Fear is The Enemy
By: L.Is.Cool
CHAPTER NINE
Disclaimer: Okay. Right now, as I'm typing this, I'm very upset. I've got to wear these stupid rubber bands on my teeth and I'm not liking them at all! (cry's out in frustration) There. I'm done. Sorry about that. Anywho, I've been trying to update but I'm kinda off on time. Halloween is coming up and my parent wants to spend more time with me. But the fanfic must go on!! I own nothing. Just my mind and trust me, you do not want to go in there! A song inspired this chapter. 'Whisper in the Dark'. Coolest song ever. Enjoy!
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'Well this is weird.' Light looked away from his laptop and to the sleeping detective next to him. Normally, L was the one staying up working while Light tried to get some sleep. But things were anything but normal now. L was curled up, knees to his chin, surrounded with blankets. Light felt a small pang of pity for the man. Before he fell sleep, L made Light promise not to leave during the night. Though Light knew it was impossible for him to leave due to the handcuffs, he promised L that he wouldn't leave. He found it strange that L would forget this simple logic, it wasn't like him. Then again, L was acting less and less like himself every minute.
Light turned back to his laptop and started to type, determination filling him. He needed to figure out what was wrong with L. And fast. If the Investigation Team knew about L's outbursts, they may decide to take him out of the case, which would make it even harder to find the real Kira and bring him to justice. So Light was alone on this. He couldn't tell the Team. He'd have to figure out what was wrong with L by himself.
Light stopped typing an looked over what he'd just written. He'd decided to first get all of L's visible symptoms down so that it would be easier to research them. "Afraid to be alone, afraid of anger, tremors..." Light sighed and rubbed his eyes, the soft glow of the laptop making his skin seem pale. He had a bad feeling about that information. Though it gave him a small comfort that the reason for L's actings could be simply Psychological, the comfort was short live. But Light would be one hundred percent sure before he jumped to anything. 'But if I'm right about this, we could be dealing with something very serious.'
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L didn't dream. Or at least, he never remembered his dreams, which to L, was a good thing. Even though it was a proven fact that dreaming was the brains way of storing certain information and ridding the mind of unnecessary junk, L still found sleep and dreaming a waste of his time. But L had to admit that, thanks to his outburst earlier, he was tired. It came as surprise when, the moment Light promised not to leave and his head hit the pillow, L found himself instantly asleep. It was more of a surprise when the older man opened his black eyes to see not the bedroom, but a different room, one made entirely out of metal.
Oddly, L didn't feel surprised that he was in a room made of metal. In fact, he felt quite safe, laying on the cool metal floor. He then noticed that he wasn't laying on metal at all but on a white blanket that felt amazing. L's dream-self sighed with contentment as he snuggled further into the blanket. He felt so safe. 'But wait,' L's logical-self thought. 'Something's not right.' L raised his head and looked over to the far left corner of the metal room. Misa was sitting in it. And to L's dismay, she was holding a huge, snapping black cobra. It's red eyes gleamed dangerously.
Misa herself didn't seem afraid of the snake wrapped around her arms. In fact, she held absolutely no emotion at all. Her eyes were blank and her frilly pink dress covered most of her body. The snake seemed to glare at L, it's large fangs gleaming with poison. L tried to get up and away from Misa and the snake but was alarmed to find that he couldn't sit up or move off of the blanket. 'What?' "L." L turned his head to the far right corner of the room and was relived to see Light. He was standing in the corner, smiling at L. In his hands, a silver fawn lay in absolute bliss, nuzzling Light's collar. L found himself smiling back at Light and, despite Misa's snake, L started to feel calm again and he layed back on his blanket. Light held up the fawn slightly towards L, his eyes glowing with an emotion that L couldn't describe. "Her names Martie." Light smiled down at the fawn and in return, the fawn nuzzled Light chin.
Suddenly, a hiss was heard behind L and when the detective turned around, the snake was right next to his head, glaring hatefully at him. "Ssshe isss unable to sssee that worssse lay ahead." (A/N: Snake talk! ) L whimpered softly in fear and in a vain attempt to escape the snake's piercing gaze, he curled up more tightly into his blanket. The snake seemed amused at L. "Yesss. Try and flee." The snake moved closer to L and his crimson eyes seemed to glow. "You'll alwasssy be alone." L closed his eyes tightly and tried to call Light for help. "Raito-kun!"
But when L opened his eyes and turned back to his only friend, he was gone, as well as the silver fawn. L felt a painful pang in his chest. He was alone. The snake and Misa were gone as well, leaving L alone in the metal room. "No," L whispered, his hands clutching at metal, finding that his white blanket was gone too. "I don't want to be alone! I can't!" Tears stung L's eyes and he started to scream. "Raito-kun! I don't want to be alone! Raito-kun!" L grasped the sides of his head and felt his tears begin to fall. "RAITO-KUN!!"
