Fear is The Enemy
By: .Cute
CHAPTER TEN

Disclaimer: (sighs happily) I loved writing Chapter Nine. I really did. Even if L was totally off character. ^_^ I hoped you guys all like my little Halloween One-shot, even if it was a little early. So, anywho, on with the fic! I own nothing but my mind and my Death Note T-shirts. ^_^ How I love them so! Enjoy!

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L wasn't the only one having a rough night. Misa Amane was also curled up on her bed, sobbing her heart out. "Light...I'm so scared..." Misa slowly looked up, facing her room. Her many posters seemed to be mocking her, teasing her. Misa let out another loud wail and threw herself onto her pillow. "What's going on with me?!" 'One second I'm just having a cup of coffee, talking with Aziz. And the next thing I know, I'm back in my room and it's nighttime!' A large chunk of Misa's day was missing. Lost time. Even Misa noticed the good five or six hours were missing. Misa let out yet another sob, this one muffled by her pillow. "Light..." Misa wanted to call Light. She wanted to hear his voice and tell him her worries, her fears. She wanted him to tell her that everything was fine and that she was acting silly.

But...whenever Misa reached for her phone, a cruel voice of doubt would stop her. 'Light will probably think you're crazy. He won't believe you.. He'll never want to see you again if you tell him.' So Misa didn't call Light, despite her growing terror. She just clutched her cell phone to her chest, as if it alone could sooth her racing heart. She needed to talk to someone, anyone. Just, someone who will listen to her and leaned comfort. But if she couldn't call Light, then who could she call? That voice of doubt was back but instead of pushing her down, it offered her comfort. 'Call Aziz. He'll listen to you. Call him.' Misa found herself nodding to herself, the mere fact of someone there for her giving her strength. 'Yeah....I'll call Aziz...he'll listen.' So Misa released her death grip on her cell phone and dialed the number, her hands shaking. Aziz answered on the third ring.

"Hello?" Misa gave out a sigh of relieve, happy to hear Aziz's voice. "Aziz? It's Misa." "Oh. Hey Misa. How are you?" Misa's muscles started to unwind as she talked. "I'm okay. I just wanted to talk to someone." "Well, it's almost midnight Misa. Is everything alright?" "Oh yeah. Everything's fine!" Everything was fine. Why was Misa so afraid again? She couldn't remember. She had no reason to be afraid. She was safe, talking to Aziz. "Misa?" "Yeah?" "Sam Farner." Misa's mind went blank, her grip went slack and she nearly dropped to cell phone. "I'm listening." "He liked the stars..." "He wanted to be an astronaut." Now, her instructions. Misa must listen to the instructions. It was the law. She must obey. "Misa, I need a favor." "What favor?"

"We'll get to that in a minute Misa. I'm tired of working through you. Lately, you've been showing signs of disobedience and we can have that now can we?" "Can we?" Aziz laughed. "No we can't. Maybe you're acting out of line due to your lack of intelligence but who really knows. And I don't have time to observe your behavior." Static sounded on the phone as Aziz sighed. "Our time is coming to an end Puppet." Misa didn't feel any fear or sorrow at Aziz's words. Her sub-conscious was too dulled down by Aziz's control to feel anything. "But Puppet, let's not focus on our problems now. We'll save that for later. Right now, I need to make this game a little more interesting."

Misa sat on her bed, waiting. "First, Misa, I want you to go to the nearest bookstore to your apartment in the morning, around ten o' clock. I want you to buy a book called 'False Memory.' Tell me if you understand." "I understand." Aziz continued. "After you buy the book, I want you to take it to the Kira Investigation Headquarters. Give it to one of the investigators and tell them that it's a gift to L. Tell them you saw it in the bookstore window and that you felt bad about the way you've been treating him so you bought him the book. Make sure that the book will reach L. Tell me if you understand." "I understand." "Good, "Aziz purred. "Now, I need a phone number Misa..."

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When L opened his eyes, he was quite surprised to find himself laying on Light Yagami's chest, his pale fists full of the man's white t-shirt. 'Why...' The memory of the night before suddenly came rushing back and L's face flushed with embarrassment. He'd acted so foolish. L did not feel fear. Nor did he cling to his main suspect like a frightened child. L wasn't like that.. He didn't let his emotions control him. L was logical, unemotional, unmoving. He wouldn't let his emotions control him. So he released his death grip on Light's shirt and moved off his chest. He laid on his side of the bed for a moment before moving to get up. But before he could move, a hand on his shoulder stopped him. "L..."

L's blush of embarrassment deepened. He had not known that Light was awake. Fortunately, when L spoke, his voice was much less shaky than before. "Good morning Raito-kun. I'm afraid we'll have to hurry and get dressed. It's already seven in the morning which means we've overslept. We need..." "We need to talk." Even though L was laying away from Light, he could still picture in his mind Light's face as he spoke. Serious and firm. 'He wants to discuss last night's events.' But L didn't want to talk. His behavior last night was too embarrassing, too painful. Too frightening. 'You do not feel fear,' he remined himself. 'You've already trained yourself to block your fears, to bury them, to lock them away. So lock them away!'

