OK guys… I really appreciate the reviews I do get, don't get me wrong, I really appreciate them. But I was looking at my stats today…and if I did the math right, I'm not sure, I'm more of a English/Literature girl but…I have 242 current readers, and 1188 hits, so since the first chapter I've lost about 168 readers. That's not the problem though, I could care less if people decided they didn't like it and stopped reading… but I only have 33 reviews total. So out of 242 people only 19 people reviewed (some people have reviewed multiple times). I'm not complaining, I'm glad any of you have reviewed. It's just it would be really nice of you guys to take five seconds of your time to tell me what you think, and I have no problem with criticism either. BELIEVE ME! IT'S WELCOME! I just would really appreciate your guys' opinion on the story. Now, I can't stand it when people say they're not going to update unless they get a certain amount of reviews. I'm not going to do that to you, my loyal readers, because, I'm guessing if you're reading this that you've read the other chapters as well (you know, common sense would tell you that). I probably won't mention it again, and if I do I'm sorry, I know you're not here to read my author's notes, and this one is really long. But I'm not sure if you guys understand how wonderful it feels to get a review…it's the BEST feeling! It's like…finding out your crush likes you or…or winning an award or something! No, wait… it would be like finding out vampires are real and Edward Cullen is in love with you! Or Jacob, if you you're on that side of the treaty line. I probably won't bother you with my feelings again but I just thought I'd let you know that the author is kind of shocked and a little (cough-a lot- cough) put out that you guys can't review. So… hint, hint…REVIEW!!
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT!! Or the characters in it, unfortunately that includes Edward, too. –sigh-
Edward POV:
Lying there with my three angels as they slept was the most wonderful feeling in the world. I was holding Bella and Aurora to my chest, and Bella was cradling Antoinette in her arms between the two of us, I could have stayed like that forever. They were all asleep. They were all so peaceful in their sleep. Bella was talking again, something about "family" and "daddy". I wasn't sure exactly what she was dreaming about, but whatever it was it seemed pleasant, she was smiling. She had the most beautiful smile. It was breathtaking. Even more so when I could see her eyes, beautiful, big chocolate brown eyes. And knowing I would get to look into them when she woke up was wonderful.
Antoinette was mumbling some random baby words; she was going to be like her mother. It was so cute. She looked just like her, too. More so than Aurora. She was going to be the spitting image of Bella.
Rora looked a lot like her mother, but not exactly like her. She had the same pale skin and brown eyes and hair, but her facial features were different. She looked like she was going to be taller, too. Still beautiful, though.
They were all beautiful…they were angels, my angels. I loved the three of them more than anything in the world.
Bella had set an alarm for herself to wake up for Rora's doctor's appointment. It went off at 2:00. The girls stayed asleep, though. "Bella?" I wasn't sure if she wanted me there, but I had a feeling she needed the support, and I was more than willing to give her that. "Yes, Edward?" she replied, a curious expression on her face.
"Do you want me to go with you?" I could see the shock on her face. "Would you like to come?" I could tell she didn't really believe me.
"Yes. If you'll let me, of course."
"I would like that," she said finally looking up. She smiled at me, it was a small smile, but it was happy one.
She woke up Aurora and as she got her ready, I held Antoinette. She was still asleep. While Bella was upstairs she woke up crying. At first I panicked, like anyone else would do. I wasn't human, but this was the closest I'd ever been to a baby, and I was panicking! I stood up and did the whole walk and bounce thing I'd heard in the minds of thousands of mother's that I'd always tried to tune out. I was now extremely thankful for their knowledge. She quieted down and looked up at me, and then she closed her eyes and curled into my chest, as if acknowledging the fact that I knew what I was doing. I smiled down at her and reveled in the fact she seemed not to see me as a total idiot. Antoinette fell back asleep after that, and it felt good to know I wasn't a complete failure at this.
"You're good with her," I looked up to see my beautiful Bella smiling at me with the sleeping Rora in her arms. "Thanks, I still have a long way to go, though," I smiled back. Bella looked down again, "You really don't mind doing this, I mean you don't care I have 2 kids?" she sounded unsure and vulnerable and scared. I walked over too her and pushed her chin up so I could look into her eyes. They were just as scared and unsure as her voice was. "Bella, don't be absurd. There is nothing I'd rather do than help you raise them. I love them, too, Bella. And if you'll let me, I like to be a father to them," now I was the nervous one, scared that she'd say no. Her face lit up in a breathtaking smile that, if I had a beating heart, would have made it stop. "Yes. Yes, Edward. Yes," there were tears in her eyes and her voice was shaky, but shaky with joy and she was crying of happiness. I could see the love in her eyes as stood on her toes to kiss me. I smiled against her lips as I took my hand from under her chin, put behind her neck and pulled her closer. When I pulled away I pulled her to my chest. We stayed there for a few minutes, until we had to leave.