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"Angrophobia." Light read the description out loud. "Fear of anger or becoming angry." He read the next one that came up on his search. "Autophobia. Fear of being alone." Light then turned to his other information. "Symptoms of Phobias: Shortness of breath, shaking or trembling, accelerated heart rate." Light sighed. Though he'd have to ask L about some of the other symptoms, he had to admit that his research sounded a lot like L. Light wasn't a psychologist, but he was positive that he now knew what was wrong with L. "You have Angrophobia L." Light closed his laptop and set it on the end table next to the bed. "And Autophobia." Light sighed again. "How can we fix that?"
"Raito-kun..." Light jerked his head up at the whisper and turned towards L, thinking the man was awake. "L?" But it was plain to see that L was still sleeping. Even so, he was shifting and sweating. His face contorted in pain and again he whispered, "Raito-kun..." As L called out Light's name, Light suddenly felt...funny. That was the only way Light could describe it. A funny feeling. But he didn't have time to further investigate this sudden feeling. L was now trashing in his sleep, moaning loudly. "Raito-kun!" Light reached out and gently placed a hand on L's shoulder. "L. Wake up. You're dreaming." But this didn't seem to work. Suddenly, L's eyes shot open and he screamed, "RAITO-KUN!"
Light drew back his hand, auburn eyes wide, surprised by L's scream. L jerked to a sitting position, turning to Light, his onyx eyes wild and with a sob, he grabbed Light arms. "I don't want to be alone! Please Raito-kun, I don't want to be alone!" "L, relax. It's okay. You just had a nightmare." This also didn't work and Light was in for another surprise when he saw tears felling down L's face. "Don't leave Raito-kun! Please!" Light's heart cried out at the sight of L's tears. That funny feeling was growing. With every tear that fell down L's face, the feeling seemed to multiply. L was shaking violently, his back heaving from his sobs. His skin was paler than normal, his eyes wild and his grip was unmovable. Light couldn't take it any more. It was so frustrating, not being able to help L. Light had to stop this fear induced attack.
So, with that new feeling pushing him forward, Light did the only thing that came to mind. He shook L's grip off, which caused the man to freak out even further, thinking he upset Light. But before L could start apologizing for making Light angry, he was cut off by two strong and firm arms wrapping themselves around his waist. Light pulled L close to him, pressing his hands against his boney back, holding him to his chest. L froze, not knowing how to react to this new side of Light. This embrace was very unlike the younger man. Could it be Kira trying to get close? Light smiled softly. "Calm down L. It's alright. I'm not mad." L's tears were still falling and he slowly looked up at Light timidly. Light's smile grew. "It's okay." "Don't leave." L's voice held the same sense of urgency that filled his voice earlier that day, when he'd talked to Misa.
Apparently not caring who was giving the embrace, Light or Kira, L pulled his arms inward, pressing them again Light's chest and, grabbing fistfuls of his shirt, buried his face into Light's shoulder. "Don't leave," he repeated. "I don't want to be alone." Light knew that simple logic wouldn't work on L, like it normally would. L wanted Light to stay and Light knew that he would stay. How could he just leave L in this state of mind? But it was that exact state of mind that prevented L from understanding that Light wouldn't leave him, that he wouldn't be left alone. It was that simple. But L didn't need logic right now. He needed comfort. So Light tightened his grip on L and sighed softly as he felt shiver run down the man's spine. "You'll never be alone L. I promise, I'll always be here."
L wanted so badly to believe the younger man. Light's words and promises were completely illogical. L had to be alone sometimes, he knew this. But for the moment, L didn't care. For the first time in a long while, he didn't try to look at things logically. He just wanted...to not be afraid. So L let out his own shaky sigh and started to relax in Light's embrace. "I'm here L. And I won't leave. I promise. I won't leave." L closed his eyes as the last of his tears dried up, completely at ease. "Raito-kun..." Light began to rock slightly, trying to lull L back to sleep. He needed it. "It's alright L. I'm here. Go back to sleep." L tried to hide his yawn and snuggled closer to Light chest. "Stop talking to me as if I were a child."
Light's funny feeling was back. His stomach was doing flips. But he had to focus on L. So after a moment, Light stopped rocking to find L asleep again. He chuckled softly. "I can't help it L. You act so childish sometimes." But when Light tried to release L's grip on his shirt, he found that L's grip was stone. Light sighed but made no move to wake L up. He looked too peaceful. So Light layed back down on the bed, L sleeping in his arms. L mumbled something incoherent and Light felt a small smile reach his lips. "No more nightmare, okay L?" Light felt his eye start to close and soon, he too was asleep. And for that night at least, the two were at peace.
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A/N: Finally! That was a little difficult. Anywho, I hope you guys liked it! It's one in the morning, I can't feel my left foot and I think I'm starting to see things thanks to my three Red Bulls. Whoo!! (hands out cookies) Cookies for all!! Chapter Ten coming soon! Review please and tell me what I need to work on! Flames are welcomed!! See ya!!