A small voice, smooth and terrifying, entered his mind. 'But if you don't talk, he'll be angry at you.' Terror stabbed at L's heart, his black eyes going wide. 'He'll leave you. He'll leave you all alone. And then you'll die. All alone.' L clenched his eyes shut and curled into a small ball on the bed. 'Shut up! I've never let fear or any other emotion rule over my train of thought and I won't let you control me! There is no reason to fear Raito-kun's anger. Anger alone is not able to harm me and I certainly will not die just because I'm alone. Also, Raito-kun can not leave because the handcuffs prevent it!' 'He'll still leave! You'll still die! Make him mad and you die alone! Make him mad and you'll die alone! What choice do you have L?!'

Light felt a small tremble run through L's body. He could feel it in the man's boney shoulders. Light understood why. L didn't want to talk about the previous night and he was afraid to argue with Light about it, afraid that he'll become angry if he refuses to talk. Light's grip on L's shoulders went tighter, trying to comfort the detective. "It's alright L. I won't be angry." 'I don't believe you,' L suddenly thought. 'I can't.' He wanted to believe that Light would understand and not lash out in anger. Though Light was still a suspect in the Kira case, L wanted truly to trust him. But he couldn't. The small voice of doubt and fear had won. L's spirits hit an all time all time low and with a sigh, L mumble, "Alright Raito-kun. What would you like to discuss?"

Light sat up from the bed and looked over at L who was still laying on the bed. The way he was curled up so tightly, Light knew that his suspected Angrophobia was the thing preventing L from arguing. But even though it hurt Light to see L in such a state but the logical part of him knew that he could use the phobia to get L some help. So he started to talk "I want to discuss want happened last night L. The panic attacks you seem to be having...I searched up some information last night and I think I have a good idea of what's wrong with you." L sat up as well, and faced Light, his black eyes tired looking besides his sleep. "Please explain Raito-kun." "I'm not a psychiatrist and I don't claim to know exactly what's wrong, but I think you're suffering from a phobia called Angrophobia." L raised his eyebrows. "Angrophobia?"

Light nodded and grabbed his laptop from the foot of the bed. "I have it all saved on here." He opened it and while it started up, L moved closer to him for a better view. Oddly, his stress level lowered slight as he moved closer to Light. 'Strange.' "Here." L took the laptop from Light and read all the side effects of Angrophobia, as well as Autophobia. Finally, after a few moments, L gave the laptop back to Light. Everything on the symptoms list matched L completely, right down to the dotted I's and crossed T's. L's face was unemotional as he mumbled, "There is a seventy five percent chance that you are correct Raito-kun. I may actually have this phobia. The second one as well." Light blinked. He certainly expected a different reaction than that, even from someone like L. Telling someone that they have a life changing phobia wasn't everyday conversation.

Then Light noticed L gripping his knees so tightly that his knuckles were white as snow and that his body was shaking slightly. L was trying to keep his emotions under control. He was trying not to show his fears. But Light understood. He reached over and placed his hand on L's shoulder. "L, I know that the evidence is very compelling but we can't know for sure unless we see a professional about this." He tried to look L in the eye but L kept his gaze down. "You need to see a psychologist L. And soon because I don't know how much more of this stress you can handle." L nodded to himself more than to Light. "I'd have to agree with you Raito-kun. I'll have an appointment set for later this week..." "No L." Light grabbed L's other shoulder and turned him so that they were facing each other. "Not later this week. Now. Today."

Light felt another tremble race through L's body and he realized that he had spoken to harshly. "Sorry L. It's just that I really think that you should see someone today. The faster we know what's wrong, the faster we can fix it. I'm not angry." L took in a breath, cleared his throat and made an attempt to get back in control. "Fine Raito-kun. I'll arrange from an appointment with a psychologist for later this morning." Light nodded, seemingly happy with this arrangement. "Okay. Now, what are we going to tell the Investigation Team?" L raised his thumb to his lips for a moment then said, "We'll tell them that you're on a date with Amane-san." L released his grip on his knees and finally moved off the bed. "We must get ready Raito-kun. We leave in half an hour."

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Light stared out the tinted windows of the limousine, seeing everything that passed by but himself begin invisible. He glanced at L, who was sitting in his usual position, enjoying a banana split sundae. "Did Watari ask why we're going to the doctors?" "No. I told Watari that Raito-kun needs a check up." Light shrugged. "Whatever." He really didn't care. They needed to get L to someone who could help and if L had to lie, then L had to lie. It's not like he hadn't do it before.

Suddenly, Light's cell phone started ringing. Forgetting it was on, Light jumped slightly when it rang and sighed impatiently. It was probably Misa calling to annoy him and he had more important things on his mind right now. So without looking at the caller ID, Light answered it. "Hello?" "Dustin Rhodes." Light's eyes went blank and his voice went dull. "I'm listening." Aziz smirked on the other line. "I know you are Light Yagami."

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A/N: Finally!! I finished this! I'm so sorry for not updating for so long, really I am. But I'm back and I'm working on Chapter Eleven right now. ^_^ So yeah, see you soon! Good night!!