I had made her agree that I could drive. So I put the car seats in the back. Both the girls were asleep. I couldn't drive fast, that would scare all three of them. So I stayed exactly on the speed limit, which was torture for me, but my angles were more important than my need to drive fast.
When we got there Rora woke up. I jumped up to get Bella's door, she looked kind of shocked, but flattered just the same. We pulled the girls out of the car seats and started walking towards the hospital. "Mommy? Where are we?" Rora's voice was thick with sleep. Bella looked somewhat nervous as she replied, "Sweetie, were here to see Dr. Solomon." Why she was nervous I couldn't imagine. Then I saw the look on Rora's face, and realized exactly why she would be. "NO! Mommy I don't wanna!" she had tears in her eyes and she tried to pull away from her mother. "Sweetie, shhh it's okay. Mommy is gone be right there, okay," Bella looked like she wanted to cry, too. "MOMMY! NO!" she was sobbing now. Bella held her to Rora's head to her shoulder and tried to get her to calm down. "Sweetheart, it's going to be OK. Both your mommy and I will be there," I put my hand on the back of her head. She turned to look at me tears in her eyes, "I don't wanna go!" she cried and continued sobbing. I knew why she was so scared, this test was probably a blood test, and if I was 3 and not a vampire, I would probably be scared of a needle that big, too. "We're going to be right there, Aurora. I promise," she looked at me again and she couldn't doubt he sincerity in my voice. She sniffled and nodded. At least she trusted me. She reached her arms out to me and I traded angels with Bella. She held Antoinette and I held the now, somewhat calm, Aurora.
I worked in the hospital with Carlisle, so I knew where everything was. I was 26 when I was changed, I could pass for a senior in highschool. But after one hundred years, highschool got rather tedious. So I walked straight to the floor set aside for cancer patients. "How did you know where to go?" asked a rather confused looking Bella. "I'm a doctor, I work in the hospital with my adopted father," she looked intrigued and an expression crossed her beautiful face as she realized there was still so much she didn't know about me. I didn't know a lot about her either, but I planned on spending the rest of her life, maybe longer, maybe, finding out. It's not that I didn't want to spend forever with her, I just wasn't sure I could damn her like that; I loved her to much to do that to her, yet to much to be without her. It was an uncompromisable need. "What do you do?" I wanted to know and this seemed like a good place to start, not the hospital, I mean the conversation. "I'm a writer," she gave me a small smile. "I'm sure you're an excellent writer," I smiled at her lovely face.
"Why, Mr. Cullen! You haven't even asked me what I write!" she said in mock outrage. I laughed, "How rude of me, Miss Swan. Pray, do tell me, what do you write?"
"Well, sir, with the way you've acted you'd be lucky if I ever spoke to you again," still playing with me, I could see the amusement in her eyes. "You're right, I don't deserve a thing from you, but if you could be so kind as to forgive me, and tell me what it is you write I would be most grateful," I said somberly. Aurora was watching this little show go down and her expression ranged from incredulousness and wicked amusement. She giggled at us as our show continued. "Well, Mr. Cullen, seeing as you asked so nicely it would appear I am obliged to meet your request."
"You're not obliged to do anything, Miss Swan."
"Stop trying to talk me out of telling you, because if you are successful you'll never hear it."
"Well then, I'll stop."
"I write period romance novels."
"Well you will have to let me read them some time, Miss Swan."
"Oh, I'm sorry Mr. Cullen, but I believed you've used up all your favors," she smiled at me, just as amused as I was. "Why, Miss-"
"Miss Swan?" called a man's voice we both turned to look at a man with blonde hair in a white lab coat. "Dr. Solomon," so than this Aurora's doctor. "We're ready for you if you'd like to come back here with me," She nodded and motioned for me to follow her.
We were lead into a room with white walls and stainless steel counter with paper on top of it. I'd never spent much time on this floor, but you'd think that they would make the floor for child cancer patients slightly more comfortable, and less scary and cold. "You can sit Aurora down on the table please," I nodded and tried to put her down but she wouldn't let go. "Sweetheart it's going to be OK," she shook her head and I sighed. "Aurora, I promise you, I'm staying right here. I'm not leaving," I whispered in her ear. She turned her head to look at me, and her expression broke my heart she was so scared. There was pure terror on her face and tears in her eyes. "Aurora Rose, I promise you I'm staying right here, your mother is staying right here. We're not going anywhere," the doctor was wondering who I was, and why I looked familiar. I would have answered, but I was far to preoccupied with making Aurora calm down. She looked at me with those big, brown eyes that were now filled with tears, "But its hurts." "I know, sweetheart. I know, but I'll be here the whole time, OK," she still looked scared to death, but she nodded reluctantly. The blood shouldn't be a problem; I was around it a lot at the hospital. The only reason I'd had a problem with Bella's is because it's so revoltingly exquisite. I sat her down on the table and held her hand. Bella stood close behind me holding the still sleeping Antoinette. One of her hands was reached out towards Rora's shoulder. Dr. Solomon was cleaning her arm with the swab of alchahol. Rora was turning into my side, "Aurora, don't move okay," Dr. Solomon was putting the needle in the syringe. She turned her head to look at and she jerked away before he could get any closer. "Aurora, you can't move, if you move while I'm trying to take the blood you could get hurt," I knew he was just trying to get her to calm down, but he was doing a very horrible job, infact it would appear he was just making things worse. "Sweetheart," I kneeled down in front of her, "don't move okay, just close your eyes. It's going to OK," she tried to nod. I stood up and she buried her had in my side again, I rubbed soothing circles on her back hoping she would calm down; being tense wasn't going to lessen the pain at all.
