and granddaughter
God's angel on Earth delivered back to Heaven.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I woke up screaming. The sheets were sticking to me; I was drenched in sweat. My screaming turned into hysterics. I doubled over in bed. I'm not sure, it was kind of fuzzy, but I think I was trying to pull my hair out. I don't know how long I stayed there like that. But by the time I finally fell back asleep the sun had started to rise.
My alarm went off at 10:00am. Again. I got up and made breakfast for the girls. While Rora was eating and I was feeding Antoinette Edward called. I picked up on the second ring, desperate to hear his voice. I knew it was him. Nobody else I know gets up this early and I had already called Dr. Solomon. "Bella?" I knew he was asking-not if it was me- but how I was doing. "Edward," that seemed to be all he needed to hear. "I'm on my way. I'll be there in ten minutes," he hung up. I put the phone back on the receiver and put my head in my hands, then sat down, continuing to feed Antoinette, desperately waiting for Edward to get here.
Exactly ten minutes later the doorbell rang. I got up to get it. When I opened the door I was pulled into the arms of my love. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my head in his chest, letting a few tears escape. When he pulled back he looked at my face, he took my head in his hands and wiped away the tears, then pressed his lips to my forehead. I closed my eyes and let myself fall into him. "Edward?" I turned around to look at the angel in pajamas who had spoken. "Yes, sweetheart, it's me," he let go of me and picked her up. She laid her head on his shoulder and closed her eyes. He wrapped his arms and around her and turned to look at me. He took his hand from the back of her head and reached out to me. I walked forward and walked into his embrace. He held the two of us there for a few minutes. Then he took my hand and led me to the front room where Antoinette was playing in her playpen. He sat down on the couch and pulled me against the side of his chest not being occupied by my baby girl. We lay there for a few minutes, until Antoinette started to get angry at the attention that was not being directed at her. She humphed at us and gave us a pouty expression. We laughed and Edward let go of me so I could pick her up. When I had grabbed her Edward grabbed me and pulled me back down on the couch with him. And the four of us sat there together. And as desperate and hopeless I felt, in that moment, as Edward held me and Rora, and I held Antoinette, I felt as if everything was going to be alright.
A/N: That's not nearly as long as I had hoped. But, it felt like a nice place to end. I'm sorry it took so long to update. It's been really hectic around here. I'm actually surprised I haven't got any hate mail yet. I feel so horrible, and I promise to try to update more often. I can't guarantee of course. Especially when school starts again, but I promise to update as soon as possible. So if you don't hate me too much… REVIEW!!