Dr. Solomon was finished with the syringe. He took her arm and put the needle in her vain. She let out a small cry; I could tell how hard it was for her not to move. When the doctor pulled the now full syringe of blood out of her arm she let out another cry. He cleaned the spot where the needle had gone in and then put a band-aid over it. "There, all done," she looked up at him with tear filled eyes and then snatched her arm away. To tell you the truth, Dr. Solomon and his thoughts were extremely uncompassionate for a doctor. She held her arms up to me; I picked her up and held her head to my shoulder as she started crying again. "Shhh, it's okay, Aurora it's over, okay, it's over," I was trying to calm her down. Bella's expression was heartbroken, as I'm sure was mine. That was the most horrible, heartbreaking, soul shattering thing I'd ever experienced. I felt horrible for Bella who had already done this twice.
"Miss Swan, you'll be receiving the results in about a month," I could hear them from the waiting room, Bella was in his office. "A month?! What the hell do you mean a month?! She could be worse in a month! She might not respond in a month!" I could hear the anger in her voice. "We want to make sure we do this right. We could be done sooner, it just depends," he sounded extremely unattached. "Depends on what?!" she was going to lose it. "On how many other tests we have to run," he still sounded unattached, and I'm sad to say, his thoughts were annoyed. "Tests you have to run?! You can't even run another test on her until you finish this one!" now I was extremely worried she was going to lose it, yet wishing she would just kill this bastard already. "I meant tests on other children, Miss Swan," she wasn't talking. "Tests on the other children," her voice was low, and it was furious. "Yes, Miss-," the door to the office burst open and she walked out carrying Antoinette. She started walking to the door. "Oh, and Dr. Solomon," she turned about face and I almost ran into her. "Yes?" he looked shocked and his thoughts confirmed that. "I'll be expecting those results soon," with that she turned and stormed out of the office. "Bella. Bella, wait," I grabbed her arm and spun her around; There were tears in her eyes. "Bella, it's going to be fine. She is going to be fine," she started sobbing; I kissed the top of her head, put my arm around her shoulder and led her to the car.
I put the girls in there car seats and helped Bella get in. I held her hand as we drove home. When we got there I put the sleeping girls upstairs and held Bella on the couch as she cried. "Shhh, love, everything's going to be okay," I rubbed circles on her back and held her head to my chest, wishing more than anything I could cry with her, have some sort of outlet for this. "I h-a-a-t-e s-e-e-in-g he-r in pain," her voice broke at the end. "I know, love, I know," I just held her while she calmed down. She stopped crying eventually, and we just lay there. Aurora came down around 7:00 saying she was hungry. Bella got up to make her dinner, and I went to help. I would have done it myself, but I don't know how to cook. After that she went back to sleep and Bella fed Antoinette when she woke up. We lay back down again, we didn't talk, but the silence was comfortable. She fell asleep around 9:30 and I carried her upstairs to her room. I tucked her in and kissed her forehead. I sat in the chair in the corner watching her sleep all night. When she started to wake up I ran down stairs and went into the kitchen. I heard her coming downstairs. "Edward?" she sounded groggy. "In here," she turned the corner and smiled at me, I smiled back. I got up and walked over to her, "How did you sleep?"
"Good. You?"
"Extremely well," I smiled at her again. I took her face in my hands and pressed my lips to hers. Her arms went around my neck and her fingers laced in my hair. My hands went to her waist as I picked her up and sat her on the counter. Her legs wrapped around my waist and she leaned into me. When she pulled away to breath, she wasn't the only one out of breath.
A/N: That was kind of a weird ending to a chapter. But it had to stop there. The next chapter should be up soon. I'm going to try to write it before I go back to my dad's house because I have to work on my summer homework. I know, I know, you have summer homework? Yes, unfortunately I do, I go to private school, and their under the ludicrous impression that if we don't do summer homework we'll forget everything we learn. I already finished the book they gave us and the English work. But, I have math left. I. Hate. Math. So I have to finish it before I get back to my mom's house. So hopefully you'll have a new chapter soon.